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Chapter 45
"Shao Wenzhuo."
Ye Zeyi became emotional, his chest heaved, he tried his best to breathe calmly, held Shao Wenzhuo's face, and looked straight into his eyes: "Are you awake now?"
Shao Wenzhuo's eyes were heavy, he couldn't distinguish drunkenness, with a strong nasal voice, his voice was very hoarse: "Ah Ze."
Ye Zeyi's heart was beating faster and faster, her mind was in chaos, she didn't know where to start her thoughts, and her throat became more and more dry because of the tense emotions: "What did you just say... What do you mean? What do you have a fever?"?”
Shao Wenzhuo raised his head, with trivial lights in his eyes, his brows frowned slightly, his eyes seemed to become dark and turbulent because of these words, the light disappeared from his eyes, and was covered by some thrilling emotions.
Ye Zeyi has seen his paranoid and sinister gaze, his affectionate and possessive gaze, but he has never seen anything like this. He seems to want to avoid his gaze, but he can't move away from Ye Zeyi's face instinctively.Half an inch, that kind of eyes are weird and sad.
is sad.
Shao Wenzhuo was sad.
Ye Zeyi was burned by his gaze, as if the pause button had been pressed suddenly, her heart constricted suddenly, and her brain was buzzing and trembling.
He saw Shao Wenzhuo slightly twitch the corner of his mouth, and said slowly and calmly: "I found Ah Ze in the snow...I took him home and wanted to secretly take it for myself."
"I proposed to Ah Ze and wanted to take care of him for the rest of his life...he didn't answer me." Shao Wenzhuo's eyelids drooped slightly, his eyes became more sad, and his voice was muffled: "He has a fever and can't remember what I said.He said many times..."
He seemed to be talking about something calmly, without any extra emotions or foreshadowing, but Ye Zeyi was stunned, his heart sore, and he couldn't say a word in a daze.
The recurring dream in his head became clearer.
Time went back to the previous life, the day when Shao Wenzhuo carried him home from the side of the road.
The same heavy snowfall, dim street lights and the sound of firecrackers resounding through the streets, black Bentley car lights pierced the night and stopped on the side of the road. Before Ye Zeyi closed his eyes, he saw a man wearing a black coat pouring under the moonlight, from far to near, grabbed all of his sight, he rushed here, just like when he was a boy, and arrived at every moment when Ye Zeyi needed him.
Ye Zeyi was lying on an unfamiliar big bed, the lights in the room were cold and white, and there were vague needles and ticking sounds of medical instruments.
The figure was far away and near, and it was unclear whether it was real or not.
He vaguely heard the whispering of the doctor's servant, but he couldn't make out what was said, and there was a cold and familiar voice mixed with it.
That person would talk to him sometimes, but he didn't know what he was talking about. Most of the time, he sat silently beside his bed for an unknown how long. Ye Zeyi woke up vaguely many times, and could see his figure.
For several days in a row, Ye Zeyi felt hot all over and shivered from the cold again and again, as if drowning in a swamp full of ice and fire, unable to use any strength, and would fall into a bottomless abyss with a little effort.
Until one night, he felt that the bed beside him sank, and someone hugged him from behind. At that moment, his ups and downs were caught and taut, and slowly fell to the ground, with a place to return to.
Ye Zeyi's throat was dry and tight, and the words he uttered were indistinct, but the person holding him seemed to know what he was talking about. He called him Ah Ze over and over again, and repeatedly told Ye Zeyi his name.
"A Ze."
"it's me."
"Shao Wenzhuo."
Ye Zeyi repeated his name vaguely: "Shao... Wen Zhuo."
"I am here."
In the ears are repeated gentle trivial voices.
"I'm back."
"Don't be afraid, the pain won't hurt after the fever subsides... I'll take care of you in the future, okay?"
"Shall we get married?"
"Ah Ze, do you want to marry me...I miss you very much."
...
The memory came back, but Ye Zeyi didn't come back to his senses for a long time.
Shao Wenzhuo scraped his face with his fingers, hooked his neck down, and kissed his lips gently and slowly. Ye Zeyi's eyes were sore and his heart ached from his kiss.
Shao Wenzhuo kissed from his lips to his cheek, and suddenly tasted a piece of saltiness. He froze for a moment, most of the alcohol sobered up.He raised Ye Zeyi's face to look at him, his heart hurt from his red eyes, and he couldn't help frowning: "Ah Ze, what's wrong with you?"
Ye Zeyi coldly pursed his lips, frowned, and suddenly seemed to have returned to the sharp and weird boy many years ago. Without saying a word, he lowered his head and bit Shao Wenzhuo's lips again.
This bite was very heavy, as if confirming the truth of this person. It was not until Shao Wenzhuo took a heavy breath from his nose that he turned away a little bit, and asked with a frown, "Why don't you hide?"
Shao Wenzhuo's heart was sore, his fingertips passed under Ye Zeyi's eyes, and he said softly, "Ah Ze kissed me, how could I hide."
Ye Zeyi frowned tightly, her eyes were getting redder and her voice was trembling.
"Shao Wenzhuo, do you believe in rebirth?"
Shao Wenzhuo woke up completely.
He went through tonight's events in his mind, and at this moment he suddenly realized that the bloody memories of the past that he wanted to hide had been uprooted.
Finally couldn't hide anymore.
Shao Wenzhuo thought that Ye Zeyi didn't remember what happened during the few days when he had a fever.
That was the beginning of their marriage in the previous life. He despicably wanted to confine Ye Zeyi by his side, obsessively and carefully described every inch of Ye Zeyi's eyebrows and eyes, and stroked his cheek.
He told Ye Zeyi: "Ah Ze, I'm back."
I don't know how many times Shao Wenzhuo told Ye Zeyi about this. Every time Ye Zeyi fell asleep and woke up, he would repeatedly ask who he was, and Shao Wenzhuo took the trouble to answer him over and over again.
"Ah Ze has a fever."
"I'm here with you, Ah Ze, don't be afraid."
Shao Wenzhuo wiped his face, opened his pajamas and wiped his neck, chest, arms and waist, and wiped every inch of skin on his body.Worried that Ye Zeyi would catch a cold, he had to re-warm the water after wiping the towel twice each time. The whole process was time-consuming and labor-intensive, but Shao Wenzhuo did not allow his servants to do this, and no one was allowed to touch it except the doctor.
The servant didn't understand why he was so extreme, and the assistants and bodyguards didn't dare to speak.
No one understood why, only Shao Wenzhuo himself knew.
He has suffered a lot in the past two years abroad, bearing the pain of the death of his parents, and burdened with an overwhelmed burden, but he has always been calm and steady, that kind of calm is almost indifferent, like a bottomless pool of stagnant water,There is no trace of popularity on him.
Ye Zeyi seemed to have become a gap in his stagnant water, and when he touched it, he set off a stormy sea, which was paranoid and violent, and extremely violent.
Ye Zeyi was the only obsession he had grasped in the bottomless abyss in the past two years, the only ray of light he put on the tip of his heart, which gave him an untouchable weakness and an indestructiblearmor.
He wanted this man so badly.
I don't know since when, there is no exact moment, that clean and thorny Ah Ze has densely climbed to his heart. He has experienced the feeling of heart constriction, and felt that the blood is throbbing because of a person.Limbs and bones ran wildly.
The most direct feeling is that I want to see him, I want to talk to him, I want to make him happy, I want to protect him, and I hope his eyes will stay on me.
Day after day, each day was more dissatisfied than the day before.
Those few days were Chinese New Year, a time of joy for the whole family, but Shao Wenzhuo did not intend to send anyone home. In fact, no one was waiting for Ye Zeyi to come home.Despised by everyone, like a homeless child.
Shao Wenzhuo felt that he was despicable, and he felt badly fortunate in some moments, but after that, he had the despicable thought that he was alone.
He looked paranoidly at the unconscious man on the bed, repeatedly and restraintly brushed his fingertips over his burning eyes, and kissed his dry and pale lips.
He is possessed, but he is sober, he just wants Ye Zeyi.
...
Shao Wenzhuo closed his eyes, and when he opened them, his eyes were blurred, and he said, "I believe it."
These two words are like a switch, and Ye Zeyi's tense emotions all night burst instantly. He has never experienced this feeling before, like a heavy blow from the sky, smashing him to pieces in an instant, before speaking.His psychological construction was razed to the ground, smashing him to a complete breakdown.
Ye Zeyi had never cried, at least not in front of people. He was tortured to death by tear gas bombs in the car that day. He felt that his physical tears might have been squeezed dry, but now he was completely out of emotional control, as if returning toOn that day, he gritted his teeth tightly, his whole body was numb as if being shocked by an electric shock, and big tears fell down uncontrollably...
Shao Wenzhuo felt pain in his heart when he saw it, and finally couldn't take it anymore, he put his arms around Ye Zeyi's waist and turned him on his body, and chased after Ye Zeyi's lips, kissing him deeply and deeply.
In the dead of night, the room was filled with lights and shadows.
There was a strong smell of wine between the lips and tongues of the two of them. They were entangled in this bewildering drunkenness. Ye Zeyi's heart constricted and went numb. He tightly hooked Shao Wenzhuo's neck, biting his lips out of control.Tongue and teeth collided, causing bursts of sharp tingling pain. Ye Zeyi enjoyed this feeling like crazy, because it made him feel clear and real, knowing that this was not a whole dream.
No wonder Shao Wenzhuo knows so many things, he knows the floor of his apartment, he knows that he doesn't like to wear shoes, he knows that he needs a pillow to sleep, and he can find the nib he put in the cabinet with ease...
He didn't understand why Shao Wenzhuo was so kind to him, why he always looked at him so wildly and enthusiastically, he couldn't figure out how a person's affection came so suddenly.
Now he understands, because he saw him disappear with his own eyes, and he came with the memory of two lives, so he can bury such a deep love in his heart.
There was a faint smell of blood in his mouth, but Ye Zeyi still refused to separate the slightest bit, as if this was the only way to relieve the pain from his heart. He tore off Shao Wenzhuo's collar, desperately wanting more, his voice was unbelievably hoarse:"Why didn't you tell me sooner."
Shao Wenzhuo touched Ye Zeyi's hot skin with his fingertips, and kissed from the corner of his mouth to the tip of his ears. He didn't answer, but kissed Ye Zeyi deeply, and told him word by word: "Ah Ze...I love you."
He actually wanted to keep this secret;
He didn't want to tell Ye Zeyi that he came from a far away place.
There is a bottomless black abyss, full of glacial gravel and bloody minions, he crossed time and went retrograde for countless seasons before he got the chance to love him again.
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