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Chapter 10
After sending the message, he didn't expect Shen Xingye to reply. His future contact with Shen Xingye should be second only to this.
He packed his bags and went to the practice room. There were other students in the practice room, and today there was a teacher, and everyone was very serious.
Bian regained his composure, and it was almost dark when he touched the phone again.
The people in the practice room were almost gone, and while sitting on the floor, flipping through the dancing videos for a while, replied a few messages.
The person in charge who invited him to the show before asked him if he could go.
Bian You's answer should be very straightforward. Apart from preparing for the competition and attending classes, he has nothing else to distract him from.
The person in charge quickly asked him what he wanted to dance, and they went to arrange the costumes.
After chatting with the person in charge, Bian You's news was already filled with Shen Du.
Shen Du has two days to play and he doesn't need to train?
He sent Bian another full message, many, many, but Bian didn't want to read any more, so he just replied: Don't send it.
Shen Du quickly called him as if he was staying by the phone.
The breakup is the breakup, but don't want Shen Du to affect the game because of this kind of thing, so we have been together for so long anyway.
After hesitating for a moment, Bian sighed again and connected the phone.
"Baby." Shen Du's voice came from the other end, very strange.
"We've broken up."
"That doesn't count. I haven't agreed yet. Yuran said that you are still in the practice room? Why don't you go to bed earlier? You haven't told Youran about our breakup, have you? I still have hope, right?"
Leaning against the wall with some tiredness, "Then what do you want to break up?"
"Does it have to be a big fight?"
Shen Du said, "That's not what I meant."
"Then what do you mean? I've seen it all, Shen Du." He didn't want to recall that scene, but Shen Du insisted on forcing him to say: "You are kissing, I didn't listen to what you said."Maybe it was because Bian You talked a little too much on the phone, "I don't want to hear it."
"Play well, don't contact me again, I don't want to affect your game."
"Aren't you reluctant at all?" Shen Du couldn't help asking.
Bian said, "No."
"Have you ever liked me?" Shen Du asked, he seemed to be very resentful, and started chattering again, "I have been chasing you for three years, and I have been with you for more than two years, have you ever had feelings for me?"
He lowered his eyes again, until now, his heart slowly felt a dull pain, when he mentioned breaking up yesterday, he didn't feel sad again.
I don't know, he didn't know, he hummed vaguely, Shen Du sneered, "Every time I'm chasing after your ass, I like you, what do you take my feelings for? Have you ever responded?"
There's none?
I can't remember clearly.
He has always been like this.
He hummed, "I am like this when you are chasing me, and I am like this when you are with me."
It's very strange, before he wanted to find a chance to talk to Shen Du, but the timing of this talk became when he and Shen Du broke up.
"It's a person who wants to get a response, right?"
Bian then said: "Yes." He thought for a while and asked, "Does Bai Nan like you very much?"
Shen Du sent him a message for a day today, and at this moment, he could no longer swallow his anger. He was planning to break up with Bai Nan. If Bai Nan didn't come over suddenly yesterday, he wouldn't have discovered that kind of thing. It was all Bai Nan.Nan took the initiative, but Bian refused to listen to his explanation.
"Yes, I like it very much." Shen Du's words pierced Bian You's eardrum like a needle: "He is different from you, he can act like a baby, he can express love, even in bed, but you can't, we have been together for two years,You didn't let me touch it, I'm a normal man."
Bian was stunned for a while, before reminding Shen Du: "We opened the room."
But only once.
That day, Shen Du received a call from his mother, and told his mother that he was eating out by himself, so to speak, it seemed that he didn't even exist as a friend.
Bian suddenly put out that little thought again, found an excuse and went back.
Bian added: "I didn't leave because I had something to do, but because I heard the conversation between you and your aunt."
"What's wrong with my mother and I on the phone?" Shen Du seemed to have remembered this, his tone became irritable: "That's because my brother came out that day! How could I tell my mother that I was with my boyfriend?Do you care about this? Why didn't you say it earlier? I..."
"I don't care about that, I mean, if you think that's proof of liking, I should like you then."
Shen Du was really pleasantly surprised, it was too difficult to hear the word "like" from Bian You, so he couldn't help asking: "Then what now?"
He didn't want to chat anymore, he didn't know if this was a quarrel, but this should be the last time he and Shen Du chatted, he wondered, Shen Xingye actually came out?
No wonder he said yesterday that his parents were very open-minded.
But Shen Du hasn't come out yet.
"Okay, Shen Du." Bian felt that this was enough, he was unwilling to answer Shen Du's question, "Should it be considered a quarrel now?"
Shen Du's joy stopped abruptly, and he asked him: "What do you mean?"
"The meaning is, it should be considered a breakup now, right?" Bian laughed lightly again, "It's good to get together and break up, Shen Du."
After saying this sentence again, Bian suddenly felt relieved.
Shen Du took a heavy breath: "You still want to break up with me, don't you?"
Bian hummed again.
"Okay, let's break up!"
Bian said again: "Okay."
He hung up the phone neatly and blocked Shen Du's contact information.
Also, the rabbit pendant on the phone was removed.
After doing this, he stared at the wall quietly for a while, before he lowered his head and buried his head between his knees.
At the same time, I feel like a driftwood in the water, there is only one piece, floating on the water.
It was difficult for him to breathe, and he remembered his childhood.
His parents divorced very early, when he was just beginning to understand. Not long after the divorce, both parents had new families, and his whereabouts became difficult.
The mother conceived again, and the father had a new child.
He was arranged to be taken by a nanny, and he went to this house and then to that house during the holidays, but nowhere was his home.
Bian gradually began to become very silent again, and didn't like to express emotions.
He is actually trying.
A knock on the door interrupted Bian You's thoughts.
Bian was unresponsive again, and looked towards the door blankly.
Shen Xingye didn't know when he came here. He stood at the door and didn't come in. He took a glass of milk and asked him, "Would you like hot milk, brother Bian You?"
Blinking again, Shen Xingye seemed a little embarrassed, and took the initiative to say, "I'm here to apologize. I was too impulsive at noon, and my words were a little rushed."
"It doesn't matter if you delete me or not, brother Bian You." Shen Xingye stood alone at the door as tall as he was, actually almost blocking the door.
He pursed his lips again and adjusted his expression. He didn't know if he looked a little embarrassed now, and if Shen Xingye heard anything, but he wasn't embarrassed, but the posture he was sitting on the ground was a bit inconvenient for Shen Xingye.Hoshino spoke, he quickly got up and shook his head.
Shen Xingye may have misunderstood what he meant, with a self-blame expression on his face: "It's okay if you don't want to accept it, brother Bian You, it's my fault."
"That's not what I meant." Bian You had no choice but to explain.
"Brother Bian You, I know, you may not delete me because of what I said."
Bian You: "..."
He was right, but not quite right.
On the other hand, he felt that Shen Xingye's tone was pitiful, and it didn't matter whether he kept friends or not.
"But it's okay, delete it if you want." Shen Xingye said, and passed the milk forward, "If you don't want to accept the apology, you can drink the milk too."
Bian said: "..." Why did he feel even more pitiful, Bian sighed in his heart, took his milk, Shen Xingye smiled visible to the naked eye.
After being silent for a while, Bian said again: "I accept the apology, but..." He knew that he also had a problem.
He shouldn't have vented his anger on Shen Xingye.
Before he could say anything, Shen Xingye happily asked, "Really?"
Bian had no choice but to answer him first: "Yes, I didn't blame you."
"Brother over there, can we still be friends in the future?" Shen Xingye jumped on the topic quickly, and after reacting for a while, Shen Xingye said again: "It's okay if you don't want to, this is your freedom."
It felt like he was talking too much.
Of course, what he said was also a bit strange, this is Bian You's freedom in the first place.
But why does Shen Xingye feel wronged?
He hummed again with some headache, "Yes."
It’s just friends. Many people have said that they want to be friends with Bian again, but they didn’t have any contact after that. Bian is not a person who takes the initiative to make friends. He doesn’t have much social life. Even if he agrees, there won’t be much interaction.
"Brother over there..."
Bian had no choice but to raise his chin slightly: "Huh?"
"Are you not in a good mood right now?" Bian also found that Shen Xingye liked to bend over and bow his head when talking to him, leaning in front of him, creating a just right speaking distance, and he didn't need to look up, otherwise the distance would be too far away.As he got closer, his nose was almost close to his nose, and he felt a little itchy when he breathed. The tip of his nose was filled with the smell of hot milk mixed with the very faint smell of lemon from Shen Xingye.
Bian quickly retracted his chin and stepped back a little.
Bian didn't know how to answer this question, he didn't like to confide his emotions to others.
He pursed his lips, and Shen Xingye had already asked him, "Do you want to go swimming?"
"As a new friend, I want to show you my major." Shen Xingye said seriously.
However, have never met someone who would do this when making friends, a bit like a primary school student.
"There is no one in the swimming pool now." Shen Xingye introduced enthusiastically like a primary school student, "It's very clean, so don't worry about hygiene."
After a while, he lowered his eyes, pursed his lips, and lowered his voice, "It doesn't matter if you don't want to go, I'm just talking."
Bian You: "...Okay."
The author has something to say:
Shen Xiaogou (continuously pretending to be pitiful): "It's Your Freedom" "I'm Just Talking"