They don't know how to deal with the following things.

After Li Xuan let go of his hand, Sheng Min didn't turn to look, even though there was a lot of noise around him.

He just looked tenderly at Li Xuan's more serious face than ever before, and gently held his palm: "Let's go home."

On the way to leave, many people rushed to the emergency building, and saw two men holding hands, only casting curious eyes for a moment, and hurriedly squeezed towards the center of the vortex.

Birth, old age, illness and death are all major events. Even in a place like a hospital, death can still attract a lot of attention.

But they walked fast with their fingers interlocked, without looking back, not once.

Li Xuan woke up briefly in the night, and after waking up, he looked at Sheng Min for a long time by the moonlight, and kissed his brow and eyes cherishingly, then turned sideways and locked Sheng Min firmly in his arms.

Sheng Min closed his eyes and pretended to be asleep, but quietly pressed his palm against his heart.

The next day was a very sunny day. When getting into the car, he noticed the mottled blood in the back row, and Li Xuan was slightly taken aback.

"Drive my car." Sheng Min said, "Come back at night, we'll drive to wash."

Li Xuan nodded, and when he reached the gate of the community, it was finally clean, and there was no one guarding him anymore.

"Will Li Mingge come to trouble you again?" Sheng Min asked softly after driving for a while.

Li Xuan shook his head: "I don't know... what do you think?"

"Probably not." Sheng Min thought for a while, then said softly.

Li Xuan pinched the back of his neck and smiled: "It doesn't matter, just let him."

Perhaps because he was busy with Shu Xin's funeral, Li Mingge had no news for the time being, but a few days later, he received a letter from the prison.

In view of the fact that Shu Xin's suicide and the intentional homicide happened too close together, after Shu Xin's death, the prison interrogated Zhao Jizhe again.

When he learned of Shu Xin's death, Zhao Jizhe's first reaction was to see Li Xuan.

When the post office delivered the letter, Sheng Min was also at home, so Li Xuan didn't deliberately hide it from him, but his complexion darkened a little. Zhao Jizhe really knew Sheng Min's address.

He couldn't help but clenched Sheng Min's hand, but the latter didn't notice the source of the strangeness, and turned his head to look: "Why is it so thick?...Can I take it apart?"

"It's not necessary." Li Xuan said, but Sheng Min didn't stop him if he wanted to see him.

The letter was actually not thick. When opened it, found that there was also a notice letter from the prison's psychological correction department.

It is said that Zhao Jizhe's reformation in the prison is very poor. He often fights with prisoners in the same cell, deliberately makes troubles, and shows a serious tendency to self-harm.

In principle, criminals can only visit their immediate family members while serving their sentence, but Zhao Jizhe cannot find any relatives. Based on the needs of reformation, if Li Xuan wants to, he can apply to the prison for visitation.

Sheng Min couldn't help but frowned, and heard Li Xuan ask him: "What are you writing, and you've been watching for so long?"

He handed it back, Li Xuan glanced at it, and said in a flat tone: "Now the prison service is so considerate." He threw it into the wastebasket casually, the sharp corner of the letter scratched the garbage bag, and with a sharp sound, he took the wastebasket back again.up.

Li Xuan couldn't help pursing his lips, Sheng Min had already bent over to help him up, turned his head and looked at him for a moment, Li Xuan said: "I'm hungry, let's eat."

Sheng Min smiled, put his arms around Li Xuan's shoulders, and kissed his slightly tense lips: "Yeah."

The letter was thrown into the wastebasket just like that.

When he arrived at the theater the next day, Sheng Min found the same envelope among the couriers delivered in front of his office.

Compared with the letter to Li Xuan yesterday, the content of this letter is much simpler, just one line, just saying that he wants to meet him.

Sheng Min looked down, and then he recalled, several months ago, he went to the dormitory to pick up things for Li Xuan, and the letters he accidentally saw...

"Sheng Min!" Deng Jing opened the door and came in, "I thought you weren't here, so I called you several times...why are you in a daze?"

"Huh?" Sheng Min quickly put away the letter and raised his face, "What's wrong?"

He handed Sheng Min a cup of hot cocoa: "The water chestnuts I got from you last time were so sweet. I bought them several times and they didn't taste right. I want to ask where you bought them?"

"I used to go to a planting base when I was filming, and I order it every year. If you want to eat, I will send some."

"I'm just waiting for your words." Deng Jingxiao said Mimi, "Then you can also send some to Yin Qianpin, so that he won't have to share with me."

"Okay." Sheng Min nodded, remembering that he hadn't seen Yin Qianpin today, "Is Yin exported?"

"You can help the assistant director rehearse the play, of course he is lazy."

Deng Jing curled his lips, but Yin Qianpin is not lazy. The theater is expanding this year and wants to take back the tenth floor. Yin Qianpin is busy looking for a new place to move these days.

"He thought the place was too small now, so he planned to take advantage of this move and buy a building." Deng Jing tutted twice worryingly, "Don't buy yourself out of bankruptcy, the Chinese New Year is coming soon, when the time comes I will be defrauded."Salary... why this expression, I'm telling the truth."

"Then I'll give you a few more baskets of water chestnuts. If it's Chinese New Year, don't let you get hungry." Sheng Min said seriously.

Deng Jing also laughed, and heard the assistant director knock on the door: "Mr. Sheng, it's time to rehearse."

"Then you go." Deng Jing said, "I'm going back to read the script."

"Wait..." Sheng Min suddenly stopped him.

"What's wrong?"

He lowered his eyes and thought for a moment: "You can support me in the afternoon,... I will go out for a while."

The meeting room in the prison is very simple, with a long wooden table, two chairs, and the only decoration is two pots of dead green plants on the table.

After waiting quietly for a quarter of an hour, footsteps came from the door.

The moment Zhao Jizhe saw him, he was obviously a little bit surprised, and then he scanned the small meeting room without giving up, and after making sure that there was no one he wanted to see, his brows were deeply frowned on his gloomy face.But the prison guards were present, so he had no room to speak and could only listen to their greetings.

"The warden has already made arrangements. We will temporarily turn off the monitoring and listening equipment in this reception room."

This prison guard is not very old, and he also likes to pay attention to entertainment gossip. Although the visitor is wearing a hat and mask, his handsome eyebrows and eyes are still impressive.

But the leader had already said hello, so he could only control his urge to sign, and said in a business-like manner: "For safety's sake, the handcuffs cannot be undone. I'm at the door. If there is an emergency, you can press the alarm next to it."device."

Sheng Min nodded, expressing that he remembered: "Thank you."

"polite."

"Where's Nineteen?" Zhao Jizhe couldn't wait to speak as soon as the prison guard came to the door.

"He didn't come." Sheng Min took off his baseball cap and mask, pointed to the chair opposite, "Sit down."

"Didn't come? Just you? You stopped him from coming?!" Zhao Jizhe accused him illogically.

Sheng Min said flatly: "You wrote to say you want to see me, so I'm here. Li Xuan doesn't want to see you, so naturally he won't come."

"Why didn't he come to see me?!" Zhao Jizhe was a little excited. He pressed his hands on the table, and the shackles hit it, making a piercing sound, "Isn't that woman dead? ... Why doesn't he want to see me? I can'tDid killing Li Minger...I..."

"You think he will be happy because of Shu Xin's death? Even thank you?" Sheng Min cut him off gently.

This flat tone seemed to have stepped on Zhao Jizhe's painful feet, and a look of resentment appeared on his face: "I think... what do you mean, you think you know him well?"

"Yes." Sheng Min calmly replied, "I know him well."

Zhao Jizhe looked at him speculatively, and after a while he laughed out loud, he pulled out his chair and sat down: "I was writing to you, but I didn't expect you to come, really... it turned out that you were even bigger than I imagined."Be self-righteous... What are you good at? Isn't it just a showman, what's so great... Let me tell you! Nineteen was just deceived by you for a while, but you won't be long, he will figure it out soon!"

Sheng Min didn't express any opinion on this, and took the crude glass teapot on the table and poured himself a glass of water.Such calmness, in Zhao Jizhe's eyes, seemed to be deliberately provocative, and he became more and more angry, holding the teapot on the table with both hands and slamming it on the ground: "It is absolutely impossible for him to fall in love with you! It is impossible for him to really like men!"

"Be honest!" The prison guard outside the door was startled by this, and pushed the door in, "Squat down!"

Zhao Jizhe's heart heaved, his eyes were red with anger and he stood there.

"It's okay." Sheng Min said calmly, "I'm sorry, I'll compensate for the damaged things."

The prison guard scratched his head: "It's okay, it's okay... The prisoner's condition is relatively poor. You should be more careful when you communicate. I'm right at the door. If you have any questions, you must call me."

He worriedly stepped forward to check whether the handcuffs were firm, and took out the remaining two cups.

The brief interlude did not ease Zhao Jizhe's emotions: "Are you able to pretend like this in front of Nineteen? Is this how he was deceived by you?...Know him, you know him? Nonsense! I am the one who knows the most in this world."His people."

"Really?" Sheng Min was not angry.

"Don't believe me?" This self-assessment made Zhao Jizhe proud. He looked at Sheng Min suspiciously, smiled again, stood up, dragged the chair and sat down in front of Sheng Min, gesticulating with his fingers, "He hasn'tThis table leg is high, I have known him for more than ten years, can you compare with it?"

Zhao Jizhe was five years old that year, and it was autumn when he met Li Xuan.

The sparsely planted trees in the orphanage all died after a frost, and the dead branches and fallen leaves were piled up under the trees layer by layer.After two rains, it smelled bad.

So all the children were asked to clean up. If they couldn't finish cleaning up, they were not allowed to eat.

There were no tools, and everything had to be picked up by hand, and it was finally finished. Everyone was sweaty. At this moment of embarrassment, he saw Li Xuan.

Just after registering the information, he was taken to the dormitory by the aunt of the orphanage with a stern face.

"Here comes another one." A few children were not very happy to discuss.

This is just a very small orphanage located in a remote county, and the annual financial allocation is not much. Many materials are donated by enthusiastic people in the society, excluding those who are deducted. The more children there are, the less things everyone can get.

"Hurry up and clean up, don't waste time on foreign work, look around!" scolded the aunt who led Li Xuan past.

"It's done, auntie." The older child smiled flatteringly, "It's all cleaned up."

"What's clean, it's cleaner than your face." This aunt is the most scolding person in the entire orphanage, but she is soft-hearted in comparison, "I'll go back and clean it up before I eat, it's so dirty...Bring it in too."

She pointed at Li Xuan, as if throwing away an annoying burden.

It is said that the dormitory is actually just two bungalows, one for boys and one for girls, in Datong shop, and a dozen or so children sleep together.

As soon as the door was closed, the older ones surrounded Li Xuan.He directly reached out to grab his little schoolbag.

"Bring it to check."

To put it bluntly, I actually want to find out if there is food in it. When the orphanage is admitted to the hospital, they have to take pictures. The staff usually give some melon seed candies to the children as props to show their care, which is not a very good brand., After taking the photo, I gave it to them.

Every child who came in had to suffer this once, and out of fear, almost no one resisted.

Li Xuan was the first.

He held his schoolbag tenaciously with his little hand, and refused to give it to them, but was quickly slapped to the ground hard.

"go away."

They scolded him, opened his bag, and dumped everything out.

Clothes and books were scattered all over the floor. They kicked around with their toes, and found a few chocolates from inside.

His eyes lit up, and he rushed to pick it up.

"And this."

"Give it all to me!"

The oldest child spread his hands, he was almost ten years old, he was tall and strong among a group of children, and he would please his aunt, and everyone else was afraid of him.No matter how reluctant, you can only hand it over reluctantly.

He smiled triumphantly, greedily opened one, and couldn't wait to put it in his mouth.Others watched him swallow enviously, and no one noticed when Li Xuan got up from the ground, with a stubborn face, he jumped up ferociously to reach his arm, and bit his hand.

"Crazy! Let go!"

The child was bitten with a deep bleeding tooth mark, and screamed in pain. All the chocolates fell to the ground, and Li Xuan trampled them to pieces.

"Get out!" The older child kicked him angrily, kicking him to the ground again.

That day Li Xuan was beaten up and locked on the balcony without even having dinner.

And this was just the beginning, he offended the head of the child, and under his instruction, the rest isolated him and bullied him.

Too young, the bones and flesh are still soft, but it has grown sharp, but there is no barrier to support it.Li Xuan's stubborn temper made him a target of public criticism, and he suffered a lot.

They beat him, kicked him, poured cold water on his quilt, left him no place to sleep, and threw dead cockroaches into his meal.

When there is too much trouble, the aunt will stop it, but most of the time, as long as there is no major incident, they are not in the mood to care about it and ignore it.

At first, Zhao Jizhe was actually very happy. He had just experienced a failed adoption, and after being sent back, he became the object of ridicule by other children. Before Li Xuan came, he was the one who was bullied.

But time passed day by day, because Li Xuan had been refusing to give in, Li Xuan was bullied more and more severely, and they refused to let him into the house for several days.Make him kneel down and beg for mercy.

How could Li Xuan be willing to reveal the precocity and stubbornness that didn't match his age, and he would end up being kicked out of his meal by them and locked out of the corridor in such a cold day.

Zhao Jizhe saw him several times, standing under the moonlight, obviously very tired, and refused to bend his back.The small figure reminded him of his younger brother in the family where he was adopted.

Although he was sent back to the orphanage because his lost brother was found, he still remembered how he held his hand and called him obediently the day his brother came back.At that moment, he felt that he really became a member of that family.

Li Xuan and cleverness had nothing to do with each other, but Zhao Jizhe softened his heart a bit.

He sneaked out and stuffed Li Xuan with the half steamed bun he had left for dinner.

Li Xuan looked at him indifferently and refused to pick him up, Zhao Jizhe advised him: "You eat. You haven't eaten for a day, and if you don't eat, you will starve to death... You won't be able to wait for your parents to pick you up."

I don't know which word among them moved Li Xuan, he silently took the half of the cold steamed bun, ate it, quickly wiped his eyes, and said in a childish voice, "They couldn't come in the first place."

From that day on, Zhao Jizhe would often steal some food for him. Li Xuan was indifferent from the beginning, and became hungry, so he no longer refused him.

This kind of thing lasted for three months. With the approach of the Spring Festival, the leaders from the Maternal and Child Health Association came to inspect the situation of the orphanage, and it ended when they saw Li Xuan being beaten.

It was Li Xuan's intention. He knew they would come that day, so he intentionally provoked the children who took the lead in bullying him, pretended to be afraid, and ran into the office where the leaders had a meeting.

The head of the orphanage was criticized and fined for this, and the child who bullied him was severely punished after the leader left.Of course, Li Xuan, who exposed all this as a victim, was also imprisoned in the confinement room because he lost face in the orphanage. In the following years in the orphanage, he was too stubborn, and he was often imprisoned in contemplation.

But at least after this release, those nightmares of being bullied at will are over.

The life in the orphanage is dull and boring. Day by day, some children are taken away, and new children are sent in.Repeating some days from being bullied to being bullied.

Li Xuan never participated in these things, he even seldom talked to them, and always sat alone by himself, the only person who was close was Zhao Jizhe, and the latter was also clinging to him.

They grow up slowly in such an environment, and when it's time to go to school.

Li Xuan's cleverness was also fully revealed, and he was able to get the first place in every exam.The teachers at the school praised him as a good seedling, and many families who came to adopt him also knew that there was a "genius" here, and they were willing to adopt him.

But Li Xuan always refused.

And Zhao Jizhe, who has always hoped to have a family that can accept him, so that he can be loved by his relatives, and stop being ridiculed by his classmates as a wild child, may be too unlucky, but he still cannot achieve his wish.

"Why don't you go?" He asked Li Xuan.

"I have parents." Li Xuan said coldly, "I don't need others to be my parents."

Zhao Jizhe actually didn't want Li Xuan to leave either, he was the closest person he had in the orphanage.

"Nineteen, let's be each other's relatives." He said to Li Xuan, "I am an older brother, and you are a younger brother."

Li Xuan didn't pay attention to him, nor refused him.So Zhao Jizhe took it for him to agree.

If it has been like this, maybe it is also very good, Zhao Jizhe often thought about it later.

Nineteen is so good, he can definitely get into a good university. If he fails in school, he can learn a skill, and when they are able to support themselves, they will leave the orphanage.

But we still have to stay together, come and go often, because they are brothers, the only relatives of each other...

But illusions are illusions, and the illusory imaginations came to an abrupt end when Zhao Jizhe was twelve years old—the orphanage had a new director.

Different from the original acrimonious and scolding female dean, this is an unusually gentle old man with white hair, gentle and polite.

At first, no one noticed anything unusual. From the staff to the children of the orphanage, they all welcomed the arrival of the new director.

He never swears, nor does he withhold bonuses from his subordinates. He works hard and doesn't even go home, so he lives in an orphanage.It's also not like some of the former male staff of the orphanage, who intentionally or unintentionally licked the girls, and always kept a decent distance.I heard that he was originally the director of a certain unit, but he has retired. He said that he couldn't stay at home, so he applied for re-employment and was transferred to an orphanage...

Everything seemed fine, until one day, Zhao Jizhe had a stomachache, didn't eat dinner, and went back to the dormitory first.

As he passed the corridor, he heard noises in the room.He subconsciously took a look inside. He didn't turn on the light, and he could vaguely see a figure in the gap between the curtains.

He remembered this point, and everyone else should still be in the cafeteria—except for Li Xuan, who skipped two grades at the age of ten and has already reached the sixth grade. He is preparing for a math competition organized by the city, and the person who won the first prizeCan be sent to key middle schools in the city.

This elementary school hadn't had any students who were listed as key students for a long time, so it paid a lot of attention to it, and specially connected with the orphanage. Every day after school, Li Xuan would stay in the school for a while, and only returned to the orphanage after finishing the tutoring papers.I have to go to the grass beside the railing again, and continue reading with the help of the street lamp outside the railing.

He thought that Li Xuan came back early due to something, and when he was happy, he went to the window to see what happened...

But don't want to see the amiable dean, lying on the boys' bed, panting heavily... such dim light can't hide his wrinkles and ugliness, he grabs a piece of clothing with one hand, greedilySmell... the other hand keeps moving...

The children in the orphanage are all precocious, and at the age of twelve they already know a lot.

Zhao Jizhe didn't remember how he left. He hid in the corner of the backyard for a long time, until it was completely dark and he knew that everyone else had gone back, so he slowly returned to the dormitory.

Zhao Jizhe wanted to forget everything he saw that day as an accident, but in the days that followed, he couldn't help but pay attention to it.

He found that the dean's eyes were always on the boys, and in the name of caring, he touched their faces, waists and shoulders intentionally or unintentionally...even when they were taking a bath, passing by time and time again...

Everything that he once thought was normal has changed meaning. Several times he hastily withdrew his observation eyes, but touched the inquiring eyes of other children, so he understood that he was not the only one who noticed this matter.

But no one said, no one dared... In such a place, the dean is the one who judges everything. He is getting more and more outrageous, and more and more exposed, but the children in the orphanage can only silently pray that bad luck will not happen to them.

The first one to suffer was a disabled child, a mute who couldn't speak... One day he came back very late, limping, a few candies fell out of his pocket, but he didn't pick them up, he silentlyLie on the bed with the quilt covering your face.

The mute with damaged vocal cords could not cry, only the body under the quilt was shaking silently.

The rest of the people didn't speak. Zhao Jizhe was very scared. He wanted to get close to Li Xuan to find some support, only to remember that Li Xuan was still reading outside and didn't come back.

Fortunately, the child was lucky. Not long after, a family came to the orphanage for adoption. The hostess of that family was also a deaf-mute, and they took the poor child away.

Some people were able to get out of the sea of suffering, and the rest began to fear again... The dean chose the mute because he was too timid at the beginning, and people who couldn't speak could be controlled better... Now that he has tasted the sweetness, his desire swells, and he goes down...Who will be the one to suffer?

The children who haven't noticed it may live a little easier, but those who know the truth are just like lambs waiting to be slaughtered in fear.Who stays on...

A week later, on an evening before the sunset, Zhao Jizhe walked into the dean's room tremblingly.

The memories stopped here abruptly. Zhao Jizhe looked at Sheng Min and smiled contemptuously: "I have known about those disgusting things between men and men...but do you know why it is me?"

He paused maliciously, lowered his voice, and shared a long-buried secret: "I'm not the most beautiful kid in that orphanage."

Like a cold poisonous snake spitting out a letter, his eyes, his tone, while speaking, scrutinized carefully, not letting go of every expression of Sheng Min.

Then Zhao Jizhe licked his lips and smiled, shrugging his shoulders, shaking with the chair, rubbing against the floor with a scalp-numbing sound, he stood up abruptly, with a crazy expression: "I am voluntary! I amVolunteering for him! A beautiful but stubborn thorn head, and a docile and obedient dog delivered to the door, which one would you choose?!"

The dean was caught by Zhao Jizhe at first, and the dress he was holding was Li Xuan's. His dirty eyes often lingered on Li Xuan... After the dumb left, it became more and more frequent. Zhao Jizhe was worried, afraid, but he couldn't.Remind Li Xuan.

Li Xuan was only ten years old that year, and he rarely had contact with those older children who were talking about the girls next door and telling dirty jokes, intelligence did not fall in these dirty places...

All thoughts are only on the upcoming exams, leaving early and returning late, and have no time to pay attention to everything quietly happening around me.

Only Zhao Jizhe was frightened, and he tried to follow Li Xuan every minute in the orphanage.But who is not a fish on the board, what can they do... I can only pray that the knife falls slowly...

Finally one day, he heard the dean say to his aunt, don't let Shijiu stay in school after school and never come back. No matter how important the competition is, the management of the orphanage must be unified...

Zhao Jizhe heard the sound of sharpening a knife.

He couldn't figure out how one fish would save the other, so he got into the net instead.

The rope, the toy, the pain, the old man's disgusting smell of decay, his wrinkled hands... The more he was in pain, the harder he cried, the happier the Dean's age-freckled face smiled...

The strange thing is that he himself hadn't really entered it. Zhao Jizhe didn't understand it at the time, but later he understood, not because he still had a conscience, but because the dean was too old.

But there are too many ways for people to torture people... Zhao Jizhe is more and more afraid that night will come, the wound is not healed yet, and he doesn't know what will be stuffed in again.

The only good thing is that he took the initiative to jump into the fire pit, the dean's attention was temporarily diverted, Li Xuan was not called back from school, and quickly and smoothly completed the competition.

As a matter of course, he won the first place with full marks. In addition to getting a recommended place in the city key point, the school also gave him a little bonus and a small cream cake.

Li Xuan went back early after school that day. He divided the cake into two and hid it in the grass by the back door, intending to give half to Zhao Jizhe.

Middle schools in the county don't have evening self-study, and the end of school is only a little later than that of elementary schools, but all the other children have returned, and Zhao Jizhe is still missing.

"Where's Zhao Jizhe?"

Li Xuanjiu waited for him to disappear, and asked others.Because of fear, they refused to tell him.

Finally, a girl couldn't stand it anymore: "Don't look for him, he's at the dean..."

Li Xuan broke into the office, broke the dean's nose with a punch, and brought Zhao Jizhe out.

They ran and ran, ran through the garbage dump, and ran through the smelly ditch... Li Xuan bought medicine with the bonus from the school and silently applied it to Zhao Jizhe.

"How long?" Li Xuan asked.

Zhao Jizhe didn't speak.

"Why didn't you tell me?"

He still can't answer.

"Let's call the police." Finally Li Xuan said.

Zhao Jizhe didn't dare to call the police, he was afraid.He remembered that a long time ago, a child in the orphanage died of severe corporal punishment. The police came, but nothing happened in the end.

No use, he thought, children in orphanages are as cheap as weeds, who cares?

But Li Xuan insisted.

They went to the nearest police station, and two hours later the dean, with tape on his nose, rushed to pick them up.

"Children are ignorant, and if they are disciplined, they will report to the false police, which will cause trouble for you."

"It can't be like this." The young male policeman who received the police tried to stop him. He was protecting the two children with an excited expression on his face. "The matter has not been investigated clearly. We can't just take the children away like this. The injuries on the children need to be seen by a doctor."

"Go back to me." His superior scolded him loudly, "Do you have a share in speaking?" Turning his head to the dean with a respectful look: "It's really kind of you to go to the children yourself. IJust send it back. In fact, our deputy director said that you are his mentor, and your affairs should be handled as our own... These little white-eyed wolves are really hard to raise."

They were brought back like this, perhaps Li Xuan's punch broke the dean's interest, he didn't do those disgusting things, but beat them up and threw them into the dark confinement room.

Two dry steamed buns and cold water hanged his life every day, and a week later, Li Xuan was finally taken out when he was dying.

Of course, it wasn't because of kindness, but because the county education bureau was going to sum up the work at the end of the year and arranged for people from the TV station to interview the students with perfect marks in this competition.

However, after the interview was over and the reporter left, Li Xuan was locked up again.

"Nineteen, do you think we will die here?" Zhao Jizhe watched him being locked in again, the door slowly closed, and asked him desperately, "I'll go and admit my mistake, I'll go and admit my mistake to the dean..."

"No!" Li Xuan grabbed him, "You're crazy!"

"Then what should I do! I don't want to die!"

In the darkness, they confronted each other for a long time, and after a long time he heard Li Xuan say: "Let's run...I'll take you out of here."

Run, Zhao Jizhe didn't know how to run.

Can they get out of the brig?With so many people staring at him, could he run out of the orphanage?Where are you going?

"They will let me out again the day after tomorrow." Li Xuan's voice was soft but firm, "I will go to the County Education Bureau to receive the award as a student representative... the day after tomorrow, the day after tomorrow we will leave..."

Early the next morning, Li Xuan was released again as expected.The award ceremony that was supposed to end before noon, in the afternoon, he still hadn't come back. Through the wall, he heard a few aunts saying that he had to find someone quickly...

Zhao Jizhe was very scared. He thought that Nineteen might have left him... Cold and hungry, he fell asleep in a daze of panic and fear until he was woken up by the noise.

"It's on fire! It's on fire! Put out the fire!"

He rushed to the door in panic, and through the small window for serving food, he saw the direction of the opposite office, and there was a blazing fire.

Amidst the noise of firefighting and the panicked screams of the women, there was a slight sound of iron wire rubbing against the door.

Immediately after the door was pulled open, Li Xuan stood outside the door, extremely calm: "Let's go."

Everyone was busy fighting the fire, the sound of panicked footsteps filled the small orphanage, and the siren of the fire truck was faintly heard in the distance.

No one noticed them. After running through the backyard, Zhao Jizhe discovered that the place where the fire was the biggest was the room where the dean lived. The fire started from there and then burned to the adjacent office area.

And among the orphanage staff who organized the firefighting, at a glance, there was no director.

"You set it on fire?" He asked Li Xuan with trembling teeth.

On the playground overgrown with weeds, the flames reflected Li Xuan's side face. His thin black coat was blown up and down by the wind. He seemed to have grown up overnight. He didn't look like a ten-year-old child at all.The tongue of fire licked the wall: "Damn him..."

Zhao Jizhe's brain thumped, and the next second he rushed into the fire.

"I don't want him to die?! I can't wait to peel off his skin!" Zhao Jizhe was excited, his sleeves slipped down, revealing the winding scars on his arms, "But I can't... I can't let Nineteen be so young, just put on his backThe charge of homicide..."

He was lucky, and when he rushed into the fire, he found the dean who had collapsed by the door and was unconscious from the smoke.Because he didn't take any protective measures, Zhao Jizhe's arm was burned.

Just as he brought him to the corridor, Li Xuan also rushed in covered with a wet quilt, slapped him viciously, and dragged him away without waiting for Zhao Jizhe's reaction.

Afterwards, Li Xuan took him and fled the orphanage while taking advantage of the chaos. They sat staggeringly in the back seat of the van for many years, and never went back since then.

"October 17th." Zhao Jizhe said word by word, "If you don't believe me, you can look through the old newspapers from that year, and you can find out about the arson case in the orphanage... Look, do you still think you know him now?? Did you know he was a lunatic who could kill and set fires?"

He hoped to see fear or fear on Sheng Min's face, but there was none, although Sheng Min was indeed thinking about Li Xuan at that moment.

Thinking of the day when Li Xuan knew his sexuality not long after they met, he told him that a friend of his had been molested by homosexuals, and this incident changed the trajectory of their entire lives.

Sheng Min tried his best to recall Li Xuan's expression and tone when he said this sentence, but he couldn't remember it no matter what.

I just remember that Li Xuan apologized to him when he saw his depression, saying that it was not your fault that liking men was not a fault in itself.

And what kind of mood is it?

Sheng Min's absence for a long time angered Zhao Jizhe, he raised his voice, pointed at Sheng Min and cursed: "You don't even know what kind of person he is, you see he looks good now, you are with him, he is in the gutterDid you see him when he was alive? No! Only I know! Only I accompany him! I am his only relative!... Everything I do is for him, I commit crimes for him, and go to jail for him!"

He roared at the top of his lungs, and cried again without warning: "I was in prison nineteen years ago and said he looked down on me, but I did it for him... I know he wants to learn computers, what kind of programming classes, promotional materialsHe read the page many times, we have no money but...they asked me to send something with drugs hidden in it, don't I know? I just thought, take a gamble, give it a try, as long as you have money,I can let Nineteen go to class..."

He cried unsightly, tears flowed, and because of the pain, he curled up on the ground: "I am voluntary, I am his brother, and everything I do for Nineteen is voluntary. Someone wants to grow into a tree,Someone has to be the mud under his feet, I am willing... But why is he? Why does he kick me away when he grows up... He shouldn't... How can I feel sorry for him..."

The cries echoed repeatedly in the narrow reception room. Sheng Min finally filled in the most crucial part of this incomplete story, but he didn't feel the slightest joy.

"I'm so good to him..." Zhao Jizhe was still crying.

okay?really good?

He believes that all things happen in reality, but before all the choices, is there really only the only way?

Sheng Min thought in despair.

He felt as if a big hole had been opened in his heart, and the cold wind was blowing in.

Li Xuan had already won the first place in the competition, so he could have left the orphanage immediately.

He is so smart and hardworking, and he can always find a new way out when he goes to the city.He may be able to successfully complete his studies, go to college, and study his favorite major.

He didn't have to go through the life of licking blood with the tip of a knife in Qingshui Lane. He didn't have to pierce his thin and pale body with needles and scalpels.

Just a little bit, just a little bit.

One step away, the world is turned upside down.

Sheng Min looked down at the person in front of him who was crying so hard that he couldn't help himself.

In every link, he made a choice that he thought was great but was actually extremely bad. In another sentence, I am for you, so I left all the consequences to Li Xuan with peace of mind.

Does he want Li Xuan to be a tree, or does he want Li Xuan to rot in the mud with him?

Does Li Xuan know Zhao Jizhe's so-called "for him"?Do you admit it?

Whether you know it or not, whether you admit it or not may not be that important.

Without knowing it, he was given a lot of so-called kindness...

Then, go pay it off.

Li Xuan could actually refuse, he should refuse, what he got was never what he needed or wanted.

But he still accepted all of this and the injustices of fate.

He said lightly that he didn't want to be blamed, didn't want to owe anyone.

But he didn't owe anyone anything.

Sheng Min struggled to maintain his precarious look, closed his eyes and took a deep breath.

"I treat him as my own brother, but he wants to abandon me..." Zhao Jizhe kept saying, "He doesn't want to control me, he doesn't care about me anymore..."

Sheng Min looked at him with pity, but couldn't find any words, he couldn't question him, couldn't blame him, he didn't have the qualifications, and couldn't bear it.

Not even for Li Xuan.

The perpetrator is dead, and the injury continues, and the victims should not tear each other's scars.

Besides, they were too young at the time.

"You want to see me just to tell me this?" Sheng Min said softly.

"You can't compare to me, I am the best person to him." Zhao Jizhe mentioned this sentence again.

"We have nothing to compare to."

Sheng Min was very calm, Zhao Jizhe tried to show off and provoke, but he was unmoved.Slowly squatting down, handed Zhao Jizhe a piece of paper: "Wipe it off."

"You don't want to be fake!" Zhao Jizhe knocked it off, "I want to see you, of course I want to see you, I want to see what you are! Since I know you exist...I have followed you many times...Not only do I want to see you..."

He lowered his voice, "I want to kill you even more."

"Really?" Sheng Min understood that what he said was from the heart, but his eyelashes did not tremble, "Why not?"

why why……

Zhao Jizhe remembered that one day, he quietly followed them across the street, it was late, and it was getting dark, and they held hands under the cover of night, unscrupulously.

On the way, Sheng Min didn't know what to say, so Li Xuan laughed.

It happened to be next to the street lamp, and the light reflected Li Xuan's expression was extremely gentle. Zhao Jizhe didn't know that these two words could be associated with Li Xuan.

In fact, Zhao Jizhe was following very closely at that time, and Li Xuansu was alert, but he didn't notice.At that moment, he was too relaxed, his eyes and mind were all on Sheng Min, and he couldn't see anything else.

Why not move Sheng Min, Zhao Jizhe asked himself, he was afraid, he knew Li Xuan would not let him go.He dared to touch his company, but he didn't dare to touch Sheng Min - even if he kept swearing that they would not last long.How guilty you are, but only you know.

"Are you very proud?" He asked Sheng Min back, gnashing his teeth, "Are you pitying me? I don't need it!...You can send a message to Shijiu for me, just say..."

"No need to say anything, I won't bring anything."

Sheng Min thought that there was no need for him to stay any longer, and he stood up: "You don't have to fight with others and hurt yourself, he won't come to see you because of this... He doesn't want to see people die, but you can't always threaten him like this.”

Blackmail?

Zhao Jizhe raised his head and looked at Sheng Min's face that was close at hand. The pearly face made everything around him look pale.He didn't understand, he didn't understand, was Li Xuan confused by this face?

"Why are you?" Sheng Min walked to the door, and Zhao Jizhe couldn't help shouting, "Yes, I threatened him, dragged him down, and he doesn't recognize me as his brother, and we are relatives, what about you? YouHow long have you known him? What is so good about you, why are you worthy of him?!"

Sheng Min turned his head, the setting sun came in from the window, and the light and shadow left beautiful tricks on the green plants. Every thread was a texture carved by time.

He used to be jealous, he was jealous of Zhao Jizhe, he was jealous of the dead person, he was jealous of everyone who appeared in Li Xuan's life before him, even though he knew that what he got was impossible for anyone else to have.

But not anymore.

The white head is as new, and the cover is as old.

Time is the most irreversible and least worth mentioning thing in the world.

No matter when they meet, his love for him will never be greater than now.

"It doesn't matter if I'm good or not." Sheng Min said softly, not answering anyone, but telling himself, "As long as Li Xuan needs me to stand by his side, I am the only person in this world who is worthy of him."