17. Daoqing has a heart, and the past, nothing can be taught to hate

After asking Lian Xiao to hang Li Han's life for the time being, Pei Nianyu didn't close his eyes almost all night.

Such a heavy human life is now hanging in his hands, and with such a close person, how can he make a decision at will.

There were so many things he didn't expect.He didn't expect that Lou Yefeng would inadvertently cause an accident and directly kick Li Han to the point of death.He didn't expect that Li Han had a deep affection for Xiao Sheng, and he didn't dare to say it out loud.

Killing such a person also meant erasing all the old friendship between them at the same time. Pei Nianyu really couldn't bear it-so when he saw Li Han's situation, he would subconsciously save his life first.

But he knew what Lou Yefeng said, "It's time to make a decision".It's not just about letting him live or let him die, he never really wanted to kill Li Han.

What Lou Yefeng really meant was to let him decide his attitude towards Li Han.

To forgive, or not to forgive.

If he can't let go of what he did to Li Han in the past, even if he saves Li Han's life, the grudge will be hard to get rid of.It doesn't make any sense to decide to let him go just because he "can't bear to kill him".

Pei Nianyu tossed and turned all night, trying to find something else to support her decision.

After thinking about it all night to no avail, Pei Nianyu got up early the next morning with two dark circles under his eyes.

He was in a dilemma, so he was going to ask other people's opinions.

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The three people closest to him were involved in this incident, not to mention Lou Yefeng and Li Han, let alone Xiao Sheng.So Pei Nianyu had to settle for the next best thing and approached He Qi.

He avoided Lou Yefeng and secretly went to He Qi:

"Commander He Da, come, come and give you a day off today, let me ask you a question."

"Master, just ask."

"Well...it's like this. If there is a person you have had a good friendship with, but suddenly find that he has hurt you and done things that are sorry to you. What would you do? Would you want to kill him, orForgive him?"

After asking Pei Nianyu, I realized later that I was talking about Pei Nianzhen. It seemed that I was asking the right person.

Sure enough, He Qi also thought of Pei Nianzhen first:

"His words... Sigh. First of all, I can't kill him. Whether it's his former prince status or your master's brother, killing him will bring huge trouble."

"Secondly, my family members are already dead. Even if I kill him, I can't get them back. He is also a poor man, so... Forget it, let it be."

Pei Nianyu nodded thoughtfully.In essence, Old He couldn't really do anything to Pei Nianzhen. He didn't want to betray himself as his master, so he could only "just leave it at that."

"Master, could it be that what you want to ask is... Li Han?"

Pei Nianyu nodded.

He Qi was in a bit of a dilemma: "Your relationship with Li Han is somewhat known to my subordinates, but I really don't know how Li Han offended you. His identity is very different from that of the master. The masterEven if you kill him, you don't have to worry about it."

"...Well, I'll think about it myself."

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Pei Nianyu's next target is Pei Nianzhen.

Pei Nianzhen is busy with He Yanjun recently, he is not in the mansion, and he doesn't care about the gossip of the palace.So after Pei Nianyu asked him exactly the same thing, he didn't know who he was talking about.

Pei Nianzhen's old god was there, and he finally felt a little like "a brother like a father":

"It's rare to see the fourth brother look so indecisive."

"Haven't I always been indecisive?"

"But I think it's easy to forgive others with the heart of the fourth brother, let alone someone who has friendship. If the fourth brother is so embarrassed that he wants to ask me, an outsider, it can be seen that the harm he has done to you really makes you unable to let go."

Pei Nianyu nodded sadly thinking of the memory of being tortured by the peach blossom gu when he was young.

Pei Nianzhen said:

"If that's the case, then just kill him. If you can hurt someone like you, it can be seen that the other party must be a big villain. You only have so-called affection for him because you haven't seen his face clearly."

"I say that because... I am such a person myself. Fourth brother, your brother and I are not a good person. Naturally, I know how many damn things I have done, and how many innocent souls should ask for my life."

"He Qi should have killed me, but unfortunately he didn't. So when I see him now, I always feel ashamed. If the fourth brother doesn't clean him up, he'll be done with it."

Pei Nianyu: "..."

He wanted to say, no, Li Han is not such a person, although what he did was very bad, but, but...

However, when he thought about it, Pei Nianzhen didn't know anything, so he had to prepare to leave.

Before leaving, Pei Nianyu asked him a question:

"By the way, what is the whereabouts of your former shadow guard commander?"

A look of sadness appeared on Pei Nianzhen's face:

"Dead, died in that palace change, in order to protect me, he was shot with arrows and died in battle."

"...Sorry. Did you miss him after that?"

"Sometimes. He is very good and has helped me a lot. If he was not with me, but you two brothers, he would have survived. It was my fault that caused him to die."

Pei Nianyu thought, my shadow head almost died, and Xiao Sheng's shadow head is also dying now.

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Pei Nianyu met Jiang Xue on the way back to Hanqiu Pavilion, so he took the opportunity to grab her and asked the same question.

However, Jiang Xue looked at him with a pair of blank eyes:

"Master, this subordinate has never met anyone who can hurt me or offend me... because no one can beat me..."

Pei Nianyu was angry:

"If! I mean if!"

Jiang Xue's eyes became even more bewildered.

Pei Nianyu was discouraged:

"...Forget it, I shouldn't have asked you."

He swore that it was the most failed decision he had ever made in his life to ask this little girl of the age of a high school student such life questions of love and hatred.

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So Pei Nianyu turned to Lian Xiao, who was best at this kind of problem.

However, after asking, Lian Xiao looked at him in disbelief:

"Master... Your Peach Blossom Gu, could it be Li Han's?"

Pei Nianyu jumped up from his chair.

"How did you guess it!"

Lian Xiao spread his hands:

"Before I guessed that the master had been infected with this peach blossom Gu, and you admitted it yourself. Later, Li Han had an accident, and I prepared the pill. I guarded him in the prison, and now he is in the mansion like this..."

"It's not normal if you can't guess."

Pei Nianyu admired his scheming, so he had to admit it.

"In that case..."

Lian Xiao brought over the small medicine scale that he dispensed and weighed, which looked like a balance.He grabbed two handfuls of kudzu root cubes and placed them on both sides.

"Master, although the feelings of this person cannot be measured by scales, there are still degrees of importance. Master, if you think about it carefully, is your old affection for Li Han more important, or—"

Lian Xiao picked up the kudzu root from one side and put it on the other side, so the balance of the scale was reversed.

"Is your new hatred more serious than your old hatred?"

"If the love is too heavy, it's okay to forgive him. It's like the old building has done so many excessive things, but you never thought of killing him. If the love can't match the deep-seated pain of hatred, then after allOnly by killing can you relieve your anger."

"This is all my subordinates say, and if I say more, I will presume."

Pei Nianyu looked at Tian Ping with a look of enlightenment.

However, he didn't realize it until he came out from Lian Xiao: he seemed to have said a lot of truths, but he didn't seem to say anything.

Listening to what you say is like listening to what you say.

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The last person Pei Nianyu found was He Yanjun.

He repeated the question, but He Yanjun looked at Pei Nianyu and said:

"Does Master want to know what I think of Pei Nianzhen?"

"It does."

But He Yanjun raised an index finger, shook it in front of him, and chuckled:

"Pei Nianzhen... I don't have any relationship with me! My elder brother is one civil and one military. He made friends with my two elder brothers back then, thinking about assisting him in the future. But how did he ever have any friendship with me??”

Pei Nianyu was silent.

Indeed, Pei Nianzhen always thought that having friendship with He Qi and their eldest brother was equivalent to having a good relationship with the He family.But the sister of the He family was never in the friendship he thought.

He Yanjun, however, does not recognize that she is included in the four words "he family female family members".

"You're right. It's my fault that different people talk about friendship."

He Yanjun continued:

"The second point, I never thought that Pei Nianzhen was the enemy of the He family. So it may be difficult to get an answer to the master's question."

Pei Nianyu couldn't help being startled for a moment:

"……what?"

In the past few years, He Qi secretly hated Pei Nianzhen for being like that. As the master, he could see it clearly.But it was also the He family that suffered, but He Yanjun was completely different from what He Qi thought.

"May I ask why?"

The corners of He Yanjun's mouth were still smiling, but the smile in his eyes quickly faded, and became extremely cold in an instant:

"It's very simple. The one who ordered my father and brother to be imprisoned, the one who ordered my He family to be ransacked, and the one who ordered the women in the family to be sold as official slaves—is it Pei Nianzhen?"

"The one who doesn't care about the lives of all the people in our He family, who wants father and elder brother not to live—who is it?"

"Is it him, Pei Nianzhen, who doesn't want us to live? Does he have the power in his hand?"

Pei Nianyu was speechless for a moment, the answer to this question was already in their hearts.

"There is an injustice and a debtor. Of course I, Mr. He Yan, have an enemy, and I can't wait to eat the flesh of this enemy. But this person is now lying safely in the imperial tomb..."

Pei Nianyu made a silent gesture.

"Heaven knows, Earth knows, you know and I know. Don't tell others this."

"Yanjun naturally knows the seriousness, and I only said this to my master, not even my brother. My brother was taught by his father to be loyal to the king and patriotic when he was young, but he never dared to think so."

Pei Nianyu was silent for a moment.

"I see."

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After everyone asked, Pei Nianyu made a special trip to the palace.He didn't go looking for Pei Niancheng, and even avoided the palace that Pei Niancheng usually visited when dealing with government affairs.

He went to visit Concubine Zhuang who had been kind to them in nurturing them.

This beautiful and wise woman, who has gone through ups and downs, only said these two words to him:

"Yu'er, now you don't need to compromise and live your life, you can act according to your heart."

"Think about what you really want and don't let yourself regret it."

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After returning from the palace, Pei Nianyu sat by the Calm Heart Lake in the palace garden, thinking about various past events.

At night, when the wind was getting colder, Lou Yefeng found him and tied a cloak on him.

"Master, on Li Han's side, Lian Xiao has given him medicine, but he is still in a coma, and he hasn't woken up yet."

"It's windy by the lake, master, please avoid it."

Pei Nianyu hugged the cloak a little tighter, then took Lou Yefeng's hand, performed lightness kung fu, and landed in front of Yunyue Tower on the other side of the lake.

This Yunyue Tower was built near the lake, seven floors high, he held Lou Yefeng and walked up layer by layer.

"I'm... just thinking about some questions today."

Lou Yefeng knew that the master had been entangled in his mind, so he didn't make a sound to disturb, but just listened quietly.

"About your master, the Chen family, the late emperor...all these people."

The two reached the highest floor of Yunyue Tower. Pei Nianyu leaned on the railing with his hands and looked down at the entire palace and even Capital City below.

"It just occurred to me today why Concubine Chen Gui chose Lin Han to give me the Peach Blossom Gu."

"That's right, I wanted to know from the beginning, why fate would be so ruthless, let Li Han plant an unchangeable antecedent, and then let him come to us."

"Did Concubine Chen only have Li Han as a shadow guard at that time? Not necessarily. The Chen family has its own shadow guard, and she can also use the second prince's shadow guard. But she just used Li Han to play peach blossom Gu, why?"

"I remembered what I saw in his dream: that was his first assignment. Concubine Chen Guirang was originally born in the Chen family, but Li Han, who just came out of the Shadow Guard camp, had the first assignment to a childTo start such a vicious thing. I just figured out her purpose today—”

"She's just here... to test whether Li Han is still loyal to the Chen family, to test whether Li Han can still obey him unconditionally."

Lou Yefeng's expression was surprised for a moment.

"In the end, she was obviously very satisfied. Li Han is still a knife that will not soften his heart. Later, she wanted to send Li Han to me because he had already done such a thing, and he knew it was impossible in this life.The person who really becomes me, holds the handle in the hands of the Chen family, and can only obey the orders of the Chen family forever."

"But what annoys me the most is..."

Pei Nianyu closed his eyes:

"I, a fourth prince who was born with auspiciousness, just because of this, can Chen Guifei be so vigilant and become an enemy early?"

"It has also been proved afterwards that until the death of the second prince, we have not posed any serious threat to the second prince from the beginning to the end. And for the slightest possibility of a threat, Concubine Chen can so lightly... to lay a spell on others,Break and reconnect other people's bones!"

Lou Yefeng murmured softly:

"The battle for crown prince cannot tolerate any risk."

Pei Nianyu sneered:

"That's right, you're right. In this world, who doesn't want the power brought by a position."

"This taste is so wonderful. With power, you can let people do evil things for you, and you can break other people's bones by breaking their bones. Even... the palace people in this palace say that you can break someone else's bones."Anyone who dies can be killed, and if they say that they can kill others, they can be wiped out in ashes with just raising their hands."

""They" don't care if a shadow guard doesn't want to do malicious tasks, "they" don't care how much a shadow guard hurts when their bones are broken, "they" don't care about a Ministry of Revenue servantHow helpless are the orphans of the family when they see their family members die. "They" don't care if a young prince will blame himself when he sees the palace people being beaten to death, they don't even care about a prince seeing his friendsDo you feel sad when you are in trouble?"

"—they don't care."

"Except for those two words, nothing else is important."

Lou Yefeng looked at his master, that jade-like gentle face now had an inexplicable sharpness.

"But master...you are different from them."

Pei Nianyu laughed at himself:

"I used to pretend that I was different from them, and I even thought that humans and ghosts were different. But today I woke up after Li Han had an accident. What I did to Li Han is different from them!"

"Because I am the prince and he is the shadow guard, so I can humiliate him in every possible way, beat him and scold him, and humiliate his identity. I am still using my power to do—"

"no."

Lou Yefeng interrupted suddenly:

"No master. You have never done this to us! Would you humiliate He Qi like this, and Lian Xiao? Would you take pleasure in humiliating the shadow guards? Would you ignore their dignity and pain?"

"You won't."

Lou Yefeng said softly:

"The master did this to Li Han because he allowed you to do it. You never really force others to do things that others don't want to do. Please stop blaming yourself, master. Li Han wants to die, too.Because he felt ashamed of himself."

Pei Nianyu's expression became extremely sad at this moment:

"But Li Han... He voluntarily accepted these humiliations... This matter was wrong!"

"He's atoning in his own way."

"I know. But, why is he making atonement?"

Today's He Yanjun's indifferent expression flashed before Pei Nianyu's eyes: "Is it Pei Nianzhen who ordered the He family to be ransacked?"

"He didn't find the peach blossom Gu, he didn't come up with the idea of making the Gu, and he didn't give the order to make the Gu - and he didn't have the right to refuse all of these, even he was the victim of all of them."

"He followed Xiao Sheng and finally had a new life. He tried his best to hide everything about the past from us, but it was because he wanted to live a good life."

"The master's trust and reliance, even... love, doesn't he want to continue to have it? If possible, he certainly wants to live to experience all of this."

"The people who should have redeemed their sins are already lying on the ground. "They" didn't get the punishment they deserved. They didn't apologize to those who should apologize—they didn't apologize to me, they didn't apologize to He Qi and He Yanjun,No apology to Li Han, no apology to your master."

"but……"

In Pei Nianyu's eyes, there was Li Han's calm as dead eyes when he was humiliated, and a little yearning for love before he died.

His fingers holding the railing suddenly clenched with blue veins, and the light in his eyes was like lightning, finally bursting out with astonishing hatred.

"——Let the living make atonement for the dead, and her Chen family is also worthy?!"

"The sins of the past, why should the present suffer!"

He let out a long sigh:

"It's ridiculous that I have been immersed in resentment against Li Han for so many days. Every time I hit him, I really want to vent my anger on him."

“And it’s only now that I’ve figured it out.”

"So, Ye Feng, I, as the master, will be sorry for this matter... I will no longer treat Lin Han as an enemy. The hardships you have suffered to understand the peach blossom Gu, I am afraid..."

Pei Nianyu suddenly took a deep breath, lowered his eyes and said:

"If you blame me, just... take your anger out on me..."

Lou Yefeng looked at his master who didn't even dare to look at him, and his heart immediately throbbed.He hurried forward to embrace his gentle master in his arms:

"What is the master talking about? How can the subordinates blame the master. In fact, I already knew that the master would make such a decision, on the day you return from the imperial prison."

"That day when you first heard about it, the master didn't even have the heart to kill him at the moment when you hated him the most. I knew that there would be no day for you to do anything again."

"I've expected it a long time ago, the master doesn't have to worry about it. What's more...I'm fine now."

Pei Nianyu put his head on his shoulder:

"You know, I remembered the words your master said before he died: let Pei Niancheng taste the feeling of losing his shadow. I was unable to kill him that day in prison because of his words.".”

"And now I finally know what I want—"

In his mind, the medicine weighing scale that Lian Xiao played with today appeared, one side was raised and the other side was lowered:

"He is Xiaosheng's family and our family. I...I want him to live, well, live."

"Live to those who are already dead, those who have committed crimes, did not die from the hatred continued by the previous dynasty, but are still alive for a long time, and will live until their bones turn into dust!"

Lou Yefeng hugged his master even tighter:

"...well, we're all going to live for a long time, and we're going to live better than them."

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With Pei Nianyu's decision made, the two returned to the woodshed in the backyard of Hanqiu Pavilion.

It was only a day since Li Han was injured, but he was still in a coma and never woke up.

"You said earlier that his injury..."

"The palm that my subordinate injured him damaged both his yin and yang meridians. If we want to completely cure him without leaving any future troubles, it is best for my master and I to help him heal his injuries with internal energy at the same time. Our internal energy is similar and comes from the same source.Others are more suitable."

"At that time, the master's internal force enters the yang channel, and I enter the yin channel. Only when the internal force is released together can the blood stasis of his yin and yang channels be dissolved without damaging the vitality of the harmony of yin and yang."

Pei Nianyu nodded:

"Do as you say. You teach me."

Lou Yefeng narrated the sequence of the internal force movement, and Pei Nianyu memorized it firmly.Then the two sat on the ground, one in front of his chest and the other in the back of his heart, using their fingers to send in internal force.

A few hours later, the internal force of the two of them swam through the Yin and Yang channels in his body for twelve weeks before the release ended.At that time, Pei Nianyu was so exhausted that he almost collapsed - in these seven or eight hours, the order could not be wrong at all, and accidents would happen if he made a mistake, it was really exhausting.

Seeing that Li Han was about to wake up, Pei Nianyu pulled Lou Yefeng's sleeve to signal to leave.

After returning to the bedroom, Lou Yefeng asked:

"When he wakes up, will the master let him go back to the palace?"

Pei Nianyu was so tired that he fell onto the bed:

"Of course not! I'll "trouble" him for a few more days in the mansion."

"——He has fulfilled his wish, how can I let him go like this?"