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Chapter Fifty-Two: Take Care of Your Heart After Losing Your Kidney
Song Qiuyao sat up, lowered his head and looked down at Qin Yan who was lying down and looking at him with a satisfied face.
Song Qiuyao sighed and said: "Although I don't want to destroy the ambiguous and charming atmosphere between us, there are some things I feel I have to say, and some things I have to ask about. It's about the letters and gifts your mother brought you.Are you really not going to take a look?"
After Song Qiuyao finished speaking, Qin Yan's face became very ugly, the smile instantly froze on his face, and disappeared without a trace.
Qin Yan's lips moved slightly, but he was still speechless after all, and just lowered his eyes silently not to look at Song Qiuyao.
Song Qiuyao thought that sometimes the ailments in people's hearts must be exposed to the sun to completely dissipate, and Qin Yan's failure to mention it does not mean that he did not ask about it, otherwise this matter may become a hidden danger between the two of them.
Song Qiuyao said: "Actually, I already know a lot of things you don't talk about. She was at odds with your father and decided to leave everything behind to pursue her own life, but she never seemed to regret her choice. Qin Yan, maybeWhat I'm going to say to you next will make you uncomfortable. I went through her album, and in the last photo of you, she said, sorry I never thought of living for anyone. ThrowShe is indeed willful and selfish, but as a woman with an unhappy marriage, her choice is rational. Human nature is like this, and no one's life has to revolve around another person.She also just wants a new life, but what makes her heartbroken is that she chose a life without you. As a bystander, I understand her original choice, although her choice is extremely unfair and irresponsible to youWhat I can't understand is that since she chose to give up at the beginning, why did she ask someone to come back to you and disturb your life? I think you should also have this reason in the troubled factors. I took these at the timeI hesitated again and again whether to transfer it to you, and thought about hiding it and not wanting you to know about it, but after all, I am not you and cannot make decisions for you, but I still want to suggest that you might as well go and see what she said, maybeMaybe she can give you an answer. Instead of pretending to turn a blind eye and be troubled by a person."
Qin Yan stared at Song Qiuyao unblinkingly with those hot and deep eyes, and there was an indescribable emotion in those eyes.
After a long time, Qin Yan also sat up, and said to Song Qiuyao face to face: "So Qiuyao, if it were you, would you also choose to leave me in the end?"
Song Qiuyao shook his head, and replied firmly: "I won't, this is not to coax you. Your mother and I are not of the same kind. Maybe I am a person who sticks to petty love. Ever since I met you, II found that I can no longer bear the loneliness of traveling alone. I read that photo album while you were away. To be honest, your mother’s works have brought me quite a shock, which can be called a master level. Just asFrom a professional point of view, I think you should take a look at it when you have time."
Qin Yan replied reluctantly: "Well, I will watch it when I have time."
Song Qiuyao read out Qin Yan's conflicted emotions, and lightly placed a kiss on his forehead: "From your mother's works, we can see that she has seen all the impermanence in the world, birth, old age, sickness and death, joys and sorrows. SheShe is a big woman with heroism, she does not stick to petty love, she has her pride and pursuit, I think this may be the reason why she can't grow old with your father. Businessmen value profits, obviously they have nothing to do with your motherThey are not in harmony with each other, and it was wrong for them to be together from the beginning. But we are different from them, and our three views, ideas, and rhythm of life are in harmony. I will spend my whole life loving you,No matter what happens, I will never abandon you and leave you. So Qin Yan, can you give me more trust? Although I don't know why you haven't been home for several years, I also learned this from your motherYes, I think she still misses you more or less these years. Qin Yan, if you thought you had no home in the past, then I will give you a home from now on, okay? Come celebrate with me this yearGo home, let's watch the New Year together, shall we?"
Qin Yan's hands trembled slightly, and then he hugged Song Qiuyao tightly. All the emotions of those who had been suppressed all the time seemed to burst out through this hug. Song Qiuyao felt a little difficult to breathe while being held by him. After a long timeHe let go of Song Qiuyao and said:
"Qiuyao, I have always pretended not to care and tried my best to live my own life well, but I really can't stop resenting her for leaving me behind and leaving without looking back..I can't understand why she abandoned me if she loves me, and why she gave birth to me if she doesn't love me."
"When I was very young, my father told me that my mother separated because of disagreement with him. You are right about this. My father couldn't give her the world she wanted. Later, when I grew upLater, I also asked my father why we were together again. My father told me that he was an investor when he was young, but when he first met my mother, he was young and vigorous and hadThis is a dream of a hero, which hit it off with my mother, so he admired my mother's works very much, and invested huge sums of money in my mother's film festival to support her work. My mother also thought that she was "a bosom friend in the mountains and rivers", and soonThey fell in love, got married and had me.
But gradually their lives became less harmonious. My mother is an idealist, but also a feminist. She often campaigns for social issues such as women’s liberation, gender equality, sex discrimination, and sexual oppression.Unfairly treated women fight for their legal rights and carry out some public welfare activities for free.And my father is a businessman. He doesn't want my mother to spend time on these unprofitable things. He thinks my mother has such a leisurely mind to take care of other people's affairs. It's better to spend more time on family life and take more pictures.Profitable works.At first, their disagreements were just quarrels. After that, what should they do? My mother still pays attention to those social problems, and takes the suffering of those people as her own responsibility, and wants to change the lives of more people.
She is like a light, illuminating the future of many people struggling in the darkness, but this light has never turned into my guiding light, but ruthlessly abandoned me in the darkness, sheIt is said that she has never lived for anyone, but she is always thinking of others, but there is no me...but I should be her most important person, right?…”