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date="2021-11-08"

title="Chapter 17"

weight="145880"

series = ["Please, Don’t See Me"]

mode = "manual"

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Shu Jin couldn't remember whether Sheng Xinghe was interviewed by the newspaper.

After parting again, he always remembered the way Sheng Xinghe looked at him in the car, and then returned to the moment when his heartbeat accelerated. Ambiguous emotions seemed to breed quietly between them, and Shu Jin seemed to be unable to figure it out, but was expecting something faintly.

During that time, the miss was crazy.

Whenever he thinks of Sheng Xinghe, he runs on the court with his classmates, swims in the swimming pool, walks the dog, studies, writes a set of test papers, and desperately approaches him when Sheng Xinghe is not around. , To become a better person.

The young person's energy was fully released, and Shu Jin was quickly lifted up by a soft child, his body stretched out, and he grew solid shoulders and a thin back.

Sheng Xinghe didn't have many days when he came back from college, and the delicate balance allowed them to hold their own hands. They didn't go further or take a step back.

By the end of the college entrance examination for Shu Jin, he was completely reborn.

After receiving the admission notice, Shu Zhaoyuan entertained relatives and friends and gave a banquet to all parties.

Shu Zhaoyuan spent a lot of money, booked the best hotel in the area, and invited people to set off fireworks in the evening. He wanted everyone to know how promising his son Shu Zhaoyuan was.

The guests gathered, Shu Zhaoyuan drank one cup after another, none of the guests who came said he was instructive.

First, he sponsored orphans and poor students, carefully taught him, and sent him to one of the best prestigious universities, and then his own son was unwilling to be left behind and was admitted to a well-known university in one fell swoop. Shu Zhaoyuan's business is booming, and the children in the family also honor him. He can't avoid saying a few words about the tiger father and the dog.

Sheng Xinghe came later that day.

Shu Jin was forced to attend a banquet and followed his father as the protagonist.

As soon as he turned his head and saw Sheng Xinghe walking in from the door, what Shu Jin first thought was that it is not difficult to wear it like this.

Wearing a formal shirt and trousers for the first time in his life, he outlines his thin waist and long straight legs.

The guests in the room, Shu Jin saw Sheng Xinghe walking towards him, first called "Uncle" politely, and then whispered in his ear: "You have grown taller".

Shu Jinruo nothing happened: "Heh, you just know, maybe I will catch up with you when you come back next time."

Sheng Xinghe stood up straight and cast his eyes down and said, "That's still a long way away."

Shu Jin's ears have a fever, and she stands up straight: "I'm not eighteen, I will grow!"

Sheng Xinghe said: "It's coming soon."

Sheng Xinghe is not a boast, Shu Jin is always half a head shorter than Sheng Xinghe.

The two are two years apart, one is long, and the other is also growing. After all, even the fact of raising them together makes Shu Jin secretly happy, as if only they have such a tacit understanding.

Sheng Xinghe came, and Shu Jin didn't feel that this occasion bored him either. have been busy till the end, as long as can look back at Sheng Xinghe once in a while, the meal will not be so difficult.

"You two are very proud of me!" Shu Zhaoyuan drank, and praised them in front of everyone, "I will be more prosperous in the future! Let me go out without relying on money or power, just take you two Proud!"

Later, Shu Zhaoyuan reddened his eyes again, and put his arms around Shu Jin's shoulders: "Son, you are the pride of Dad!"

After everything was over, Shu Jin's mother called to congratulate him and gave him a red envelope.

Shu Jin was very happy this day.

Sheng Xinghe stayed at home for one night, played games and walked the dog with Shu Jin, the same as before, but a little different from before.

Shu Jin didn't dare to stand on Sheng Xinghe's right to look at him.

Because Sheng Xinghe's gaze is always on him, letting Shu Jin know that he is being watched all the time.

But Sheng Xinghe is so natural, so Shu Jin is concerned about gains and losses, dare not ask anything, dare not say anything.

During the summer vacation, Sheng Xinghe didn't return to Yuecheng. He stayed in the city where he was going to school. He said he wanted to do a small project with his classmates and set up a small company. Shu Jin watched all the movies about homosexuality that he could find at home.

Some made him feel relieved, some made him feel sad.

The beautiful plot of the movie gave him a new discovery, that is, liking a person has no relationship with gender. It is not wrong to like the same sex, but it is really difficult to want to be happy.

If there are misunderstandings and wrong expectations, the best way is to keep silent.

On Sheng Xinghe's twentieth birthday, Shu Jin bought a ticket to see him.

That night Shu Jin met Sheng Xinghe's roommates, classmates, and alumni who started a company together. Sheng Xinghe is the university that skipped the exam. He is the youngest in the class. Now there is a younger Shu Jin. Everyone ridicules that he is old.

"Is it my brother?"

"how old are you?"

"You look so good, do you have a girlfriend?"

"Where did you go to university?"

These elder brothers and sisters were gossiping very much, and Shu Jin was almost unable to stand up to them when they got to the bottom. Sheng Xinghe came to rescue him, pulled him up from his seat and sat next to him.

Holding hands, touched very briefly.

Sheng Xinghe's gaze swept across his face, with a smile on the corners of his lips, and continued to talk to his friends.

Shu Jin looked at his perfect right cheek and his gray eyes, and his heart throbbed.

Someone made a joke between Sheng Xinghe and another female classmate who was not present.

Shu Jin listened and ate the dishes on the table seriously.

I heard Sheng Xinghe say: "Come on, my eyes."

The man said: "You are so good, who cares about your eyes, don't use it as an excuse!"

Sheng Xinghe's tone did not change much, and he said with ease: "Parents will mind. Instead of being taken apart at that time, I still don't want to waste girls' time."

Sheng Xinghe also used this excuse to prevaricate female classmates in high school.

Only Shu Jin knew that he didn't think so at all. He simply felt that falling in love was a waste of study time and precious energy. But girls are always more frustrated and brave, unless they use physical defects as an excuse to be truly quiet.

But this time, hearing him say this again, Shu Jin felt a slight pain in her heart.

After the game was over, Sheng Xinghe's roommate offered to go home and sleep, and asked Shu Jin to go to their dormitory for the night.

Sheng Xinghe said: "He can't get used to sleeping, let me take him outside."

The roommate smiled: "Look at your guard, your brother won't sleep in the dormitory at his school?"

Finally, Sheng Xinghe took Shu Jin to book a hotel.

Shu Jin really doesn't sleep in the dormitory. He was spoiled and clean, so Shu Zhaoyuan rented him a one-bedroom apartment outside the school on his first day in college. Having never experienced group life, Shu Jin, a stranger’s dormitory, must be accustomed to sleeping.

On the way, Shu Jin asked: "Brother, do you really think girls mind your eyes?"

Sheng Xinghe: "Why ask this?"

Shu Jin blinked: "I just want to ask, do you just talk casually, or really feel that way."

Sheng Xinghe looked at him: "What's the difference between casually talking and really feeling that way?"

"Oh, this." Shu Jin thought about his words, "just don't want to say anything. I don't like to listen. I really don't think it is necessary. Like your classmate said, you are so good. Who would mind?"

Sheng Xinghe responded indifferently, as if not paying attention.

Shu Jin felt sour and anxious: "Are you listening?"

Sheng Xinghe said: "Yes."

Shu Jin was really mad at him.

The emperor was not in a hurry for the eunuchs, Sheng Xinghe always had a way to make Shu Jin exasperated in this regard. In Shu Jin's place, it could not be said that Sheng Xinghe was not good, even Sheng Xinghe himself could not.

When you arrive at the hotel, swipe your card to enter the house.

Sheng Xinghe suddenly asked: "Do you mind?"

The card hadn't been inserted into the card slot, and the room was completely dark, only the sensor light behind the door was briefly lit.

Shu Jin thought he had misheard: "Huh?"

He looked up and found that Sheng Xinghe was looking at him again. He took a step back unconsciously. The light shone on half of Sheng Xinghe's face, and that black eye was as bright as a star.

Sheng Xinghe asked again: "My eyes will not be as convenient as ordinary people, and there are many places in life that I can't follow my heart. I see half of the world than you. If it's you, do you mind?"

The sense of ambiguity that felt before is coming again.

Like the dark road without street lights, and the dull back seat of a car after returning from Lingjiang.

Once again, Shu Jin clearly felt Sheng Xinghe's tentacles carefully stretched out from the depths, as if waiting for him to touch them, and then they could be tightly wound. Finally, the sky thunder shook the ground and the sparks burst.

"I, how could I mind?" Shu Jin stammered, "Otherwise, why should I call your brother and be so nice to you?"

"I don't need you and me to be so good." Sheng Xinghe said.

The sensor light goes out.

In the darkness, Sheng Xinghe's voice sounded again: "Shu Jin, what I want is another kind of good."

boom

Shu Jin heard exactly what burning sound.

He shivered involuntarily. He didn't know how long it had passed, but only heard a soft "ding", and the room was instantly brightly lit.

For the first time he saw Sheng Xinghe's uncomfortable expression, and for the first time he saw Sheng Xinghe showing the annoyed expression that a talent of this age would have. Although Sheng Xinghe hid well, he understood Sheng Xinghe like him, and he understood a little in an instant: Sheng Xinghe Sure enough, he was also liking him.

Perhaps due to his identity and physiology, Sheng Xinghe hides it well. He has to think more and endure far more than Shu Jin.

Test each other, need each other, and become uneasy at the same time.

The feelings of sour swelling and beginning to ferment, don't know when it has reached its limit.

Neither of them can control its expansion anymore, even Sheng Xinghe can only say it vaguely.

They have longed for a little catharsis.

Before he could respond, Sheng Xinghe turned and walked inside.

Shu Jin called his name, and then grabbed the corner of his clothes.

Entrance to the hotel room.

They stand one behind the other.

"What does that mean?" Shu Jin blushed like a tomato, "Do you secretly like me? Say it!"

About a minute later.

Shu Jin began to stammer and talk nonsense: "Are you kidding me, I tell you, it's not funny at all, don't dare to make such a joke with my magnanimity and kindness in my heart——"

"There is no'secretly'."

Sheng Xinghe interrupted him.

"I just like you, Shu Jin."