End of the world (1)

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date="2020-11-09"

title="End of the world (1)"

weight="103889"

series = ["Falling into the Abyss"]

mode = "manual"

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Ethan held Samuel's corpse, which had become cold a little bit, and his heart was filled with hollow pain.

One more person is missing, who is important to him.

His connection with the world is getting less and less, and those bonds that keep him are broken one by one, making him feel like he is in a dreamland.

The sound of burning fire, explosions, the crawling sound of humanoid insects approaching the ground, and the screams of the benefactors screaming in all directions, all became meaningless echoes in his ears, as if they were separated from him. With a thick layer of cotton, he couldn't attract his attention.

He felt very sad.

He didn't even know why Samuel entered the forbidden city. Although they were friends, he knew almost nothing about Samuel.

He never asked Samus any questions, never asked about his childhood life, never about his experience of boxing, never asked what music he liked to listen to, never asked who he admired the most. Similarly, Samuel never asked him. This seems to be some kind of unwritten rule in the forbidden city. People will not understand each other, will not become friends like ordinary people outside the city, just like they are afraid of connecting life in the city with the outside. And Ethan always felt that it was impolite to ask personally about such things, and they would always have the opportunity to get to know each other.

As a result, even though they depended on each other in the city, even though they were born and died together, and experienced despair and pain together, he still knew nothing about him in the end.

Ethan gently placed Samuel on the ground, and the crowd ran around him, the hot air blowing the hair on his forehead. He closed Samus's eyes tenderly and wiped the dirt off his cheeks pityingly. This omega is tough throughout his life, unwilling to bow his head to anyone or succumb to fate. No alpha has ever ruled his fate, and no one has seen the despair and fragility in his heart. Even Ethan did not see it. So he did not find Samuel's heart eroded by hatred and pain, nor did he see his soul shattering little by little.

Ethan leaned down and pressed a kiss on Samuel's forehead. Then slowly stood up. He saw Little Alpha cuddling up with a certain affection, forming a circle around his body, enclosing Samuel's body in the middle, protecting him like a city wall. Ethan didn't know whether it was the nature of the male giant worm to protect the giant worm queen who was about to be born from the corpse, or the soul of Schneider that continued in the body of the worm, tenderly and sadly caring for his former lover.

Tanisel stood looking at him in the mist, placing a hand on his shoulder. Ethan grabbed the hand and murmured, "All I have is you."

Tanisel did not speak, and the hand on his shoulder tightened slightly.

Chen Zeng is dead, and the thousand or so individuals who had been distracted instantly fell apart in an instant. They rushed into the ruins of the city like headless flies, into the black tide of humanoid insects. Some were desperately limp in place, chanting prayers asking God to forgive them. Ethan felt very tired looking at all this. Now in this universe, apart from Tanisel, there is no longer anything he misses.

He turned around and left the city in a daze. Behind him, Little Rafal let out a long cry, seeming to say goodbye to him. He is about to take the newly born queen into the ground and create their new kingdom inside the earth.

Numerous humanoid insects were wriggling beside him and Tanisel. They seemed to be floating in a black ocean, unknowingly being rushed to the unknown shore. He came to a high sand dune, under his feet, countless bloated black insects were worshipping him, the sky was dark clouds hanging down, only a ray of golden dawn appeared on the distant horizon.

Ethan looked at this deserted planet, at the countless neighing insects under his feet, suddenly wondering where he was.

"Come with me." Tanisel said, "I have a spaceship. Let's leave here together and go to Armonia."

Armonia, the distant heaven that doesn't care about the world.

Can he really go? Can you really forget what happened here and go with Tanisel? He turned his head, green eyes with a hint of hesitation. The priest raised his hand and stretched out his shoulder, put the palm of his hand on the back of his head and gently rubbed his forehead with his forehead slightly forward, "Let the Earth Alliance and the God of Entropy get out, we can live together ."

Really?

Can you really be happy?

"But... I'm a monster..." Ethan closed his eyes, his voice trembling.

"Monsters are only relative, in my opinion, they are monsters."

Ethan did not ask who they were referring to, but these words made him almost want to laugh and cry.

He finally nodded, "Okay, let's go."

Tanisel's spacecraft was moored not far away, a long-distance spacecraft that looked a little worn out, and seemed to be scrapped after several more curvature flights. He followed the priest in, watched the priest set the course on the console, and listened to the uncomfortable tremor of the spacecraft, and then roared into the air. The earth gradually moved away in the projection, and gradually turned into a beautiful blue gem. Then they entered the sleeping cabin together. The priest kissed his forehead and said to him: See you in a year. Then he slowly closed the hatch and started the sleep program.

The year spent in dormancy was like a flick of a finger. When Ethan was awakened by the master, he was not even sure whether he just fell asleep or just woke up. He woke up little by little in the gentle voice of the master's brain, and a mechanical arm massaged his limbs that had not been used for a year, making him sigh comfortably. He put on his bathrobe and saw that the dormant room next door was empty. An ominous fear made him suddenly cold. He fell into a panic, before he could even wear his shoes, and ran out of the dormant room barefoot.

He shouted Tanisel's name in the empty corridor, his heart beating wildly in his chest. He didn't know how helpless he was when he was afraid, he was not at all like the man feared by the entire Earth Alliance. His hands and feet were cold and trembling, he looked over from room to room, knowing that he entered the lounge and heard a familiar voice, "Ethan? What's wrong with you?"

He turned his head and saw that Tanisel seemed to have just taken a bath, with a bath towel around his neck and a cup of coffee in his hand.

Ethan immediately experienced the entire cycle from death to rebirth. He rushed over, hugged the priest, and almost knocked the coffee cup off. The priest hurriedly stabilized his body and looked at Ethan, who suddenly embraced so passionately. But immediately after he seemed to understand something, he gently rubbed Ethan's hair, "Well, isn't I here?"

Ethan smelled his body, waiting for his unobservable heartbeat to finally calm down. But the body was still trembling, I don't know if it was because of the cold. He forced himself to let go of the priest, but Tanisel would not let him go. "Why are you trembling? Is it because of the cold?" He seemed to want to warm Ethan with his own body temperature, the firm touch, and Ethan sighed with satisfaction.

"I'm fine." Ethan whispered.

Tanisel then let go of him, then took off his robe and put it on Ethan's shoulder, and said to him, "Do you feel uncomfortable?"

Ethan shook his head.

"hungry?"

"I... don't seem to feel hungry anymore..."

"Are you hungry, or want to eat raw meat?"

"..."

"It's okay, I guessed it a long time ago, so I prepared some in the boat." Tanisel shrugged indifferently, then suddenly pretending to be a gentleman with one hand in front and the other behind Ethan, "Then , Charming Mr. Eldridge, can you enjoy dinner with you?"

Ethan couldn't help laughing, and snorted. He can't remember the last time he laughed like this.

In the next few days, Ethan had the happiest period of his life.

There were only two of them in the spacecraft. They were like a couple who had just fallen in love, cooking together, watching movies together, and snuggling together to watch the vast starry sky outside. He told the priest about his childhood experience, took the memory of being locked into the closet by his father as a joke, and hummed his mother's favorite song to him. Tanisel would hug him tightly from behind, put his chin on his shoulder, listen carefully, and occasionally stroke his arm with pity.

The spacecraft landed at the ferry of Armonia. It was a very primitive and beautiful planet, strikingly similar to the Earth when it was young. There are lush vegetation everywhere, and the sea is still indigo blue that has not been polluted. People there are still riding vehicles that require wheels, and strange-looking animals often appear in the forest beside the road.

Tanisel took him to the beach, where there was a small house with a red roof. In the distance, the peacock blue sea rolled with plain white skirts, and seagulls soared in the sky and called. On the sea level in the distance, a huge red sun was slowly sinking, and the purple clouds in the sky rolled, like veil scattered all over the sky, really beautiful.

Ethan stood dazedly in front of the hut.

"This is our new home." Tanisel said with a smile, "Do you like it?"

Ethan was motionless, as if stunned. After a long time, he finally murmured, "I like..."

Tanisel stepped forward first and opened the white door. He looked back at Ethan, smiling like the setting sun, "Come on."

But Ethan shook his head.

Tanisel was stunned, "What's the matter?"

Ethan looked at him with a blank stare, as if he had lost his soul.

Tanisel frowned slightly. "You don't like it?"

"Like..." Ethan's voice somehow brought despair, "But... it's not true..."

Tanisel's expression became a little stiff at that moment. He blinked in confusion and looked at Ethan.

"Did you know, when I was a child, I used to imagine that I had a house built by the sea, just like this one, with a red roof and white walls."

Tanisel became even more confused. "Isn't that great?"

"All this is what I want... I imagined... But..." Ethan closed his eyes in pain and despair, "Ammonia has no seagulls."

After this sentence, suddenly, all the sounds between heaven and earth disappeared.

In front of him, Tanisel suddenly stopped moving. He seemed to have really become a doll, looking at him with a dull look.

Then everything started to melt.

Tanisel, his Tanisel, melted in front of him like a wax figure, melting into an indistinct flesh-colored thing. And that house, as if built with frost, suddenly fell apart.

Everything between heaven and earth becomes as false as the setting of a movie. Ethan felt it was difficult to breathe, and he covered his throat with his hands, struggling to hold his breath.

How could it be, how could it be, so many days, those vivid moments of cuddling each other, those carefree chats and laughs, are all so real.

He turned around and saw it.

In the misty fog, huge and ugly monsters seemed to fill the whole world. Where it was the head, an extremely terrifying and ugly red tentacle was waving in the sky.

He had searched for Nyarlathotep for a long time, and finally showed up.

"My stupid child." An ancient and sinister voice resounded in his mind. "Don't you like the dreams I wove for you?"

Everything in this illusion had been dreamed of before. It is made up of wishes buried in his subconscious. Everything he saw was something in his own mind. He actually spent a year in his mind.

At this moment, Ethan has already suffered too much, and the world has never made your dream come true, let you experience happiness, and then tell you that everything is not really cruel. He lost his original courage to fight his so-called "biological father",

He slumped on the ground, black tears crisscrossing his face, "Why...why do you want to..."

"I wanted to make it easier for you. Wouldn't it be okay to stay here forever with the one you love?" the voice asked, "Why bother?"

"Why... I have already planned to promise you... Why!!!" Ethan yelled unwillingly. He wanted to release the tentacles behind him, but found that he could not move.

The voice said in his mind, "Silly boy, do you think you just have to agree with your lips? There is still hope in your heart. Under such circumstances, if the core of the universe comes, your spirit will be torn to pieces, you The demise of will be extremely painful. Therefore, I wanted to weave a beautiful dream for you, so that your spirit can stay here forever and live the life you dream of. You can be with the person you want, and at the same time , The core of the universe will occupy your body."

The tone that seemed to be disappointed with his own child turned Ethan's original despair into a flame of anger. He struggled to stand up and shouted at the huge ancient god, "You bastard!!! You took Tanisel away!!! You give him back to me!!!"

The opposite Fuxing was silent, as if he hadn't heard his cry.

Ethan clenched his fist tightly and said word by word, "As long as you let him come back, I am willing to accept the core of the universe!!!"

A sigh came from the distant sky.

A sigh that traveled through time and space.

"My poor child. Tanisel is not in my hands. He has disappeared in this universe, and I can't do anything. Your only chance to meet him again is after Assatos arrives. Only then, you can no longer feel To his existence."

Ethan was stunned, but he refused to believe it. He knew that Nyarlathotep was the god of fraud, and he didn't believe his words.

"You lied to me! I saw it! I saw that the hands took Tanisel away!!!"

"If I really have him in my hand, is it necessary to use these illusions to deceive you now?" The giant's figure began to fade away, but his regretful voice was still shaking.

"My child, you rejected the path of hope I gave you. Now there is only a path to despair. You have no worries in this world. What is the point of living like this?"

As the voice dissipated, Ethan opened his eyes.

He was still standing on the sand dunes. Under his feet, countless bloated black insects were worshipping him. The black clouds in the sky were hanging down, and only a ray of golden dawn appeared on the distant horizon.

Time has not passed.

He turned his head, there was no Tanisel behind him.

There will never be Tanisel again.

He finally had nothing left.

The author has something to say: I finally finished the homework temporarily, I hope this week's homework will not be too sick...

So there are about 10,000 words and it will be over~ Thanks to the little angels who have always supported me. Although this article is very cold, I don’t feel cold at all with you. I will offer my caution again~~~