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date="2021-11-08"

title="Chapter 15"

weight="145866"

series = ["Please, Don’t See Me"]

mode = "manual"

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When did Shu Jin find out that he likes Sheng Xinghe?

It was probably seven or eight years ago.

During that time, he unconsciously a few times, always couldn't help but secretly look at Sheng Xinghe's face. It is not surprising that boys look good and attract attention, but Sheng Xinghe does not belong to this category.

Almost everyone feels uncomfortable when they see Sheng Xinghe’s face for the first time. The beauty of such a beautiful face is completely destroyed by the muddy and terrifying gray right eye. It attracts all the attention and makes people unconscious. To imagine what kind of tragic experience this young man has experienced.

If they are not very familiar people, ordinary people can't calmly put their eyes on Sheng Xinghe's face, they will worry whether such eyes will make Sheng Xinghe uncomfortable, and worry about being misunderstood that they are all looking at his incomplete part.

Shu Jin did the same at the beginning.

But at that time when he came back to his senses, he would find that he was watching Sheng Xinghe for a long time-Sheng Xinghe was always so indifferent, he accepted everything and tolerated everything, living in it with ease, completely unlike a poor family in a small town Come out.

Shu Jin would think, what does it matter even if one eye is blinded?

Sheng Xinghe is so good, many times better than many healthy people, people who really like him shouldn't care about this at all.

Peeking more often, Sheng Xinghe occasionally turns his head instinctively and asks Shu Jin: "What are you looking at?"

Shu Jin was caught, his heartbeat missed the shot, and said indiscriminately: "Who looks at you, I'm secretly scolding you!"

Sheng Xinghe rubbed his head: "I just can't see, and I'm not deaf!"

Shu Jin's face is red and his ears are red.

Later, Sheng Xinghe's accidental words will also cause his heartbeat to be disturbed. If it is praise, he will even unconsciously aftertaste before going to bed, curling up with excitement and having trouble sleeping.

Sometimes when Sheng Xinghe did the question, Shu Jin took a pen next to him to draw the picture.

The aunt cut the fruit, he stuffed his mouth from time to time, his cheeks bulged: "Brother, do you think this design is absolutely perfect?"

His design ideas are all sorts of weird, everything, from the cup to the house, he can paint whatever he thinks of.

Sheng Xinghe stopped writing, looked over, smiled and asked, "Are you going to be an architect?"

Shu Jin said: "It's okay to be an architect, but I'm afraid I won't pass the exam. But it doesn't matter if I don't pass the exam. I can still be an interior designer, landscape designer, product designer or something." He pointed to the picture. , Can’t wait to ask, "What do you think?"

Sheng Xinghe took a serious look and said, "I like this house very much and want to live in it."

Shu Jinnuo responded, took the paper back, imagined Sheng Xinghe living in it, and quietly modified the drawing according to his personality, then quietly clipped it into the book, took it out during class, and recalled that Sheng Xinghe looked at the design. The calm profile in the picture.

After Sheng Xinghe went to college, Shu Jin confirmed his mind in the fear of perceiving sexual orientation.

Because of his eyes, Sheng Xinghe’s favorite major had medical examination restrictions. He could not go, so he had to choose another famous university thousands of miles away from Yuecheng.

On the first night Sheng Xinghe spent in the university dormitory, Shu Jin suffered from insomnia.

They talked the next day, and Shu Jin asked, "Brother, is anyone bullying you there?"

Sheng Xinghe: "How come?"

Shu Jin sullenly said: "I don't want them to stare at you."

When Sheng Xinghe came to school in high school, people always went to his classroom to stare at him. Shu Jin hated this situation.

"No one is staring at me." I can't see Sheng Xinghe's face, I can only hear his voice, "Then if someone really bullies me, can you come over?"

"Of course." Shu Jin said pretentiously, "I took the puffs and let them kill them."

Sheng Xinghe smiled over there.

Finally said: "The students in the dormitory are very nice, very helpful and very polite."

Shu Jin was sad.

He used to be the only one of Sheng Xinghe. Now Sheng Xinghe is in a place where he can't see, making friends with other people, and he no longer needs to "support" him in school.

The longer the separation, the more he missed Sheng Xinghe.

Gradually, he learned that this feeling is called liking.

He missed Sheng Xinghe's eyes, fingers, and smell, the feeling of two people walking side by side when walking the dog together, and the many nights they spent in the audio-visual room on the second floor.

Shu Jin faintly knew that this was wrong.

He was only a teenager, and he didn't dare to tell anyone, and he didn't dare to share such feelings with anyone.

The frequency of phone calls has changed from frequent to occasional. Sheng Xinghe has studies to be busy, and Shu Jin also keeps himself busy. Two months passed, as if everything had returned to a period that Sheng Xinghe had never been to. He didn't miss Sheng Xinghe much anymore, as it tasted like a water stop.

Maybe it was just an illusion, he told himself, and he was deeply relieved.

Until the end of the evening self-study and school one night, Sheng Xinghe waited for him at the school gate with the dog.

The students filed out. Sheng Xinghe stood under a tree. He seemed to stand out among a group of students. Shu Jin saw him at a glance. His heart beat instantly out of control, beating like a drum: Why did he come back suddenly? Has he grown taller?

Did he see me?

My friend also saw Sheng Xinghe and pushed Shu Jin: "Hey, your brother is here."

Shu Jin: "..."

The friend sighed: "Even if you only have one eye, your brother is really handsome—"

Shu Jin has rushed over.

"Brother, why did you come back suddenly?!" Shu Jin's hair was messed up, and the strap of his schoolbag pressed one of his school uniform collars, "Never told me!"

Sheng Xinghe pulled out his collar casually: "I came back this afternoon. I heard that a section of the street light at the door was broken. I just wanted to pick you up."

Shu Jin's heart was pounding, because the eardrums were also clamoring with excitement.

He didn't know what to react for a while, and how it would be more natural, so he reached out and took the dog leash: "Puffs!"

The dog raised his foot on his lap, he rubbed the dog's head indiscriminately, and the two of them led the dog on the way home.

At that section of the road, he recovered a little bit of consciousness and said, "The street light broke yesterday, and there were stones on the road. I almost fell last night."

There are few cars leading to the villa area, and the road is dark.

Only the city lights in the distance reflected the sky.

Sheng Xinghe flashed a flashlight with one hand, and pulled Shu Jin with the other: "Go steady."

It's not that the two have not held hands before.

Obviously normal contact, the moment Sheng Xinghe's fingertips touched the back of his hand, Shu Jin almost jumped up: "I, I will go to your right!"

Sheng Xinghe: "No."

Shu Jin bit his scalp and said, "You can't see here, it's safer."

Sheng Xinghe did not reluctantly.

The road is not too long, and Shu Jin occasionally scolds the puffs who try to pick up things on the road, and pulls it back with a tow rope.

The two did not speak much.

It seemed that the two months of separation had brought them a little bit of subtle change, and Shu Jin couldn't say why.

When they walked out of this section, the field of vision was filled with light again, and they were bathed in bright lights, only when Shu Jin realized that Sheng Xinghe was looking down at him, as if he had something to say, but he didn't.

Shu Jin couldn't help but wondered whether Sheng Xinghe happened to like him a little bit too?

He knew that such a thought was shameful, and he intuitively thought that no boys would like to think like that of the same sex, let alone a clean and proud Sheng Xinghe.

Sheng Xinghe turned off the flashlight and said flatly: "Go."

Shu Jin led the dog behind him.

When they returned home, Shu Zhaoyuan was there, and when they saw them coming back, he said, "Why is Xiao Sheng also back?"

Sheng Xinghe called "Uncle" politely.

Shu Jin asked: "When did you come back, dad?"

"I just arrived, Xiao Sheng came back just right!" Shu Zhaoyuan smiled, "Uncle is about to call you, so it's better to have a face-to-face meeting."

Shu Zhaoyuan received a new order. In recent years, his deeds of continuously funding outstanding poor students have attracted the attention of the local town government of Lingjiang, and they have been listed as cooperative enterprises. The development of the factory is no longer the same as before.

The business was doing well, and Shu Zhaoyuan was busier than before. Shu Jin often didn't see him for a month.

Shu Jin went to pour some water on the puffs, and when she came out, she heard Shu Zhaoyuan say to Sheng Xinghe: "Uncle here, there is a personal interview in the newspaper, which takes up half of the page! They said they wanted to contact you, and they also did a small interview. , Faceless, just ask a few small questions, let you talk about your growth experience over the years. When do you think you are free?"

Shu Zhaoyuan did not ask "maybe", but directly asked "when are you free?"

The living room was quiet for a few seconds.

His father's question made Shu Jin feel very uncomfortable.

But Sheng Xinghe said, "Is it okay the day after tomorrow? I'm going to visit Grandpa's grave tomorrow and have to go back to Lingjiang."

Only then did Shu Jin remember that these days happened to be the life sacrifice of Grandpa Sheng Xinghe. He would go back at this time before, so it's no wonder that he suddenly came back.

Shu Zhaoyuan promised: "Yes, you can, then I will trouble you, remember to answer the phone!"

He patted Sheng Xinghe on the shoulder and went back to the room.

Shu Jin dissatisfied: "Why do you agree? I don't want you to be in the newspaper. The questions asked by those people are messy!"

What's the use of that kind of interview besides digging out the past experience of the person involved and setting off the benevolence of the main character?

Sheng Xinghe said: "It's okay, I should do it."

Sheng Xinghe's attitude made Shu Jin very angry at once, but he couldn't tell what was angry, so he went upstairs angrily, and said as he walked: "Then let others laugh at you! I don't care about you!"