Bo:?

Ze: As far as you know, I checked the illnesses you mentioned, and I was so scared, I couldn’t sleep

Cypress:.

Bo: Why haven’t you corrected your problem?

Ze: I can't change it anymore, rivers and mountains are easy to change, man's character much harder

Ze: I'm really scared now, please take pity on me

Bo: sleep

Ze: I'm so scared, can you comfort me, I can't sleep if you don't comfort me

About a minute after the message was sent, Bo Shiyan didn't reply to him.

Gu Ze was a little disappointed, wondering if Bai Shiyan didn't plan to come.

But about another minute later, he heard the door of the next bedroom open.

possible!

A few seconds later, there was a knock on the door of his room, and he immediately said, "Please come in."

Bo Shiyan stood at the door of his room in dark gray pajamas, frowned, and lifted his lips and said, "You are still so timid. Since you are afraid of these things, why did you ask?"

The expression on Bai Shiyan's face was very serious, and the lines looked extremely cold, as if he didn't want to talk to him.

But this didn't hurt Gu Ze, since Bai Shiyan came, he had to let the other party go through something before leaving.

Gu Ze said pitifully: "Can you come and sit here, I'm really scared."

Bai Shiyan stared at him for a few seconds, then suddenly sighed softly, and came over and sat by the bed, rubbing his forehead, looking a little helpless.

"Why are you still like this, so afraid of these—"

His voice stopped abruptly, because at this time Gu Ze half sat up from the bed, holding his hand with one hand.

The quilt slipped from Gu Ze's chest.

"Hug me, please." Gu Ze's voice was very soft, "I'm so scared, I want you to hug me."

Bai Shiyan stared at his bare-exposed arm with dim eyes, but he didn't move.

As time passed, Gu Ze gradually became a little colder.

Although there was heating in the room, it would still be cold without clothes. He was cold and nervous, and he couldn't control the goosebumps.

When he felt goose bumps, Gu Ze really wanted to bury his head in the quilt and not look at Bai Shiyan.

Why is there such a shameful situation every time.

He was doing sex-seduction, the atmosphere was already there, but why did he suddenly get goosebumps.

It's so embarrassing.

But only more embarrassing, not the most embarrassing.

Because he heard Bo Shiyan say: "When the human body feels cold or fear and other stimuli, the arrector pili muscle will contract, and a small bump will protrude on the surface of the skin, and the hairs on it will also stand up, commonly known as goosebumps."

Afterwards, he heard Bai Shiyan ask him calmly, "Gu Ze, what are you afraid of?"

"I, I'm afraid of those things just now."

Gu Ze gritted his teeth, went all out, and turned off the bedside lamp directly, lest Bai Shiyan would get ugly goosebumps when he saw him.

"Don't watch." Gu Ze's voice pleaded, "Come and comfort me, okay?"

Having said that, he felt that it was too pretentious, why was he so deliberate and pretentious.

Bai Shiyan must have seen it, but he didn't know what he was thinking.

The room was very dark, only a little moonlight came in through the gaps in the curtains, so that he could vaguely see the blurred figure.

Bai Shiyan was sitting beside him, motionless.

His hand groped in the dark, along the edge of the bed, and touched Bo Shiyan's hand on the edge of the bed bit by bit.

He boldly grasped it, and slowly interlocked his fingers.

Bai Shiyan's hand was bigger than his, and he could fully hold his hand before, and it still does now.

After not holding each other's hand for almost three years, he found that Bai Shiyan's hand was much rougher than before, not soft and delicate, and he could even feel the texture when he touched it carefully.

These years, Bai Shiyan has also had a hard time.

I heard that doctors, especially surgeons, have to wash their hands frequently, and the skin on their hands will gradually become rough, which is what Bo Shiyan said.

In the darkness, none of them spoke, and the surroundings were so quiet that they could hear each other's breathing.

His fingers gently slid across Bo Shiyan's fingertips, wanting to touch each other's fingerprints. Everyone's fingerprints are unique.

Gu Ze's heart beat into a drum, he closed his eyes and gritted his teeth, thinking that stretching out his head and retracting his head would be a stab, and slowly clasped Bai Shiyan's hand tightly.

"Hug me, okay?"

His voice was almost inaudible, and he wondered if Bo Shiyan heard it.

But it seems that he didn't hear it, because Bo Shiyan has been silent.

The courage he mustered receded like a tide, and he slowly let go.

Maybe it really is... no feeling, no fate.

Gu Ze thought sadly, maybe Bai Shiyan took him in not because of love, but because of sympathy.

His hand seemed to have no strength, as if he couldn't hold it, he slowly let go.

But just as he was about to let go, Bai Shiyan suddenly grabbed his hand with his back and held it tightly.

Gu Ze took a breath, his heart beating like thunder.

Bo Shiyan stretched out his other hand that was not held by him, grabbed his quilt, and gently helped him pull the quilt above his shoulders.

Then, he felt another person's breath coming over him.

He froze, barely daring to breathe.

After three years, he and Bai Shiyan hugged each other again.

Bai Shiyan's embrace was very similar to before, as generous, strong and strong, which made people feel at ease and dependable.

The smell of this hug has changed a bit, it smells more of disinfectant than before, but Gu Ze doesn't reject this feeling, he holds his breath, and hugs Bai Shiyan back almost cautiously.

The moment he hugged her back, he almost wanted to cry.

Why did they waste so long, so long.

How could he be so stupid back then.

Although it was embarrassing, his eyes were sore.

Fumbling with his hands, he slowly reached Bo Shiyan's shoulder, and held Bo Shiyan's chin along the other's shoulder.

The darkness magnified all senses, and his hands followed the contours of Bo Shiyan's jaw upwards, touching Bo Shiyan's lips little by little.

Lips are warm and soft.

No matter how cold and hard a person is, his lips will be soft.

Gu Ze wanted to kiss him.

Just when he was about to put it into practice, Bo Shiyan suddenly took his hand and said softly, "It's late, go to bed early."

Gu Ze froze, and could hardly believe his ears.

"You, you want me to sleep..."

Why do you still have to reject him at this time.

Is it really not emotional?

But if there is no emotion, why did you hug him just now.

"Don't overthink it."

Gu Ze heard Bai Shiyan whisper.

I don't know if it was his illusion, but he always felt that Bo Shiyan's hand was shaking slightly.

He held it with his backhand, and the trembling disappeared immediately.

"Go to bed early."

Bai Shiyan said it again, patted him gently with the hand around his back, and then slowly withdrew his hand.

Gu Ze was not reconciled, and tried to grab Bai Shiyan's hand.

Bai Shiyan patted his hand lightly, and said again: "Don't think too much, go to bed early."

Then Bai Shiyan withdrew his hand.

Gu Ze didn't understand Bai Shiyan's meaning, but he could feel that the other party was refusing. He whispered: "If you don't want to, I will move out tomorrow."

If he refused him so bluntly, how could he have the nerve to stay any longer?

At this time, the other hands of the two of them were still clasping each other. After hearing this sentence, Bai Shiyan seemed to react very strongly. He suddenly grasped his hand tightly, and his breathing seemed to be a little depressed.

"Don't think about it." Bai Shiyan's breathing was also disordered, and his voice was very forbearing, "Let's talk tomorrow morning."

After he finished speaking, he let go of the hand he held with Gu Ze, got up and left.

Gu Ze didn't stop him this time, because he knew it was useless to stop him.

Bai Shiyan didn't know why, but he was determined to leave, leaving Gu Ze lying on the bed alone, full of confusion and apprehension.

What exactly does Bai Shiyan mean? If you want to reject him, why do you still hug him? If you don't want to reject him, why do you want to leave.

He sighed, prepared for the worst, simply put on his clothes and got up from the bed, turned on the desk lamp and recalculated, counting and counting, for some reason, he wanted to cry.

Is there really no hope? After all this, Bai Shiyan still didn't say anything.

Bo Shiyan closed the door for him when he left his room, so he couldn't see what was going on outside.

After Bai Shiyan left Gu Ze's room, he quickly walked back to his room.

He just couldn't control himself.

When Gu Ze held his hand, he really wanted to clasp the other person's shoulders and question why Gu Ze was so cruel back then, and he really wanted to hug him, kiss him hard, and never let go.

But he can't do that.

Once bitten by a snake, ten years afraid of grass rope.

Gu Ze has been trying to get close to him these days, he knows it.

But he didn't know how long the other party's desire to get closer could last, and whether it would be a brief period of enthusiasm again, and he would shrink back whenever something happened.

He couldn't be sure of the other party's determination.

Back then they had such a deep relationship, Gu Ze could break up as soon as he said it, and he didn't miss it at all, let alone now.

He is afraid.

He is not very strong, and he is just an ordinary person who will be afraid and sad.

However, he really wanted to be with Gu Ze again.

He couldn't lie to himself, let alone his heart.

His heart was beating fast, and there was even a kind of joyful excitement, urging him to immediately hug each other, kiss, and be together.

But reason told him to take his time, and it was very difficult for him to bear breaking up again.

Being together is easy, but staying together is hard.

He stayed alone in the room for a long, long time, the rapid heartbeat subsided, and he opened the door slowly when he recovered.

The living room did not turn on the lights, only the moonlight and street lamps outside the window, and a little light from the gap in Gu Ze's door.

Gu Ze...haven't slept yet?

Bai Shiyan thought of what Gu Ze said just now, and had a bad feeling in his heart.

Gu Ze is a person who prepares for the worst first, always thinks of the most pessimistic side, remembering the past...

Bai Shiyan felt that he shouldn't be able to wait until tomorrow morning. If he really waited until tomorrow morning, he might run away.

Gu Ze was calculating sadly how to distinguish clearly from Bai Shiyan, but the more he calculated, the more headache he got.

He didn't know how it happened.

Even in that situation, why did Bai Shiyan reject him in a disguised form?

Countless guesses flashed through his mind, from Bo Shiyan just not loving him, to Bo Shiyan hanging him, and finally seriously considering the possibility of Bo Shiyan's death.

Maybe it's just too much work pressure.

Facing what he was calculating, he told himself not to expect too much, so as not to be hurt by the cruel facts that might exist.

He wrote and calculated, but at the end he didn't know what he was writing when he suddenly heard a knock on the door. Bai Shiyan asked at the door, "Are you asleep?"

Gu Ze opened his mouth to speak, but found that his voice had become hoarse. If he answered now, it might reveal that he wanted to cry.

His face was in jeopardy, but he didn't want to lose face, so he didn't answer immediately, but drank some water first.

Bai Shiyan knocked on the door twice more, but when he found that there was no answer, he panicked and pushed the door open.

In the room, Gu Ze was drinking water, the worst he was worried about did not happen, Gu Ze did not start to pack his luggage.

He breathed a sigh of relief and asked in a low voice, "Why aren't you asleep yet?"

Gu Ze put down his water glass, turned his back to Bai Shiyan and replied, "It's nothing, I'll go to sleep later."

Bai Shiyan's heart skipped a beat, feeling very bad, he walked over immediately regardless of Duo Duo, and saw a familiar piece of paper.

He closed his eyes, took a deep breath, and tried to calm himself down.

Gu Ze only heard Bai Shiyan ask him in a low voice: "What are you doing?"

"...I'm trying to calculate how much I'll give you if I move away from here." Gu Ze whispered, and then added as if he had nothing to say: "It's been a long time since I finished the calculation for two weeks, and I may still have to pay for it."It takes a few hours to figure it out.”

As soon as he finished speaking, the paper in his hand was pulled away by Bai Shiyan.

Bo Shiyan mercilessly pulled the paper full of money from Gu Ze's hand with great strength.

"What are you doing?" Gu Ze frowned, a little angry, couldn't help but look back at Bai Shiyan, and said angrily, "I've been thinking about it for a long time, what are you grabbing, don't worry, I won't lose your money."

Bai Shiyan's expression seemed to be enduring something, his fingers holding the paper were so tight that they turned white.

"Don't forget it." Gu Ze heard Bai Shiyan say in a low voice: "It's not clear."

"No." Gu Ze curled his lips, "Calculate slowly, you will always be able to calculate clearly."

Bai Shiyan stared at the paper in his hand for a long time, and finally asked in a low voice, "Why do you want to move?"

"Why else..."

Talking about this Gu Ze felt sad, he really worked hard, but Bai Shiyan, who was standing opposite him, always held it up for some reason, making his efforts not have much effect, even the plan for tonightIt can all be said to have failed.

He also has dignity, and he can chase people, but he doesn't want to be a licking dog. If he really doesn't have a fate, let it be. It's better for him to drink and get drunk alone than for him to stalk Bai Shiyan. Everyone's troubles are too ugly..

"They're all adults now." Gu Ze was a little aggrieved and sad, "Isn't it okay to tell the truth if you see through it?"

Why must insist on getting to the bottom of the matter to expose this matter.

Bai Shiyan stood beside Gu Ze's chair, looked down at him, and said seriously, "No."

Gu Ze got angry, stood up and looked at Bai Shiyan, and asked, "What on earth do you want?!"

He pursued so much, but Bai Shiyan still disagreed or refused, did he really want to hang him as a backup?

He is determined not to be a spare tire!

It only takes a second to give up this man, but it may take many years to be a spare tire. He doesn't do such extremely stupid things.

Bai Shiyan asked back, "What do you want?"

"Can't you see what I want?!"

Bai Shiyan paused for a few seconds before replying, "I can tell."

"You can see it, so you still ask?!" Gu Ze said angrily, "Is it true?!"

Didn't he just want to chase after his ex-boyfriend? Why is it so difficult?

Bai Shiyan remained silent for a while, and it was extremely difficult to speak again.

He's not good at this kind of thing, he can't explain, but he knows he has to explain now.

"I just..." Bai Shiyan's voice was a little dry, "I want to hear it from you."

"Want to hear from me?" Gu Ze looked at him with a frown, puzzled, "Why do you want to hear from me?"

If the lights were turned off just now, he could tell the charming atmosphere, but now he really can't handle the atmosphere.

Confession also has to pay attention to the right time, place and people.

"Forget it." Bai Shiyan smiled bitterly, "Let's talk about it tomorrow morning."

They are too restless now, and if they talk like this, they may have a big fight, which is even worse.

"No." Gu Ze said immediately, "Let's make it clear now. If you don't make it clear, I feel like I won't be able to sleep."

Bai Shiyan obviously knew Gu Ze's character, and if he didn't make it clear, it would be another piece of paper full of numbers in a while, and he was planning to move away.

He could only tell Gu Ze resignedly, "Let's take your time with what you think in your heart."

"What?!" Gu Ze almost jumped up, and looked at Bai Shiyan in disbelief: "You know what I'm thinking in my heart? What do you mean by taking your time?"

Bai Shiyan looked at Gu Ze for a few seconds, then suddenly stretched out his hand and pulled Gu Ze over, looked down at him seriously, and asked, "What exactly do you want to do?"

The atmosphere changed all of a sudden, from the tense look, as if both sides were irrational and full of gunpowder, to quarreling, to a bit ambiguous.

Bai Shiyan's gaze was so deep that Gu Ze felt that that gaze could see through everything about him.

"I want to hear it from you." Bai Shiyan seemed not so anxious, and repeated it very gently, "Speak out, and we will discuss this matter."

Bai Shiyan put his hand on Gu Ze's back and patted it lightly, calmly, as if he was very patient. The distance between the two of them was even closer than when the indwelling needle was done last time.

Gu Ze's heartbeat quickened instantly, and he swallowed, but he still felt dry, as if there was an ambiguous factor in the air.

"That, I..."

Bai Shiyan suddenly reached out and turned off the bedside lamp behind Gu Ze, and the whole bedroom was plunged into darkness, as if they were back just now.

Bai Shiyan put his arm around Gu Ze's shoulder lightly, his voice was low, but it was very obvious in the darkness.

"What did you want to tell me just now, why do you want me to hug you?"

The matter of mustering up the courage is all in one go, then declines, and exhausts three times.

He was at his most courageous just now in the dead of night, but now he is like a deflated ball, even if he blows up the air again, it will still be loose and limp.

The two of them now knew what Gu Ze wanted to say, but they just didn't pierce the window paper.

The atmosphere settled down a little bit, and Gu Ze complained in a low voice: "Then why did you have to leave just now?"

Bai Shiyan replied in a low voice: "I need to consider whether to agree to you."

"What about you, do you want to agree?"

Bai Shiyan lowered his head a little, coaxing in Gu Ze's ear, "Then first tell me what you want me to promise?"

In the dead of night, Bai Shiyan's voice lingered in his ears, giving him an intoxicating feeling.

Gu Ze felt bewitched, as if going back to the night when they were together, in Bai Shiyan's dormitory for doctoral students, Bo Shiyan always bewitched him in the dead of night.

It was agreed to not do it before, he was very tired, and in the end it would become a two-person sport.

He lowered his head little by little, and muttered in a low voice: "Don't you know what I'm thinking? You know me so well, and you know exactly what I'm thinking."

"What is it?" Bai Shiyan said seriously, "I really want to hear it from you."

Gu Ze suspected that Bai Shiyan was molesting him, but there was no evidence.

"I..." He took a deep breath and said softly to Bai Shiyan, "Hold me, will you?"

Bai Shiyan changed into a posture of wrapping his arms around him, encircling him with his arms.

"That's right, we..." Gu Ze said a little bit, it was very difficult, but he still said it slowly: "Together again... okay?"

After saying it, he breathed a sigh of relief, feeling that it wasn't that difficult to really say it.

He just wanted to get back together with Bai Shiyan and spend the rest of his life together.

After he finished speaking, the room was very quiet, so quiet that only the breathing of the two of them could be heard.

Gu Ze didn't hear Bai Shiyan's answer for a long time.

As time passed, Gu Ze couldn't hold back any longer. Bai Shiyan asked him what he meant and didn't hear back from him. What exactly did he want to do.

Gu Ze began to feel uneasy, and his heart became more and more uneasy, and he couldn't help but want to break free.

But Bai Shiyan's arms around his waist were so tight that he couldn't break free.

He didn't feel it amidst the anxiety, but in fact, Bai Shiyan's hands were still trembling a little, trembling uncontrollably.

After waiting for a while, Gu Ze couldn't bear it any longer, and asked Bai Shiyan, "What the hell are you..."

Almost simultaneously with his voice came Bo Shiyan's laughter.

Bo Shiyan was laughing, very lightly, but it sounded genuinely relaxed and happy.

Gu Ze was angry: "Why are you still laughing!"

"You coaxed me to tell me the purpose, and I said it, but you laughed at me? Even if you don't want to promise me, don't laugh!"

There are several meanings to laughing, which is simply putting his whole heart on the ground.

Bai Shiyan quickly held back his laughter and comforted Gu Ze: "Don't be angry."

Gu Ze doesn't want to listen to Bai Shiyan now, so he tries to break free, "Let me go, I don't want to talk to you anymore, I'll move out tonight."

He couldn't live here any longer, so he mustered up the courage to confess, but what he got was a burst of laughter.

Bai Shiyan seemed a little angry when he heard this, "Can you calm down?"

"cannot!"

Bai Shiyan sighed, clasping Gu Ze's shoulders with both hands to stop him from moving around.

In fact, he was just really happy just now, and when he finally heard Gu Ze say that he wanted to get back together, he was so happy that he couldn't help laughing, but he didn't expect to cause a misunderstanding again.

Why is Gu Ze so sensitive and pessimistic?

He leaned slightly to Gu Ze's ear and whispered, "I mean, let's take our time."

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