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date="2021-11-14"

title="Chapter Ninety-One"

weight="147569"

series = ["Carven Jade"]

mode = "manual"

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Qin Yan quietly listened to Fu Changling's words. He didn't know why, and his muscles relaxed inch by inch. At the last moment, he had adapted to Fu Changling's embrace.

He felt that the person's forehead was on his forehead, and he felt the temperature of the other person coming from the place where they touched, and even vaguely felt that this indescribable emotion flowed from this touch, slowly spreading over. , Let him perceive.

There was peace in his heart, and he couldn't tell what was going on. Suddenly, he felt a little more stable.

In fact, in this relationship, he was always in a state of hesitation and anxiety. He didn't know whether he was right or wrong, and he didn't know whether he could get the ending he wanted.

After all, a lie is always a lie, and he doesn't know how long this lie can last.

But when Fu Changling held him so much, comforted him so much, and said that they had a long time to wait, for a moment, Qin Yan actually felt that what he said might be true.

It's just that he is introverted and can't appeal to his mouth, he can only lower his eyebrows, and after a long time, he murmured: "Yeah."

Fu Changling laughed, he held the person in his arms and pursed his lips: "Brother, I feel very happy. I feel that this is really the happiest time in my two lifetimes."

Qin Yan didn't make a sound. After a long time, he said gently: "It's fine if you are happy."

After a while, he raised his hand, placed it on Fu Changling's back lightly, and said slowly: "In the future, there will be many very good and very happy things waiting for you."

"It's us."

"Um."

Qin Yan whispered: "It's us."

The two embraced each other quietly, and no one dared to move further. Qin Yan was held by Fu Changling. After a long time, he looked up to talk, and saw that Fu Changling had fallen asleep. With a smile on his lips, he seemed to be extremely happy.

Qin Yan's eyes fell on his face. After a long time, he couldn't help but laugh, closed his eyes, and said nothing.

Early the next morning, the two heard a knock on the door outside before they woke up. Yun Yu stood at the door and kept knocking on the door: "Brother, are you awake? I have breakfast. I made breakfast, brother Brother?"

Fu Changling and Qin Yan opened their eyes abruptly at the knock on the door, and they looked at each other, almost without Qin Yan speaking, Fu Changling jumped out of bed subconsciously and rushed to the wall amidst Yunyu's urging knock on the door. Qin Yan stopped him and reminded him in a low voice: "Belt."

Fu Changling staggered back, grabbed his belt, and hurried through the wall.

Qin Yan got up slowly, and said, "Wait a minute."

Fu Changling rushed into his room, his heart beating fast. After a while, Fu Changling was a little dazed. What is he doing so nervously?

What's the shame about his relationship with Qin Yan? He is righteous and dignified by Qin Yan's permission!

Although there are not many same-sex Taoists in the immortal world, it is not something to be cast aside. He has a relationship with Qin Yan. What is he afraid of?

Fu Changling figured this out, and suddenly became annoyed. He felt that he was losing points when he came back like this. This annoyance was transferred to Yun Yu. When Yun Yu knocked on the door, he rushed to the door aggressively. "" opened the door and said angrily: "What did you look at the door so loudly in the morning?!"

He used to joke with Yun Yu a lot before, but when he roared, Yun Yu's face instantly turned pale, his erect pupils visibly tightened, and then he hurriedly said: "I'm sorry...I'm just...I'm just... "

He was obviously panicked, Fu Changling was stunned, then he lowered his voice, and hurriedly slowed down his voice: "Brother Yun, I'm joking with you, don't worry about it."

Yun Yu's words were cut off. He looked at Fu Changling and smiled reluctantly: "This...Is that so?"

"Senior Brother Yun," Fu Changling reminded him cautiously, "We used to make jokes like this before, have you forgotten?"

"Yes, yes," Yun Yu nodded, "I used to joke a lot. I stayed in the cave for too long and I forgot. Go and eat," Yun Yu turned and said, "I made breakfast."

Fu Changling frowned as he watched Yun Yu's departure. He turned his head and looked at the door next to him. He saw Qin Yan walking out after changing his clothes. Fu Changling raised his mouth happily: "Brother, early."

Qin Yan raised his eyes and looked at Fu Changling who was standing at the door. He was stunned for a moment when he saw Fu Changling's smile, then slowly laughed, and said gently: "Morning."

Seeing Qin Yan's smile, Fu Changling hurried over. He looked at Yun Yu's disappeared back and whispered: "Yun Yu is something wrong."

"Huh?" Qin Yan turned his head to look at him, Fu Changling sighed, "I think he was tortured in the hands of Aunt Yue. Now he is too timid. Be careful when talking to him. Don't irritate me. Observe for a while."

Qin Yan frowned and listened, with a little worried expression in his eyes, and said, "Okay."

When the four people arrived at the dinner table, they saw Yun Yu making a sumptuous meal. Shangguan Mingyan had already waited there in advance. When Fu Changling and Qin Yan came out, Shangguan Mingyan straightened up and respectfully saluted: "Brother, Shen."

"Sit down." Qin Yan nodded and sat down at the table. The four people present listened to Qin Yan's instructions to sit down. Yun Yu took Qin Yan's bowl and took the initiative to make soup and said, "Brother, come, I'll give it to you. Soup."

"Why are you so rich?" Fu Changling laughed and raised his eyes to Yun Yu, "Senior Brother Yun, your craftsmanship is really good."

When Yun Yu heard Fu Changling praise him, he relaxed a little, and said with a smile: "I don't know what you like to eat, so I just make something. It's all my heart. Just choose what you like."

"It takes a lot of effort to do this, right?" Qin Yan said, took the soup from Yun Yu's hand, raised his eyes to Yun Yu, and said gently, "You are interested."

"No, no," Yun Yu was happy, "Senior brother just likes it."

The group of people ate, talked and laughed, but Shangguan Mingyan never made a sound. He lowered his head. After eating, he got up and said with his bowl: "I'm a little tired. Go back and sleep for a while, brother, Brother Yun, Brother Shen," Shangguan Mingyan swept the crowd around and nodded, "I'll leave first."

With that, Shangguan Mingyan turned around and went back to the room by himself.

Qin Yan and Fu Changling looked at each other, and Yun Yu hurriedly said next to him: "Leave him alone, he is tired, let's eat more."

No matter how dull Fu Changling and Qin Yan were, they also noticed something wrong between them. But the two of them were afraid to ask Yun Yu at this moment. They both knew that Yun Yu was in a bad mood, so they took care of Yun Yu and talked and laughed with Yun Yu. Treating us well, why is the attitude toward Mingyan so bad?"

"Let me ask."

Qin Yan spoke directly, and Fu Changling raised his hand to stop him: "How can I worry about this kind of little thing, brother? I'll just go."

The two discussed, Qin Yan nodded, and went back to the room by himself. Fu Changling went to Shangguan Mingyan's door, knocked on Shangguan Mingyan's door, and called out, "Mingyan?"

Shangguan Mingyan seemed to hesitate for a while inside, and then opened the door. He was a little surprised: "Brother Shen?"

"Go in and sit down?" Fu Changling raised his hand and pointed out. Shangguan Mingyan responded and let Fu Changling enter the house. He closed the door and poured tea for Fu Changling. Fu Changling knocked on the palm of his hand with a small fan and smiled: "You hide yourself Now, don’t you feel bored?"

"It's okay." Shangguan Mingyan sat opposite Fu Changling and said slowly, "I don't like bustle."

Fu Changling picked up the tea and smiled. He lowered his head and took a sip of the tea, raised his eyes and said, "By the way, it seems that you and Senior Brother Yun have had a lot of students?"

When Shangguan Mingyan heard this, his movements became stiff, and Fu Changling pondered for a moment: "Is there any misunderstanding between you?"

"It's not a misunderstanding." Shangguan Mingyan smiled bitterly, "I can't help him."

"Oh?"

"At Wanguya, when we were escaping for our lives, we were chased by Li Gui. Senior Brother Yun was behind. I was holding Senior Brother." Shangguan Mingyan's voice was full of guilt. Pulling the two of us up, in order to save me, Senior Sister told me to let go and dropped Senior Brother Yun."

Hearing this, Fu Changling stopped moving. He raised his eyes to the superior Mingyan, and said, "Is there no other way?"

"As long as there is a way," Shangguan Mingyan solemnly looked at Fu Changling, "I wouldn't do this kind of thing. In fact, if it was me, I wouldn't let go, but I was the senior sister, and if I didn't let it go, neither would the senior sister. Will let me go, then none of us can escape."

Fu Changling remained silent, Shangguan Mingyan smiled bitterly: "It's just that the truth is the truth. It is indeed difficult to force Brother Yun to understand."

"You did it right."

"Yes," Shangguan Mingyan replied, "Come again, I will still choose this way. It's just for Senior Brother Yun..."

"He is the one who was abandoned after all."

Fu Changling sighed, he put down his tea bowl and stood up and said, "I understand, he just can't think about it for a while, so I just go and persuade him."

"Please Brother Shen."

Shangguan Mingyan lowered his head, seemingly extremely uncomfortable.

Fu Changling responded, patted Shangguan Mingyan on the shoulder, and said gently: "Don't blame yourself too much, after all, you don't blame you."

Shangguan Mingyan didn't speak, and Fu Changling was a little embarrassed for a while. He withdrew his hand, just said: "You can rest."

Shangguan Mingyan nodded, and Fu Changling walked out. After returning to the room, he first went to his door, stood for a moment, and then turned to Qin Yan's door.

He didn't knock on the door, and cautiously probed his head and entered through the door. It was just that he had just leaned in half of his body, and three sword qi flew directly over him. He surrounded his head in a circle, and Qin Yan sat in front of him and closed it. He slapped his eyes and said indifferently: "Knock on the door."

Fu Changling smiled awkwardly, put his head back, knocked on the door three times, the door suddenly opened, Fu Changling came in, quite aggrieved: "Brother, are you still talking about this rule with me?"

"Yunyu Mingyan is here." Qin Yan said calmly, "Don't go too far."

When Fu Changling heard this, he remembered the embarrassment in the morning, and suddenly became a little angry. He sat next to Qin Yan and pretended to be casual and said, "Brother, don't you plan to talk to them?"

Qin Yan hesitated for a moment. Fu Changling didn't expect Qin Yan to be truly silent. He was stunned for a moment and turned around in shock: "You won't even give me a position?!"

"Two big men," Qin Yan opened his eyes and frowned, "What status do you want?"

"No, it's not," Fu Changling was anxious. "Are you going to hide our relationship like this?"

Qin Yan didn't speak. After a while, he slowly said, "I just think that we need to find a suitable time."

"When is the time?" Fu Changling frowned, "I think it's suitable anytime."

Qin Yan was silent. Fu Changling thought he would still refuse, and was about to continue talking about him, so he listened to Qin Yan said: "Then you go and talk."

Fu Changling: "..."

Qin Yan raised his eyes and said, "It's not a big deal either."

Fu Changling's blood stuck in his heart, and Qin Yan didn't seem to notice the ups and downs of Fu Changling's mind. He took the scriptures from the side and said calmly: "Is Yun Yu clear about it?"

When Qin Yan asked about business matters, Fu Changling became discouraged. He sat next to him and said in a low voice, "Well, I'm clear."

"Say it."

Qin Yan did not look up, Fu Changling muffled, and said the ins and outs. Qin Yan listened quietly. Fu Changling said with emotion: "In fact, at Wanguya before, Senior Brother Yun asked me if he was bad, he said he Seeing other people's progress, I am always holding back, and I feel sad."

"Yun Yu..." Qin Yan hesitated for a moment, then said slowly, "He is just still young and has not found his own way."

"Huh," Fu Changling turned the fan in his hand boredly, carelessly, "I have to polish it. This is his experience."

Qin Yan didn't speak, and Fu Changling seemed worried when he saw him. He thought for a while, leaned over, and said with a smile: "Or, I'll help you persuade Brother Yun?"

"good."

"But let me persuade people, I have to charge."

Qin Yan raised his eyes blankly, and Fu Changling pointed to his face with a rascal smile: "If I persuade Senior Brother Haoyun, then Senior Brother will have to kiss me."

Qin Yan frowned, Fu Changling knocked the fan in the palm of his hand and stood up and said, "That's it. Brother, you go meditate and I will go shopping."

After Fu Changling finished speaking, he went out. He wandered around, and found Yun Yu doing something wherever he went.

Yun Yu wiped the stool for a while, and wiped the table for a while, and there was no moment for him to relax.

His hands are covered with scales and are far less flexible than before. He has been doing this awkwardly, as if to vent something.

When Fu Changling came out in the afternoon, Yun Yu was working. In the evening, he made a very hearty dinner. After the four of them had finished eating, Fu Changling planned to help him wash the dishes, so he quickly drove Fu Changling away.

At night, everyone fell asleep, and Fu Changling sneaked through the wall and touched Qin Yan's bed.

Qin Yan frowned when he heard the sound of going to bed, "Why are you here again?"

"I'll be here a few more times," Fu Changling said with a smile, getting into the bed, "you'll get used to it."

Qin Yan didn't speak, Fu Changling looked at his expression and carefully said, "You... don't you like it?"

As he said, he said nervously: "Then... Then I'm leaving."

"It doesn't have to be."

Qin Yan finally spoke, and said flatly: "You stay."

Fu Changling became happy when he heard Qin Yan's words. He lay beside Qin Yan and said softly, "I know that brother is willing in his heart."

"Go to sleep."

Qin Yan turned around and turned his back to Fu Changling.

Fu Changling quietly looked at Qin Yan's back. After watching for a long time, he stretched out his hand and took the person into his arms.

The two slept in a daze until midnight, when Fu Changling vaguely heard footsteps outside. Fu Changling stood up lightly and whispered to Qin Yan: "You sleep, I'll go take a look."

After speaking, he pulled the quilt for Qin Yan, stood up, walked through the door, and followed out directly.

He walked out looking for the sound and went to the kitchen. He saw Yun Yu light up the lamp and began to work in the kitchen. It was midnight, but Yun Yu had already prepared a lot of materials and started to work.

Fu Changling stood at the door and watched quietly. He watched Yun Yu seriously release the water and make face-to-face, as if he regarded these as the most important things in his life. He didn't know what was wrong, and he felt uncomfortable.

He couldn't help but yelled: "Senior Brother Yun."

Yun Yu's hand trembled slightly, and he hurriedly raised his head: "You... why are you here?"

"Senior Brother Yun," Fu Changling smiled bitterly, "I can't sleep, or I will buy you a bar."

Yun Yu stared at Fu Changling blankly. After a long time, he slowly reacted.

Where did Fu Changling ask him to drink, Fu Changling clearly wanted to talk to him.

Yun Yu lowered his head, the water in the pot next to him boiled, Fu Changling stepped forward, raised his hand to wipe out the fire under the stove, and gently said, "Yun Yu, let's go."

Yun Yu seemed to feel a little scared, but he still went to the deck with Fu Changling.

With a wave of Fu Changling's hand, a small table appeared on the deck with wine on the small table. Fu Changling asked Yun Yu to sit down. Yun Yu kept his head down. Fu Changling poured the wine for Yun Yu and said slowly: "Yun Brother, I haven't heard you tell me about your absence during this period of time. I dare not ask. If you want to, you might as well."

"There's nothing to say," Yun Yu whispered, "You saw the result anyway."

"What's the result?" Fu Changling laughed, as if he didn't know the meaning in Yun Yu's tone.

Yun Yu didn't speak, Fu Changling picked up the wine glass and took a sip of the wine. After a long time, Yun Yu said dumbly, "Do you think I'm strange, don't you?"

Fu Changling paused. Yun Yu raised his head, with water vapor in his eyes. He stared at Fu Changling: "Do you think I have a strange temper? You think I look strange? I think I have a bad personality and I don't have anything. good."

Fu Changling drank the wine without saying a word.

Yun Yu yelled: "You speak!"

"Senior Brother Yun," Fu Changling looked up at him, "Why don't you trust yourself more?"

"What do you mean?"

"I mean," Fu Changling laughed, "Senior Brother Yun, you are actually very good, you don't need to do anything, everyone will like you."

"No matter what you become, no matter who you are, as long as you are Brother Yun who is dedicated to others," Fu Changling said in a gentle voice, "Everyone likes you very much."

Yun Yu didn't speak, he looked at Fu Changling, tears flowed out unconsciously.

Fu Changling hurriedly poured wine for him, and said hurriedly: "Don't cry, come, drink, drink more."

Yun Yu sniffed, raised his glass, and drank it all in one fell swoop.

After he finished drinking, Fu Changling poured him the wine, and after drinking it again. After drinking for a long time, Yun Yu suddenly said, "Actually, I know what you said."

"I don't blame Senior Sister, I knew I should abandon me at the time, but I just felt uncomfortable. I blame myself."

As he said, Yun Yu raised his hand, covered his forehead, covered his face, and said hoarsely: "I blame me why I can't look away, why should I care about who is more and who is less, and why I blame myself and why? No effort, no talent, bad temper, and careful attention."

"Actually, I don't need this. I also know that I am getting farther and farther away from everyone." Then, Yun Yu raised his head and looked at Fu Changling, "I am incompetent, I hate it. I don't understand the truth like Ming Yan. I have a good temper, and I don’t have the ability like you. Although you are my junior, you are much better than me."

"Everything is what I deserve."

As Yun Yu said, tears fell slowly: "It's me, I'm not likable. I know you will come to save me, so I wait day by day."

"I was waiting at Wanguya when my flesh and blood was gnawed away, and when Mrs. Yue used these disgusting things to stick to my body, I was waiting when I was in pain, and when I was awake, I finally waited for you. But I suddenly found out that I don’t want you to come again."

"When you come, I will keep thinking, do you hate me and disgust me when you see me now? I am not a person to like." Yun Yu lowered his head and smiled bitterly. nausea."

"I know you think I'm crazy," Yun Yu said slowly while holding the wine glass, "I do these boring things every day, but besides these things, I don't know what to do. I have to do something for you. , Or I'm afraid in my heart."

"What are you afraid of?"

Yun Yu couldn't tell, Fu Changling smiled bitterly: "I'm afraid that if you don't do anything, others won't like you."

Yun Yu held the wine glass without making a sound. Fu Changling lowered his head and chuckled, "Brother Yun, who told you that one has to do something for others to get liked?"

Yun Yu was stunned, Fu Changling turned his head, he leaned on the back of the chair, bent one leg, put his hand gently on his knee, holding the wine glass, looked at the bright moon in the distance, and said with a smile: "No, I like one. Man, it doesn’t matter what he did for you."

"Just like I like brother, I used to think it was because the brother is good to me. But then I slowly discovered that no matter how good or bad the brother is to me, I like him."

After that, Fu Changling smiled back and said, "Brother Yun, everyone is here not because of responsibility, but because of Brother Yun. You don’t need to do anything. In fact, everyone likes you very much. No matter what you become and whoever you are, we are all Your senior brother. Just like if your senior brother gets a demon, would you hate him?"

"will not."

Yun Yu blurted out, and Fu Changling laughed: "That's not it. For all the senior brothers," Fu Changling said seriously, "Whether Yun Yu has talent or no talent, he is outstanding in cultivation, or good at dancing with long sleeves. In fact, I play first. It’s like this when I saw my brother. I used to think that the brother was very good, but now, I also feel very good."

Yun Yu didn't speak, he looked at Fu Changling quietly.

Seeing that his expression was shaken, Fu Changling chuckled lightly: "It's late now, brother, go back and take a good rest. Don't force yourself to do anything, brother just needs to be yourself, that's enough."

With that, Fu Changling raised his glass: "Or another drink?"

"No." Yun Yu took a deep breath, "I'll go back first."

With that, Yun Yu stood up, bowed his head and left.

After Yun Yu had left, Fu Changling sat there and didn't move. Qin Yan walked out of the dark and quietly looked at people not far away.

Fu Changling didn't wear his usual clothes. He came out in a hurry. He was dressed in Qin Yan's clothes. He wore a white robe like snow, with a headband half-winding his hair. He casually leaned on the back of his chair, holding a wine glass, and leaning on the railing to look at the moon. The bright moon is not far away, set against this table and one person, forming a beautiful picture.

When Fu Changling heard Qin Yan's voice, he slowly finished the last glass of wine and turned his head to look over.

"Brother is here." Fu Changling laughed. He put down the wine glass, stood up, put his hands behind his back, walked towards Qin Yan, bowed his head and said, "After the talk, let's go."

Qin Yan didn't say anything. He watched Fu Changling quietly. Fu Changling felt a little strange and looked back at him: "Why don't you leave, brother?"

"Why do you think that he did so much to please us?"

Qin Yan stared at Fu Changling. Fu Changling was silent. He was slightly taller than Qin Yan. When he lowered his head, the two of them were very close. Fu Changling smiled lightly, as if a little embarrassed: "Because, I would think so too."

As he said, Fu Changling raised his eyes to Qin Yan: "I sometimes think about what I should do to make the brother like me more."

"I know that brother doesn't like me, and I promised me only because I was too pitiful at the time, and the brother was kind." Fu Changling smiled bitterly, "I understand this kind of worry about gains and losses."

Qin Yan didn't speak, Fu Changling put his hands behind him, turned his head, and said slowly: "But it's not a big deal, Yun Yu is still young, and I..."

Before he finished speaking, Fu Changling felt his soft and slightly cold lips gently stroke his face.

Fu Changling was stunned in place, Qin Yan turned around and said calmly, "Let's go."

Fu Changling slowly turned his head and saw the back figure walking alone on the promenade. The figure was slender and thin, but it was different from the memory.

This time, he finally felt that that voice had a touch of faint tenderness and joy.

Although he was walking alone, there seemed to be someone beside him or behind him.

Fu Changling laughed, he pursed his lips and lowered his head, and followed Qin Yan.

"What you said to Yun Yu tonight," Qin Yan said slowly, "you remember it yourself."

"Um."

"If one day, I really like you," Qin Yanping said peacefully, "It will never be because you are good to me."

"Just because you are Fu Changling."