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Chapter 46
I can't remember how many times woke up from the nightmare.
Obviously afraid of losing, but he always seems to be losing.
During the few seconds when he crushed his heart, he seemed to think about nothing, and at the same time, he seemed to think about everything.He didn't want to lose Huo Zeyu anymore, he never knew that Huo Zeyu was so important to him before.
Four years, but only four years, let him hover on the verge of collapse.Only by constantly collecting everything about Huo Zeyu and barely retaining the slightest thoughts can he survive.
Everyone in the world knows that His Majesty has been glorious and magnificent for the past four years, and he has fought in all directions. Everyone praises his achievements, but no one knows that he tosses and turns sleeplessly every night.
Closing his eyes, he saw his corpse blooming like a flower in the snow.
Seeing his delicate memories of himself,
I heard him laugh wantonly and call himself "Aye".
I am sick with longing.
The doctor said that this was a flashback, and the surface looked glamorous, but in fact the foundation had been slowly hollowed out.He also knows that he will not live long, he is like a walking dead, he just wants to fulfill Huo Zeyu's last wish, and wants to do something for the world he once lived in.
At least that way, he will see him downstairs, and the two of them can have a few words.
He knew he was wrong, the moment he saw Zhou Zeyu, he knew he was wrong, he really couldn't live any longer, he didn't dare to explore the truth, he was at the end of the road, if you give him hope and then give him despair,What should he do?
But he never knew that the most taboo thing in relationships is suspicion and avoidance, and only sincerity can be exchanged for sincerity.Unfortunately, by the time he knew it, it was already too late.
"Ze... Yu... brother."
He stretched out his hand and grabbed the muddy water on the ground, wanting to get closer to the young man.He heard his rotten pleading voice, he thought that he must be extremely ugly at the moment, he felt his own life disappearing, he was about to lose the strength to speak, and when his spiritual power completely disappeared, he could not even speak.No one can remember the youth again.
He tried his best to raise his head, and looked at the same young man as he remembered.This look made him seem to go back to the past. He didn't know whether it was the rainy night when his parents died in front of his eyes, and they also reached out to him like this, or it was the night when he was about to die, and the young man rescued him.
He still remembered the smell of the young man that day, like the fragrance of herbs and the elegant breath of the moon.Brother Zeyu, it's been ten years, why haven't you changed at all.
But he has changed, he has become dilapidated, and he is no longer qualified to see him.
"Fu Ye."
He heard Huo Zeyu call him that.
He likes to hear Huo Zeyu call him Aye, which is their unique pet name. When Huo Zeyu calls him Aye, he is pampered, full of love, and full of security. He can feel that he is loved.How much he wanted to hear him call himself Aye again.
Huo Zeyu squatted down and looked at him.There wasn't even a bit of mud on his shoes, but Fu Ye's fingers were covered in mud.He suddenly felt that Huo Zeyu was far away from him, and he remembered the Huo Zeyu he saw at that time. He was going to another world he didn't know. He was afraid that Huo Zeyu would leave him, and he was even more afraid that he would never know the real Huo Zeyu.Not even memories of them.
"Can... hug me again..." Fu Ye seemed to be disconnected every time he took a breath.
The pain in the internal organs, the reason why he is not dead now is because the will of the world is being pulled away from him, and his body functions are still barely maintained.
Probably knowing that he was going to die, Huo Zeyu did not refuse Fu Ye's request.He gently hugged Fu Ye up.
"Count down five minutes."
"Congratulations, the task is completed. After five minutes, you will leave this world, return to the real world, and start your life again."
Huo Zeyu didn't answer, it seemed that it was the occasion, and the Wandering Nebula began to snow.It was clearly summer, but it was snowing, as if it was a sign of something.This day is like the day they first met, the day they ended, the day they were born again.
This place was the beginning and the end of everything for them.Huo Zeyu got up and walked out alone, Mo Luo took a step back knowingly, and signaled the others to step back, so as not to disturb the two of them.
"Do you know, Fu Ye, we shouldn't have come to such an ending."
Fu Ye heard him say.His voice was very gentle, so familiar that it made his eyes moist. He seemed to have returned to the years when they loved each other the most.The days of whispering in my ear.
"Actually, I don't care about your temper at all. How many difficulties we have faced together and who we have been bullied by. These have passed and become our precious memories."
"All I care about is your attitude, Fu Ye. You don't understand love at all. I am not your appendage, and you are not my property. We are equal, and I cannot be the object of your extramarital affair, even if it isI said it in advance. Love is about mutual respect, mutual support, and mutual cherishment. Fu Ye, I once waited for you for six years and dragged you to your current position. Today you gave these back to me.owed."
Fu Ye didn't know what he meant when he said that he owed each other, he had a premonition, just like the panic in that dream.Huo Zeyu seemed to be getting further and further away from him, and there was an unknown wall in front of them, and he couldn't even chase forward.
He wanted to say something to redeem, to stop, but after seeing Huo Zeyu's flat but determined eyes, he swallowed those words back.Silence, he said.
"I'm sorry, Brother Zeyu."
He panted, endured the pain, and said: "I used to be... too naive, too conceited. From the very beginning, I thought you were my own thing, and I possessed you domineeringly. You are right, we...We are equal. I used to be afraid, I was afraid that I would lose if I said it first, so I never, never said it. But in fact, I love you so much. I love you, everything about you makes meFascinated...I really hate that I was too weak before...That way, that way I won't let you be wronged...I only loved you, Brother Zeyu...It was you who brought me who gradually drifted out of this world, and thisThe world, connected, connected together."
It's ridiculous.
The two of them have been entangled for ten years, and this is the first and last time to show their hearts to each other.
This is a once-in-a-lifetime confession.
"After you left, I always, always hated myself, why...why didn't I put my face down, why was I so arrogant...why didn't I tell you how much I love you...I always messed things up."
"I'm going to, I'm going to die..."
"Brother Zeyu, I'm so cold... You, can you call me Aye again?"
Mental strength gradually bottomed out.
Countdown, the last ten seconds.
He looked down at Fu Ye.
"I won't let you die."
One second before he was about to leave this world, he made a move that Fu Ye could never understand.This move made Fu Ye really lose all hope and drove him crazy.He drew out his spiritual power and injected it into Fu Ye's body.Once again, to die for him.
It's a strange picture.The one who was hugging lost his life instead, and the face of the one being hugged became warmer bit by bit.
Maybe Fu Ye couldn't figure out why Huo Zeyu used his own life to save him after making him sacrifice himself for the rest of his life.
All he knew was that he had lost him again.He died because of himself again.
"Ze... Brother Yu...?" Fu Ye called out in a daze.
"Huo Zeyu...?" He stepped forward, touching his body with his hands.
He shook violently, his body trembling uncontrollably.
"Huo...Huo Zeyu...Zeyu...Brother Zeyu...Brother Zeyu...Don't, don't, why, don't, don't do this, Brother Zeyu, why did you save me, why did Brother Zeyu...It's not that you don't love me anymore...Aren't you clear...Brother Zeyu——"
No one knew how Fu Ye came back that day.It's just that he couldn't cry anymore. Although he was alive, he was no different from dead.
A Ran felt that it would be better for him to die directly, so that he would not have to live in this world and suffer.She thought, how can you love him like this, you obviously hate him so much, that's why you let Fu Ye live.Fu Ye loved Huo Zeyu so much, Huo Zeyu tried his best to let him live, how should he die now.He can only live the rest of his life with this painful curse.But A Ran also thought... that's fine, that's fine, he killed your lord, he deserves it.
In the end, the lord didn't even leave the body. When Fu Ye came back, A Ran only saw him holding a ball of clothes. No one knew where Huo Zeyu's body went. A Ran heard that it disappeared out of thin air, because the lordDon't you even want to leave them with memories?
A Ran thinks that the adult is a gentle and cruel person.
A lot of people came here intermittently in the past few days.
There was a monster who wanted to take away the adult's clothes, but Fu Ye refused, and he didn't even bother. He kept holding the adult's clothes in the same position for a long time, neither eating nor drinking, like a crumbling mountain.
When Mr. Monster saw this, he didn't insist anymore, but kept silent, and said with a hint of gloating: "Fu Ye, you have to eat, sleep, and live. You want to live your life with guilt towards him."In regret and remorse, I will definitely witness the day you die in embarrassment."
Aran didn't know the love and hatred between them, but only felt the strong hatred and disgust from Mr. Monster.Mr. Monster is also crazy, but he doesn't seem to be crazy.How to describe this feeling?Hmm—probably, he is like a scallop, the shell is still there, but the soft meat inside is gone.
Yes, his light was gone, so he died with it.
Fu Ye ignored him, and Mr. Monster left.Afterwards, a few people came one after another. One was a man with a strong figure. He looked very calm, but he was a bit older. His face was covered with beards, and there was an unspeakable silence spreading around him.The other was a sentinel wearing a peaked cap. He didn't say anything, but shed tears silently in front of the grave for a long time.The bearded man might be crying too, Aran didn't know, they left without saying anything, like a wind lingering here, like a mountain.
Later, Aran knew the two people who came.The blond man in a white suit looked like he was going to a wedding. He stood in the wind and played the violin all night.It wasn't hard to know who he was, Alan Davis, she knew him.
The silver-haired wolf-tailed man was Lei Wenshu, Lei's only son. He didn't bring anything with him, and he didn't do anything. He just slept in front of the grave for several nights.The dark circles under his eyes were heavy when he came, but they were lighter when he left, as if sleeping here would give him peace of mind.really weird.A Ran struggled for a long time whether to report him, because Lei Shi was looking for him, and he had been missing for a long time.But Aran still didn't say anything, maybe everyone has their own life, that's not something she can disturb.She misses adults very much, and others also miss adults, but they behave in different ways.
Later, Fu Ye started to eat, and he began to eat and sleep normally. After another year, everything seemed to be back to the original track, as if he had never been back.
But everyone knew it wasn't like that, those people still came from time to time, and Fu Ye was not well either, he looked normal, but normal was scary, he had no emotions, just lived like a robot.
In fact, Fu Ye doesn't know everything. Once A Ran heard him laughing and said, he was in a state of madness: "Huo Zeyu, you said you don't love me, but I know you never loved me at all, otherwise why would you love me?"Will you be so cruel? You never loved me at all, you don't even want to hate me, I'm like your dog, a toy, you can give me your life because I need it, right?Brother Zeyu, I am willing to die for you, don’t be so cruel, okay? I am willing, Brother Zeyu..."
He has the habit of sleeping with that piece of clothing in his arms. One night when Aran woke up, he suddenly wanted to see the adults. Halfway there, he saw a man sitting in front of the tomb with his head resting on the clothes, sleeping soundly.Very peaceful.
He suddenly thought, is he dead?
A Ran shook his head, maybe he was just like himself, suddenly wanted to visit him at night, and then fell asleep in front of his grave.
Aran didn't bother him, she left.The snow followed her footprints when she left, layer after layer.
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