Dark clouds drifted by, and the moon hid behind the clouds.The moonlight was covered, and Sheng Min's eyebrows also dimmed.

It took Li Xuan a long time to understand the meaning of his words, and it took even longer to regain his ability to speak, but he still spoke dryly: "You don't want to see me again."

"You shouldn't see me again." Sheng Min sat up straight after drinking the last sip of wine.

"Why?" After Li Xuan finished speaking, he answered the stupid question himself, with a low voice, "I'm bothering you, am I?"

Sheng Min shook his head: "I've been bothering you all this time."

Li Xuan's lips moved, but he couldn't speak, and Sheng Min didn't allow him to speak.

"Do you remember when you woke up in the hospital? You said, it seemed like it was the first time you saw me like this." Sheng Min smiled softly, with a rare bit of cunning, "Actually, I lied that day... I used to see meI missed you, you don’t remember, I actually forgot too. The day I decided to die, I remembered it again...I didn’t know you at that time, but you were the last one I remembered before I diedpeople."

He didn't know when there was a yellowed lottery paper in his hand, and it could be seen that it was well kept by the owner without any creases.

"I brought you into this, even though you don't admit it, but I think it's true... I didn't tell you, I'm sorry... Now that I tell you, I feel much better." Sheng Min played with his handsI don't know where to look, "But I don't regret it at all... I don't intend to die, but if I go back to that day, I have to use that way to see you, I stillI will cut that knife without hesitation..."

He paused and sighed softly: "During this time apart, I often think of the days we spent together, every detail is like a dream... But it's not fair to you."

"How do you know this is not a good dream for me." Li Xuan was silent for a long time, his voice was barely audible.

Sheng Min curled the corners of his lips, and didn't look at him: "It's a good dream, a bad dream, and there will always be a time when you have to wake up."

His remaining body temperature was gradually receding from Li Xuan's shoulders, but his tone and expression were still gentle: "I know why you came today, and I also know that you have been hesitating during this time."

The river was flowing slowly, and Sheng Min's voice was more gentle than the river: "But Li Xuan, if you think something is right and what you want, then you don't have to think about it... When you are thinking, yourI already have the answer in my heart.”

Hearing this, Li Xuan frowned, but Sheng Min still shook his head, and quickly made a silent gesture.

"Did you see the bridge over there?" He pointed his finger in the air.

It was a wooden bridge, far away, and the locals called it the Wind and Rain Bridge.There was no wind or rain at the moment, and the shadow of the bridge floated along with the river, crumbling.

"It's the same with us." Lowering his hands, Sheng Min's eyes were deep and quiet, "All your self-doubts are just the drawbridge effect."

"No!" Li Xuan flatly denied it.For a moment, I couldn't find any more words, and my breath was short, and I repeated it again, that's not the case.

The lips are tightly pursed, and the curvature of the corners of the lips is sharp.

Sheng Min lowered his eyes, without arguing, he gently pulled his wrist, opened his palm that was clenched into a fist at some point, and put the lottery paper in his palm: "Isn't it, it's not that important...I'll give you back this one."You and I……"

In the end, he still didn't finish speaking, so he stopped here abruptly.After a while, Sheng Min smiled, stared at him and said two words silently, got up and left without warning.

Li Xuan stared blankly at the yellowed paper in his hand, he had no idea what it was, let alone what Sheng Min wanted to pay him back.

He hurriedly looked at Sheng Min's back, he was still drunk, his steps were not too steady, but he didn't stop at one step, let alone look back.Only the sound of footsteps echoed softly on the slate.

Those last two words are goodbye.Li Xuan finally realized his silent words, but Sheng Min clearly said not to meet each other.

He came back to his senses, and without even thinking about chasing after him, he grabbed Sheng Min's hand from behind in a embarrassed posture.

Sheng Min was almost staggered, turned his face away, not much emotion could be seen between his brows.

Li Xuan looked like a seriously ill person, looking at him, he felt like he was constantly moving his hands and feet, and he didn't know who was the more drunk one: "Where are you going?"

It took a long time to squeeze out this sentence, and said in a calm voice, "I'll see you off."

"No need." Sheng Min shook his head lightly, "I'm going back to the set today, the plane at seven o'clock, I sent a message to Yang Xu, he is already on his way...it's too late, you go back later, drivecareful."

Li Xuan's heart fluctuated, he held his wrist, and refused to let go.

Thin sweat was meant to smudge on the skins of the two, and it was hard to tell who it was from.

Sheng Min sighed almost inaudibly: "Li Xuan, I didn't mean to involve you. But I really let you go. You have delayed for too long. Let's move on."

The words have been exhausted here, this time Sheng Min easily broke free, but was caught again in the next second.

"Are you going to let me go or give up on me?" Li Xuan frowned, his Adam's apple moved up and down, "I'm going forward, can't I have you in front of me?"

He looked quite calm.Too much composure makes everything look like paper camouflage.

"It's up to you to decide." Sheng Min was always gentle and calm, "If you don't have an answer, it's the answer itself."

Li Xuan seemed to be stiff all over, staring at him fixedly, thinking repeatedly in his mind, is that so?Answer, where does he have any answer?How did Sheng Min come to a conclusion?

"I have always been grateful to you, from the time we met to today." Sheng Min continued, "But we have changed back. I have never been your responsibility, and I am no longer your burden...The birthday is over,After twelve o'clock, the pumpkin carriage will turn back into a pumpkin..."

He told a not-so-funny joke, and it was hard for him to force a full smile.

A normal childhood is a luxury for them. They don't read fairy tales and don't believe in miracles.But they were indeed miracles that came to each other's lives.

Unfortunately, the tasting period has passed.

Sheng Min exhaled, his Adam's apple moved slightly, and his tone and attitude were sincere: "There is no need to procrastinate any longer, and you don't have to be soft-hearted towards me, neither. The farewell is long enough. If you can't say it,Then I say, in this way, the best relationship we have is not even being friends anymore..."

"You can judge your feelings, but you can't make decisions for me." The brain is still confused, but the intuition drives Li Xuan to interrupt him hastily, "You are always discussing me, what about you? What are you thinking?"

His hands tightly wrapped around Sheng Min's wrists, and he was shocked to find that he was surprisingly thin, and the bones of his wrists were so tight that his palms ached.

Sheng Min lowered his eyes and looked at Li Xuan's knuckles that turned white from too much force: "Can we stop circling around this issue..."

"I want you to tell me!"

His emotions came for no reason. After a long period of stalemate, Sheng Min finally showed the first trace of fatigue that night: "Li Xuan, it's easy for you to handle me. You know, I can't do anything to you."

Hearing this, Li Xuan's heart was shaken, he couldn't hold it any longer, and loosened his grip.

The moon came out again, but Sheng Min's eyes were still blurry. The only thing that was clear was that Li Xuan couldn't find any satisfaction or joy at the moment when Sheng Min revealed his true heart.

A glaring red mark was pinched on Sheng Min's porcelain-like wrist.Li Xuan moved his fingertips slightly and wanted to touch them, but finally lowered his hands again.

"It doesn't hurt." Sensing his gaze, Sheng Min silently hid her hands behind her back.

Finally, the wind picked up, and the stream rippling, smashing the dim shadow of the bridge.He thought, perhaps Sheng Min was right, it was indeed the suspension bridge effect.But Li Xuan was not sure when he quietly set foot on this bridge, let alone whether he would leave one day.

"Let me think about it." Li Xuan said, every word was difficult, "Give me some time."

Sheng Min thought it shouldn't be, he wanted to refuse.Everything tonight is to free Li Xuan from the situation where the painting is a prison.But he had no chance of winning in front of Li Xuan.Although even Li Xuan didn't look like a winner.

"I don't have a certain answer, you can do whatever you want." Sheng Min finally said this.

The moon has set and the sun has not yet risen.

Before dawn, Sheng Min left alone, his thin back melted into the night, and Li Xuan had the illusion that he was losing him.

Did he get it?

I sat by the river for a long time holding the lottery, my black T-shirt was soaked with dew and disappeared in the rising temperature of the morning.

The clouds in the sky are light gray, and unknown birds pass by without a trace.

Li Xuan remembered what Sheng Min said at the hospital that day.

Don't be afraid, it's fine.

He never took this sentence to heart, and never thought he was afraid of anything.But on this ordinary summer morning when the morning star had not yet set, he finally got a glimpse of a dark cloud deep in his heart.

It turned out that he was really afraid. He was afraid that this was love, and even more afraid that it was not.