This page looks best with JavaScript enabled
Chapter 134 Thick Snow
Sheng Min didn't tell Li Xuan that he went to meet Zhao Jizhe, but he always felt that Li Xuan knew about it.
At night, Li Xuan hugged his back and sighed vaguely: "You..."
"Huh?" Sheng Min raised his eyes in a daze.
Li Xuan stopped talking, and after a long time, he lowered his head and kissed his forehead: "Go to sleep."
They never mentioned it again, this man.
One morning he saw a transfer agreement in his study.Li Xuan gave the Internet cafe to Zhu Zhou at a very cheap price.
"Zhu Zhou has done a good job. It's useless for me to keep the Internet cafe. It's the end of the year. Give him a year-end bonus." He signed his name in front of Sheng Min.
Sheng Min nodded, expressing his understanding, Li Xuan looked at him for a few seconds, put down his pen, turned around and hugged him.
They went out together, and when they passed by the courier station, Li Xuan stopped to send the agreement away.After returning to the car, he asked Sheng Min casually, "Are you rehearsing this morning?"
"No row in the morning."
Sheng Min shook his head. The closer the performance was to the performance, the frequency of rehearsals decreased. Yin Qian frequency left more time for the actors to reflect on themselves. He originally planned to read the script, "What's wrong?"
"Accompany me somewhere."
"Okay." Sheng Min didn't even think about it, and asked after agreeing, "Where are you going?"
This time Li Xuan was silent for a little longer, and he drove out of the tunnel and said, "The funeral parlor."
Hearing these words, Sheng Min quickly realized that Li Xuan was indeed dressed very formally today.Black shirt and overcoat, but most of the clothes in his closet were originally dark, so he didn't notice it at first.
"Do you need to buy flowers?" Sheng Min said as he glanced at his camel coat again.
"It's already ordered, I'll pick it up later." Li Xuan noticed his gaze and pursed his lips, "It's okay, you don't need to go in, I actually don't want you to go..." He paused for a moment, as if he didn't knowHow to say.
Sheng Min stared at him for a moment, gently took his hand on the steering wheel, and said softly: "I understand, I will accompany you."
The funeral home is located on the outskirts of Xicheng, and Sheng Min has never been there before.
All kinds of white buildings are distributed under the shade of trees, looking like a magnificent garden from a distance.
But when you get close, the crying can't be hidden. At the moment when the pain of losing a loved one has not had time to heal and dilute, the breath of death here is stronger than that in the cemetery.
Shu Xin's memorial service was held in the deepest mourning hall in the woods.
Li Xuan stopped the car, sat for a while, unfastened his seat belt, and took the bouquet of white carnations from the back seat with his backhand.
"I'll be back soon."
"Okay." Sheng Min smiled at him, "I'll wait for you here, and I won't go anywhere."
There was no mourning music in the mourning hall filled with wreaths and pines and cypresses. A pianist in a black suit sat in a corner of the hall, playing a popular Scottish folk song.
Talking about some long-lost days, asking when and where we will meet.
Li Mingge stood in front of the mourning hall table, with elegiac couplets and sacrificial curtains flying up and down in the wind on the wall behind him.
Compared with the last time we met, he looked much more decent, his mad look faded away, and he was well-dressed, but it was hard to say which state was better.
At this moment, all of his meticulously combed hair was white, and his body was broken. It was hard to imagine that a living person could show such a dejected look on his face.
Standing very straight, but it is also visible to the naked eye. The people who came to mourn whispered some real or false words of condolence and comfort. Li Mingge didn't react too much, and nodded numbly, until, he saw Li Xuan.
For a moment, his whole body froze, as if the air had condensed into thin ice, freezing him inside.
So soon, someone followed his groggy gaze and noticed Li Xuan's appearance.
"Who is that?"
"Is their son?" The answering voice was uncertain.
"Oh, it's so big... I saw it when I was very young." The person who asked the question was secretly speechless.
"No way." Others questioned, "How can a son come here now..."
He didn't have the nerve to say that Li Mingge's state really didn't look like seeing his son.
Naturally, these voices of discussion could not escape Li Xuan's ears, and they fell on deaf ears and didn't care.
Didn't even go to see Li Minger.
He took the flowers and walked slowly to Shu Xin's portrait. The woman in the black and white photo was still very young, in her early twenties, she was beautiful and youthful.
Even at this moment, she is still the most colorful existence in the entire memorial hall. The red silk covering the urn is the only bright color in the gray and white scene.
How absurd.
"My mother was beautiful when she was young."
Someone once said that to him.
It is very beautiful, Li Xuan thought, lowered his eyes, bowed slightly, and then gently placed the bouquet of snow-white carnations beside Shu Xin's portrait.
The scent of flowers and dew stained the back of his hands, and they hadn't completely dissipated even after walking to the car.
But when Seung-min took his hands, all the slight discomfort disappeared.
"Didn't you say you were waiting for me in the car?"
"I want to see you sooner." Sheng Min pulled his somewhat cold hand to his lips and kissed it through the mask, "Going back?"
"Why don't you go for a while." Li Xuan thought for a while, took his hand, and put it in his coat pocket. "Recently, there are many things in the company, so it's rare to come out. It seems that there are days when I haven't walked away with you."
Sheng Min was stunned for a moment, then agreed immediately, and calmly adjusted their interlocking hands into a gesture of interlocking fingers.
In addition to the main road, many narrow gravel roads were built in the funeral home. They picked a fork at random, and walked slowly without any direction.
Winter is the peak season of death. There are people coming and going in the funeral home, and the sound of talking and footsteps can be heard, but they are all separated by trees, indistinctly.Looking at the end of the path, there is no third person.
The weather was fine today, and the fog dissipated quickly after the sun came out.The air is still cool, and there is a trace of cold ice crystals in the breath. The places where few people pass by, the vegetation is not so carefully pruned, but in the cold winter, it grows denser than other places.
At first, they didn't talk, but Li Xuan seemed to think of something as they walked, and suddenly smiled, meeting Sheng Min's gaze, he shrugged: "...I didn't notice, I always walk here with you recentlykind of place."
Cemeteries, funeral homes... everything is close to the borderline of death.
Sheng Min smiled: "It's okay, be quiet."
He also wanted to say, anyway, with you, it's the same everywhere.I also felt that the two of them were very clear about what they said, so there was no need to say it.
Just walking around in a leisurely way, the green trees can go around and you can see the white roof of the memorial hall again.
Li Xuan's car was parked in the parking lot opposite, and there was already a person standing in front of the car.
Li Xuan saw it, and his footsteps only paused for a short moment. When he walked over, he didn't hesitate at all.
"I didn't expect you to come." A moment later, Li Minger said, he glanced casually at their handshake, and then turned his eyes back to Li Xuan.
"I didn't expect that either." Li Xuan said lightly.
For this answer that didn't sound too solemn, Li Minge had nothing special to say.After Shu Xin died, his "madness" got better instead, and his mood seemed more stable than any meeting he had seen in the past few months.
"Don't you have anything to tell me?" He asked Li Xuan.
Li Xuan said not very sincerely: "My condolences."
"My condolences..." Li Mingge closed his eyes briefly, "Everyone has said this to me recently, but no one has told me what I should do to be restrained... She just went thereFor two days, I have been with her, and at night, I always dream of her. I want to find you... She persuaded me, persuaded me to forget it... Besides, I don't know what is the use of looking for you."
Li Xuan couldn't help but frowned, but Li Mingge looked a little dazed, as if he just mentioned it like this, and his mind was not here at all.
"Later cremated..." These two words seemed a bit too difficult for him, he paused before continuing, "In the past few days after cremation, I never dreamed once..."
His old cheeks trembled a little, and he asked very cautiously: "Could it be that she doesn't want to see me?"
"It's also possible."
Li Xuandao felt that Sheng Min pulled his hand, pursed his lips and stopped talking.
Hearing this, Li Mingge smiled, although the smile looked weak: "You really haven't changed at all...you were like this when I found you."
"I don't think there is any need to reminisce between us." Li Xuan said.
Li Mingge seemed not to understand, and continued: "During this time, I often wondered if everything would have been different if, if I hadn't found you at the beginning...but it's better if you come today than him., The sons and daughters came to ask their parents to collect debts. If he hadn't been born, his mother wouldn't have been hurt for so many years. If she didn't want to save him, she wouldn't be able to find you, and nothing else would happen..."
Li Xuanyue couldn't help but sneered, and cut him off: "Why don't you say it, it would be fine if she didn't marry you? Shouldn't you be the one who started it."
"Of course." Unexpectedly, Li Mingge did not refute, but said, "I know, if she doesn't marry me, she won't have that child."
Today's result, is this child's problem?
Li Xuan really couldn't understand Li Mingge's thoughts, he and Sheng Min looked at each other, and saw the same helplessness in the latter's eyes.But no one went to correct Li Mingge again, it was meaningless.
Li Mingge said that Li Xuan hadn't changed, and so did he. He had to find someone to blame. Zhao Jizhe was sent to prison. In his dream, Shu Xin said forget it, but instead he blamed a dead person who couldn't refute.
Nature is hard to change.
"But I can't help but marry her, she is so kind." Li Mingge was immersed in his own emotions and couldn't extricate himself, "...When I met her, I had nothing and was a poor student whose tuition fees were borrowed. She is my big treasure.The teaching assistant of the class, the daughter of the vice principal, and the most proud graduate student of the department head."
He couldn't help smiling as he spoke, as if he saw Shu Xin from more than 20 years ago again. She was smart, beautiful, and talented in physics so high that no one could question that she took advantage of her parents.
So many people like her, why did she choose herself?To this day, Li Minger can't figure out this problem.
His parents were divorced, and he lived on the meager income from his mother's odd jobs. It was almost poverty.
As for Shu Xin's proud daughter, her father is a high-ranking government official. How can such a family look up to ordinary poor boys?
Until Li Mingge got the teaching position in the school, they were unwilling to accept him, thinking that his family was poor, and their daughter suffered accordingly.
'We grew up in the palm of our hand, rich in clothes and good food, you can give what you want, you are a good boy, but sincerity is not enough, hard work is useless, anyone can say nice things, what can you actually give her?'
They questioned him like this, and at the same time frequently arranged for Shu Xin to go on blind dates with young talents who were well-matched.
It has been more than ten years since his father-in-law and mother-in-law passed away, and the contemptuous tone is still fresh in his memory.
"I swore right then that I would make them regret it. I wanted to prove that Shu Xin was right in choosing me. I can give her whatever she wants!"
In order to win this breath, Li Mingge resigned and founded Xinge Optics.
He has never done business before, only Shu Xin supported him, the first fund was given by Shu Xin, even the core patent of the company was developed by Shu Xin - her original research direction is astrophysics, she loves this major,Great and romantic.For Li Minger's needs, he turned to study optics and threw a few years in it. He didn't start his own business until the company was on the right track.
I thought that my dream could come true, but with the pregnancy and the accident, it finally came to naught.
"It would be fine if I didn't have that child." Li Minger insisted.
The child was not in the plan, and originally wanted to wait for a few years, but she was pregnant, and Shu Xin didn't want to abort it, so she gave birth.But it seems that since having him, bad luck has followed.
He watched his wife cry, and his heart ached unbearably. He even remembered what his parents-in-law said back then. Could it be that it was a mistake for Shu Xin to choose him?
Impossible, he didn't believe it, he was the one who loved her the most and was the most suitable for her.
Besides, he already has money and power, and can satisfy all Shu Xin's demands, as promised.
She wanted to save her son, so he searched for a needle in a haystack to find bone marrow.
In the end, the son was not kept, but the proud daughter of heaven became a crazy woman, that's okay, Li Mingge will keep whoever she recognizes as her son.
Whatever she wants, he will give her!He thought that he had clearly done it, and it was not bad at all. Why, why did Shu Xin die?
Li Minger spoke very deeply, with real feelings, which made Li Xuan, who was expressionless, look extremely insensitive: "You don't need to tell me these things."
"Who else can I tell?" Li Mingge looked miserable, "Someone must remember her."
"Remember her or remember your love?" The corners of Li Xuan's lips twitched invisibly, "Your father-in-law and mother-in-law must regret looking down on you back then. If they knew about it, they would definitely..."
Before he could finish his sentence, Sheng Min started pulling his hand again.
"What right do you have to doubt that I love her?!" Li Mingge understood the sarcasm in his tone, and became emotional again.
Don't you love it?Of course love.
The child he regarded as a disaster had such a precise, self-righteous love at the beginning.
"Mr. Li." Sheng Min sighed, before Li Xuan spoke, and said something irrelevant, "I think your wife has very deep feelings for you."
Hearing this, Li Mingge's fluctuating emotions suddenly calmed down again.
"She listens to me in everything..." His tone suddenly softened, but it seemed a little difficult to speak, "Always agree with me... That day, I asked her to wait for me, and she also agreed with me..."
A cloudy tear fell from the corner of his eye.
"Why didn't she wait for me..."
He repeated why, turned around, and left slowly, just like when he came, without warning.
Calculating carefully, Li Mingge is only in his early fifties, looking at his back, he is already an old man through and through.
"Let's go back."
Li Minger walked to the memorial hall, and enthusiastic staff supported him.Li Xuan looked away and said to Sheng Min.
Sheng Min nodded, but said he wanted to leave, but no one moved.
After a while, Sheng Min glanced left and right, seeing no one passing by at the moment, took off his mask, and leaned over to kiss him.
After parting, he raised his hand and stroked Li Xuan's slightly frowning brows with his thumb: "Are you okay?"
"There is one thing." Li Xuan was silent for a moment, and answered irrelevantly, "I haven't told you...it's actually not very important..."
His tone was very calm, but he stopped in the middle of speaking. Sheng Min looked at him for a while and said, "I know."
"You know?" Li Xuan was stunned for a rare moment.
"I was just guessing at first, but when you say it like this, I think it should be." Sheng Min smiled, "And then?"
Li Xuan lowered his eyes, took out a laboratory test form from the other pocket and handed it to Sheng Min.
The lymphocyte toxicity test was positive, and his match with Shu Xin did not match.
Sheng Min finished it quickly, put it away and didn't return it to Li Xuan.
"Will you go?" After a while, he asked him very lightly, "If you can match."
"No." Li Xuan seemed to have thought about this question thousands of times, without hesitation, and answered lightly and definitely.
Sheng Min smiled, it was hard to say whether he believed it or not, whether he was happy or not, he just leaned over and kissed him, put his arms around his back, and sighed in a low voice: "You are really the most soft-hearted person I have ever seen."
The author has something to say:
Countdown to Completion: Three.