During the month when Xie Yao disappeared, Zhou Qiming couldn't sleep well every night.

I don't know if it's because of psychological effects. Since Xie Yao left, the weather has been raining intermittently. Whenever it rains, he can't restrain the memories deep in his heart, thinking of the one who once added a touch to his life.A person of color, until now he realized that Xie Yao had already occupied a very important part of his life.

So when Xie Yao proposed to leave and dissolve all relations with him, he always avoided subconsciously. Relying on Xie Yao's liking for him, he did things that hurt him recklessly, and always deceived himself by saying that heHow could he fall in love with such a scheming person, and how could he not let go.

In the end, I was the one who really couldn't let go.

After bidding farewell to Chen Yi that day, Zhou Qiming smoked a cigarette downstairs alone for a long time. The rain under the eaves began to rain heavily again at some point, and the rain soaked the last cigarette in his hand, but Zhou Qiming didn't care too much., just threw the cigarette butts into the trash can, and then walked home alone in the rain.

Probably because of the rainy weather, people coming and going were in a hurry, so naturally not many people noticed him.

Zhou Qiming pondered for a long time that night, deducing the scene where he and Xie Yao met again in his mind over and over again. He imagined countless possibilities, but in the end he realized that he had no chance to say any regrets, and there was nothing he could do to make up for it.can not do this.

Ever since he knew that Xie Yao had left, he had used all his connections to get people to look for him, but he knew that the chances were slim, and no matter how hard he tried to find him, it would be futile.

Xie Yao wanted to hide from him, so how could he find it easily.

But he still refused to give up. Until now, Zhou Qiming really realized what he had lost. He was annoyed and remorseful, and wanted to find Xie Yao to explain to him those words that he had never been able to say.

But he may not have another chance.

After that, Zhou Qiming returned to the crew to continue filming. During the day, he maintained his professional ethics and devoted himself to the role as much as possible, but every time he was free, he couldn't help but think of Xie Yao in his mind.

To be honest, he hates this feeling, hates that nothing can be changed, hates himself who is powerless.This kind of self reminded him of himself when he was a child, and he was so powerless to everything in reality.

The negative days seem to pass very slowly, but time slips away in the midst of busyness, and the time soon approaches the New Year, and the plot in the play has come to an end.

Ren Qilin is a person who attaches great importance to traditional festivals, so he started to catch up with the progress, and even Huang Mengjie started to get serious, and the number of NGs was much less.

Huang Mengjie complained to Zhou Qiming in private about the seriousness of Ren Qilin's emphasis on traditional festivals. Later Zhou Qiming found out that Ren Qilin had a very good relationship with his mother.

After Xie Yao left, Huang Mengjie was the only one among Xie Yao's friends who did not resist him, and was even willing to talk to him actively. Zhou Qiming never asked Huang Mengjie why, but she was willing to talk to him, and she was just like thatListen quietly.

It's funny to say that in the end, the two became friends.Over the years, Zhou Qiming has very few people who can be called friends. He still has a strong sense of defense against everyone as before, and he is unwilling to entrust all his appearance to others easily, so from high school to now, apart from Zhuang Yu who played with him since he was a child, the only friends he can talk to are Lin Song and Zhang Yuqing.

Compared with these three friends, Huang Mengjie is obviously more noisy. She always likes to pull herself to watch some nonsensical videos, and asks herself if she is funny, but Zhou Qiming knows that this is her way of comforting others.

Speaking of friends, since Xie Yao left, the relationship between myself and Zhuang Yu has become more and more distant. At first, after I came back, Zhuang Yu didn't notice it.Scenes and so on, but apart from the scenes, Zhou Qiming had almost zero communication with him.

Aware of his dislike towards him, Zhuang Yu wisely stopped seeking out Zhou Qiming to ask for trouble, and this silent relationship was maintained until the day of the finale.

The filming time was three days before the new year, and Ren Qilin finally caught up with the schedule, leading the whole crew to officially complete the filming before the new year.

In the last scene Zhou Qiming completed, he was wearing a thin windbreaker and fell into a pool of blood. This was his final ending. He did not usher in justice, and the person standing opposite him was wearing gold-rimmed glasses.Zhuang Yu in the frame showed a cruel smile that had been suppressed for a long time.

The last scene went smoothly, and it passed straight away. As soon as Ren Qilin yelled "Ka", Xiaoli immediately came up with a down jacket. After all, it was the end of January, and the weather was really cold. The wind blowing on people's faces made people hurt.As the New Year approaches, it would be really disturbing to get sick at this node.

After it was over, Zhuang Yu also came up to greet him immediately. He was a little nervous, called Zhou Qiming's name, and asked worriedly, "Is it cold? Don't freeze. I'll ask my assistant..."

"No need," Zhou Qiming refused very simply, without even looking at Zhuang Yu, "Don't bother me." Then, without turning his head, he just left, leaving Zhuang Yu standing alone.

At night, Zhou Qiming was lying on the bed, tossing and turning, unable to fall asleep. He closed his eyes, but some fragments kept flashing back and forth in his mind, chaotic, broken and irregular.

He opened his eyes, and all those images disappeared, but the first image he opened his eyes was the appearance of Xie Yao following the New Year in previous years, begging him to take him back.

Every New Year, Xie Yao said that he would go back to celebrate the New Year with him, but he never brought him home once.Over the years, his schedule has been very full. Basically, he can only rest for three days during the New Year, and he only squeezed out time after he canceled some programs and activities.

But even so, Zhou Qiming is still determined to go back to accompany his mother for the New Year's Eve dinner every New Year's Eve.When Yuan Xiaofeng was young, because he chose his beloved regardless of his own life, he severed ties with his family and never had any contact with him again.Zhou Qiming knew that although his mother was a teacher, she was always stubborn and unwilling to adapt to her own affairs. Even in the year of her father's death and Yuan Xiaofeng's most collapsed year, she never showed weakness to her family.

When he was young, he didn't understand why his mother was so strong. Later, when he grew up, he began to understand that it was probably because his mother didn't want people in the family to say that his father was bad, so even if she didn't contact her, she didn't want to go home.Let him count down his lover.

New Year's Eve is a day for family reunion. If Zhou Qiming doesn't go back during the New Year, his mother will have to spend the holiday alone. Although he knows that his mother always says that it doesn't matter if she is busy with work and can't come back., but he knew that deep down in his mother's heart, he was still looking forward to being able to go home during the Chinese New Year.

So every new year, he would return home rain or shine, without any hesitation.

After Xie Yao maintained a nurturing relationship with him, Xie Yao always said that he would go back with him to have a look, and that he could help him when he went back, and boasted that he could make dumplings, as if this was an amazing skill.

But for a young master like Xie Yao, knowing how to make dumplings is indeed a very powerful thing. After all, he has never touched the spring water since he was a child, let alone take the initiative to cook or something.So in the past, Zhou Qiming always refused his request to go back with him.

Every time after being rejected, Xie Yao looked very unhappy, but Zhou Qiming didn't understand, Xie Yao and his family had such a good relationship, why was he reluctant to go home for a reunion during the New Year and followed him back, but he didn't ask too much, after allHe always said to himself that Xie Yao's matter had nothing to do with him.

And then, every time he went home, he would always receive a call from Xie Yao when he was having a New Year's Eve dinner with Yuan Xiaofeng.Every time Xie Yao would tell himself miserably that he had already arrived downstairs at his house, it was too cold outside, and he didn't eat the meal on the plane, he was really hungry.

In this regard, Zhou Qiming has always maintained a cold attitude. After all, he never asked Xie Yao to come back with him from the beginning to the end, and he clearly expressed his refusal. He really didn't understand why Xie Yao wanted to go home with him.This thing is so persistent.

But Xie Yao wouldn't give up so easily. With Zhou Qiming ignoring him, he knew to book a room in a nearby hotel and wait for Zhou Qiming in the hotel. Xie Yao was always betting, betting on Zhou QimingNot so cruel, betting that Zhou Qiming would not completely ignore him.

In fact, he was indeed betting right. Every time Zhou Qiming responded to his bombarding messages, he would always reply with two words indifferently after a while, "address."

But even so, Xie Yao also knew that this was a sign of Zhou Qiming's soft heart. If he didn't care, he wouldn't take the initiative to ask his address, so when Zhou Qiming asked, Xie Yao immediately sent his address.

Zhou Qiming would not come very soon, but Xie Yao didn't mind. He came in a hurry and his clothes were thinner. He was afraid of the cold, even if the air conditioner was turned on indoors, he still felt cold, so he wouldI huddled myself into a ball with the quilt, then watched TV, and waited patiently for Zhou Qiming's arrival.

He can always wait until the person who is obviously impatient with him comes to him with a box of hot dumplings. At this time, Zhou Qiming will tell himself to sleep for a night after eating the dumplings, and go back tomorrow.I won't take care of him in this place, let alone bring him home.

But Xie Yao didn't listen, Zhou Qiming stubbornly wanted him to leave, and he was equally stubborn to stay by Zhou Qiming's side.

But now, Xie Yao really left, but Zhou Qiming couldn't be happy anymore, as if there was a big hole in his heart, but the wound couldn't be closed no matter what.