The night wind was still blowing, and even tended to intensify, causing the tall trees beside him to rustle, but it made everything look more lonely.

Neither of them are people who are too taboo about life and death. After a brief surprise, Sheng Min calmly moved his eyes away from the word "Li Xuan" on the tombstone, and asked the person beside him softly, "What was your original name?"

Li Xuan took his hand, and his fingertips slid across his palm to write two words.Sheng Min slowly closed his palms, looked up at him, thought for a while and said, "I'm still used to calling you Li Xuan."

Li Xuan smiled slightly: "I don't think this is a very important matter."

Sheng Min also smiled, not too successful, and asked, "Why did Zhao Jizhe call you nineteen?"

"Because I am the nineteenth child adopted by that orphanage." The answer is unexpectedly simple, "The children who enter the orphanage will be given a new name, which may be for management, or for us andCutting it off in the past... actually doesn't work."

Li Xuan shrugged indifferently: "When it was my turn, the person who registered was too lazy, so he just wrote one in order."

His tone was very casual, and he lightly pressed Sheng Min's slightly frowned eyebrows and continued: "I stayed there until I was eleven years old, and then I ran out, as I told you before... After arriving in N City, probablyFor two or three years, I lived in Qingshui Lane in the south of the city, but it's a pity that you live in the north of the city, otherwise I might have met you earlier."

Qingshui Lane, with its quiet-sounding name, is actually the most chaotic place in the city.

It was an urban village at the earliest time. With the adjustment of the city's industrial structure, factories and workers migrated along with it. Over time, it was divided and occupied by various theft gangs, red-light districts and underground casinos.He ran away from the orphanage, he had no household registration, no identity, and he didn't want to be sent back. Only in such a place can he escape from survival.

At first Li Xuan took Zhao Jizhe to sleep under the bridge, but soon someone came to him under the guise of collecting protection money.They don't really care about the two steel coins in their pockets, just bullying people who are more embarrassed than themselves is a source of fun in itself.

But no one really got that kind of fun from Li Xuan.

At that time, Li Xuan was young. Although he was already tall enough, his body was too thin due to long-term malnutrition, like a reed, but it was the most difficult to break.

There were a lot of people who made trouble for him, and he suffered a lot when he first arrived, but no one really got any benefits from him.

Soon the group of gangsters in Qingshui Lane knew that the new taciturn boy was a ruthless character. When he was fighting, his dark and indifferent eyes seemed to be facing a group of dead people.Kick the opponent's ribs.

As time goes by, no one provokes him anymore, maybe it's not scary, after all, he's just a kid in his teens.But no one wants to provoke a lunatic.

So Li Xuan was able to stay there, year after year.

He has washed and cleaned the dishes, collected debts, and visited the casino. Li Xuan has never been at the gambling table, but he can count and can accurately see who is paying.

...

He has done all kinds of things, and he has also been in touch with ghosts, ghosts, snakes and gods, but he made himself not belong to any category.

In the gaps between doing various odd jobs, use it to read books.He is a black man and can't go to school, so he buys all kinds of textbooks at the waste station for self-study. It doesn't matter if he doesn't get a diploma. It doesn't seem to be of any use for the time being, but nothing is left behind.

How many people laughed at him openly and secretly, like watching a monster.

Li Xuan didn't care, he knew he wouldn't rot here, even if he temporarily stayed in a place full of mud and sand, he had to forcibly plan a different way of life from others.

By the end of the second year of Qingshui Lane, Li Xuan was thirteen years old.

Taking Zhao Jizhe to move for the fourth time, he moved from an unfinished building into a house that finally did not leak.

Because several forces crushed each other, in order not to get trapped, Li Xuan had already left the casino.

It was also in that year that Qingshui Lane opened its first Internet cafe.

Computers were still a rarity back then, especially in places like Clearwater Lane.

Many people went to join in the fun, and soon became immersed in the game and couldn't extricate themselves.No matter what Li Xuan did, he was the one who got started the fastest. He saw a little opportunity in it, and earned living expenses by doing game leveling for others.

But soon he was no longer satisfied with this, and wanted to understand the logic behind everything.What's more, he found that those gangsters who smoked a cigarette were willing to spend half a month's meal money on equipment.

This is something that can make money, Li Xuan thought, he needs money.

So I searched for information through all means, and found that the thing that operates behind the game is called a program.After walking a long way, I bought my first program book at a second-hand bookstore next to a university and started to study by myself.

Internet cafes are not a suitable environment for studying - of course, Li Xuan can concentrate on no matter how noisy the place is.The problem is that he has no way to occupy a computer for a long time, and the written program will be deleted by the next person soon. He bought a USB flash drive to temporarily solve this problem, and all the written programs are saved.

But he wanted a computer, his own.Day after day this thought was stronger.

This is certainly not a mistake, but it was an extravagant expectation for him at that time.He wanted to pay the rent for his and Zhao Jizhe's daily life, and the extra money was used to buy books.So we can only be patient.

That summer, the pile of programming books that Li Xuan had learned by himself was higher than the legs of the table, and the USB drive was full of more than ten.When he went to a second-hand bookstore to buy books again, he ran into a student who was in the graduation season of that university and was selling his second-hand computer.

In the past few years, Li Xuan has also saved some money in odds and ends, but it is not much, not enough for him to buy a computer, even if it is an old one.There are still a few hundred to come and go. Give him a little more time and maybe he can raise it, but he is not the only one staring at that second-hand computer.

He asked the student to wait for him for half an hour, then turned and went to the opposite hospital.

After selling 400 milliliters of blood, it was still not enough. He asked the nurse to draw more, but was refused.When he was desperate, the nurse suddenly asked him if he would like to cooperate in an experiment.

"It won't be long." The nurse said to him, "Three hundred yuan, is it enough?"

There was no better choice at that moment.A little later, the computer may be bought by someone else.

He checked the nurse's certificate carefully and carefully. The nurse told him that this was a biological experiment of a certain university, and also took the initiative to show him the relevant qualification certificate.

He had taken all the precautions he could think of, and even resolutely and vigilantly refused the anesthesia administered by the nurse, and endured everything soberly.

In the end, Li Xuan switched to the computer he had been thinking about, but it was too painful, and he couldn't move even after buying it.Holding the computer under the flyover, lay down in the dusk in a daze.

The bookstore owner found him, looked at him pitifully, and lent him a scooter. Li Xuan felt a little better. He walked and pushed under the moonlight for two hours before taking the computer back. It was too hot, and it was the same at night. He lost blood.Duo's body was almost on the brink of heatstroke—or he might have already, but he was very happy.

So didn't know that the needle that day turned out to be the key to open Pandora's box.

"Leukemia?" Sheng Min asked softly.

A crow landed on top of the tombstone at some point, and flew away after hearing the sound of people flapping its wings.

Li Xuan shook his head: "Aplastic anemia, aplastic anemia."

"His illness...is related to Shu Xin?" Sheng Min recalled Shu Xin's weird words when he went to Li's house, and repeated that it was her fault.

Li Xuan paused for a moment: "Shu Xin used to do astrophysics research. When she was pregnant, she happened to be transferred to a physics experiment base in the northwest as a researcher... There was a radioactive material leakage accident there."

Sheng Min was startled: "It's because..."

"I don't know." Li Xuan lowered his eyes, "Who can tell if there is an inevitable connection? After the accident, Shu Xin resigned and went back to N City to give birth to a child. She grew up safe and sound until she was fourteen years old, and suddenly she fell ill one day.gone."

The most effective way to treat aplastic anemia is bone marrow transplantation, which requires HLA matching.Parents and children are usually semi-identical, which is not a good donor, and Li Mingge and Shu Xin are only children, and they only gave birth to this one child, so it is impossible to find a suitable match from the immediate family.

But fortunately, Li Minger's business was already very big at that time, and it would be easier for rich people to get whatever they wanted.

In order to increase the chances of finding a matching donor, after registering in the bone marrow bank, Li Minger spent a large sum of money to bribe the doctors and nurses in the hematology departments and central blood stations of large and small hospitals in N City, to use the medical experimentIn the name of lobbying the family members of patients who are short of money and blood sellers to sell bone marrow-these people need money and better use it.

If time goes back a bit and medicine is more developed, perhaps it doesn't need to be so troublesome, and the matching can be completed by blood injected with cell mobilization agents.Or maybe it's not bad, after all, for the rich, everything of the poor, including life, can be bought and sold, blood and bone marrow are the same.

Theoretically, the probability of successful matching between strangers is one in tens of thousands to one in millions.

But after finding a needle in a haystack, they found the fish.

"They forced you?" Sheng Min couldn't help but clenched Li Xuan's hand, his voice was as cold as ice.

"Not counting..." Li Xuan was silent for a moment, "Can I have a cigarette?"

Sheng Min looked at him for a while, then silently took out the lighter, and leaned over to light it for him.

After bringing the computer back to Qingshui Lane, Li Xuan lay in bed for two days because of the pain caused by the bone marrow puncture.

On the third day, Li Mingge's car was parked in Qingshui Lane.

Coercion and temptation, both soft and hard, have no effect on Li Xuan.Like a thin lone wolf, he stubbornly rejects all strangers.

Later Li Xuan thought about it, if he persisted, Li Mingge and Shu Xin were eager to save his son, and it would not be impossible to tie him up directly.

After all, he has no father or mother, no shade, no matter how stubborn he is, he is still a child who is still far away from becoming an adult.

His weed-like survival skills are too weak to be vulnerable in the face of power.

But he didn't wait for that day.

Zhao Jizhe was arrested.

Drug trafficking, heroin, one kilogram, all stolen goods.

Either way, it sounds like a capital offense.

At that time they lived under the same roof and sometimes ate together, but Li Xuan didn't really know what Zhao Jizhe was doing every day.

He has too many things to do, and he doesn't have so much energy to pay attention to Zhao Jizhe, so he will give him some money from time to time, and if Zhao Jizhe says no, that's fine.

In addition, it is rare to say two sentences a week most of the time.Maybe Zhao Jizhe wanted to say something, but Li Xuan didn't have that much patience for him.

On the day of the accident, Li Xuan was writing programs at home, and Zhao Jizhe didn't come back the night before, so he didn't notice it.

Until the thin monkey came to tell him that Zhao Jizhe had been arrested.

Drug trafficking, a secret and complete industrial chain in Qingshui Lane, is also a group of people that Li Xuan is least willing to contact.

There is not much difference between people and animals whose central nervous system is controlled by drugs.

He didn't know when and how Zhao Jizhe hooked up with this group of people.

He believed that Zhao Jizhe might try to steal it, but he didn't have the courage to trafficker.

"This is not a ready-made set."

"Tiaozi has been keeping an eye on them for the last month. It's easy to take care of the rest by pushing someone to take the blame first. You have to have someone to deal with, right?"

"It is said to be a gift of the batch of American watches that were stolen last month? Those things have been dismantled and the parts have been sold away.many?"

"In the whole Qingshui Lane, the idiot who sells noodles doesn't fall for this kind of trick. Who doesn't know that this is a trap."

Everyone knew that it didn't matter whether Zhao Jizhe knew or didn't know, he went for that huge commission.

Li Xuan did not see Zhao Jizhe in the detention center.A few outside temporary workers teased him, saying, kid, you can go back and prepare an urn for your brother.Without saying a word, Li Xuan walked back to Qingshui Lane in silence.

In midsummer, the sun was scorching hot, and the unhealed wound on his body was soaked in sweat. Walking from one end of the alley to the other end, he saw Li Mingge's car again.

It turns out that as long as one finds the right way, a life can be snatched from the hands of Hades.

One month after Li Xuan left Qingshui Lane, the sex trafficking case was sentenced. Everyone thought that the death penalty case ended with seven years and ten months in prison.

In the darkness, the little sparks on Li Xuan's fingertips were the only light.Sheng Min suddenly grabbed his cigarette, took a deep puff, and then coughed violently.

Li Xuan patted him on the back, watched Sheng Min's cheeks flushed red from choking, and took back the half of the cigarette in his hand lightly and without rejection.

"Don't smoke," he said.

They looked at each other in silence, the wind passed between them.

He knew that Sheng Min was waiting for an explanation.

But Li Xuan didn't say anything, and Sheng Min didn't ask in the end either.

After a long time, his cough subsided, and he just said, "And then?"

Li Minger and his wife found Li Xuan for bone marrow transplantation, but in fact the patient was already very weak at that time, and had a long-term low-grade fever, so it was not a good time for surgery.status.At the same time, due to the weakened hematopoietic function of the patient, he needs to rely on long-term blood transfusion to maintain his life.

Probably it can also be counted as some kind of good luck, one in ten thousand fished out of the sea happens to be type O blood, a natural universal blood transfusion.

Although there is no medical theory to prove it, Li Minger still insists that the blood transfusion will definitely have a better effect if the bone marrow is completely matched.

So before the bone marrow transplant, Li Xuan became a blood bag first.It was not until the doctor warned that with such frequent blood supply, it would be difficult for his body to cooperate with bone marrow donation, so he finally gave up.

At that time, it had been almost half a year since he went to Li's house, and it was delicious and delicious, but he still lost more than ten catties.Sleeping has become a very torturous thing, no matter what position, how soft the bed is, when you lie down, you will be hurt by your own bones.

Fortunately, patience is something he is good at.

When I can't fall asleep, I simply don't sleep, read books, and write programs.He negotiated with Li Minger and returned to school three years after leaving the orphanage, and got a better computer.

It will be over, and it will be over soon.For many late nights, he clicked on the first hello world he typed.

The cursor was beating, and so was his heart.

He thought about his new world, and it was only in the near future.

Summer has passed, winter is coming to an end, and the summer solstice of another year, the doctor said that bone marrow transplantation can be performed.

At that time, the technology of collecting peripheral blood stem cells was not mature enough, and the most traditional bone marrow aspiration was still used.

He was too thin at the time. In order to obtain enough bone marrow fluid, the doctor collected multiple parts of the posterior superior iliac spine on both sides.

Everyone said that bone marrow transplantation does not cause much harm to the donor, and the ability of human bone marrow to regenerate is very strong.

But that was for healthy young adults, and Li Xuan was still too young and too thin.

Maybe it was because too much bone marrow fluid was extracted, or maybe it was too much consumption for the body this year. In short, it was different from being able to walk around the ground soon after the matching bone marrow puncture. For more than a month after the operation, he was very difficult.Move freely.

The whole person was groggy, and he didn't notice the abnormality when the doctor told him that the operation was a success.

On the first day when he was able to go to the field, Li Xuan dragged his still weak body, packed up his things, and prepared to leave the Li family. His mission had been completed, but he was stopped.

"The extraction of bone marrow fluid was not enough last time, and the patient may need a second operation." They told him so.

Li Xuan felt strange, and finally found out the truth from a kind little nurse.

The so-called successful operation actually had serious complications, first infection, followed by blood in the urine.The situation took a turn for the worse, and finally the doctor confirmed that the condition had developed from aplastic anemia to AA-PNH syndrome, and the hemolysis had seriously damaged the kidneys, and soon, it developed to the point where a kidney replacement was needed.

No step is inevitable, but so many small-probability events are mixed together, it is like overturned dominoes, all bad luck follows one after another, and it is not known where the collapse is the end.

But why should he bear it together?Just because he greedily wants a computer that shouldn't belong to him?

Is desire a wrong?

Li Xuan didn't believe it or accept it.

He escaped from the hospital.

After wandering for more than half a month, he was finally caught and returned.

"This is different from what was agreed." He argued with Minger Li.

"Of course it's the same. I saved your friend's life, and you saved my child's life. Your bone marrow, your kidney, are all exchanged for his life... Now the prison is also very chaotic, you don't want to save it yourselfFate, another accident, right?"

This is fallacy and sophism, but it has become the truth in the face of the power brought by money.

In fact, the doctor advised that the requirements for organ transplantation on HLA sites are not so high. Compared with those who are fully matched and those who are not completely matched, the difference in the 10-year survival rate of kidney transplantation is only about 10%.

"Isn't 10% important?" Li Mingge asked condescendingly.

Important, of course important, so another child's organ should be harvested as easily as an apple.

No matter whether Li Xuan was willing or not, and how he resisted, he was forced to complete a full set of organ matching checks.

After one examination after another, in the doctor's sympathetic eyes, he saw the result that no one told him.

In order to prevent him from escaping again, after the inspection, he was locked in a separate ward. Several security guards guarded the door closely, and the windows were sealed layer by layer.

Except for the doctors and nurses who came to deliver meals regularly, they were cut off from all contact with the outside world.

He went on a hunger strike for two days in exchange for pens and books.Li Minger is still afraid that he will seek death, but he will not die, he will live longer than them.

Day after day, until the night before the operation, the ward welcomed an unexpected guest.

"You don't have to look at me like that, I don't want your kidney at all." Under the cold white light, the person opposite looked like a wandering spirit.

"I thought you were too sick to move." Li Xuan said coldly.

"Originally, but I really wanted to talk to you, so I can move again." The man smiled and asked him, "Can I have a drink of water?"

Li Xuan ignored him, and he wasn't embarrassed either. He took out another bottle as if conjuring, shook it, and said proudly, "I know you're stingy, so I brought it myself, so I drank it slowly.

"Can I trouble you with something?" After an unknown amount of time, he suddenly said, "If I don't get off the operating table tomorrow, can you take care of my mother for me?"

Li Xuan suspected that he was suffering from hysteria, so he made a special trip to talk in his sleep.

"I lied to her. I'm not the son she wanted at all. I'm not as smart as you. I can't inherit her ideals, and I can't complete her unfinished business. I'm also in such poor health... If only we could change."

As he said, he sighed after not seeing Li Xuan for a long time, "You don't want to talk to me either? Okay, I know... I'm not likable, and my dad also hates me. Ever since I got sick, my mother cried for me every day. HeHow can I bear it, I don't want to save me at all, I just don't want my mother to be sad..."

All the words that night were said upside down, Li Xuan didn't know why he was so crazy, he came to tell himself how much his parents loved each other in the middle of the night.He kept silent all the time, looked down at his program book, and sketched with a pen.

"Do you know? They shouldn't have given birth to me." He drank water one after another, as if he had been thirsty for a long time, "If I live longer in my next life and meet someone I love, I don't want her to give birth to me, women are too fragile, where a mother is strong, children are the greater weakness... My mother must be very angry if she hears me talking about the next life. She is a scientist and doesn't believe it. Then why do you think I am not in good health? It's herWhat about the retribution for not protecting me?"

"You're so sick to your head, are you crazy?" He chattered endlessly, and Li Xuan was so noisy that he couldn't bear to curse.

"Shouldn't I be crazy?!" The person opposite suddenly stood up, "She cries by my bed every day, always saying sorry to me and delaying me, I never blamed her, and I don't want toWhat kind of physicist, why do you have to bear so much guilt?! Does she love me or hate me?!"

Excited, the plastic bottle in his hand fell to the ground, rolling to the bottom of the hospital bed.

"What's the use of you telling me this?" Li Xuan said indifferently.

"It's useless." He was too weak, and he couldn't breathe after trying to lose his temper. He sat down on the window sill exhausted, "But I can only talk to you...you are the reason why I have been sick for more than a year., the only friend I know."

Li Xuan sneered: "Only you think so."

"Promise me." He seemed unable to hear the sarcasm, "I don't want your kidney, but you take care of her for me, talk to her, don't make her too sad... She doesn't owe me, I ruined herlife, she just doesn't want me as a son."

Li Xuan frowned, but suddenly two knocks came from outside the ward door.

"I'm leaving." He stood up vigilantly, and repeated to Li Xuan, "My dad was confused by his self-righteous love, and one day, it will hurt her. You are smarter than himI'm awake too, so you should take care of her for me, I'm too tired, I want to have a good sleep."

Li Xuan looked at him indifferently, the latter smiled vaguely, and his voice was also weak: "I know this is unfair to you, you are the most innocent person, but this world is like this... let's do it, it won't take long, I am more reasonable than my father, since you came here because of your friend, then wait until he is released from prison."

These were the last words Li Xuan heard that day, and he was sent to the operating room early the next morning.

In the operating room next door, the person who talked in his sleep last night was lying there quietly.

If it goes well, two hours later, one of his kidneys will be taken out and run in that person's body.

The surrounding doctors moved methodically, like cold-blooded precision machines.No one cared about the thoughts of a boy under fifteen years old on the operating table.

Hopefully it won't go so well, he thought of the empty inkwell on the desk.As long as it is not removed this time, he still has a chance to escape before the next operation...

In case it fails...that's okay too.

He has lived without father and mother, so what if a kidney is taken away.As long as he has a breath, he can still live.

The anesthetic was slowly injected into his body, and he should have become unconscious, but in Li Xuan's impression, he still remembered clearly what happened that day.

The cold touch of the skin on his waist cut by the scalpel, the breaking of capillaries and muscle fibers can be felt when the knife tip pierces his texture... He was expecting the doctor to find a kidney that was not in the best condition for transplantation, but everything came to an abrupt endend……

"An accident happened, stop first! Stop!"

In a daze, he felt that someone knocked open the door of the operating room, and there seemed to be the sound of hurried footsteps passing through the corridor outside the door.

He heard urgent shouts and distant cries, and then the doctors and nurses left in a hurry.

He was like a rag doll that had been dissected open, lying alone on the blood-oozing countertop. After an unknown amount of time, someone finally came to sew up his open wound.

Such dereliction of duty, no infection is really fate.Of course, he has always been the one with the big fate.

The real Li Xuan died on the operating table.

Shu Xin, who heard the news, went crazy on the spot.

The smell of blood from memory seemed to remain in the air, but it disappeared after a close smell, only the faint and cold smell of pine and cypress leaves mixed with a scent of incense.

"So, it wasn't an accident?" Sheng Min asked in a low voice, but there was not much doubt in his tone.

Li Xuan glanced at the marble tombstone next to him.Later, he found the lost bottle under the hospital bed, and after opening it, he smelled a faint residual alcohol smell.

"But he didn't die because of you." Sheng Min said word by word, with a suppressed anger that he didn't realize.

Li Xuan knew why this kind of anger came, so he put his arms around Sheng Min's shoulder comfortingly, and replied affirmatively: "Of course not."

Shu Xin ended her scientific research career for the sake of this child. Because she felt sorry for putting him in danger during pregnancy, she never returned to work after giving birth.

She put all her energy into cultivating her son, doing everything by herself, and was delighted to find that her child has physical talent, and firmly believed that he would be able to inherit her unfinished business in the future.

But what kind of talent is that? It's just a child's deliberate cooperation in order to please his mother.

The real talent may be to read people's words, to know at an early age that saying things like growing up to be a physicist like my mother is a candy bar.

But the older you get, the harder and more difficult it is to pretend to be a physics genius.Especially when a serious illness came, it also brought a child who was used as a "blood bag" for him-a real genius.

The questions he couldn't solve, the principles he couldn't understand, were easy for the other party.The latter is not even interested in physics, and only plays with his computer every day.

The unobtainable talent he desperately pursued was scoffed at by others, and he saw the insurmountable gap between himself and the genius at a glance.

The disease forced Shu Xin to temporarily stop her training to become a physicist, but even when she was on the sick bed, Shu Xin never forgot to say that she will get better, and you will definitely become an excellent physicist in the future.Even because of this, Shu Xin felt even more guilty towards him.

He was afraid, and then he was terrified all day long. He knew that even if he recovered from his illness, he would not be able to bear the expectations of his mother. She pinned all her ideals on him.This kind of day-to-day pressure has become something more suffocating than long-term illness.

But he couldn't say, couldn't blame anyone, could it be Shu Xin's fault?Of course not, he used deceit in exchange for more attention, tolerance and love from his mother, so he can never regard this love as pressure.

It is the price he should pay for his childhood sweets.

The day before the operation, he went to see the person in the next ward.

He doesn't want his organs to keep him alive, and while his protests can't convince his stubborn parents, he has a way to end it all.

He looked at the person who could continue to read in the ward supervised by layers of supervision, and thought that Shu Xin really liked and needed such a child.

He had made many wishes in the past, hoping that they could exchange them, and Shu Xin would be satisfied, but he knew that this was impossible.

He just hoped that he would take care of Shu Xin for him and accompany her through the days when he left.He's so smart, a real genius, and he'll figure it out.

But fate tricked him, and in another way, he made his wish come true.

As soon as he died, Shu Xin went crazy, and when she woke up, she mistook her son.

For a long time, Li Xuan was thinking about why such a thing happened, impartial.All scientific principles cannot be explained, so can the prayer of a cowardly person move the heavens?

He doesn't believe in such nonsense.

Until one night when she woke up, Shu Xin stood beside his bed, watching him with infinite tenderness.

Those gazes were as calm as Li Xuan's and he felt creepy, and at that moment he suddenly figured it out.There are not so many gods and ghosts, just the most selfish love of a mother.

The two children entered the operating room together, and if one of them would die, she firmly believed that the one who survived would be her own son, and only by maintaining this belief could she continue to live.

Besides, in the final analysis, how things have developed to the present is not important.

It is true that man did not die for him, but it is an irrefutable fact that he benefits from it.

So when Li Mingge asked him to live under his name, he had no choice but to walk away.

It was never because of Li Mingge's coercion, let alone greed for the wealth of the Li family, but because of the request that he did not actually agree to.

The Li family does not keep their promises, but he is not the same person as them.

So he became Li Xuan in this way. He won various physics competition awards in three years of high school, and in front of Shu Xin, he was the qualified son she expected.

Li Mingge moved because of this, and replaced the servants and close subordinates at home.Originally, because of illness, the real Li Xuan lived in seclusion for a long time. Although some people felt that this child looked different from when he was a child, no one knew about this farce of stealing the beam and changing posts except for a few relatives.

In terms of life, it's not like treating him badly.

Li Minger solved his household registration problem, arranged for him to go to the best private school, picked him up with a driver, took care of him with a nanny, and sent him to learn skiing and equestrian all expensive sports... Also in order to better control him, Li Minger did not allow himHe skipped a grade and changed his college entrance examination aspirations.

It's just that glory and torture can't change him, Li Xuan always clearly remembers who he is.

He endured, but did not accept his fate.Negotiating conditions with Li Mingge little by little, fighting for space, writing codes day and night, taking jobs and saving money, waiting for the day when Zhao Jizhe is released from prison.

The smoke has been burned out, and the story is about to be finished.

Too many details, even the most crucial link, were hidden in this story, but Li Xuan didn't say anything, Sheng Min couldn't ask any more.

The gloomy environment may be more suitable for the atmosphere at this time, but the stars are shining tonight.

"So what's going on with Shu Xin now?" Sheng Min raised his eyes coldly.

"Acute renal failure."

The knife wound brought by Zhao Jizhe failed to kill her, but the doctor discovered that her kidney had been seriously damaged during the treatment.This news did not surprise Li Xuan.Shu Xin took long-term injections of sedative drugs, and over the years, she inevitably had physical problems. He had already noticed that Shu Xin was not in the right state, and reminded Li Mingge many times, but the latter always thought it was alarmist.

'His self-righteous love will kill her'

A word is a prophecy, but so what if it is expected, no Li Xuan can stop this.

"Retribution." Sheng Min sneered.

He was not as sharp as him tonight, Li Xuan reached out to rub his frowning brows away, but Sheng Min turned his head to avoid it.

He glanced at the tombstone again, as if he saw something dirty, he turned around in disgust, because he had stood for too long, he staggered a bit, but he resolutely pushed away Li Xuan's hand that was trying to support him.

"I'm tired." Sheng Min said, already taking steps, "I don't want to be here."

He walked very fast, unwilling to stay for a moment, his pace became faster and faster, and he even started running.The wind lifted the hem of his black coat, and the sound of footsteps echoed in the empty cemetery, Li Xuan had no choice but to catch up and grabbed his arm.

"Sheng Min!"

In the dark, he saw Sheng Min's thin cheeks trembling.

"Sheng Min." Li Xuan called his name again.

Qi Shengmin gritted his teeth and said nothing for a long time, finally said, it's all right.

His voice was also trembling, because of the cold, as he spoke, there was a faint white mist that quickly dissipated.He closed his eyes and took a deep breath, "Go back."

On the way back, Sheng Min drove.

Driving all the way fast, as if to leave everything in the cemetery behind.

It was already late at night, and the Spring Festival was approaching. The branches on both sides of the road were originally covered with colorful lights, but they were all extinguished because it was too late. Under the dim street lights, there was no bright color, only abrupt and cumbersome.

A sudden brake stopped the car in the garage, and the tires slid across the ground and made a harsh friction sound.

Sheng Min seemed to be extremely tired, the car parked crookedly, silently pressed the elevator to go upstairs, and went straight back to the bedroom, soon the sound of the shower was heard, and he didn't say a word to Li Xuan the whole time.

He only touched his fingers when he entered the door, and it was cold.

Li Xuan stood at the door for a long time, feeling that his coat still had the unique smell of death in the cemetery.He pressed the center of his eyebrows, went to the bathroom to take a shower, and then returned to the bedroom, Sheng Min had already fallen asleep.

There was silence, and when the eyes adjusted to the darkness, they could vaguely see the slightly undulating outline under the quilt.

Li Xuan lay down, he knew that the person beside him was not asleep, the sound of breathing was very light, but seemed depressed.Li Xuan tentatively touched his thin shoulder blades, but Sheng Min turned around all of a sudden.

In the darkness, Sheng Min looked at him coldly, as if looking at a stranger, Li Xuan didn't speak anymore, and let him look at him silently.This gaze was too cold, for a few moments, Li Xuan felt that there was even hatred in it, but in the next second, Sheng Min came over and kissed him.

He kissed the corners of his lips and eyes, trembling and firm, those kisses were cold at first, but when they were too close, they gradually became hot.

When he noticed Sheng Min's intention, Li Xuan originally tried to stop it all. He knew where Sheng Min's gaffe came from... But Sheng Min couldn't refuse him and kissed him more and more fiercely, being too stubborn...

Just like he is familiar with all of Sheng Min's weaknesses, Sheng Min is also familiar with his, which can easily make him fascinated... Intellectually, Li Xuan thinks it shouldn't be, but at this moment the will of the body is controlled by Sheng Min...

He couldn't refuse him... Maybe he didn't really want to refuse, desire and greed made them embed together, entangled each other like beasts and trees swaying in the snow.

The quiet room reverberated with each other's uneven panting and deafening heartbeat. He saw Sheng Min's flushed cheeks and glistening sweat on his forehead... He ate his soft tongue, reached out and clasped his shoulders, trying toTake back the initiative.But Sheng Min firmly clasped his wrist with intertwined fingers, and the next moment, turned over and sat on his body...

Without making any preparations, Sheng Min cut himself open abruptly, accepting him one inch at a time.So angry, but also so afraid, those pasts that he could not participate in, so many times, he almost lost Li Xuan, when he didn't even know it.

Because of the pain, the white calf was trembling, the flushed face lost its blood, and the hot body felt the chill at this moment of intimacy and inseparability. The brutal love affair can't bring muchThe happiness of each other only makes each other's desire concrete, and then intensifies...

"Does it hurt?"

Pleasure and pain come and go together like the undulating tide, they are still closely connected, hot and muddy.He heard Sheng Min asking him, breathing quickly, with a fierce tone, and possessiveness in his eyes that couldn't be hidden.

Li Xuan couldn't answer, Sheng Min smiled lightly: "I'm really in pain."

Li Xuan couldn't help but frowned, Sheng Min didn't realize it, and fell silent after saying this sentence.

His bony fingers slowly slid across Li Xuan's Adam's apple, shoulders, and chest. He touched every scar on his body, right down to the wound on his waist that had already shed the scab. He touched it very carefully, as if to count it.How many stitches did you sew.

"Does it hurt?" He sat naked on Li Xuan's body, but his posture was as arrogant as a god, looking down at him condescendingly, his fingertips stayed on the wound for a long time, and asked again.

"It didn't hurt at first." Li Xuan looked back at him, and said very lightly and slowly, "If you ask, I feel a little bit."

In the darkness, he saw Sheng Min's bright red eyes, and then drops of water rolled down on his chest, leaving winding water marks, just like the winding roads of so many years in the past.

It's not that he doesn't feel tired or bitter after walking so far and for so long alone.It's just that fate always makes him endure, makes him wait, waits for another person to appear, accompany him, save him, allow him to show weakness, and take him through the long river of suffering in the world.

"Sheng Min, please kiss me. Once you kiss me, I won't feel any pain at all." He gently wiped away the teardrops from the corners of Sheng Min's eyes with his thumb, begging for his mercy, like the most devout believer.

Sheng Min stared at him for a long time, then obediently leaned down to kiss him, kissing the ugly scar on his body with great love.

"Li Xuan." Sheng Min put his hand on the heart of the person under him, and told him firmly, "I chose you, you chose me, and you are mine. Every inch of my body, every hair, is mine.Yes, you can't give it to others."

The tone is domineering, but the eyes are soft, enough to heal all wounds.

Moonlight fell from the window, crushed by suffering, and sprinkled on their overlapping bodies.

Li Xuan hugged him, and gently kissed Sheng Min's moist eyes.Years of pain and grievances were swept away in an instant because of the appearance of this person, and because of him, they disappeared in the next instant.

"Yes." He clasped his fingers tightly, "It's all yours."