He didn't say a word for a long time on the first day of the first day, just poked a piece of meat at Zhou Chunyang.

Zhou Chunyang has made his words very clear.

In the first half of the first year, I didn't know how to answer.

Under such circumstances, the first thought that popped into his mind was to envy Zhou Chunyang.

No matter what Zhou Chunyang does or says, he will always be so confident and magnanimous. This is something he may never be able to do in his entire life. He suddenly envies Zhou Chunyang.

"Actually, I don't have to tell you so clearly," Zhou Chunyang said. "If I change someone, I'll just go and make a confession. If it doesn't work, it will be fine. If it doesn't work, I will pull it down."

First look at him.

"You're different," Zhou Chunyang sighed. "You said it took more than a month. You helped me twice, and even got injured. I have the best relationship with you in the dormitory."

Still looking at him the first time.

After slowly recovering, the first day of the first year finally returned to the current problem from the envy of Zhou Chunyang.

But he couldn't figure out how he felt right now.

He was suddenly a little disappointed with himself.

He has no friends since he was a child, and Yan Hang is a lot of "firsts" for him.

The first person to cover him, the first to help him fight, the first to know his tree hole, the first to take him home for dinner, the first to run with him every night ...

The first one that made him want to change himself a little bit.

The first person who let him see almost all the faces of Xiao Li's BBQ in the country.

There are too many, as if he lived like a single-threaded fool for the first ten years, with nothing at all. After Yan Hang appeared, he began to come into contact with real life.

Yan Hang is very important to him.

But he wasn't sure if this important thing was the same thing as "something" Zhou Chunyang said.

"How, how do you know," the first day of the first year was still holding a fork that poked a piece of meat, "he likes you, but doesn't like you."

"I don't know," Zhou Chunyang said. "I don't even know if he is. I just want to see you two... Anyway, just ask if it's true. If not, I'll apologize."

On the first day of the first day, he frowned, thinking about Zhou Chunyang's words very seriously.

He never thought whether Yan Hang would be the same person as Zhou Chunyang. Strictly speaking, he actually never thought that there would be a second "homosexual" in this world besides Zhou Chunyang.

So when he suddenly reacted, if Zhou Chunyang really asked, what if Yan Hang was really...

He couldn't help shivering when he thought of the contempt and disgust on his face when his brother said "homosexual, gay" to Zhou Chunyang.

Zhou Chunyang sighed: "I'm just..."

"No." Chu Yi said.

"Huh?" Zhou Chunyang was stunned.

Chu Chu put a handful of meat into his mouth: "No."

No matter if it's a little bit or not, it just doesn't work anyway, no one can say that to Yan Hang.

Zhou Chunyang looked at him without speaking for a long time.

On the first day of the first year of junior high school, he was a little embarrassed. He wondered if his "no" was inappropriate, or if it was inaccurate?

He could only lower his head and continue cutting the meat.

"Hey," Zhou Chunyang suddenly laughed, "Your expression startled me."

"What kind of expression, love?" Chu Yi touched his face.

"You're going to get up and hit me in the next second," Zhou Chunyang smiled and sighed, "Okay, if you say no, then you can't."

On the first day of the first day, I didn't know what expression I had just now. Maybe my mental activity was too intense and surging, and I couldn't put it down on my face.

He took a sip of his drink in embarrassment.

"The first day of the first year," Zhou Chunyang looked at him, "you are such an amazing person."

"Then what happened to you, how did you meet, passed away," said the first day, "ah."

Zhou Chunyang laughed for a long time: "Sometimes I think you are very simple, you can see through it at a glance, and sometimes I think that this is an illusion."

"Look at it more, try it with your eyes." The first day of the first year also smiled.

Chatting with Zhou Chunyang on the first day of the first year was not bad. This was the first time that Yan Hang had seen such a chat with people on the first day.

In his memory, he never spoke to anyone in the first year of junior high. The last two times he came with his classmates, he didn't speak much. Most of the time his classmates talked, he listened.

Just like that, Yan Hang felt that he had undergone a miraculous change, at least he could integrate into the circle of "classmates", and now seeing him and Zhou Chunyang chatting and laughing was really surprising to Yan Hang.

Somewhat relieved.

Some... unhappy.

When dinner time was almost over, the number of people in the restaurant finally began to slowly decrease, and they could only get in and out at first. Yan Hang supported the bar and breathed a sigh of relief.

Over there, Zhou Chunyang's parents and the first day of the new school finished their table and asked the waiter to pay.

Zhou Chunyang's father is a VIP, Yan Hang prepared two boxes of moon cakes, and asked the waiter to pack them and deliver them in person, and then deliver them to the door.

"Thank you Brother Hang." Zhou Chunyang walked at the end and smiled at him.

"You're welcome." Yan Hang smiled.

Watching their family of three get into the elevator, he turned around and walked back, and saw the first day of the first year standing awkwardly at the door of the restaurant.

"Sit inside, it's fine." Yan Hang said.

"Occupy one, one table." Chu Yi said.

"There are no more guests now," Yan Hang smiled, "it's fine for you to occupy three tables, as long as you don't fall asleep."

On the first day of the first day, he laughed, hesitated for a moment, and returned to the table where he was sitting before.

Yan Hang went over and poured him a cup of coffee and took it: "I probably still have a while."

"Don't worry," Chu Chu glanced at the coffee and lowered his voice, "Is that the six or sixty-eight cups?"

"Have you looked at the price of coffee?" Yan Hang lowered his voice exaggeratedly.

"I didn't look at it specially, it was mainly to scare me. If it frightened me, just remember it." Chu Yi said.

"Don't be afraid, this is the coffee priced by our employees," Yan Hang smiled, habitually wanting to reach out and scratch his head, remembering that he was in the restaurant and took it back, "I'll settle the bill, you just drink it. ."

"Actually, water is enough." Chu Yi said.

"Are you annoying?" Yan Hang clicked his tongue.

He didn't speak on the first day of the first day, he immediately lowered his head and took a sip from the cup, then frowned.

"Put sugar and milk." Yan Hang said.

"Oh." On the first day of the first day, he picked up the sugar bag next to him.

"Brother Hang," Zhang Chen came over and put today's work log in front of him, "Do you recognize your brother?"

"Yeah," Yan Hang replied, looking at the log, Zhang Chen would write the part she could help write every time, which made him a lot easier, "What's the matter?"

"At first glance, it's not my brother, nor is it a cousin," Zhang Chen said, "Little cool brother."

"Cool?" Yan Hang glanced at Zhang Chen.

"He's pretty cool and handsome, don't you think?" Zhang Chen said, "The taller you are, the more ruthless and prodigal you are, and you will dump a lot of foolishness."

Yan Hang smiled and said nothing.

He has heard more than one person describe the first day of the new year with words like this.

Sometimes he wondered if he should jump out of his memories of the first year of junior high school to take a good look at the child. No matter how he looked at it now, he still felt that the first year of junior high was still a little dog with drooping ears.

Occasionally, he felt mature, but only for a short while.

Is it really cool?

Really fierce?

Brother dog?

Yan Hang looked at the first day of the first year sitting in front of the table, holding a coffee cup in one hand and playing with his mobile phone in the other.

Still a child.

"You don't work, do you have a work meal?" I asked when I walked out of the hotel with him on the first day of the first day after get off work.

"Then don't you have to wait any longer? It will take ten minutes for a working lunch." Yan Hang said.

"Don't spend money," said the first day, "don't eat white, don't eat."

"I'm not really hungry," Yan Hang smiled and put his arm on his shoulder, "I can't eat anything when I'm very busy."

"You guys are so busy," said the first day of the first year, "I saw you, and I didn't stop or get off."

"It's fine in normal times, isn't it Golden Week now, there are a lot of tourists," Yan Hang stretched his waist and continued to support him on his shoulders, "I can't run at night... Let's go back for a walk and get some air. Just a workout."

"Okay." Chu nodded.

"Did you have the best relationship with Zhou Chunyang in the dormitory?" Yan Hang asked.

"I don't know," thought about it on the first day of the first year, "it's all good, okay."

"I think you two talk a lot." Yan Hang said.

"Well," glanced at him for the first time, "he's talkative."

"If you don't stutter, it's not necessarily a chatterbox." Yan Hang smiled.

"He." The first day insisted.

"Then who of us is the talker?" Yan Hang asked.

"You." Chu Yi said.

Yan Hang smiled and slapped his head hard twice: "My colleague said you were cool just now, but why is it cool, I really didn't see it."

"You, my colleague told me, did you?" asked the first day.

"Well, say you are cool and handsome." Yan Hang said.

He didn't speak on the first day of the first day, hey hey hey.

"What are you laughing at?" Yan Hang asked.

"No." On the first day of the first day of the first year, he continued to fool himself at the front.

Yan Hang could almost guess why he was so happy. He probably didn't experience the feeling of being mentioned by his friends' friends, classmates' friends, and friends' colleagues before the first day of the new year.

"There is a supermarket in front," Yan Hang said, "I'm going to buy some daily necessities."

"The community is right, the face is not there, is there?" At first glance, he looked at the front.

"This house has everything," Yan Hang said. "The one across from the community is a small supermarket."

"Oh." Chu nodded slightly.

There were quite a lot of people in the supermarket. He and Yan Hang were walking slowly among the rows of shelves. When the festival came, there were so many people even in the supermarket.

On the first day of the first day, looking at the various moon cakes in the aisle, he was a little lost.

Will the family be happy when they receive moon cakes? Will you call him and tell him if the moon cakes have been received?

Yan Hang stopped in front of the towel rack and glanced at the price of the towel for the first time. He had never used a towel worth dozens of dollars in his life.

"Isn't your hair and towel okay, okay?" He couldn't help but ask.

Although Yan Hang said that he didn't save any money and spent as much as he could, he still felt a little distressed on the first day of the new year.

"Towels are changed once a month," Yan Hang said. "It's more hygienic."

"Oh." Chu Yi had to answer.

Change towels every month? His towel probably needs to be changed every now and then.

Yan Hang took a pack of four: "Two for me and two for you."

The first day was stunned.

"If you use vermicelli, I will use blue." Yan Hang said.

"I'm blue." In the first day of the first year, he didn't even bother to ask why he bought him a towel, so he protested the color first.

"I want blue." Yan Hang said.

On the first day of the first day, he glanced at the shelf, took a pack of coffee bars and blue bars and put them in his hand.

"Then your blue coffee bar is mine." Yan Hang said.

"My coffee." Chu Yi said.

"Your hidden skill is to raise the bar?" Yan Hang looked at him.

The first day I laughed, not knowing why I did this.

Finally, Yan Hang put the bag back on the shelf and took a bag of four brown ones: "Is this all right?"

"The blue one seems good, look at it." Chu Chu whispered.

Yan Hang flipped through it for a while, and found probably the only package of four blue strips: "Are you satisfied?"

At the beginning, he nodded a little, obviously he didn't need a towel, but followed Yan Hang to pick a towel together. He was a little nervous, but he felt very happy.

After walking two steps, the phone rang in his pocket, he took it out and took a look, it was my aunt.

"Hello?" He answered the phone, "Auntie."

"When are you coming back? Your uncle can drive to pick you up when he is free these two days." My aunt said over there.

On the first day of the first day of the first year, stopped and opened mouth for a while, not knowing what to say.

Yan Hang looked back at him and asked softly, "Who?"

"Auntie," said the first day, covering the microphone, "ask me back, have you gone back?"

"Let's be honest, I don't want to go back." Yan Hang said softly.

"I'm not on vacation, I won't go back." Chu Yi said.

"Don't come back?" My aunt was a little surprised, "Aren't you going home for the Mid-Autumn Festival?"

"Yeah." Chu Yi responded.

Auntie sighed after a while: "I was worried that you would not be willing to go home... Did you tell your mother and grandmother that you would not go home?"

"No." Chu Yi said.

"Didn't you say?" My aunt was probably a little helpless, "Have you never been in contact with your family?"

"Yeah." Chu Yi bit his lip.

"Call home," the aunt hesitated, "your grandma was hospitalized a few days ago."

"Huh?" Chu Yi was stunned.

"I went to the hospital to have a look and said it was dizziness, but the doctor didn't find anything wrong, so I just observed it for two days," the aunt said, "You can call home to save your grandmother picking you up when you can. Back and forth."

"Hmm." Chu nodded slightly.

"If you really don't want to go back, don't go back," the aunt said. "I have time next month. I'll go see you with your uncle."

After calling aunt, stood there for a long time without moving.

He had probably been a little too happy during this time, even if he occasionally thought about his family and the past, it didn't affect his mood too much.

He was like a little sparrow that finally flapped its wings and flew up, and when it was fluttering happily, it was suddenly blown back to the ground by the wind.

A little scared.

If it's just a phone call home, he can handle it.

But now that my grandmother is hospitalized, even if my aunt said there was nothing wrong with it, he was afraid.

He may not be very filial. What he is afraid of is not whether his grandmother will get sick, but what he is afraid of is that he will be scolded by his grandmother and mother in this case.

This kind of fear seems to be carved into his bones, no matter how long it takes, it will not disappear.

He could almost imagine what his mother and grandma would say.

White-eyed wolf, as soon as you leave, you don't care about this family like your father, regardless of the lives of these people, why are you calling back to see if the people in this family are dead? You can rest assured that you will be notified when you commit suicide together...

"What's wrong?" Yan Hang squeezed lightly on his shoulder.

"My aunt said that my grandmother lived and was hospitalized." Chu Yi said.

"In hospital?" Yan Hang was stunned. "Is it serious? What's the disease?"

"I didn't check it, check it out," the first day of the first year frowned, "Watch it first, and observe it for two days."

"Then you can call home and ask about the situation," Yan Hang said. "If it doesn't work, go back and have a look."

On the first day of the first day, he looked up at him, and after a while, he whispered, "I don't dare."

"Huh?" Yan Hang looked at him.

"I don't dare," Chu Yi said, his voice trembling, and he squatted down beside the shelf slowly, "I don't dare..."

"The first day of the new year," Yan Hang also squatted down and patted his hand lightly behind his back, "Then I won't call, I won't call, and I won't go back."

"My mother will scold me," said the first day of the first year in a low voice, and he could hear that he was very uncomfortable. "My grandmother can also scold me."

"Come on when you scold," Yan Hang said, "Have you scolded less after so many years?"

On the first day of the first day of the new year, he squatted on the ground and hugged his legs, his chin resting on his knees.

Yan Hang tilted his head and looked into his eyes. He was not crying, but was stunned.

Just don't cry.

Yan Hang didn't speak anymore, squatted across from him and looked at him.

The first day of the first year seemed to return to the state in his memory, and it was even more uncomfortable for him than the first day of the first year in his memory, because at that time, he had already accepted the status quo of life, and he could close himself up and carry it. Live all the blows and horrors.

Now, on the first day of the new year, can no longer return to the mentality of calmly accepting everything before.

He was stronger, but also weaker.

"Let's go back first, and then think about what to do." Yan Hang reached out and poked his chin lightly, and suddenly found that the legs of the first year of junior high school were really long.

"Yeah." Chu Yi responded, but didn't move.

Yan Hang stood up and waited beside him. After a while, he slowly stood up on the first day of the new year.

"Let's go," Yan Hang put his arms around his shoulder, "I'll go get two more toothpastes and laundry detergent."

"Yeah." Chu nodded.

After taking all the things and then paying the bills, walked out of the supermarket.

"Have a taxi." Seeing him like this, Yan Hang probably didn't feel in the mood to stroll back.

Nod at first.

Yan Hang stopped three cars before finally one stopped. He put his things in the co-pilot and sat in the back seat with the first one.

When the car drove forward, Yan Hang sighed softly and looked out the window.

There were still a few people standing on the side of the road who stretched out their hands to take a taxi. Fortunately, they were one step ahead.

or……

Yan Hang saw a figure flash past behind a few taxi drivers, and then disappeared into the crowd.

It was dark at the moment, and there were many people at the entrance of the supermarket. He didn't see it very clearly, but the posture of walking on tiptoe reminded him suddenly of the man he saw in the restaurant today.

Dazzled?

Overreacting again?

When got home, still had nothing to say on the first day of the first year, and sat on the sofa in a daze.

Yan Hang went to take a shower, and when he came out, he changed from sitting to sitting cross-legged, still looking a little gloomy.

"Actually, it's not a big deal," Yan Hang sat next to him. "If you don't want to make this call, don't call. If you're worried, just call and ask. What are you afraid of being scolded, you are a dog brother now."

Smile at first.

"Some things are more fearful the more you think about them." Yan Hang said.

"I'm afraid I'll be called, so tell me to go back." Chu Yi said.

"That's the same. If you want to go back, go back, if you don't want to go back, don't go back. If you really want to go back, it will only take a day or two," Yan Hang said, "You still have to go to class."

"I..." Chu Yi raised his head and looked at him.

"What?" Yan Hang got up and took a bottle of iced black tea from the refrigerator and handed it to him.

do not wanna go Home.

I don't want to see grandma and mother, don't want to see grandfather, don't want to see that home where everything is dilapidated and hopeless.

But what don't want more is... to be separated from Yan Hang.

On the first day of the first day, he was holding the bottle of iced black tea. For some reason, he suddenly thought that if he went home, he would not see Yan Hang for a few days, and he suddenly panicked.

Although he is here now, he doesn't see Yan Hang every day, and sometimes he doesn't see each other for a week.

But it feels completely different.

It was as if he would be thrown back to the old days in an instant, those days when he grilled all kinds of Xiao Li every day, and his heart was never at ease.

He felt that he was a little magical, and the point of worry and fear would suddenly deviate.

For example, he is actually worried that if he goes back and then comes back, Yan Hang will suddenly disappear.

For example, he doesn't know if he "has something" to Yan Hang, but he is worried that others "have something" to Yan Hang...

The brain doesn't always seem to work very well.

"Hey," Yan Hang kicked him, "what are you thinking?"

"Zhou Chunyang said..." The first day turned to look at Yan Hang.

After Zhou Chunyang said the three words, he was surprised to find that his point was still on the wrong side, and he had already wandered here without calling home.

"Zhou Chunyang?" Yan Hang frowned, "What does Zhou Chunyang have to do with this?"

"Zhou Chunyang, he said, tell him," he stopped on the first day of the first day, whenever he wanted to take off his tongue and put it on his lap to stroke it, "say he... likes you."

"What?" Yan Hang probably didn't respond.

"He likes you," said the first day.

"Oh," Yan Hang replied after a while, "I guessed it."