He seems to have lost the ability to perceive pleasure.

After Chu Xia left, Xie Chenwei felt unbelievably angry because of him leaving. It was hard for him to believe that Chu Xia would leave him in such a way. After all, Chu Xia has always shown that he loves himself very much and is always tolerant.Always give and take.

Xie Chenwei would look at the gift that Chu Xia gave him every day after returning home, and listen to the recording that Chu Xia gave him. He would still suffer from insomnia all night, but he would still struggle to get up and go to work the next day.

The belief that has been supporting Xie Chenwei so that he has not collapsed is that he subconsciously believes that Chu Xia will definitely change his mind one day, and he will come back when he figured it out.

Xie Chenwei thought that at that time, he would definitely not care about him leaving him in such a willful way, and he might not ask what happened between him and the author who wrote the article. In short, it would be good if he came back.

Later, he couldn't help but went to the remedial class in early summer and asked his teacher about his whereabouts. After no results, he went to find Chen Jinglin.Give him a good look because he helped himself.

Chen Jinglin asked back angrily: "You came to ask me, but I still want to ask you! I've been calling him for almost a week, but no one answered."

Seeing that Xie Chenwei was speechless, Chen Jinglin went on to say: "Chu Xia is the most tempered person I have ever met in my life. I believe that if he hadn't been bullied so much that he couldn't take it anymore, why would he leave in this way? You shouldAsk yourself what you did to him?"

At this moment, Xie Chenwei's mind was full of Chu Xia celebrating his birthday, looking at him with attached and sad eyes, so at that moment he felt that what Chen Jinglin said was not wrong.

Seeing the remorse on Xie Chenwei's face, Chen Jinglin said bluntly: "Although you helped me before, I also want to say it. When I lived here before Chu Xia, although I was very poor, I was very optimistic and happy every day..but the last time I saw him, how thin was he?"

"You are with him every day, and you don't realize that he is actually unhappy? You even have the nerve to come and ask me."

Xie Chenwei listened to all of Chen Jinglin's accusations with a serious expression, then solemnly said sorry, and then left in a bit of embarrassment.

Later, he used another day's vacation to drive back to Chu Xia's hometown by himself. For some unknown reason, Chu Xia's mother and brother received him warmly.When they said that Chu Xia hadn't contacted them recently, Xie Chenwei suddenly didn't dare to ask any more questions.

He couldn't imagine what they would do when they found out that Chu Xia's cell phone was broken and they couldn't get in touch.Maybe Chu Xia's mother would be more distressed and nervous than herself.Thinking of this, he would rather that Chu Xia just didn't want to see himself, and asked his family to say so.

That afternoon, Xie Chenwei spent the whole afternoon by the lake in the back mountain where he and Chu Xia used to fish together.The more he thought about it, the more he felt that something was wrong. He didn't believe that in today's society, a person would disappear out of thin air like this, unless someone deliberately helped him.

Although the point was obvious, Xie Chenwei still didn't want to check the information and background about Li Ze, he was afraid that after he really saw them together, his psychological defense would collapse in an instant.

However, Chu Xia is different, and he can still bless himself with Gan Ling decently and magnanimously in the letter to himself.Thinking of this would also give Xie Chenwei a angina pectoris.

Xie Chenwei took out his mobile phone and wanted to find some memories about Chu Xia. After reading the photos of Chu Xia kept in his album, he found that the former Chu Xia really liked to smile. When he smiled, his eyes were like crescent moons, and he would show his smile slightly.The white little canine teeth are as bright as the sunshine in spring.

Unlike Chu Xia later, her eyes always showed a very confused look, and the amber eyes almost lost their light.Xie Chenwei couldn't help sending another message to Chu Xia, but just like before, he soon received a message that the message failed to be sent.

Xie Chenwei opened Xia Mu's Weibo again, and was disappointed to find that his Weibo had also been cleared.But Xie Chenwei found that the Weibo didn't seem to be logged out, so he tried to send him a private message."If you come back now, I will forgive you." But the private message keeps showing as unread, Xie Chenwei thinks maybe Chu Xia will never see it.

After Xie Chenwei dated Chu Xia, although he would often get angry, sometimes even violently, he asked himself and never thought of breaking up with Chu Xia.And even if he took ten thousand steps back and he and he really got to the point of breaking up, Xie Chenwei would not be able to do such a thing as completely blackmailing the other party and cutting off all contact all of a sudden.

So judging from the current situation, Chu Xia is the kind of person who doesn't seem to have any ideas on weekdays, but once he makes up his mind, he is very decisive.

From this point of view, Chu Xia is much more ruthless than himself.Thinking of this, Xie Chenwei forced himself to bid farewell to Chu Xia in his heart.

After returning to Rong Gang, Xie Chenwei seemed to have sealed his heart and locked his love. He seemed to have turned back to the former president of the company who was like a working machine overnight.He often sits in the president's office without saying a word and analyzes the data for an afternoon, and then the first sentence he speaks a day may be to fire the incompetent director of a certain department.

The top and bottom employees of Tuofeng Group began to feel insecure for a while, because the company's development prospects are extremely good at this time, and after listing, it can be expected that it is very likely to achieve financial freedom in a short period of time, soNobody wants to lose this golden job.

One month later, when Tuofeng Group passed all the qualification review and procedures for listing on the New York Stock Exchange, the media began to frantically chase this young and promising president. However, at the much-anticipated listing bell ceremony on the New York Stock Exchange,The mysterious CEO still didn't show up, so that day's Rong Gang headlines had a photo of Tao Qun and a middle-aged foreign face on the huge page.

On the same day, an unprecedented grand celebration was held at Tuofeng headquarters. On the Yufeng Building, a landmark building in Rong Gang, a world-renowned light show was staged. The company's big and small leaders and some old employees who paid a lot of dividends couldn't help hugging each other.And cry, celebrating that my hard work over the years has not been in vain, and celebrating that I have achieved wealth and freedom at a young age.

However, the person who should be the most happy at this time is staring at the dazzling lights outside the window in a daze. He only feels that the carnival screams of other people sound harsh, as if it has nothing to do with him.

Xie Chenwei seems to have lost the ability to perceive happiness, he doesn't even bother to pretend now, he just feels that he is out of tune with others, he is a different kind.

At this moment, Xie Chenwei received a call from Zhu Ying.

"Congratulations, Chenwei. You really have the legacy of your father. Come to my place for dinner today. Let's celebrate."

That night, at Zhu Ying's house, Aunt Hui cooked a lot of delicious meals. When Xie Chenwei looked at the familiar steamed mandarin fish, he suddenly felt dazed for a moment, because it was Chu Xia's favorite dish.

Although he doesn't call this name very much now, there are fewer and fewer traces of Chu Xia in his life.He packed all Chu Xia's clothes and put them in the warehouse, and he put the gift from Chu Xia in a box and locked it up, so that he couldn't open it easily...

However, every time he sees Qin Gu, he still thinks of him, and even every time he drives by himself, he can't help but look at the empty co-pilot, he still wants to see him sitting thereSomeone with a slightly raised nose tip, and always red and full lips.

The most difficult thing is actually when going to bed every night, the feeling of being unable to fall asleep despite being sleepy is so unbearable that Xie Chenwei had to increase the dose of antidepressant drugs privately, otherwise he would have a hard time relying on his own willpower alone.Difficult to survive the long night of insomnia.

Whenever this happens, he can't help but call Chu Xia a little liar, because the pile of insomnia cure spells he left behind are useless except to make him miss him more.

However, his mother was completely ignorant of what Xie Chenwei had suffered recently. At this moment, she was immersed in the carnival that his excellent son had finally returned, and she was the happiest mother in the world.

Zhu Ying was undoubtedly excited tonight, she was so happy that she even made an exception and drank a glass of French Lafite red wine, and she also poured a glass for Xie Chenwei.

"Congratulations, you became the president of a listed company worth over 100 billion before you were thirty years old, and you can inherit the business empire under your father's name according to the contract. Facts have proved that your father has vision. Only in this way can the survival of the fittestmechanism to select the most suitable successor."

For a long time, Xie Chenwei felt that the most important thing in life was to be praised and affirmed by his mother.But now that this moment has finally been obtained, he feels that it is nothing more than that, and it can't even arouse the slightest wave of emotion in him.

Instead, Xie Chenwei looked at the color of the red wine in the glass in front of him, and soon remembered that he and Chu Xia drank a kind of pink wine when they were on vacation in Provence, and that after Chu Xia drank the wine, his cheeks would show a color even brighter than that of the pink wine.Beautiful colors.

Xie Chenwei also recalled somewhat inappropriately that Chu Xia, who is too strong to drink, will become more charming than usual after drinking a little wine, and her speech speed will be slower than usual, but she will be more active in sexual matters...

In fact, that period of time was only a few months past, but now that think about it, it seems like a lifetime away.

Zhu Ying asked again: "Did you know? Today is still the day when Xie Mingyuan was arrested by the public security organs. The reason for the arrest was the crime of private use of public funds and false bankruptcy. As expected, evil people will be rewarded with evil."

Sensing Xie Chenwei's overly calm expression, Zhu Ying asked a little strangely: "Chen Wei, why do you look unhappy? Don't you hate your brother the most?"

Xie Chenwei could only nod his head in agreement.

Seeing her son's response, Zhu Ying said with some pride: "In fact, although Xie Mingyuan's qualifications are not as good as yours, he is not bad. The fault lies in his mother's education method. If she trains him in the same way as I used to train you, it may not become like this.”

Xie Chenwei looked at his mother who was obviously chattering because of being too excited tonight, and he remembered the piece of paper that he had filled out in the college entrance examination, which was roughly torn into pieces by her... For a moment, Xie Chenwei felt a little nauseous.

He interrupted his mother's words unceremoniously, and said: "For those who have passed away, there is no need to talk about it."

Zhu Ying nodded and added some food to Xie Chenwei's bowl with serving chopsticks. She suddenly changed the subject and asked, "Are you still in touch with Gan Ling?"

This topic made Xie Chenwei completely lose his appetite. He put down his chopsticks and said firmly: "No."

"You don't like her, do you? It's okay, mom will help you find it again." After Zhu Ying finished speaking, she added proudly, "According to your current worth, she is indeed not worthy of you."

"Mother," Xie Chenwei finally said as if he couldn't stand it anymore, "I don't want to look for it anymore."

Zhu Ying seemed to be very surprised by what he said, and it took her a long time to react, and asked, "What do you mean by that? Didn't you and that early summer have already separated?"

These words seemed to touch Xie Chenwei's back, as if he didn't hear Zhu Ying's question, he got up directly and said, "I'm full, I'll go back first." Then he left directly.

Xie Chenwei never thought that such a day would come. The great success in his career neither stopped Zhu Ying from wanting him to go on a blind date again, nor could it fill the emptiness in her love life.

On the contrary, when the work goals were completed, Xie Chenwei's mental state was worse than before because he had a lot of free time.

Xie Chenwei was not a person who was afraid of loneliness before, but he feels that he has been successfully transformed by someone now, or he has mutated.A person who has never needed love, after gradually getting used to love in life, it is difficult for him to adapt to a life without love.

Just like a person who has never seen the sun, he can adapt to the dark well, but once he enjoys the warmth of the sun, it is difficult to return to live in the cave.

Xie Chenwei soon discovered that even if he took dozens of antidepressants, it was useless. This only made him start dreaming with his eyes open.

When Xie Chenwei began to see Chu Xia more and more frequently at home, sometimes he was seen doing his homework seriously at the desk, sometimes he was wearing a cute apron doing dark cooking in the kitchen, and he was even very clear when he was sleepingWhen heard the sound of Chu Xia snoring while sleeping...

Xie Chenwei knew that his bipolar disorder must have exploded again.

When he went to see Dr. Fang Rui, Dr. Fang was taken aback by his recent state, because Xie Chenwei has always been the one with the best treatment effect among the bipolar patients she has handled.

She earnestly advised him that if he didn't give himself a leave of absence for treatment, the consequences would be disastrous.Because auditory hallucinations and visual hallucinations are already very serious symptoms.

Xie Chenwei didn't care much, because he knew that if he didn't work, his depression would only get worse.But he knew that his recent state had seriously affected other employees of the company, so he still gave himself a vacation.

On the third day of the holiday at home, Zhu Ying, accompanied by Aunt Hui, came to visit him at home.Xie Chenwei's house was in a mess, and the housekeeping staff were not allowed to come in to clean it. Xie Chenwei slept soundly on the bed, and don't know if he really fell asleep or fell asleep after taking sleeping pills.

Seeing Xie Chenwei's bearded and embarrassed appearance, both Zhu Ying and Aunt Hui couldn't help crying.They hired a few cleaning staff to clean up the room first, while Zhu Ying went to the nearby supermarket to buy vegetables in person.

When Aunt Hui was cleaning Xie Chenwei's bedroom, seeing the young master who had grown up with him in such a decadent state, she sighed a long time, hesitated for a long time, and said: "Mr.I’ve thought about this sentence for a long time, and I still want to tell you.”

The author has something to say:

Have you eaten mooncakes yet?Happy Mid-Autumn Festival!

Don't worry everyone, there will be a turning point soon.