+++

date="2021-11-08"

title="Chapter 18"

weight="145891"

series = ["Please, Don’t See Me"]

mode = "manual"

+++

As if the moon fell into the sea, whales roam the galaxy.

The world has become more splendid because of the blooming youthful love.

Shu Jin bravely grabbed the corner of Sheng Xinghe's clothes, and Sheng Xinghe responded directly to him. The shocking sentence "I just like you" caused a burst of depressed feelings. Regardless of right or wrong, regardless of gender, they held each other tightly that year.

There is no "secretly".

So Sheng Xinghe always looked at him, indulged him, and cared for him.

Shu Jin responded ignorantly to Sheng Xinghe's response. He not only wanted to give him another kind of goodness, but also more other goodnesses.

The first time he officially held hands was when Sheng Xinghe sent him to the station the next day.

They were sitting on the bus, shy because of the confession last night, even Sheng Xinghe pretended to look out the window, just gently grasping Shu Jin's hand, intertwined ten fingers, and sweaty palms.

When got off the train, had to release it. When entered the train station to get the ticket in line, Shu Jin put his hand back without paying attention.

"I'll come to see you again next month." Shu Jin lowered his head, even the back of his neck was red. "There will be three small holidays next month."

Sheng Xinghe's small company has just started and should be very busy.

Shu Jin is taking the initiative in his own way, Sheng Xinghe knows, but he did not refuse: "Okay, I'll wait for you."

They held hands quietly, then turned into finger-hooks as the team progressed, and finally separated completely reluctantly.

The first formal hug was on the day of the kiss, and two things happened together.

It was a night for Shu Jin to come to Sheng Xinghe's school again.

The weather is getting hot and the air is sticky.

He was wearing an ordinary T-shirt, clean canvas shoes, and carrying a bag on one shoulder, just like he appeared on Sheng Xinghe's campus. Sheng Xinghe looked calm when he saw him, but when they walked to a quiet place with no one, Sheng Xinghe suddenly stopped and hugged him tightly.

Xia Ye cicada rustled, Sheng Xinghe was a bit fierce when he kissed him.

With an unruly kiss, they hit their teeth, and Shu Jin opened his lips with a "well", and Sheng Xinghe drove straight in unceremoniously.

Next is no first meeting.

They traveled between the two cities several times in more than a year.

In the last summer vacation delivered each other's first night.

Shu Jin cried very badly, biting Sheng Xinghe's shoulder to the skin, but when he woke up the matter hung on Sheng Xinghe, softly begging for a hug.

They talk about ideals and the future.

Shu Jin wants to go to Sheng Xinghe's city after graduation, and then buy a house that belongs to them together, which is close to Sheng Xinghe's company and adjacent to the supermarket, so that they can learn to cook. The house doesn't need to be too big, only one bedroom is needed, and the balcony is given to the puffs.

Sheng Xinghe would choose a suitable time to tell Shu Zhaoyuan when he was full of wings and when he was able to bear the life of another person.

The year and a half was very beautiful and very exciting.

At home, they hide in the room and do i, kiss in the kitchen, and hold each other's hands along the unmanned river while walking the dog.

Outside, they walked the street generously, passing through couple clothes regardless of the gaze of others.

They had quarrels, mostly trivial things. For example, Shu Jin’s social software has too many girls like it. For example, Sheng Xinghe is busy at work and forgets the time and is late for appointments. They have almost all the friction between couples. Shu Jin deliberately stood on Sheng Xinghe's right to make a temper, Sheng Xinghe grabbed him in front of him, and finally ended with a kiss and hug.

In the years that followed, Shu Jin had to rely on those memories to not exhale painfully at night.

He once looked into Sheng Xinghe's eyes, and thought about it countless times-he was on the scene the day the accident happened when he was a child, how great it would be if he could prevent it from happening.

He even hated the instigator. When Sheng Xinghe was euphemistically told by his collaborators that it is better to change to a colleague when discussing business, he hated that person uselessly in his heart.

They will be better. Shu Jin thought.

Their years are long and the rest of their lives can be expected.

Until everything came to an abrupt end.

Shu Zhaoyuan called and asked him where he was in a calm voice. After getting the answer, the next sentence was to ask him: "Where is Sheng Xinghe?"

On the eve of the storm, such a situation made Shu Jin intuitively realize what his father had discovered.

Shu Jin said that Sheng Xinghe was in school.

Shu Zhaoyuan said, "Did you go to him last weekend?"

Shu Jin: "Yes."

Shu Zhaoyuan: "What are you doing holding hands in the square? There are a lot of people, two men pulling and pulling, and people who don't know think you are a couple. When you Uncle Li told me, I joked that I raised myself a son-in-law, you Do you know how embarrassed I am?"

Shu Jin could remember that Uncle Li. The last time he was admitted to the university, Shu Zhaoyuan had a treat, he should have met him and Sheng Xinghe.

The world is so small, you can even see it like this.

Listening to Shu Jin not speaking, Shu Zhaoyuan cleared his throat: "Remember not to do that next time. It is not good to be misunderstood. My son of Shu Zhaoyuan is regarded as a homosexual——"

"No misunderstanding." Shu Jin admitted.

At that moment, he seemed a little impulsive, but he didn't regret it.

Shu Jin: "Dad, I'm in a relationship with him. I liked him first."

Shu Zhaoyuan's anger, Shu Jin can't remember clearly.

Shu Zhaoyuan asked him if he wanted to be shameless, if he was a good girl, if he wanted to pervert, what he wanted to like a man for. Ask him what Sheng Xinghe can do with a disability, is he also blind.

Shu Jin hung up the phone.

At that time, he thought it was just a struggle with his father. As long as they were persistent and as long as they could prove their feelings, then his father would accept them one day.

He was afraid that Shu Zhaoyuan would call to scold Sheng Xinghe, so he called his mother and asked her for help.

The tug of war with Shu Zhaoyuan lasted for two months.

Shu Jin did not go home during the Mid-Autumn Festival.

Shu Zhaoyuan came to his school, took him to a meal, and then told him a fact.

"Do you think the love you imagine is deep?" Shu Zhaoyuan stated clearly as a businessman, "That's because he doesn't know anything."

"What do you mean?" Shu Jin frowned. He thought his father had come to reconcile him.

"I never told you about this, Shu Jin." Shu Zhaoyuan said, "I haven't told anyone. I will tell you today. If you don't want him to hate you, you should keep this secret for yourself."

"Sheng Xinghe's eyes were blinded by you."

"You are playing in the clearing. When I heard the scream rushing, you still had a branch in your hand."

"You were less than three years old at the time, and you were so scared that you couldn't say anything. I snatched it over and threw it away, and asked someone to send Sheng Xinghe to the hospital."

"I'm blind, I have to pay hundreds of thousands."

"I just invested in building a factory, and I have a lot of foreign debts, and there is no money to pay for it."

"...Although it is said that children's squabbles are just accidental injury, and it is not strictly a responsibility, but my conscience has not been able to get through for so many years. I have treated him well and wanted to compensate, but I did not let you do this to him! I did not let you Get gay with him!"

Shu Jin froze in the seat, his face pale.

For a long time, he found his own voice and murmured: "You lie to me, in order to let us break up, you dare to talk nonsense."

Shu Zhaoyuan said: "I lied to you? He was too young at the time and didn't see people clearly... Think about why I didn't take you there again, just because I was afraid that a child would recognize you. Otherwise, you think I really do charity. He started funding since he was young?!"

Shu Jin's ears were buzzing, and he still couldn't believe it.

How could Shu Zhaoyuan put it so lightly?

It must be fake.

"If Sheng Xinghe knows, do you think you can still be together?" Shu Zhaoyuan shouted, "If you don't distinguish, I don't want this old face and I have to tell the truth!"

"What about the family?"

Shu Jin looked at his father, her eyes were as black as ink, and her lips began to turn white. She was as fragile as paper, and it seemed that she was going to disperse with a poke.

Shu Zhaoyuan did not understand: "Which family?"

Shu Jin still holds the last bit of hope, hoping that the person is not himself: "The person who took the responsibility and lost money to the Sheng family, did they recognize the things they haven't done?"

Shu Zhaoyuan frowned: "They were different. They were originally impoverished families and couldn't lose much after adjusting. At that time, his family was working in the factory, and after the children took responsibility, I paid tens of thousands of dollars for them. They didn't lose much. "

Shu Jin opened his mouth.

It was like meeting Shu Zhaoyuan for the first time. It took him a while to find his own voice: "You, have you passed the responsibility to others?"

Shu Zhaoyuan got stuck for a moment, his old face flushed, but he quickly said, "I'm not telling you this problem now!"

Shu Jin stood up suddenly, his chair fell to the ground, and he left without looking back.

The autumn wind was bleak, and it rained that night.

Shu Jin stayed up all night and didn't buy a high-speed rail ticket the next day, so he spent his wallet in the car and rushed to Sheng Xinghe.

Sheng Xinghe's city was also rainy. He squatted at the door of Sheng Xinghe's residence. When Sheng Xinghe came back, he gently asked why he didn't enter the house.

Shu Jin said, "I didn't bring the key."

Sheng Xinghe pulled him up, Shu Jin's hands were cold, and his face was not good-looking. Sheng Xinghe didn't ask him why he didn't call himself, but said, "Are you a fool."

Entering the room, Sheng Xinghe poured hot water for him, and when the two turned to look at each other, Shu Jin turned away immediately.

Sheng Xinghe asked: "What's wrong?"

Shu Jin didn't talk, but only began to cry.

"Is my uncle scolding you again?" Sheng Xinghe squatted in front of him, "then I let you scold, OK? Or I call him and ask him to scold me with me. When he calms down, he may be able to accept us. ."

Shu Zhaoyuan had already called and cursed Sheng Xinghe thoroughly.

He was scolded by a white-eyed wolf, wolf-hearted, and horrible, he was perverted, and he looked good from the outside, but who knew that the inside was broken.

"Good boy."

Sheng Xinghe touched Shu Jin's face, stood up, hugged the person on his lap, and kissed the tip of his nose.

Shu Jin whimpered harder, holding Sheng Xinghe's neck, calling him "Brother".

He said sorry.

But don't say why.