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date="2021-11-14"

title="Chapter One Hundred"

weight="147591"

series = ["Carven Jade"]

mode = "manual"

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Qin Yan didn't speak, he held his umbrella and looked at the people in front of him quietly.

Fu Changling's wedding gown was worn on him, and he didn't know what was happening. For a moment, he thought of Fu Yushu in the illusion.

He didn't know if Fu Changling was looking at him at this moment, whether it was the same mood that Fu Yushu had when he watched Lin Chen go away, knowing he could not keep it, but desperately trying to keep it.

He only heard the sound of the surrounding rain hitting the umbrella, making him hardly able to hear the surrounding sounds. He opened his mouth and said in a low voice: "Sorry."

Hearing this sorry, Fu Changling knew the result, and he suddenly calmed down.

It seemed that the worst had come, and he suddenly developed a calmness where the dust had settled. He looked at Qin Yan, and the look of the person opposite was the same as before, with no joy or sorrow.

The heavy rain became a silent curtain, separated between the two, making the faces of both parties blurred.

"Why..." Fu Changling restrained his emotions and asked hoarsely, "Don't tell me earlier?"

"You always lie to me." Fu Changling couldn't help laughing. "You lied to me in the last life and made me think you were the devil. I ruined you and I killed you. All my life, I lied to me all my life."

"In this life," Fu Changling raised his head. He squeezed his fist and kept smiling, but his eyes were blurred, "You are still the same."

"You know everything, but you still don't say it."

"You see me like a fool, telling you the past, telling you my pain, watching me think you are dead, living in pain and guilt. Every day, every night, I look forward to your return. , I have nightmares all the time, dreaming of you dying in front of me."

"These," Fu Changling finally lost his temper. He stared at Qin Yan. He no longer wanted to restrain himself or make any sense. He just stared at him and asked him, "Don't you know?"

"You know."

Fu Changling laughed: "When I was in Wanguya, I cried and begged you to come back. When I was in Taiping Town, I almost fell into a demon. I hope that you will come back. It is already my psychological barrier. You have to admit that I can get out of hell. Climb out and be redeemed. But you don’t have one, you just look at it like that, indifferent, pretending to be ignorant."

"Then you continue to lie to me."

"You lie to me you like me, you lie to me you are tempted, you lie to me you will marry me, you lie to me you will be with me, live and die together!"

"I thought this life had started from the beginning. I thought I became the Jinguang Temple for you and accompanied you to Wanguya. I thought I saved your Master and Yunze, and I saved all the changes."

"I thought my sin... I paid enough, so God asked you to give me a chance."

"You love me, you love me, you care about me..." Fu Changling said, couldn't help raising his hand to grab the shirt on his chest, as if he cut his chest open and pinched his heart tightly, so that he could hardly breathe." Qin Yan, you don't need to like me."

"But you can't lie to me."

He said, raised his voice, and screamed: "How can you lie to me like this!"

"Sorry," Qin Yan lowered his eyes and looked at the raindrops splashing on the ground, with a dry tone, "I just... I hope you can be well."

"Then have you asked me?!"

"Every time you say you are doing me good. In the last life, for my own good, you didn't say anything. In this life, it is also for my own good. You don't say anything. Can you tell me the truth even once?! If In the last life you told me the truth, how could I let you go to that point alone!"

"If you told me the truth for the rest of your life..." Fu Changling said, he got up a little dazed, and slowly lowered his voice, "I'm not... I don't listen to you."

If he said earlier.

Even a month in the morning, a few days in the morning, before he thought he was born again, before he thought he deserved to be guilty for a lifetime, he might not be so painful.

The saddest thing in this world is never to live in pain for a lifetime.

But the beauty is within reach, but it is broken and powerless.

Qin Yan doesn't like him, doesn't love him, hates him, he can accept it.

As in the previous life, he took all the pain down by himself, and then kept lying to him and let him live in a sweet dream.

All the faults belonged to him, Fu Changling, and all the wrongs belonged to Qin Yan. Fu Changling, he could not hate, love could not love, he was obviously suffering like a mountain, but even the accusations were wrong.

Qin Yan is a holy.

But what he hates most is this thoughtful saint's mind.

Even at this moment, he was rude and gaffe, Qin Yan just stood still, watching him quietly.

Fu Changling suddenly felt that he had lost all his strength, but he had to stand here. With all his courage, he finally asked.

Although Jiang Yebai had already given him the answer, he still wanted to hear his response from Qin Yan.

He wanted to have that moment, at least not living in illusion.

"I ask you one last thing, you promised to be with me, you said you would try to like me, isn't it true?"

Qin Yan was silent, and Fu Changling stared at him. After a long time, Qin Yan said dryly, "Yes."

"Yes?" Fu Changling smiled, "Then can you tell me that the brother has cut the fourth soul and emotion root, and no matter how ruthless love is in this life, why do you like me?"

Qin Yan remained silent. Fu Changling raised his head. He seemed to find it absurd. He took a deep breath, tried to restrain the tears in his eyes, and spoke for Qin Yan: "Let me talk about it."

"You know you can't like people, but you have pity on me."

"You have pity on me, you can't love you, you don't end well, you mean the deer is a horse, black and white are reversed. You have worked hard for a lifetime, but only hurt all the people you love. Such a person, you think he is too sad. The most important thing is that this person, He is the true monarch of Huayang in the future. He cannot go outside the evil spirits. Therefore, when he is desperate and enters the evil spirits, you pity him. You need him to stand on the right way forever. So you tell him that you take him home. he."

"It doesn't matter if you love you anyway. It doesn't matter if you love someone or you like someone. The important thing is that the person is willing to listen to you, to be like your puppet, your doll, to follow your command, for the sake of Yunze, For the sake of the common people, even his life is sacrificed."

"It's great." Fu Changling couldn't help laughing. He clapped his hands and chuckled softly, "For your life, in order to make that person's life better, Sui Yanjun can feel wronged and ask for completeness and have nothing to do with himself. People with feelings talk about love, saint."

"Changling..." Qin Yan's voice swallowed even more. Fu Changling smiled and shook his head, raising his hand to stop him, "Don't call me that."

"In your heart, I am not Fu Changling." Fu Changling raised his head and looked at Qin Yan with a smile, "Perhaps you have so much brotherhood here, but you have more in your heart. What I represent is True Monarch Huayang, right?"

Qin Yan couldn't make a sound, Fu Changling was right, but he also knew that maybe it wasn't the case.

"If Sui Yanjun feels that he is not like this, then I ask Sui Yanjun," Fu Changling was a little tired, "Why did you leave me in Hongmeng Tiangong?"

Qin Yan didn't respond, and Fu Changling laughed and urged: "From now on, I hope that Jun Yan will not lie to me again."

"After the Xuanji Secret Realm is opened, someone will kill you. I'm afraid you will make a mistake, and it will be critical in the future."

Qin Yan answered very calmly. Fu Changling listened, lowered his head and chuckles: "I am the future leader of the Immortal Dao, and Sui Yan Jun was very worried. Then, Sui Yan Jun gave me the jade pendant, why did he mean it?"

"Qin Yan from the previous life, I loved you." Qin Yan squeezed his umbrella. He looked at Fu Changling, restrained all his tone and emotions, and tried to keep himself from getting confused. "For Qin Yan from the previous life, this The jade pendant represents his feelings for you. He remembers you when he first saw you at the Hongmeng Temple at the age of eight. When he meets again in the Xuanji Secret Realm at the age of seventeen, he falls in love with you. It’s all his feelings for you that he puts his heart and energy to refine the jade pendant. Pin it."

So in the previous life, he killed the Fu family and returned the jade pendant to him.

In this life Hongmeng Tiangong apprentices-

"I will give you this feeling for Qin Yan from the previous life."

Because he can't take it, and he cherishes such a beautiful friendship, he will also feel sorry.

Therefore, for Qin Yan in the previous life, he quietly gifted this feeling to that person, and the moment when the jade pendant was sent out, for Qin Yan in this life, it was the moment of decision in the past and present.

Fu Changling listened quietly, his heart cut like a knife.

But he had to stand and continue to listen: "Then Wanguya, Sui Yanjun knew I was there a long time ago."

"Yes," Qin Yan looked calm, "When you opened the teleportation array, I saw the image inside, and I knew you were at Wan Bone Cliff."

"You know that a year is equal to a day outside. Why are you rushing over and fetching the last flowers for me?"

"You saved Master," Qin Yan returned with no emotion, "This is what I owe you. And you are my junior, I should have saved you. Plus you are True Monarch Huayang, if you don't have a golden core , There is no hope for advancement, I am afraid that if the karma prison fails to be sealed in the future, something will happen to the immortal world."

"Back then," Fu Changling lowered his eyes, "Why did you rush to Wanguya to fetch me the deceased flowers when you came down from the Jinguang Temple?"

"Because back then, he wanted you to go to Junzitai. He knew that you had a bad life in Fu's family. He heard that you were bullied because you didn't have a golden pill. Reborn flowers."

Qin Yan didn't use "I", Fu Changling listened and knew that Qin Yan distinguished him from his current self in his previous life.

Fu Changling didn't dare to think about it, he just asked mechanically: "In Ten Thousand Bone Cliff, you know what I have seen in this life, you all know it in the last life."

"knowledge."

"That's why you fell demon."

"Not so." Qin Yan lowered his eyes, "After Wanguya came out, although there was a demon, Qin Yan did not dare to ruin the way, and went back to Hongmeng Tiangong to suppress the demon by himself."

"That's why he sent me the Mianshenghua, without showing up, he left in a hurry, in order to rush back to suppress the demons."

"Yes."

"What about Taiping Town?" Fu Changling continued, "Does he know about Taiping Town?"

"Know part."

Qin Yan answered earnestly: "After the death of his master in the previous life, he was framed as the person who killed him. Hongmeng Tiangong said that he was hard to get rid of and colluded with karmic prison. He met someone."

"That person told him that now Demon Cultivation has penetrated Yunze, and the immortal world needs someone to be an undercover agent in the Demon Cultivation, otherwise Yunze will undoubtedly lose in the battle of the Immortal Demon, so he chose to rebel into the devil."

"Shortly after entering the devil, the Fu family’s master found him and informed him of the relationship between the Fu family and Fu Changling. I hope that one day, he can completely cut off the relationship between the Fu family and Fu Changling. Later, the Fu family formed an immortal alliance, and the demon master in the demon cultivator appeared. After the world, he asked himself to be a striker and participated in the battle to destroy the Fu family."

"why did not you tell me?"

Fu Changling's tears rolled down: "In the beginning, he killed me to let me go deliberately, didn't he?"

Qin Yan was silent. After a while, he said slowly: "Tell you, what's the point?"

"Let you apostasy, or come to save him?"

Qin Yan said, seemingly amused: "At that time, Immortal Dao needed an undercover to figure out what the karma prison is. It's not Qin Yan, but someone else. He has nothing, so why go ahead?"

"His life's hopes have been put on you."

Qin Yan stared at Fu Changling: "Actually, you don't have to feel too guilty to feel sorry for him. He did not have a bad life in his previous life. He has many happy things."

"You Junzitai became famous in the first battle, he is very happy."

"You survived, he is very happy."

"You become the true monarch of Huayang, he is very happy to help the strong and the weak."

"Later, you were completely covered in white snow, deified and deified, and thousands of people admire the world, so he has no regrets, he couldn't be more happy."

"You have said I'm sorry many times in this life, but Fu Changling, you have nothing to apologize to him." Qin Yan looked at the person in front of him and said calmly, "He didn't get into a demon for you, he didn't go to a dead end. On the contrary, you are him. The light in life."

In the most painful and darkest moment, when he was struggling in the mud, that young man named Fu Changling was the only starlight when he raised his head to look up at the dark night.

At the age of seventeen, Fu Changling was the blind boy behind him in the Xuanji Secret Realm. He exchanged his life for him to leave the Xuanji Secret Realm so that he knew how to like someone.

At the age of twenty, Fu Changling was the person he wanted to protect. He killed his whole family, and secretly followed Fu Changling who was hunted and killed, watching him stand up again and again in desperate situations, so he was twenty years old. Qin Yan also learned to stand up again and again in desperate situations.

At the age of thirty, Fu Changling was the only person he could comfort. At that time, Fu Changling broke through the god, and was the first person under the tribulation of Yunze to win the Taoist name Huayang Zhenjun. When he opened the dojo, the people rushed to worship, and the 30-year-old Qin Yan was in the crowd that day. Looking up at the person who is out of reach, I finally feel that my sword has a bit of warmth. His efforts were not in vain, you see, there is another person in this world who did everything he wanted to do and became the person he wanted to be when he was a teenager.

At the age of forty, if Fu Changling was his person, at that time the battle between the immortals and demons was in the last ten years, and Fu Changling formed the immortal alliance and became the leader of the immortal alliance. He built Wugou Palace, and Fu Changling each held chess pieces, and each stood on one side. Sometimes he would look at the direction of Hongmeng Temple, where is his homeland, where there is Fu Changling.

At the age of fifty, Fu Changling was the one who killed him. At this time, Fu Changling had closed the door of the Karma Prison, and his mission had been accomplished. Fu Changling had become the appearance he had been looking forward to most.

He thought that after his death, Fu Changling would live well.

He will overlook all living beings and guard the clouds, and then one day he will break through and ascend to the immortal class.

But he never thought that a lie will not last forever. One day, Fu Changling will know the truth.

What he never thought was that even under lies, Fu Changling would still like Qin Yan.

"If you two, someone must say sorry."

Qin Yan's voice paused. He looked at the young man in the rain robe. After a long time, he said with difficulty, "I'm sorry."

The sound of sorry went through two lives and two lives in an instant. Looking at the person in front of him, Fu Changling opened his trembling lips.

He wanted to say something, but couldn't say it.

Where is it so easy?

The person in front of you is used to speaking only good things and giving only the best to others. If you really are so happy without complaining at all, why is there a root of love? Why did you pull out that root of love again?

If it is not for the extreme desperation of this relationship, if it is not for the feeling that there is no hope at all, how can you not confide in your friendship at the last moment of your life?

Fu Changling didn't say a word, he pulled the curtain with his body, stepped through the wind and rain step by step, and walked to Qin Yan. Then he stopped. He stood outside the umbrella, half an arm away from Qin Yan, quietly watching the young man in white under the umbrella.

Fu Changling wanted to reach out and touch Qin Yan's face, but he didn't dare.

I don't know Qin Yan's intentions, but touching him was unintentional.

Now that he knew that Qin Yan couldn't like him, he still had to rely on that person's mercy to do things that he didn't like. This was disgusting.

He looked at Qin Yan quietly. After watching for a long time, he stretched out his hand, unfastened his belt, and took off the hi-robes outside.

He threw the Xi robe into the muddy water, leaving only the white single shirt, and then he knelt down and kowtowed in front of Qin Yan.

"I was lucky in my past life, I was disappointed by Jun's grace, I have seen it in this life, I don't know the cause and effect, and there are many offenses. I hope that Yan Jun will be magnanimous.

Qin Yan didn't speak. He looked at Fu Changling. He felt that something was blocking his heart, which made him feel a little bit painful.

"I am willing to become a Taoist couple with you."

Qin Yan said with difficulty: "I don't mean... I want to use you."

Fu Changling knelt on the ground. He was silent. After a long time, he said in a low voice: "I understand, but brother, I am not worthy."

"Senior brother has already broken off love and does not understand the common heart. Getting married with me is more just to comfort me, but the brother has paid enough, no longer need to think about others like this, at least, no need to think about me like this anymore."

As Fu Changling said, he slowly raised his head and straightened up: "The one who kills the brother is Huayang; the one who forces the brother to seduce the root of love is also Huayang. What identity does Huayang have, which is favored by the brother?"

"I am willing."

Qin Yan squeezed the umbrella. He felt that something was pressing on his chest. Looking at Fu Changling like this, he couldn't help but change his tone: "I am very happy to be married to you. I am also happy to see you happy."

Hearing this, Fu Changling raised his head and looked up at Qin Yan: "Then do you like me?"

Qin Yan was stunned, he couldn't answer.

Fu Changling laughed, and he said in a gentle tone: "If you don't like me, then marry me, then you will be married. You are not happy because of marriage with me, but because I have a good life and you are happy."

"But brother, you have been good to me for two lifetimes, I'm content, it's enough."

"The next ten, twenty, one hundred, one thousand years."

The rain fell on Fu Changling’s face and washed away his tears. He knelt on the ground, looked up at Qin Yan, and raised a smile: "Let me treat brothers well, let me be considerate of them, and let them all Happiness is for oneself, not for others."

"Senior brother, don't worry about my sadness," Fu Changling smiled brighter and brighter, "I am already very happy to know that brother is back, I can atone for my sins, and I can be nice to brother."

"As long as the brother has a good life, Changling will have no regrets in his heart. There is no need to get married, and there is no need for the senior brother to respond. Changling only needs the senior brother to promise me one thing."

Fu Changling's voice stopped, and Qin Yan's hand holding the umbrella trembled. He stared at the kneeling young man in front of him, and listened to him laughing like a cry: "Don't lie to me."

"In this life, all the choices, I want to choose by myself."

"No matter how painful and no matter how desperate, I want to go my own way."

"Brother," Fu Changling pleaded in his eyes, "You live for yourself and make me sober."

"Ok?"