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Chapter 44
Even if he understands that Ren Ran's starting point is for his own good, but now when Ji Wang sees Ren Ran, he can remember this extremely failed relationship and his stupid past.
Like self-preservation after an injury, the subconscious wants to avoid all triggers for those memories, whether it's objects or people.
Although this was unfair to Ren Ran, Ji Wang wanted to be alone now. He knew that he was selfish, but he couldn't be completely objective.
After refusing Ren Ran to come to escort him several times, Ren Ran seemed to understand what he meant and never appeared again.
Compared with Ren Ran, Qi Boyan obviously does not have a higher consciousness. He still came over from time to time, talking to Ji Wang, sending flowers, fruits and soup that he made with his own hands.
Without exception, Ji Wang threw them into the trash can, and Qi Boyan's face became more and more ugly day by day. Ji Wang, who had always felt bad for him, didn't even bother to deal with the wound on his face, but he didn't even ask.
The wishful thinking to gain sympathy did not start, and Qi Boyan had no choice, so he could only silently come over and stay in the ward. The two seemed to be playing a game where whoever speaks first loses.
It's a pity that Ji Wang didn't plan to play with Qi Boyan. When Qi Boyan comes back next time, there is no one in the ward.
Ji Wang changed hospitals and wards. In order to clean up his life, he asked Song Ge, who was studying far away in city B, to help him contact his relatives who were doctors at home, which was convenient.
He rarely asks others for such things, which scared Song Ge to death.
The friend asked worriedly on the phone, thinking that he was seriously ill. When he finally learned about Ji Wang's real condition, he was relieved. The next day, he helped Ji Wang deal with the transfer of the hospital, and left a message on WeChat: "You don't like to do things. Man, did someone bully my brother?"
Ji Wang asked amusingly, "Why, are you flying back to help me vent my anger?"
Song Ge: "I can help you hire eighteen big men to clean up those who bully you. I'll forget it myself. I'm a bata, and you can't beat your alpha. Wouldn't I be courting death if I go?"
Thanks to Songge's blessing, Ji Wang's mood was a little better, but this happiness was like mud, and it was quickly covered up by negative emotions.
Song Ge said, Ji Wang, if you are really unhappy in City C, come to me, we can live together for a while.
This proposal made Ji Wang very moved. He is now a junior or senior, and he can go for an internship directly. Maybe he can leave here and go to a new environment to continue his life, where Song Ge is still there.
Once this thought fell, it grew like a root, and Ji Wang even turned on his phone and began to look at the ticket.
A failure in love can't break him, but it can make him want to escape everything temporarily.
Ji Wang stayed in the hospital for three days. On the fourth day, Qi Boyan found him. He looked more haggard than before. He rushed to the hospital bed. Qi Boyan wanted to hug but didn't dare to hug. , he said hoarsely, "I thought something had happened to you."
"Why didn't you tell me when you were transferred? I've been looking for you for a long time." Qi Boyan pulled a chair and sat down, his eyes fixed on Ji Wang: "Do you still ignore me?"
Ji Wang turned his face and looked out the window. He felt the warmth covering his hands, which was a familiar touch, but had a different feeling. Ji Wang waved Qi Boyan's hand away, hiding his hand under the quilt as if to avoid it.
As soon as this behavior came out, Ji Wang was annoyed himself, and finally spoke to Qi Boyan: "Don't you still understand, I now..."
Qi Boyan seemed to realize what Ji Wang would say next, and he stood up abruptly: "I'm ugly now, go back to wash up, and come to see you later."
After speaking, Qi Boyan left the ward, as abruptly as when he came, as if he was running away, and the words in Ji Wang's mouth to break up could only be swallowed in his stomach.
He believes that things like breaking up should be interviewed in person, confirming the wishes of both parties, and looking into each other's eyes, just like the solemnity of confession, and there should be a sense of responsibility when breaking up.
Therefore, although he did not want to see Qi Boyan, he did not say goodbye in the text message.
Not saying doesn't mean he doesn't want to do it, Ji Wang originally planned to wait for his body to recover a bit before talking to Qi Bo.
Now it seems that Qi Boyan doesn't understand at all. Under such circumstances, normal people should break up by default, instead of entanglement and thinking about going back to the past.
The trust level will be overdrawn, and Qi Boyan's trust is here in Ji Wang, and has gone bankrupt.
Whether it was the absurd reason to humiliate him in order to protect him, or the fact that he still loves him and cares about his words, Ji Wang no longer believes it.
When Qi Boyan came back in the evening, he had already taken care of himself, the wounds on his face had been treated, and the swelling had subsided. But it still looks like he hasn't had a good rest and is haggard.
Qi Boyan knew that Ji Wang didn't want to drink the soup he made, so he packed the hospital's meals over.
The ward he had previously arranged for Ji Wang was a VIP, and the meals were delivered by specialized nurses. Although Ji Wang lives in a single room now, the treatment is not as good as before.
Qi Boyan unfolded the small table and put things on the table. He was unskilled in taking care of people and was very clumsy. When the soup lid was opened, he sprinkled the soup everywhere.
Ji Wang didn't say anything. He picked up the chopsticks, he should eat and drink, and he was no longer full of rejection as before. This change made Qi Boyan's eyes light up, and his mouth showed a little smile.
Perhaps it was because of his softening that Qi Boyan saw some hope. Qi Boyan did not pester him to talk like he did before, but after Ji Wang finished eating, he gently packed his things. Build a cot next to his bed to accompany him.
At this time, Qi Boyan learned how to take care of people.
No one could let him take care of him like this before, but now Ji Wang doesn't want to enjoy this kind of care.
In the middle of the night, of course the pampered Qi Boyan didn't sleep well. He tossed and woke up, and even sneezed in the second half of the night. Ji Wang opened his eyes, and the Qi Boyan in front of him was huddled on a useless folding bed, the quilt was too thin.
He just closed his eyes again and said, "You disturbed me, go out."
Qi Boyan didn't reply, but he quickly got up from the bed and left the ward.
Ji Wang tossed and turned on the bed and couldn't fall asleep. He got up and wanted to get himself some hot water. When he opened the door, he saw Qi Boyan sitting on the bench in the aisle, holding his phone in his hand.
In May, it was not completely hot, and it was cold in the middle of the night.
Qi Boyan saw Ji Wangqi, and when he saw the thermos cup in his hand, he stood up, took the water cup in his hand, and said in a nasal voice, "I'll go get you some water."
The fingertips touched the back of Ji Wang's hand, and it was terribly cold.
When Qi Boyan brought the water back, Ji Wang had already closed the door of the ward and locked it.
Ji Wang was lying on the bed when he heard the slight knock on the door, the movement was very light, as if he was afraid of waking up the people in the next room. After a few taps, the movement stopped.
He closed his eyes and fell asleep again.
The next day, Ji Wang was woken up by the nurse's voice. The other party told him not to lock the door. If something happened in the middle of the night, the nurse had to find the key first when he came in, which was very troublesome.
Ji Wang apologized and asked the nurse if there was anyone else outside when he came over in the morning.
The nurse looked at his drip: "People? Who?"
Ji Wang shook his head: "No, I'll just ask."
In the afternoon, Ji Wang went to the hospital downstairs to bask in the sun. He was still in a bad mood, but he also began to persuade himself to look away and think about how to deal with Qi Boyan's affairs.
He was sitting on the bench, Qi Boyan came again, and found him with a guitar. Tong Ji Wang said that when he was thinking of him, he composed a song and wanted Ji Wang to listen to it.
Ji Wang didn't say he wanted to listen, nor did he say he didn't want to listen.
He just felt that Qi Boyan seemed to have changed, but in fact it remained the same. His attitude was to lightly expose those things as if they had never happened.
No matter how ridiculous the reason is, it has to be rationalized with some thought in order to deceive those who want to deceive.
As Qi Boyan said, his family is very complicated, and for one reason or another, he would kiss other alphas in that box and insult his boyfriend.
Even those scumbags who were caught raped in bed in film and television dramas would choose to tell coaxing lies to their lovers in the first place.
The lover is a little stupid and believes it.
Ji Wang wanted to believe it, but he wasn't stupid enough, and Qi Boyan didn't want to deceive him.
Qi Boyan sat on the other side of the bench and plucked the strings with his fingers. He might have a cold. The young man's clear voice was a little hoarse, but it had a different flavor.
Ji Wang finally glanced at Qi Boyan, looking at the handsome profile, soft long hair, moving melody and charming eyelashes.
He felt a hopeless heartbeat. A person he once loved so deeply made him so sad, but he couldn't choose not to love him immediately.
If only there was a switch in love, as long as it was turned off, all the feelings could be easily withdrawn.
If there is such a thing, Ji Wang is willing to exchange everything for it.
After Qi Boyan finished humming the melody, he said to Ji Wang, "Brother, what do you want to do in the future?"
Ji Wang ignored him, but Qi Boyan didn't care: "I want to be a singer, only sing what I want to sing, and then hide your name in every melody of mine."
Love words are very touching, but there is no temperature. No matter how sweet a fake thing is, it will be bitter in the mouth.
Qi Boyan felt that Ji Wang didn't want to talk, and he didn't care. He put down the guitar and took out a flower from his arms. He didn't know where to pick it. He hid it in his clothes for a while, and now he's dazed. of.
"It's like we've been together for so long, and I haven't given you flowers. It looked so good when I took it off, but why is it like this now?" Qi Boyan said to himself, and put the flowers in the middle of the bench. He and Ji Wang distance.
"It's my birthday soon, is there anything my brother wants to give me?"
On May 14, Qi Boyan's birthday, Ji Wang had started preparing a month in advance, a pair of rings carefully made by him, for which he fused the longevity lock left by his parents.
Now Ji Wang is sorry to his parents because he used their relics and won't give the ring away.