After entering the room for a while, she only looked up at her, and then lowered her head.

Zuo Qingan stood at the door for a long while, put the sleeping little dog on the bed, and sat down on the chair next to her. Even though the air was silent, she was still there and allowed him to be by her side, which is already excellent.

An hour later, he sat there, but he was not sleepy all the time, but Jiayu couldn't help it, and started to doze off with his head on his hands. For a while, his head drooped, and then he tried to open his eyes several times, and the sound of crackling fireworksWhen it sounded, she suddenly opened her eyes.

Only then did he realize that he was extremely close, as long as she raised her head slightly, she could touch his nose. She had just woken up and was not quick to react. She stared blankly at him and forgot to reach out and push him away.

Seeing this, he couldn't help but bend his lips: "Jiayu, the New Year is here." The warm breath fell on her face, familiar yet unfamiliar.

At this time, the little dog on the bed groaned, and he got up to hug the little dog again, and then asked, "Are you going out to watch the fireworks?"

She thought for a while, but didn't answer, but got up and walked outside, only took a few steps, saw Zuo Qing'an holding the child and following her out, she whispered: "He..." Just said a word,If she shut up, Zuo Qingan could carry him out, so the fireworks wouldn't disturb him.

Him, the little dog.

Thinking about it in a flash, she involuntarily raised her eyes to look at his little swaddle, which was garnet red, very bright.

She hesitated for a moment, when something was handed over to her hand, she subconsciously reached out to take it, and when she realized what it was, she immediately froze.

Staring at the little swaddle on his arms with both hands stiffly, he looked over in a subconscious manner. The little Ergou saw Jiayu and gave her a toothless smirk.

It was the first time in nearly two months that she saw her, married

She was completely stunned, with a trembling tone in her voice: "You take him away."

"Jiayu, let me teach you, you raise one hand up, put the other hand over from here, and hold this position." He said softly, "Can you give him a hug?"

"No..." Well, before the word could be said, Xiao Ergou smiled at her again, and she couldn't say that word in an instant. She remembered the days when he grew up in his body, and she remembered herHe turned over in his stomach while reading poetry and books, and remembered his response when he touched his stomach through his clothes.

It turned out that he grew up like this, with fair skin, black eyes, thick hair, and he loves to laugh so much.

"Jiayu, if you are dissatisfied with me, I have no complaints, but Xiao Ergou needs a mother, just like me in those years."

The smile on Jiayu's face froze in an instant, and she suddenly handed the little dog to Zuo Qing'an: "Take him away."

Zuo Qing'an was obviously taken aback, only to feel that feeling came again, that huge wave-like feeling of emptiness, as if he had become a shell and lost all his abilities.

He is not satisfied, even if he tells himself countless times that as long as she is by his side, it is enough, even if she will not smile at her, but he can watch her smile at others, sitting quietly on the couch in the afternoonHe should be satisfied with reading and practicing calligraphy.

He can't participate in her life, but he can still accompany her.

But there was always a crazy thought in his heart that was suppressed, and that thought told him that it was not enough, far from enough.

He wants her to be like Huang Ling, who will act like a baby to him, remember his preferences, care about his body, and take care of his emotions.

Reason and emotion tore and divided him day by day, he was in a dilemma, and he couldn't live in peace.

She was right in front of him, but he couldn't reach out to hug her. He thought he could save her in his life, but found that all his strength had been exhausted in the past six months.

He took the child in the end, but he wanted to fulfill her wish more than his daily suffering, even if this wish left him covered in bruises.

"I'm holding Ergou, let's continue to watch the fireworks, okay?" He could even smile at her.

"good."

With a single word, he was instantly satisfied again, as if he had new hope and the courage to continue.

If you fall in love with someone, she will be your god from now on, and you will surrender all your emotions.

Jiayu looked at his expression, and was instantly unbearable, but soon she didn't overwhelm it.

Little Er Dou, she is not good at it.

******

On the night of New Year's Eve, Jiayu slept all night, and closed his eyes was the naive smile of Xiao Ergou and his unsightly smile than crying.

She knew that her behavior was wrong. From the beginning, she knew that she should not be like this.

But if she is not like this, Zuo Qing'an will not be sad. If she does not treat Xiao Ergou like this, she will be unable to control her heart.

It won't take long for a soft heart.

Zuo Qingan has always been considered a decision. Shen Jiayu is easy to be soft and soft.

Otherwise, how could he do such a thing.

But she said very well. When she decided to give birth to a puppy, she should be responsible for the puppy. After all, she had many ways to give birth, but in the end she chose to give birth.

The thoughts in the head turned around, and at the end, she opened her eyes messy. She knew that her approach was wrong. How to do it, she didn't think about it yet.

At the moment, washed up and washed. After a long time, it was sinking, and it was vaguely for a long time. apologized and apologized for yesterday's words.

"I'm not angry." Jiayu Dao.

Shen Qi'an was relieved. Yesterday, he went back and thought about it. It was indeed that he was wrong. Jiayu was so grateful. If so, how could he even be willing to go without hesitation?

At the moment, the brothers and sisters said, but before Shen Qi'an left, she still couldn't help telling: "Jiayu, you must think clearly." Do you really get along with your Majesty in this way?Do you turn a blind eye?

"I will."

*****

From the first day to the seventh day, it was sealed everywhere, but for the monarch of a country, this is not a non -handling of government affairs, but it is less. The frequency of his return to the palace has been changed to two days.After the first seventh day, you will go back and forth in the palace and the Shen family courtyard every day.

The days are not different from the past half a year. Every day he comes over to speak with her, sometimes holding a puppy.

Jiayu never hugged Xiao Ergu, but since the night of New Year's Eve, she no longer resists him. At least when Zuo Qing'an puts Xiao Er in front of her, she will not close her eyes tightly.

Sometimes she was even thinking about it, don't bear it, that's it, but the last moment was held back, it was only half a year.

Until 16th, Zuo Qingan did not come to the Shen family courtyard.

In the daytime, she never found out what is different from this day and the usual time. It was not until she went to bed at night, and suddenly felt that she had forgotten something, and then suddenly remembered that he didn't come.

But she didn't ask, she thought, did she not be disgusted to see him?

But one day later, he did not come as usual. On the third day, he did not come. On the fourth day, the people in the palace took the puppy away.

Mrs. Shen at first comforted her, saying that Her Majesty had passed on her will and couldn't come, but on the third day when the puppy was taken away, she began to worry.

"Jiayu, His Majesty will not be true ..." She said, but saw Jiayu holding a needle line and continued to sew purse in an orderly manner.Their father and son said. "

Speaking, Mrs. Shen left Jiayu's bedroom.

The needle tip broke her fingertips, and a drop of red bloody brothers dripped on the plain lotus bag, and she closed her eyes.

Until the next day, Lin Tong led it and told her: "Madam, His Majesty is sick these days."

sick?Her hand trembled slightly, and a little humming.

Lin Gong said: "A military report came from the northern border seven days ago, and he went south to the south.

After listening to this, she said suddenly: "What?" When Zuo Qing'an accompanied himEssence

It was just that she always thought that she had only one ear perfunctory and didn't care about what he said. Today, she found out that she actually remembered very clearly.

Has always been a heart disease in Da'an. From time to time, he went south to do evil. When the emperor was in, he managed it, but the effect was very small, so he could only go with him.From time to time, harassing the north, but the border people are miserable.

Especially for two years, Xunxin changed the leader. Compared with the leader of the past, his goal was obviously greater and intended to be in the Wanli River in Da'an.

"How could he go in person?" A century ago, Daan also had a emperor in the north to fight against him. As a result, the 100,000 army could not be defeated, and the emperor was captured.

At that time, there was a chaos on the opposition and the field. If it was not during the crisis, a minister came forward, and his ingenuity was unsatisfactory and turned to the tide. Whether Daan now exists is unknown.

Although the emperor cannot be compared with Qing An, the sword on the battlefield has no eyes, in case ...

Bang Bang, Jia Yu's heart jumped up.

"Mrs., you go to the palace to persuade your Majesty." Ling Tong said.

For a while, Jiayu didn't answer, and after a long while, she nodded gently.She did not go because she had feelings for him, but because she was his subject.She told her like this.

The two hurriedly packed the back of the palace. When they arrived at the Ganqing Palace, Lin Tong led the stop, and Sun Gonggong took Jiayu into the inside.

"Madam." Sun Gonggong said.

Jiayu overdue his head and avoided this ceremony. Sun Gonggong was the head of the big inner. She was just a little woman who was not famous.

Sun Gonggong said again: "Madam, you advise your Majesty after you go in." As he said, there was a small eunuch with paint red disk in the back.There is one thing, my wife also invites my wife to persuade my Majesty to take the medicine while it is hot. "

"Medicine?" Jiayu's eyes fell on the small porcelain bowl on the paint -red gold disc.

Sun Gonggong sighed and said, "His Majesty often headaches." Then, he sighed again, "His Majesty has been sleeping in less than two hours every day, and it is no wonder that this will be the case."

In less than two hours, less than one -sixth of the day, and it lasted for half a year. Is Jiayu subconsciously want to ask about the trouble?But suddenly remembered that he traveled to and from the palace and the Shen family courtyard almost every day. This is almost one hour. He will stop at the Shen family for three or four hours daily, and then there are many things to deal with many things.And he just succeeded, presumably he must be very busy.

I couldn't ask for a while.

Just a few steps, she suddenly stopped. What was his body, how about the work, and what about her?

"Madam, why don't you leave?" Sun Gonggong asked respectfully.

Jiayu blinked, looked up and looked a little gray, and walked in

After hearing the footsteps, Zuo Qing turned around, but found that Jiayu stood not far ahead. He froze and surprised: "Jiayu, how are you here."

Jiayu looked at the map of the semi -wall wall behind him, and looked at his position. Only the position he faced was exactly the northern border of Da'an.

For a while, Sun Gong put the medicine bowl long and whispered to remind His Majesty.

Zuo Qingren whispered, waved his hand to signal him, and hurriedly explained to Jiayu: "It's too busy these days, I haven't been able to go to the Shen family, and I remember the second dog again.Are you going to see him? It's in the warm pavilion next to him. "

Jiayu drooked: "Your Majesty should take medicine first."

Then Zuo Qing'an patted his head: "I almost forgot." He said that he took the bone porcelain bowl on a few cases and drank it.

Jiayu's eyes and noses were as good as possible. She warned herself not to distract, but when she raised her head, she couldn't help looking at his facial features.

He was indeed thinner, with sharp features and blue eyes.

"Jiayu, do you want to go see Ergou with me?" He asked again.

"It's not..." After a pause, she changed her words: "Okay."

When Zuo Qingan asked this sentence, he was actually ready to be rejected. He had even thought about how to comfort himself. The fact that she came to the palace to see him meant that she still cared about him a little bit.

This is enough.

Therefore, this answer was simply unexpected, and Zuo Qing'an was stunned at the time.

But he reacted quickly, and before anyone noticed, he quickly opened the way: "You follow me."

Xiao Ergou has been more than two months old, but he still spends more time sleeping than awake. It happened that Xiao Ergou had just fallen asleep when they came.

Looking at it from afar, Jiayu lowered her voice, "Let's go out."

Zuo Qing'an looked at the sleeping Xiao Ergou regretfully, and agreed with her suggestion.

Years later, the air was still cold. When Jiayu came out from Shen’s house, in order to keep warm, the little jackets that Qingzhu picked for her were all thick cotton with wool. Even if the cloak was removed, every room in the palace would burn down.Fire Dragon, especially Xiao Ergou's bedroom, is warmer than other rooms.

At that time, she was sweating a little on her back, her head and face were red, and it was better to stand in a position where the wind blows in.

Seeing her standing in the wind, Zuo Qingan frowned, and immediately stood in front of her calmly, blocking the cold wind.

Seeing this, Jiayu sighed softly from the bottom of her heart.

At this moment, he looked carefully, but saw her face turned red again, after thinking for a while, he beckoned for someone, and told him to lower the temperature of the room as soon as possible with a voice that Jiayu couldn't hear.

"I heard that His Majesty intends to go out in person." Jiayu looked at him and hit the point directly.

Zuo Qing'an asked, "Where did you find out about it?"

On the way here, Jiayu had already thought up several words of remonstrance, not because she was worried about Zuo Qingan's safety, but because he was an emperor, and he was a capable and wise emperor.She just came here.

"Your Majesty's golden body should focus on your own dragon body. In the case of the Tatars, there are excellent generals to go out. Why should your majesty put your own safety in danger?"

She spoke bluntly, and while speaking, subconsciously looked up at him, only to find that the corners of his lips were slightly hooked upwards.

When she finished speaking, he smiled and asked, "You care about me."

"As a citizen of Da'an, the daughter of the people naturally cares about His Majesty." She subconsciously took a step back and said.

"I hope His Majesty can consider the personal conquest."

After she finished speaking, there was silence in the palace for a while, she lowered her head, her eyes fell on her toes, and said again: "I'll go first." Just as she was speaking, she turned around and was about to step back.

Just as she turned around, someone grabbed her wrist, and she heard his voice above her head: "Jiayu, if I get injured on the battlefield or if something happens to me, will you be sad?"

As he spoke, he stared straight at her. Even though she lowered her head so that no one could see the expression on her face clearly, Zuo Qing'an also bent down to look over her, not missing any trace of her face.reaction.

"Your Majesty, please be respectful." She didn't answer this question, but tugged at the sleeve that was pinched by his palm.

"Self-respect?" He smiled softly, "I see."

As soon as he finished speaking, he suddenly let go of her, but before she left, Zuo Qingan first said: "The Tartars marched southward and captured the people in our northern border. Every day they are injustice, the border is not safe."

When she was about to leave, she suddenly stopped, and she was stunned. He slowly walked around her eyes and asked, "Do you want me to go? Don't think about my identity. Just think about it, think about it yourself."Shall I go? I'll wait for your answer."

Jiayu's lips twitched, and she couldn't give an answer for a while, she felt that her decision to enter the palace was just for the sake of the overall situation, he is the emperor, how could he go out so easily!

But what about herself?She closed her eyes. She could continue to deceive him, but she couldn't deceive herself. When Commander Lin said that he was going to lead the troops in person, her heart almost jumped out of her chest.

At that moment, she only had one thought, that is, how could he go?He doesn't want to go.

Fortunately, she controlled herself, but every time she controlled her mood to see Xiao Ergou, she exhausted all her energy.

Just as he was thinking, he suddenly stretched out his hand, lifted her chin, let her look into his eyes, and said sonorously: "I won't go." As soon as he finished speaking, Zuo Qingan noticed her tense shouldersSuddenly relaxed.

Suddenly he couldn't help but smiled softly: "Da'an has a suitable general, and I may not be as good as him when it comes to marching troops, so I won't."

Jiayu hummed, the mission she had come for had been completed, so she wanted to back away, she wanted to do this, and immediately moved forward a step, but then there was a loud thumping sound from behind.

She turned her head, her pupils dilated suddenly: "Come here."

***********

When he was lying on the bed, it was the first time in half a year that Jiayu looked him straight.

She actually found that he was thinner again, but now she suddenly found that he was so thin, with clear outlines and sharp edges and corners, he had completely grown from a boy to a man.

In the past, his skin was fair, but with that healthy and jade-like luster, instead of the current paleness.

"What's wrong, Your Majesty?" Seeing the imperial physician's hand on her pulse, her voice trembled unconsciously.

After the little Ergou was full moon, another pediatric expert was transferred from the Imperial Hospital, but the Imperial Hospital returned to the palace, so it was very clear about Jiayu's identity, and immediately said: "Madam, wait a moment."

After a while, the Imperial Hospital sighed: "Your Majesty is overworked and overworked, and just now he was too emotional, so he passed out."

The corners of Jiayu's lips trembled slightly, and she reluctantly asked, "Is it serious?"

"This is a chronic disease that has accumulated over a long period of time, and it needs to be recuperated," said the Prince's Courtyard. "Madam should persuade His Majesty to improve his cultivation and consume less mind, so that he can recover quickly."

As she said that, the imperial hospital was going to prescribe the prescription, and the palace room became quiet again. She looked at the person on the bed, and her breathing became a little heavy.

She took a few steps forward, then turned around again.

***********

When Zuo Qing'an woke up, he had already lit a few palace lanterns. Although it was not very bright, he could still see the people in the entire palace clearly. He stood up with his hands propped up, but he didn't find the shadow he wanted to see, and felt a sense of loss in his heart.

Eunuch Sun came to help him, he waved his hand and asked, "What time is it?"

"It's almost You time." Eunuch Sun replied, "Your Majesty needs to eat now."

Zuo Qingan shook his head and motioned for Eunuch Sun to bring the clothes. It is You hour, so he slept for nearly three hours, rubbed his eyes immediately, and asked, "When did she leave?"

When he said this, his heart seemed to be clenched tightly by a thin vine, waiting for the verdict, he thought, even if she was just an extra hour after he fainted, no, half an hour, or the time of a stick of incense, he was also extremely happy.

"Your Majesty, Miss Shen hasn't left."

What?

Zuo Qingan opened his eyes wide in an instant, and looked towards the four corners of the room: "Where is the person?"

"In the little prince's room."

As if in a dream, Zuo Qingan hurriedly put on his clothes and walked to the next door. He closed his eyes and opened them again to tell him that this was not a dream, that this was really not a dream.

She didn't leave.

Almost a few steps, he arrived at the door of Dongnunge.

"Madam, don't be afraid, just hold this way, you take a few steps."

She swayed her head slightly, with a gentle smile on her face, and then suddenly smiled and looked up in surprise: "He always laughed."

"The little boy likes his wife. Although he usually likes to laugh, he doesn't laugh as many as his wife's arms." Grandma said.

She lowered her head again. From his position, she could only see her half -sideline face like a jade, and a gentle and gentle atmosphere was exuding under the hazy light.

She was holding a small dog.

She smiled at the puppy.

Zuo Qingan squeezed the door tightly, and the sound of breathing did not even dare to get up. He was afraid of a big movement. This picture that appeared in the dream was gone.

Jiayu turned around at this time, turned slightly, and looked at the door.

Zuo Qingan felt that his breathing was about to stop. Although he had accepted every time she looked at him, the arc of the lips of lips would disappear, but acceptance did not mean that he was calm.

On the contrary, every time he walked on the blade and made him numb.

"You wake up." She asked gently, "Have you used the diet?"

Zuo Qing dumped his head vigorously and looked at her again. Her eyes were not cold yet. She was concerned about him. He moistened his dry lips with the tip of his tongue and replied: "No."

"You haven't eaten for a long time, it's time to eat something." She said warmly.

Lengfeng and cold night are all things that can be felt, but he feels that he is really dreaming, and even slammed his thigh stupidly, even if the pain came, he still felt unreal.

Because he was too doubting that all this was a dream, he even tentatively asked: "You go with me."

Speaking of his heart, there was a little regret, from time to time, he was too anxious, but he heard her whispered.

Hmm ...

Jiayu handed the child to the grandmother and walked in front of him.Seeing him for a while, Jiayu raised his eyes and reminded: "Go."

"Jiayu, you ..." Zuo Qingan couldn't speak, and this calm and counted emperor completely lost his ability to think in front of her.

Jiayu sighed gently, and she was determined to not forgive him again. No matter what he, she would never be soft -hearted.

Time is the most powerful weapon in the world, which will fade the memory. In fact, when she was born with a puppy, she recalled the mood at the time, but she would never have the emotions at the time.

She always thought she was torture Zuo Qingan, but recently she felt more and more that she was torturing herself.Especially on that day, when he suddenly did not come to the Shen family courtyard, she suddenly found that Zuo Qingan's status was not as good as what she thought.

Unconsciously, she had grown into a towering tree in her heart. Even though she saw off the branches, his roots had been deeply inserted in and would continue to emit a new bud.

He slowly held her hand, and the warmth came from. Zuo Qing'an was not so panic. He asked with concern: "Did you eat?"

"I use it." Her head lowered, her eyes fell on the tight wrist, saying, "Your Majesty you should pay attention to your body.It will affect the foundation in the future. "

"I asked Sun Gonggong. He said that you couldn't sleep two hours last year. The diet was chaotic. His Majesty had to change these problems."

Zuo Qing'an clenched her wrist, led someone to the next door, he heard the words, and asked gently: "Can you supervise me?"

When the words fell, she felt that his breathing was a little lighter. Jiayu understood his deep meaning in his background, but did not answer for a while.

When he saw this, he was busy transferring the topic: "What do you want to eat now?"

Jiayu shook his head and held him, and suddenly asked: "If I didn't persuade you today, would you recruit it?"

Zuo Qing was stunned and stared at her eyes and shook his head: "I won't go, I never intend to go in person."

He said that his head suddenly buried in her shoulder nest. Jiayu's body was stiff, but he didn't push away. His voice came from his ear. She heard him:

"How can I go. Jiayu I'm afraid, I'm more afraid of accidents on the battlefield than you. I'm afraid that one day, I can't protect you to take care of you."

When I can only go forward to have you, I can work hard to move forward without shrinking.But now I don't have to protect you, but I am cautious and afraid of it.

Just because you are my armor, but also my weakness.

I used to be lonely and fearless.Today, I am also trembling because of your shabby.