I lay on the recliner, watching the blue sky gradually darken, and I knew I might not make it through.

I was struggling in my heart. I knew from my dream that this life was saved by Ah Zhao with his own life. For this reason, he endured severe physical pain. I instinctively believed that this was true, so thisHow can I not cherish my life, but... I really can't bear it anymore. Without him, my heart is lonely, like a walking dead, depressed, just like... drinking poison to quench thirst. There must be a conflict in this kind of contradiction.Breakthrough, unable to waver.

While cherishing the life he gave me, I complained about his selfishness, leaving me alone to face this boundless loneliness.

I, Shen Li, was originally such a cold-hearted person, how could I collapse into this state because of a man in the end? I often ask myself this question, but I don't know how to answer this question myself.

Perhaps... as early as the first time I saw him, it was destined that there would be a tear between me and him.

This life... I may not be able to bear it anymore, I want to apologize to him, maybe I... really wasted his life, wasted his painstaking efforts, but at the same time, I want him to see me nowIn the end, I am alive, but my heart is dead... What do you want me to do?You left me alone to suffer the loneliness of this world, and I will not forgive you.

I never imagined that my contradictory psychology would cause such a blow to me in another world.

My soul may still be floating in the air, but I can clearly see the ordeals he has suffered since he was a child. He seems... born to be unfortunate, but that child... is much stronger than myself.

He tried his best to live. Although he has mental illness, he didn't lose himself. I thought...he would sell his body and soul pathologically, but...he is so similar to his previous self.

In order not to be bullied by others, he had no choice but to pretend that strangers should not get close to him, and let others think that he was just a libertine.Farther away from danger.

It's just... that good skin will only attract more attention to him.

I watched everything about him like a ghost, and I saw with my own eyes...he put a hidden camera in the corner of the dressing room, and...all the scenes he did when he led Lu Cheng into the room.

Lu Cheng didn't run into him much, but he purposely yelled loudly, so... attracted people.

When this person appeared, I clearly felt my soul tremble, and then I felt heartache, but I... am just a soul, so how can I feel heartache?

I turned my gaze to Shen Yu, only to see that his face was pale, but he was still staring at the person standing at the door without squinting.

I am very familiar with the appearance of that person. I didn't know who Shen Yu was, but...

When he is dreaming, I will enter his dream. When his body hurts, I will also hurt. When he is struggling inside, I will also struggle. This inexplicable sense of connection...

Until the end... Our faces gradually overlapped...

I really felt Shen Yu's uneasiness, the uneasiness of losing something. When he saw Jin Zhao, he tried his best to grasp his mood...

I really want to tell him that you are another me, go and hug him.

But...he didn't know anything, but the feeling in his heart made him want to catch Jin Zhao.

Jin Zhao...he didn't recognize him at first, so...he only treated Shen Yu lightly.

While I was glad to see Jin Zhao in another world, I also wanted to talk to him, but... I am just a ghost without real power, and... I have no way to solve all this.

I can't even understand why such a bizarre thing happened to me. If a person dies... shouldn't he go to heaven and hell?Why am I in such a real world, and I can still... see people I've longed for?

Maybe it was because my inner obsession was too deep, which finally allowed me to successfully enter Shen Yu's dream, and I couldn't help shouting Ah Zhao's name.

Sure enough, with such a sound, Jin Zhao was successfully retained.

Since then, my soul occasionally entered Shen Yu's body, and I could feel that he was trying to remember something. In the end... I realized that... we are all Shen Li's body, but the soul is inexplicably divided intotwo parts.

I don't know how to solve this problem, there are too many weird things happening for me to keep up.

Ah Zhao...he is always by Shen Yu's side silently, I know...he is waiting for me to go back, how many days and nights, he wakes up from his dream, crying my name with tears streaming down his face.

Shen Yu... He really looks like me on the back. When I get along with Ah Zhao, I always refuse to reveal the truest self to him for some reason. I originally wanted to ask him to stay.Li said the opposite. Originally, I missed him very much in my heart, but...the mouth was not forgiving. I was too upright, but Shen Yu...he always expressed his inner thoughts directly. This is because I...don't have the courage to do itYes, in the final analysis, it is because... I am afraid that I will lose my face, or... deep down in my heart, I am afraid of being rejected by him (Zhao).

Thinking... If I keep floating like this, it's fine, there will always be someone by his side, so I can feel at ease...

I thought I would be relieved like this, after all... I can still be by his side silently like this, but in the end, it was Shen Yu's extreme psychology that woke me up.

I suddenly seemed to realize a very outrageous problem, that is...without my half of the soul, his unhealthy soul is like a frightened bird, and his heart is desperately eager to find something, just like that...I was called back by his obsessionThat body, or...my obsession affected him.

Unexpectedly, by mistake, he went to the cultural relics museum and picked up the sword that belonged to Ah Zhao.

Since then, our souls seem to be pieced together by something, and all my memories have returned to the original body.

I am him, he is me, he is healed at this moment, and I am... reborn at this moment.

I slowly stretched out my hand and handed the Canglan Sword to Ah Zhao. I thought I would have to explain something before he would recognize me, but...

He took me away without a word.

I looked at our tightly intertwined hands, and gradually realized in my heart...it was him, I touched him, it was not illusory, I really touched his body, his familiar breath and taste.

I felt the excitement of being hugged tightly by him, and the long-lost familiarity.

I know...this self-salvation...maybe succeeded.

I looked at the person with red eyes in front of me. He always pretended to be warm and happy in order not to put too much pressure on the other me, but in fact... in the dark night, he was always buried in front of the computer, sorting out the things that belonged to us.The memory, he is afraid... It's like just coming back a few years ago, the memory is gradually blurred, forgetting what I look like.

Yes, after I left that world, my soul drifted to various places. Until this era, I witnessed everything he encountered with my own eyes.

I no longer have the time to find out why this happened, I just... silently watched him resolutely apply for a major related to archaeology, just to find my trace, silently watched him suffer from a headache, but still tried to trace his memoryThe way he looked, and...he was at home every night, writing about our past, he was like a drowning person, looking for the possibility of surviving over and over again, maybe it was...the trace of my existence.

What he did...I know it all, but...I can only watch quietly, powerless.

I don't know what the purpose of fate's arrangement is, so I can only take one step at a time.

Later I realized that maybe fate just wanted to play a joke with us, but the joke was too long, so long that I thought... We might not have a chance to meet again, but when we were really lying in his arms, II began to appreciate the tolerance of fate and gave us such an opportunity.

Now, I can be in the same world with him, instead of growing old alone, what else can I be dissatisfied with?

I was hugged tightly by him again, and his gentle whisper came from my ear, "Yuheng, get closer to me, I'm afraid I won't be able to find you again."

I kissed his lips lightly, and replied softly: "I'm right by your side, don't be afraid, if you can't find me, I will come to you too."

"Hey, I love you."

"me too."