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date="2021-11-22"

title="Chapter 51:"

weight="148641"

series = ["Back to the Years When My Father Was in School"]

mode = "manual"

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Seeing the text message, Lu Yan cried even harder.

She didn't answer him for a long time, until Shen Kuo's phone came in, but she cut off, but immediately after he called again, Lu Yan still cut off.

At this moment, she didn't know how to face him.

For the third time, Lu Yan looked at his name jumping on the phone screen... She knew that if she didn't answer this time, Shen Kui would not call again.

The girl kept wiping the corners of her eyes with the back of her hand, and finally pressed the answer button with her trembling hand.

Did not speak, even held his breath...

On the phone end, she could hear the noisy background sound of the hospital.

Shen Kui was silent for more than ten seconds before finally speaking, "Yanyan, I don't mind."

If you mind, won't choose you from the beginning.

Lu Yan's emotions were completely broken, she gasped for breath, and said in a shuddering cry

"But I mind!"

Shen's father's life is dying, it is their family's fault, and Shen Kui is so kind to himself...

Lu Yan just felt like a knife.

"Shen Kuo, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry..."

She apologized to him indiscriminately.

"You didn't apologize to me."

Shen Kuo's hand clenched his fist, and his voice remained calm: "Lu Yan, never say these three words to me again."

Lu Yan hung up the phone, cried for a short while, and finally fell asleep faintly.

This sleep, sleep directly until five o'clock in the afternoon.

Lu Zhen did not come to disturb her. After waking up, she felt limp and walked out of the room door in slippers.

It's really rare for Lu Zhen to be reading a book.

Even the domestic helper, Aunt Li, said: "Look at the enthusiasm of the young master, I want to get the champion!"

Lu Yan went to the bathroom to wash her face and looked at her swollen eyes. It was so ugly.

After crying, she felt more comfortable in her heart, and asked Aunt Li to order two cucumber slices to stick on her eyes. She was hungry, and she squeaked off the remaining half.

Returning to the room, Lu Yan closed her eyes and took a deep breath.

Children cry when they encounter things. In front of Shen Kui, she always looks like a small child.

At eight o'clock in the evening, Lu Zhen washes up early and prepares to go to bed for the college entrance examination tomorrow.

Before going to bed, he knocked on Lu Yan's door——

"I haven't ‘greeted’ you all day, stinky girl, I don’t know how to cut an apple for you after seeing Lao Tzu working so hard."

Lu Yan answered dullly, "Ang."

"Open the door."

"Open the door for what?"

"Let Lao Tzu slap his head."

"I'm not your dog!"

"I will have the exam tomorrow. With luck, you have been lucky."

Lu Yan quickly put the cucumber slices back on his eyes and opened the door of the room.

"Oh my mother, you scared me."

"Apply mask."

"alright."

Lu Zhen squeezed the hair on the top of her forehead and muttered to herself: "Blessed Bodhisattva, Tsinghua University, Peking University, Fudan Jiaotong University, there is no Amitabha..."

After murmured, he patted Lu Yan on the back of the head: "Okay, go to sleep."

As he turned and left, Lu Yan suddenly grabbed the corner of his clothes.

"what?"

Lu Yan hesitated for a while, and said in a dry voice, "Dad, come on tomorrow."

"Yeah, I see." He touched her forehead, a trace of rare tenderness crossed his eyes: "Don't worry."

Watching Lu Zhen leave, she returned to the room, turned her back to the door and took out her phone.

The phone screen showed that there were three missed calls, all from the same person-Shen Kuo.

The time was four o'clock in the afternoon, four ten ten and four twenty seven.

She slept too deep, and the phone was muted so... she didn't receive it.

The college entrance examination is coming tomorrow, no matter how sad she is, she can't let Shen Kui have any concerns.

She cannot influence him.

Lu Yan called Shen Kui back.

The phone rang for a long time and no one answered it.

Thinking of the three missed calls in the afternoon, Lu Yan suddenly felt something wrong, vaguely and unable to tell what it was. She went around the room and decided to visit him.

Lu Yan attached her ear to the door and heard Lu Zhen enter the house.

He always fell asleep very quickly. Lu Yan guessed that he was already asleep, and then sneaked out of the house quietly, riding a bicycle all the way to the gate of the Municipal People's Hospital.

There was not even time to lock, and the bicycle fell to the ground and there was no time to help, Lu Yan trot all the way... rushed to the third floor.

I thought that the young man could be seen in the corridor.

The corridor was empty.

In the intensive care unit on the third floor, the bed where Dad Shen was sleeping is already empty...

With a "bang" in his head, Lu Yan stood by the window, widened his eyes and looked at the empty hospital room, the blood in his whole body was cold.

She seemed crazy... and started looking for Shen Kui in every ward.

Dad Shen must be getting better. Yes, he will definitely be transferred out of the intensive care unit when he gets better. That must be the case!

They must be in the general ward, maybe in the next room...

"Shen Kuo!"

Lu Yan eagerly pushed open the doors of the general wards, staring at her in surprise with yellow and unfamiliar faces.

Finally, the doctor on duty was drawn over and stopped her behavior: "This is the hospital, keep your voice down."

Lu Yan didn't dare to ask the doctor, she didn't dare...

She could only search for her from ward to ward, hoping to find it, hopefully in the next ward... to see Shen Kui and the awake father Shen.

"You are looking for the boy with you today."

The doctor caught up with Lu Yan, he still had an impression of her.

"The patient in intensive care unit 308 passed away this afternoon and has now been sent to the morgue."

Lu Yan's footsteps suddenly stopped.

The doctor saw that Lu Yan was silent, and shook his head. In the hospital, the doctor saw too much of this kind of thing. Although sympathetic, but helpless, he sighed: "Life and death are involuntary, and he can persist with this kind of disease. For many years, God has been very kind.

No, it's not that God was extra-gracious, it was Shen Kui... it was Shen Kui who was reluctant to let go, it was Shen Kui's meticulous care and seeking medical advice every day that kept Dad for so many years!

Her voice trembled and asked, "What and when."

"Do you mean the time of death, it's about three or four in the afternoon,"

Lu Yan leaned against the wall and fell to the ground.

At three or four in the afternoon, he called her three times, but she did not receive...

Lu Yan's hand clenched her fist, only to feel that she was standing on the edge of a cliff, letting the cold wind from the bottom of the cliff pierce her bones.

Chill out.

He called her when he was most desperate, but she didn't answer three of them.

She couldn't imagine how Shen Kui felt at that time, she didn't dare to think, really didn't dare to think...

Lu Yan walked out of the hospital, crossed the road in a daze, and stood in front of the door of the mortuary where the corpse was stored. The long stairs led to the solemn dark door.

The soles of her feet seemed to be filled with lead, and she could no longer lift a step.

She didn't have the courage to go in.

At this moment, a familiar figure walked out of the mortuary, it was Zhong Kai.

Wearing a black long-sleeved jacket and black trousers, he jumped down the steps of the morgue gate in twos or twos, seemingly in a hurry, and hurried out.

Lu Yan quickly turned around to leave, but he had already seen her.

"Huh, Xiao Yan?" He chased her up and grabbed her: "Don't go."

Lu Yan didn't even dare to look at him, turned his head and asked hoarsely, "Daddy Shen..."

"It's all called Dad, don't you go in and take a look? It will be cremated after a while."

Lu Yan suddenly raised her head in disbelief.

Zhong Kai sighed and said: "Shen Kuo meant that the ignition was premature, after all... his dad had been in pain for so many years, so let him leave early."

Lu Yan's heart was suffering. Several times, she couldn't say anything when she reached her mouth. She lowered her head and her eyes were foggy.

Zhong Kai saw what she wanted to ask, and said: "He called you this afternoon, but you didn't answer it."

"I'm not intentional..."

"Uncle Shen woke up for half an hour before leaving. Maybe it was a flashback. Shen Kui knew that he couldn't keep it, so he kept holding his hand and talking to him..."

It wasn't until he finished saying this that Lu Yan let out a sigh of relief.

The heart is twisted.

"He was calm and didn't cry, but at this time, you'd better go in and accompany him..."

Lu Yan didn't wait for him to finish, and ran into the morgue in a haste.

In the corridor, the long figure of the young man leaned against the wall, under the ceiling light, he pressed the lighter and lit a cigarette.

When the incandescent ceiling light shone, his eyes were trapped in the deep shadow of the eyebrows, and his skin appeared strangely white.

Lu Yan's breathing slowed for a while, and he paused hesitantly.

She was suddenly scared and didn't dare to go over...

As if feeling something, the boy raised his head and glanced at her.

He put out the cigarette that he only took a puff, and stood up straight to meet her—

"coming."

His voice is very calm.

"Dad Shen... where is he?"

Shen Kui turned sideways and let the door open.

Lu Yan walked into the empty room vainly. The temperature in the room was very low. She couldn't help but shudder. She jumped to see the cold body covered by a white cloth on the stage...

She walked over slowly, holding the white cloth in her hands, trying to open it, looking at Dad Shen for the last time, but Shen Kui grabbed her hand.

"Don't watch it, died of illness, restless."

Lu Yan's hands were stuck, and his eyes became sour again.

"Dad Shen." She whispered softly, then gasped, seeming to calm her emotions.

"Dad Shen, don't worry, I will take care of Shen Kui in the future." She wiped her eyes with her sleeve and continued: "He is not alone."

Shen Kui took a deep breath, pursed his mouth slightly, did not say anything, grabbed her and walked out of the cold morgue.

In the corridor, a staff member came to ask Shen Kui to sign: "Is it cremated now?"

"Well, now."

The staff took the notebook, and then entered the house with a few other staff, pushed Dad Shen's body out, and walked towards the cremation chamber, still whispering in his mouth, complaining about overtime work——

"It was cremated so soon."

"I heard that I died of illness, maybe I've been looking forward to it..."

"People now."

...

When Lu Yan heard this, she almost exploded her hair again. Shen Kui grabbed her sleeve and didn't let her pass.

"This world is not kind." He said calmly, "Why be extravagant."

Lu Yan looked at him in surprise, his eyes were very deep, as if enveloped in a thick fog that could not be removed.

He was a little...unusually calm.

"Shen Kuo, this afternoon I..."

Shen Kui interrupted her: "Lu Yan, people die when they die, and there is nothing. He can't hear what you just said, so...just treat it as if you didn't say it."

Lu Yan suffocated her breath and looked at him suddenly.

Under the dim white light, his face was pale, and his eyes were filled with strange cold colors: "Do you understand what I mean?"

"You want to be with me..."

She still couldn't utter these piercing words.

"It's not a breakup." Shen Kui said blankly: "Because I've never been together."

"Wh, what is not together?"

He pulled a frivolous smile at the corner of his mouth, squeezed her chin, and said coldly: "You haven't figured it out yet, I'm just using you to take revenge on Lu Zhen and take revenge on your Lu family."

Lu Yan was silly: "You...what are you talking about."

"Now that he is dead, I will stop. This is your luck, you know."

Lu Yan pulled away his hand forcefully, and said excitedly: "Shen Kuo, do you think I'm stupid? No matter how stupid I am, Lu Yan will not be stupid enough to believe your words."

She is not so stupid... can't feel a person's true or false intentions towards herself.

Shen Kui immediately took out his phone and pressed a number——

"Lu Zhen, I, Shen Kuo."

Lu Yan's heart was tense, and she didn't understand what he wanted to do.

He sneered and continued: "Your sister Lu Yan is by my side now..."

"What the hell are you talking about at night!" Lu Zhen was woken up to sleep, very upset: "Neurotic."

"Go to her room and see if you don't know."

One minute later, Lu Zhen exploded. On the phone, his voice was unstable: "She...she is not in the room, what are you doing to her!"

"What do you do? She dumped her when she got fucked, do you think this idea is a good idea?"

Lu Yan suddenly grabbed his mobile phone and slammed it on the ground, shouting hoarsely: "Are you crazy, you have to take the college entrance examination tomorrow! You say this..."

Lu Zhen's explosive temper, God knows how he will react when he hears this.

Shen Kui picked up the phone, patted the dust lightly, put it in his pocket, and turned and left: "Wait for you to become an adult, and then you will dump you again. This is my original plan... But now, everything is It's meaningless."

Lu Yan was cold all over and entered the ice cave. She remembered Liang Ting’s warning...

How deep is this man, how good at disguising, he is the chief culprit who has been dormant for ten years and let Lu Zhen go bankrupt!

He said indifferently: "Go away, don't show up in front of me."

Lu Yan seemed to be hollowed out in her heart, turned around and ran out of the morgue gate.

Shen Kui closed his eyes, trembling all over... his hands clenched his fists vigorously.

He thought she was heartbroken, thought she was gone, but never thought, the girl rushed over desperately and hugged his waist hard—

"I forgive you, Shen Kuo."

She spoke too anxiously, bringing out an unstable cry: "I forgive you tonight for everything you say and do."

Shen Kui suddenly opened his eyes.

The girl hugged his hand so hard that he lost his courage and was unable to push her away.

"I forgive all the lies you told me, as long as one of them is true, I will forgive you."

With the last trace of hope and thirst, she looked at him, tearful eyes: "Shen Kuo, do you have it?"

Shen Kui paused for a few seconds, and said coldly: "No."

There is no truth.

He pulled away every finger of her forcefully, turned around, and scratched the tears from her cheek with his rough fingertips.

"You see, this is what I want, your tears..."

He smiled and said, "You love me more than I thought."

Lu Yan's chest seemed to be filled with cold air, and with every breath, his internal organs were tearing and painful.

My whole body hurts...it hurts.

"Shen Kuo." She stopped crying, her voice extremely heavy: "You know that Dad Shen's death is not my fault, nor is it Lu Zhen's fault. Why punish me..."

Shen Kuo's heart eased, and he breathed a sigh of relief.

"Because I am such a selfish and vicious person, someone should have reminded you long ago."

Lu Yan stepped back a few steps.

He looked down at the time: "The urn will not be available until a few days. I will have an exam tomorrow. I will go back to sleep now."

He turned to leave, Lu Yan suddenly grabbed the corner of his clothes——

"If you leave, I won't forgive you again, never!"

Shen Kui didn't turn his head, tore off the corners of his clothes, turned and left.

...

When Shen Kui walked out of the morgue, a patter of rain floated in the sky, falling on his face, cold.

It's obviously June, but still feel so cold.

Zhong Kai squatted on the edge of the flower stand, and when he saw him coming out, he stood up immediately.

"said?"

"Um."

Zhong Kai looked at the morgue, gave Shen Kui a cigarette with a long sigh, and said, "Calm down."

Shen Kui took the cigarette, his hands trembling slightly.

"In fact, it's really unnecessary to get to this point."

Zhong Kai looked at him: "Don't you still call her this afternoon?"

"She didn't answer."

"I watched for you all night last night. I was probably tired. Why did you not receive a call because of such a thing..."

Shen Kui put out the cigarette butt, and said in a deep voice: "No one expected that she would see the medical record, let alone that Dad would go so fast."

"I don't want her to bear such a heavy guilt all her life."

Zhong Kai looked at Shen Kui in surprise.

The street lamp cast a gloomy light and shadow on his tough face.

"If she stayed with me with a redemptive mentality, I would rather...let her hate me."

She is not guilty and does not have to atone for it.

At this moment, he is already in hell, and if he is guilty, he will bear everything.

Shen Kui stood up and left, Xiao Suo's back disappeared at the end of the wet street.

...

Lu Yan returned home with her bicycle, her clothes soaked.

Lu Zhen changed his clothes, and ran into the cold little girl at the door.

She has pale skin, raindrops on her face, and all her hair moistened, making her look embarrassed.

Seeing Lu Zhen, Lu Yan's eyes reddened, and she plunged into his arms and hugged his waist forcefully.

"dad..."

Lu Zhen was originally nestled with an evil fire that couldn't go down, but seeing the cry of the little girl, his heart immediately softened.

"It's okay, it's okay."

Although he didn't know what had happened, Lu Zhen still took her into his arms, gently soothed her back, and awkwardly soothed: "Dad is here, the sky can't fall."

Who is Dad?

Dad is the one who can protect you from the wind and rain, do everything for you, and is willing to pick the stars for you.

"I'm wrong."

The girl sobbed and cried helplessly: "Dad, I was wrong, I should listen to you... I will listen to you in the future."

Seeing this little girl's appearance that was wrong, Lu Zhen's face became darker and bloodshot in his eyes: "Shen Kuo...what did he do to you?"

"He lied to me."

These three words, Lu Yan said so wronged: "I never thought that he would lie to me..."

"I'm going to find him." Lu Zhen was about to go out after speaking, and Lu Yan immediately grabbed him.

"Don't go." She gritted her teeth and whispered: "Dad Shen passed away today, don't go."

Lu Zhen's footsteps suddenly stopped.

The college entrance examination came as scheduled.

On the day of the list, Lu Jian did not go to the company as usual. He waited anxiously in front of the school's bulletin board.

At that time, there was no online score check. The college entrance examination scores were issued uniformly by the school. The scores of each student were clearly printed on paper and posted in front of the bulletin board.

Starting at six in the morning, the bulletin board was crowded with anxious parents.

Finally, looking forward to the stars and the moon, Pan came to the teacher who posted the list.

The parents' eyes lit up, and they hurriedly crowded over to ask the teacher about their grades.

Lu Zhen and Lu Yan did not surround themselves. They stood and squatted, staying on the grass terrace in the garden in the distance.

Lu Yan was a little nervous, sweat oozes from her palms, Lu Zhen uncharacteristically, behaved quite calmly...

Since the college entrance examination, his whole human nature has fallen a lot.

Perhaps it was the sadness and confusion that saw Lu Yan that night, which made him realize that although she always behaves like an adult on weekdays, she is actually his little girl all the time.

Or maybe it was because he learned the truth and the grievances between the Shen family and the Lu family. He realized that if he couldn't be strong, he couldn't protect the people around him...

Lu Zhen matured at an unimaginable speed.

The teacher greeted the crowded parents, saying: "Don't crowd, don't crowd, you can see..."

"Our school did a good job this year, and all the provincial champions are in our school!"

When the students heard the words, they also became agitated with excitement——

"Provincial champion, my mother, that's amazing!"

"who is it!"

"Who else can think of it with toes... isn't it the one..."

The announcement of the list was hung up, and Shen Kuo's name was bolded and enlarged, and he appeared on the top of the red list.

That's so bright red...

The provincial champion, there is no one else except him.

The classmates whispered: "He can really do it."

Of course, this tone has a bit of irony.

After all... Father died the day before, and the next day he went to take the college entrance examination like a okay person, and he could still perform so well.

First in the province, the provincial champion.

Normal people can not be affected.

The ruthlessness of Shen Kui is simply staggering.

Lu Yan looked around, but did not see the boy.

He doesn't come... it's okay.

Lu Yan didn't want to see him, didn't want to...no matter whether Shen Kui was true or false to her in the past. At least, she loved him sincerely, as long as she loved him, as long as she cared, and when she saw him, she couldn't force her to be calm.

Lu Jian was wearing a suit and leather shoes, and his tie was dark red, begging for a good sign.

He and a bunch of parents and classmates huddled together, desperately rushing forward.

After finally squeezing to the front row, Lu Jian started to look for the last one on the list, counting carefully, counting from back to front...

The last list did not have Lu Zhen's name, and Lu Jian heaved a sigh of relief.

At least... the university should have been admitted.

But he still didn't have much confidence in him. Even if he was a major university, he was looking forward to it. He felt that it would be good for him to take a second exam.

However, when he counted the lists one by one, and counted to the first red list, his expression began to change...

Impossible, Lu Zhen can't be on this red list, you know, the students who can stay on this list are all the best in the school.

Lu Yan saw that Lu Jian was actually on the red list to find someone. She jumped up excitedly and squeezed into the crowd: "Let's let, trouble let's, ah, thank you."

Lu Yan squeezed to Lu Jian's side, and Lu Jian hurriedly protected her in front of her: "Hurry up and find where your brother is!"

Lu Jian's voice began to tremble, and he was very excited and surprised.

Lu Yan counted down the rankings, and found Lu Zhen in the 29th place in the grade!

He scored 632 points in the exam!

Lu Yan was very happy in her heart, and she kept waving to Lu Zhen, pointing to the position of the red list and shouting to him: "Silly big guy, you are here! Come and have a look!"

Although Lu Zhen's eyes lit up, she didn't show any particular excitement.

He slowly walked over and looked at his score and ranking.

"I promised you."

He stood behind Lu Yan, put his hand on her shoulder, and embraced her: "I will do what I promised you."

He wants to be her pride, her reliance and reliance, and no longer let anyone bully her...