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Chapter 64 The person who hurt An An was...
It's raining heavily outside.
Qi Anan shivered a little and said in a low voice, "Okay, I'll go out and kneel," she raised her head in a hurry, "How long will it take you to let me go?"
Jiang Lu didn't answer. With obvious disgust in his eyes, he stood up and walked back to the desk, as if he didn't want to give her another look.
Qi Anan walked outside with empty eyes. She had no umbrella and let the rain pour on her body. Slowly turned around towards the direction of the door, and slowly knelt down.
The sky was dull in color, and the heavy rain continued from morning to night without a pause in between.
It was dark at night, when Jiang Lu came out of the building with an umbrella, Qi An'an was still kneeling on the steps outside, her lips were white and pink, and her body was very weak, as if she would faint in the next moment.
Seeing that Jiang Lu walked past without looking sideways, and didn't even pay attention to her, Qi Anan got up anxiously, but fell to the ground unsteadily, she quickly reached out to touch Jiang Lu's trousers.
I touched it, but couldn't hold it.
But Jiang Lu stopped.
Qi An'an was soaked all over, looked at him embarrassedly in the rain, and stretched out his hand hard: "Are you relieved?"
Jiang Lu took a step back, and Qi An'an's hand fell weakly into the puddle on the ground.
His eyes were extremely cold, he tilted his head slightly, and the smile on the corner of his mouth was cold: "No."
...
When Jiang Lu opened his eyes, it was raining outside.
It was the same sound of rain, but at the moment it was not as cold as in the dream. He was lying on the soft bed with a warm body in his arms.
But his heart was extremely cold, and it fell straight, straight down.
He seemed to be stuck in the dream just now and couldn't get out. He stretched out his hand to hug An An countless times, but he was disappointed countless times.
He punched his face hard, but to no avail.
He wanted him to wake up and open his eyes to take a good look. How could he treat An An like this? !
But all in vain.
The heart in his chest seemed to have been shattered into powder by the dream just now, and he couldn't even piece it together.
He has always been afraid of his nightmare, for fear that the scene in the dream will become a reality, so he acted ruthlessly and perverted all the people who might threaten him, but finally found out that the person who hurt An An ——
Jiang Lu closed his eyes, it was himself.
is himself.
Jiang Lu looked down at the girl sleeping in his arms, her sleep was still so innocent and charming, she leaned on his arms with trust, as if this was the safest place in the world.
He blinked, tears running down the bridge of his nose and sinking into the pillow.
If it was just a dream, he would not be as desperate as he is now. He would tell himself that this was an absurd dream that could never and never happen in reality.
But what is terrifying is that from that moment, Jiang Lu realized that everything was not just a dream. He had a vague memory: he remembered that he once sat on that sofa and looked down at the person kneeling at his feet. , Zeng said to her indifferently and softly.
……Why?
Why did they end up like this? This is the only person he cares about in this world, the only light in his dark life, all the softness and warmth in his life are given by An An, how could he treat her like that?
An An smiled at him, and he could die for her.
His baby is so good, but why did he end up being an executioner?
Jiang Lu's lips trembled, tears rolling down silently.
His breathing became calm, and Qi Anan was dazed and a little sober: "Jiang Lu, what's wrong with you... are you cold... why are you shaking..."
She was so sleepy that she closed her eyes and reached out to grope for the corner of the quilt, lifted it up, and helped Jiang Lu's back cover tightly.
Jiang Lu felt Qi An'an's warm little hands helping him tuck the quilt, but the fear and pain made him completely speechless at this moment.
Qi An'an patted Jiang Lu unconsciously, stretched out his hand to touch his hand, and frowned when he touched it, but he opened his eyes halfway this time: "Jiang Lu...why are your hands so cold? You bring the other one too."
Half asleep, her voice had a sweet smile: "This time it's my turn to cover your hands..."
Jiang Lu didn't dare to move. He was afraid that Qi An'an would wake up completely if he made a big move. She would definitely find herself crying. When asked, he couldn't answer at all.
Just like that, Jiang Lu quietly got up after Qi Anan clenched his hand and fell asleep again.
Jiang Lu stood in front of the mirror in the bathroom, looking at his pale face under the warm yellow light.
He remembered that the middle-aged woman who sold lamps said to him: "This color is good, and it is not harmful to the eyes. The light of this color is very warm at home. Your lover didn't come with you today, so you should buy this. She'll love it."
At that time, he also felt very good, but now standing under the light, his face is still like a ghost, which makes him shudder.
Before falling asleep, his heart was still full of tranquility and happiness, but at this moment he fell from the clouds to hell.
The vague memory in his mind seemed to be clearer again, Jiang Lu could even remember the sound of water splashes under his feet when he walked past Qi An'an.
He raised his hand slowly, and lightly touched the surface of the mirror with his fingertips. He looked at himself in the mirror and showed a bleak smile.
"Am I crazy..."
...
After waking up the next morning, Qi Anan found that there was no one around.
Jiang Lu got up so early, Qi Anan glanced at the time, it was only after six o'clock, but he was not around, and she couldn't sleep, so she simply got up and went downstairs.
Jiang Lu was sitting on the sofa in the living room, his eyes were a little empty, he stared blankly in front of him, not knowing what he was thinking, when he heard the movement, he looked up and stood up from the sofa at once.
"An An..."
As soon as he spoke, Jiang Lu realized that his voice was hoarse. After clearing his throat, he continued: "An An, why do you get up so early? I haven't made breakfast yet, so I'll go now."
"Hey wait," Qi An'an held Jiang Lu, "what's the matter? Why are you looking so bad? Are you sick?"
Jiang Lu has a faint blue mark right now, his face is pale, and his condition is very poor, and he is completely different from yesterday.
Qi An'an looked distressed and reached out to touch Jiang Lu's forehead. He didn't have a fever.
"Do I look bad?" Jiang Lu took Qi An'an's hand and smiled at her, "It's okay, maybe it's just too early to wake up, I'll take a shower and eat after a while."
He sat dry in the middle of the night, thinking that his face should not be much better. He just didn't expect Qi An'an to wake up so early, he should have sorted himself out in advance.
Qi Anan didn't think that Jiang Lu's state didn't look like he was physically ill, but rather like he had suffered a blow. Although Jiang Lu had occasionally been caught by her when she was very worried in the past, it was by no means in this state today.
Qi Anan stopped Jiang Lu from letting him go: "Jiang Lu, is something wrong? If you have something to do, don't hide it from me, I'm not a child, I can take it with you."
Jiang Lu felt a sharp pain in his heart, the more tender Qi An'an cared, the more he felt almost suffocated.
Jiang Lu took a deep breath, buried all his emotions deep in his heart, and gave Qi Anan a gentle smile that was the same as usual: "It's really okay, Anan, don't worry."
He bit the tip of his tongue secretly, tasting the bloody taste. He refuses to accept his fate, whether it is a dream or a memory of a previous life, he will not repeat the same mistakes in this life.
...
For several days, Jiang Lu remained silent, silently thinking about how to deal with it.
Unexpectedly, the situation is getting worse.
In the past few days, almost as soon as he fell asleep, he would fall into nightmares, and even Jiang Lu realized that he was no longer carrying out these dreams from the perspective of a bystander. He became the person in the dream.
Every time I wake up, the memory of the past will become clear little by little. He vaguely remembered how he shot Qi Yan, and also recalled his indifference to Qi An'an.
The panic in his heart is getting deeper and deeper, and the catastrophe is right in front of him, as if no matter how he struggles, he can't escape the palm of God.
"I probably understand what you said. Let me take the liberty to ask, does your family have a history of mental illness?"
Facing the doctor who was wearing a white lab coat with a kind face, Jiang Lu moved his lips: "I don't know."
The doctor nodded: "Okay, as far as your data is concerned, there is nothing wrong with your mental state, and all the indicators are normal. As for the dream and the memory you mentioned, if you don't mind, can I chat? ?"
Jiang Lu didn't speak. The doctor cleared his throat and asked tentatively, "Actually, people often say that they think every day and have dreams at night. There is no scientific basis for this statement. People's dreams are very complicated, and there are all kinds of strange things. Dreams are not enough to support anxiety, and it is not uncommon for a person to have the same dream over and over again, but it is too decisive to judge that the dream must happen in reality.”
Jiang Lu was silent for a while, then said in a low voice, "What if. How can I explain the memory in my mind now?"
"It may be caused by your work pressure, or it may be the environment in which you have lived since you were a child, which has had a certain impact on you personally. But it may not necessarily be called memory, more precisely a certain kind of spirituality. Illusion. Besides, your test results are not abnormal, you don’t need to worry too much…”
The doctor smiled, made a relaxed gesture and continued to say the following words: "...suddenly one day, I will lose control and do something that goes against my heart. This is impossible. Quantitative change will lead to qualitative change, and the development of everything must be There's a process, and even if the thing you're worried about will happen eventually, there's always an omen, there's a process. It's your test result, and any doctor who sees it will think you're healthy."
Jiang Lu looked down at the checklist handed over by the doctor. He had already understood it before he came, and he understood that he really had no problem.
His eyes wandered a little. Such a tall man sat in a chair, showing a kind of helplessness and fragility: "But... even if it's not a memory... it's a spiritual fantasy, how could I have such a fantasy?"
The doctor said, "Don't be so nervous. With all due respect, you love your wife a lot, don't you?"
Jiang Lu's empty eyes condensed for a moment, his eyes gradually fell into reality, and the corners of his lips curved into some indiscernible arcs, he corrected: "Fiancée."
The doctor smiled and said, "Worry comes from love, it's because you have too much emotion for this emotion, so when you have a bad dream, your anxiety will be greater than that of ordinary people, and you will be more Worrying about the dream itself has created a series of vicious circles. Relax, you'll be fine, and if you're really worried, you can come back for a checkup after a while."
Before Jiang Lu left, the doctor reminded: "If this kind of situation still occurs, I recommend you to see a psychologist."
...
"Sister Yu Lin, has Jiang Lu been in trouble at work recently?"
After living together with Jiang Lu, Qi An'an became more and more free, and she was almost as busy with the thesis. She went to the tutor's office for an internship, but as the New Year was approaching, her time was relatively free, and there was basically nothing to do every day. The tutor always gave her love leave.
Qi Anan came back early that day, and after thinking about it, he went to Jianglu Company to deliver him a meal. Just as she happened to meet Yu Lin at the door, Qi Anan stopped her and asked her about her recent worries.
"I rely on An'an. You're here to deliver food to the boss again. Why is the boss so lucky? I found a baby like you." Yu Lin didn't take Qi An'an's problems to heart yet, her eyes only turned to Qi An'an's hand. Look at the lunch box.
Qi Anan smiled: "I made it myself this time. Anyway, I haven't had much to do recently, so I just learned it at home. If it's delicious, I'll bring it to you next time."
"No, you don't have to bring it to me, I dare not." Yu Lin immediately waved her hand and refused. She still knew a little about her boss. Anyone who made a madness would eat the jealousy, and she would not dare to eat ten dogs. The food made by the beloved baby.
Qi Anan looked left and right, and asked again in a low voice: "Sister Yu Lin, has the company encountered any problems recently? Is it serious? If it is convenient, can you give me a little mention?"
She doesn't know much about these aspects, but Jiang Lu's recent emotions must be wrong. Although his face is as gentle and calm as before, she is his closest person. He can't hide his unhappiness from himself.
Qi An'an was afraid that Jiang Lu would have difficulties and didn't say it. If it was really difficult, she could quietly mention it to Qi Yan. Qi Yan was always better than her, and being able to help Jiang Lu would be better than being able to handle it alone. . But asking Jiang Lu definitely couldn't come up with anything, so Qi Anan had to ask Yu Lin.
Yu Lin looked inexplicable: "Isn't there anything in the company recently?" She thought about it and said happily, "I'm going to talk about the next two businesses. I have to say that our company is really good."
Qi An'an gave a thoughtful "Oh".
"What's the matter? Is the boss in a bad mood recently? I don't think he's any different from normal. Could it be that he slapped you?" Yu Lin's heart was alarming, Jiang Lu was being timid?
"No," Qi Anan immediately denied with a smile, "how could it be."
Yu Lin nodded: "I also think it's impossible. It's fine. Don't worry about him. Isn't he like that every day? Leng Ruobingshuang is taciturn. I only smiled when I saw you."
Although Yu Lin's performance was calm, Qi An'an still felt uneasy. She walked up and hesitated, instead of going straight to Jiang Lu, she turned a corner and knocked on Yu Tianyang's door first.
"Hey? An An, why did you come here?" Yu Tianyang looked up from the desk, "Wow, you actually came to bring me food!"
"What is it for you? It's for Jiang Lu. I came here to ask you something." Qi An'an was too familiar with Yu Tianyang.
Yu Tianyang glanced at his mouth and snorted coldly: "I knew it was for Jiang Lu, so I'm teasing you. What's the matter?"
Qi Anan said with consideration: "I feel that Jiang Lu is not in a good mood recently. The two of you have a good relationship. Has he mentioned anything to you?"
"Is he in a bad mood? I think he's alright, isn't he always like this? There's nothing inappropriate." Yu Tianyang was soured by the sentence that the two of you had a good relationship, and thought about it for a while. , I think that anyway, his relationship with Jiang Lu is okay.
However, this good relationship reminded him, "If Jiang Lu has something to do, just ask him if he is wrong?"
It was really a mistake to come to him, Qi Anan sighed, Jiang Lu's character is like reporting good news but not bad, when did he show her his troubles?
"I asked him. He was afraid that I would be worried, and he would definitely not tell me."
"I think you're thinking too much, really," Yu Tianyang snorted, but didn't take it to heart at all: "An An, have you studied too much in your major that you feel Jiang Lu's emotions? Don't be nervous, nothing has happened recently. I promise, Jiang Lu is still as usual, clear-headed and decisive, no problem."
Forget it, Qi Anan thought, she couldn't ask anything from him, so she should go to Jiang Lu.
Jiang Lu had instructed Qi An'an before that if she didn't need to knock on the door, she would just push the door and enter, because sometimes he was so concentrated that he might not notice the knock.
Once, because of this, Qi Anan waited for him outside for nearly 20 minutes, and he almost felt bad for him.
But before Qi Anan came, she would still knock on the door. If Jiang Lu didn't ask to come in, she would just push the door and go in. This time Qi Anan waited for a while and felt that Jiang Lu probably didn't hear it, so she pushed the door directly. door.
The office is very big, Qi Anan saw Jiang Lu at a glance, he was standing in front of the floor-to-ceiling window on the phone.
It's just that the voice is very low, and a few words are vaguely floating over.
"Ok……"
"Yes, no improvement..."
"Next week... next Thursday..."
When the door was halfway open, there was a little friction, Jiang Lu frowned when he heard the movement, and looked back a little unhappily.