Chapter 80

Cheng Jiqing was sitting in the car with the heater turned on, and there was a thin layer of mist on the glass.

The words that Tang Jia called her to stop before going downstairs rang in her ears again.

"Cheng Jiqing, maybe Bai Xin's feelings for you are deeper than you imagined, and deeper than she herself imagined. She has suffered from depression for a long time, and the last time you separated, she had already had a tendency to attack.I know it's selfish, if you've made up your mind, if you can... use a gentler way."

Cheng Jiqing closed his eyes, put his hands on the steering wheel, lowered his head, and touched his forehead to the cold white jade bodhi.

She decided to draw blood for medicine, and decided to terminate the agreement with Yi Xin, all of which she did very simply.

But when she saw the background of the chat with Bai Xin, and saw the photo of Bai Xin kissing her, Tang Jia's words took on a concrete look - she remembered that time Bai Xin came to Jiang City.

I didn't eat well, and was shivering from the cold, haggard and fragile.

Seeing this, she simply felt heartache and distress, as well as deep regret.

Because they're not supposed to be like this.

Bai Xin has feelings for her, she knows, how could she not know.

So she knew that once the news of the refusal was sent out, the people on the other end would also be very painful.

Admittedly, she couldn't be completely ruthless.

And she wanted quick sword cuts through tangled hemp, but found that she was in pain when cutting. Before meeting Bai Xin, she thought she was a decisive person, but now she suddenly understands that not everything in this world can be cut at the same time.Generalize it.

Therefore, she chose a word that was less cruel to herself and Bai Xin - to separate.

Not break up, or divorce.

The buzzing and vibrating cell phone on her lap brought back her painful thoughts.

Cheng Jiqing's heart moved slightly, and he had a premonition to tell her who the caller was.

Picking it up, the familiar words rolled over her eyes and burned.

She took it.

Bai Xin's sobbing voice made her throat choke.

Before waiting for the other side to say anything, Cheng Jiqing said in a low voice, "I'm coming here now."

She sent the message in advance because she was afraid that if she said that in person, it would make each other feel more uncomfortable, so she left a buffer time.

Arrived at Nan Jing.

The snow outside was increasing, falling on the glass and making a 'da da' sound.

When Cheng Jiqing walked down, the footprints on the ground were deep and deep.

There is a black footprint on the white, and it needs a bigger snowfall to cover that black footprint without a trace.

The porch door opens.

The heater in the room ran out, and she heard the movement of the chair in contact with the ground.

Then there are steps.

Cheng Jiqing walked in and closed the door.

Bai Xin was standing next to the Peninsula, wearing an autumn and winter pink nightdress, her hair was loose, and her eyes were red and swollen. After seeing her, they gathered fog again.

I haven't seen him for a week, and his face is much thinner.

Bai Xin was the first to speak: "I know you are very angry now, I know I shouldn't hide it from you, I shouldn't hurt you again and again, I shouldn't use you, and I shouldn't believe your feelings... I know I did something wrong,You can scold me, beat me, whatever."

She took two steps towards the entrance, and stood eagerly in front of Cheng Jiqing: "But don't leave me, Cheng Jiqing."

Cheng Jiqing wanted to calm down his voice, but when he opened his mouth, he found that his throat was extremely dry.

She slowed down: "Bai Xin, we will be very sad if we continue to be together. You are afraid that I will leave, and I am afraid that there will be a next time. It is wrong to be in pain. You see, you never liked to cry before,But now I'm always crying."

"There will be no next time, Cheng Jiqing, I will never lie to you again. I swear." Bai Xin took a step forward.

Cheng Jiqing looked at the tears on Bai Xin's cheeks, breathing heavily, she said slowly, "Don't cry."

She raised her hand and gently wiped it off with the back of her finger. She was burned like lava. She didn't hesitate any longer: "You can live here, and I'll come to pick up things in two days... the agreement..."

From Bai Xin's point of view, this gesture was as gentle as usual, but he said the coldest words.

When Bai Xin heard the last sentence, she was a little out of breath. She held onto Cheng Jiqing's hand to wipe her tears: "Chengcheng, you want time, you want to be quiet, I promise, but don't be so cruel to me."..."

She stroked Cheng Jiqing's hand to her heart, crying uncontrollably: "It hurts too much, it hurts too much."

Cheng Jiqing's eyes were hot, and her vision became hazy. She felt the blunt knife scratching her internal organs, but she knew that it was impossible to move forward at this time.

"Bai Xin, if it continues, it will make our relationship worse. Is it okay for you?"

Bai Xin's whole body was shocked.

Cheng Jiqing's eyes trembled slightly, and he moved his hand away from her heart.

Bai Xin bit her lip, with tears in her eyes, for a long moment, she said:

"Everything is fine. I promise you to separate temporarily, but I don't agree to divorce."

Bai Xin knew that that piece of paper couldn't trap Cheng Jiqing, and if Cheng Jiqing insisted on getting a divorce, he might not even care about property at all.

Cheng Jiqing never cared about these things from the beginning to the end.

But now she needs the tie of this piece of paper, when Cheng Jiqing has made up his mind to separate from her, she needs this tie.

To her, it was no longer a piece of paper.

If Cheng Jiqing refused to leave even this little bit to her, she would really have nothing.

Her hope was gone.

"I promise you everything, but divorce is not allowed, Chengcheng...don't be so cruel, okay?"

Cheng Jiqing looked at Bai Xin's eyes, the red and swollen eyes were still beautiful, even fascinating, she saw the hard struggle deep in the pupils.

She was never really bound by the paper.

Although there was a reason for self-help when she agreed to get married, it was more because that person was Bai Xin, and because she didn't want to see Bai Xin get hurt.

She is afraid of death, but her bondage is never life and death.

It has always been Bai Xin.

And the system has never appeared since she and Bai Xin got married, and now it hasn't appeared since she got divorced, so she thinks that Bai Xin should be fine.

As for money, she doesn't care.

She really didn't care about those assets in the past.

She is also willing to continue to draw blood and complete the medicine.So now divorce will not pose any threat to Bai Xin.

So she did plan to divorce, but she didn't take that piece of paper as important as drawing blood and terminating the contract with Yi Xin.At first it was just a form.

But looking at Bai Xin's expression at this moment, seeing Bai Xin's resistance... her mood is extremely complicated.

The contract is still a few months away, and when the time passes, they may be able to talk about it more calmly.

"it is good."

Anyway, after that, we probably won't see each other much.

Thinking of this, Cheng Jiqing's nose turned sour.

Bai Xin waited for the answer, but the silent tears were suddenly sobbing and crying as if suffering from pain.

Cheng Jiqing agreed, but she knew that Cheng Jiqing was going to leave her now.

Cheng Jiqing didn't dare to stay any longer, she turned around and said, "Bai Xin, I'm fine."

Eat well and sleep well.

She opens the door.

With the cold wind blowing in her face, she walked out quickly, and suddenly heard a cry behind her.

"I love you."

The fingers gripping the handle suddenly tightened.

"Cheng Jiqing, I love you."

The door closes.

Blocked all warmth.

Only coldness remained.

With Cheng Jiqing's back pressed against the door, she rubbed her heart and wept silently. She took a deep breath, and forced down the remaining tears, then wiped them away with her fingers.

The love between her and Bai Xin exists, but she is not happy now, and Bai Xin is not happy either, and if it continues, there will only be pain.

Separation becomes the only way to go.

She was sad and sad, but not hopeless.

Sometimes letting go is also for a better meeting next time, for a better life for each other.

There are so many things in this world, but it is the principle of trade-offs - if you want to get something better, you have to learn to give up some not-so-good things first.

Whether for freedom or for the future.

Tang Jia went to see Bai Xin in the afternoon.

No matter how heavy the snow is, it will melt away in the blink of an eye, even when it falls from the sky.It only makes people think of one sentence, the white snow in the sky is spinning away.

Bai Xin sat on the balcony, holding his knees with his hands, and just sat there. After he said that Cheng Jiqing was going to continue drawing blood, he didn't say a word.

No matter what you ask or say, there is no response.

She couldn't handle it by herself, and there was no one around her who could help except Zhou Yushu, but Zhou Yushu couldn't talk to Bai Xin after the last time, and finally thought about it...

She turned to the note in the address book collection.

After the last hospital visit, their relationship has eased.

The phone waited for more than ten seconds, but it was still picked up.

Tang Jia felt a little relaxed, and told Tong Yanxi the general ins and outs of the matter.

"It's really you, and you don't do personnel affairs after divorce?"

"..." Tang Jia: "Yeah?" She wasn't the mastermind in this matter.Besides, when she got married, she didn't do anything inhumane, did she?

She wanted to refute a few words, but now was not the time, and said, "You want to argue or something, let's fight after we finish talking about it?"

"Who wants to argue with you? You are so beautiful. What do you want me to say about this? I can't say it." Tong Yanxi said.

"At the beginning, I didn't know Cheng Jiqing, so I kept it a secret. Later... Actually, Bai Xin really planned to tell me this time."

Tong Yanxi said: "From an outsider's point of view, this matter is that A said A was right and O said O was right, but from Cheng Jiqing's point of view, no matter whether he planned to say it or not, in the end Cheng Jiqing heard it from someone else. For herIt means substantial harm."

"Yes, I agree." She is also responsible.

Tang Jia asked in a low voice: "Can you come over now? Bai Xin knew what it meant when he heard that Cheng Jiqing continued to draw blood, and he didn't say a word until now. If it was before, I wouldn't worry, but this time it's different.”

She can't handle it.

The current Bai Xin is like the calm before the storm.

"beg me."

"...?"

Tang Jia: "Director Tong, Bai Xin is not your friend? He also helped you with your movie."

Tong Yanxi didn't hear it: "Do you want to ask? If you don't ask, you can't go."

Tang Jia pushed his glasses, the corners of his lips curved slightly, but his voice was not angry: "Please do it."

The heating in the house is sufficient, and the warmth seems to have entered spring.

Bai Xin was still sitting on the balcony, hugging his knees and looking out, it was still snowing outside, it was snowing heavily when Cheng Jiqing came.Bigger now.

She didn't think about anything, just because it was empty, so she didn't want to move or talk—after she heard that Cheng Jiqing was going to draw blood and finish the medicine.

When Ada told her that Cheng Jiqing was about to terminate the contract, it was nothing.

Cheng Jiqing didn't mention this when he met her just now.

Cheng Jiqing's promise not to divorce for the time being is a rope on a cliff, while continuing to draw blood is a knife.

The day when the medicine was finished, it might be the day when Cheng Jiqing left cleanly.

That is the day of the divorce.

When she realized this, she didn't cry, but her heart was suddenly empty.

She was at a loss when she was empty.

Someone sat down beside him, and Bai Xin saw Tong Yanxi's figure from the floor-to-ceiling window opposite.

"Drink some hot water." Tong Yanxi handed over the water glass.

"Go back."

Tong Yanxi looked at those dehydrated lips: "Do you want to know where the silver hairpin you wore last time came from? I'll tell you after you drink it."

When Bai Xin moved her finger, she turned her eyes sideways.

Then she raised her hand to take the water glass. It was warm to the touch, and she took a sip: "You say."

Tong Yanxi: "..." It's really useful.

"The last time Cheng Jiqing was filming in Jiang City was when you guys had a fight. A few people from the production team went to the garden together and saw it on the side of the road. But Cheng Jiqing didn't buy it at that time." Tong Yanxi also took a sip of hot water, feeling that there was nothing wrong with it.Taste, a little disgusted, continue to say:

"After getting in the car and walking for a while, Cheng Jiqing yelled to stop, saying he remembered something, and got out of the car alone."

"When I saw the silver hairpin on your head in the hospital that day, I guessed that she went back and bought it again."

Bai Xin's hand holding the cup was tight, and his eyes were hot.

After a while.

"I don't know what to do." Bai Xin lowered his head: "Tong Yanxi, teach me."

Tong Yanxi finally understood what Tang Jia's words meant.

Bai Xin looked like a straw that might snap at any moment.

It looks calm, but it is actually hovering on the edge.

Either he survived the desperation, or he fell into despair completely, then Bai Xin would be even crazier than before.

Maybe it's a state of exacerbation.

Tong Yanxi said softly:

"I just want to tell you that she still wants to buy a silver hairpin for you when you quarreled, which shows that Cheng Jiqing really gave you a lot of love. So you have to give equal or more love to make up for it. I know youShe also has deep feelings for her, but Cheng Jiqing may not be able to fully appreciate it, from her point of view, your contribution is not equal. Can you understand what I mean?"

Bai Xin was silent, but he always looked up at her.

Tong Yanxi said again: "If she is really cruel, or hates you, and really wants to break with you, how can she still care about your life and death? If it were me, let alone pharmaceuticals, I might let you goCroton beat her to death."

Tang Jia: "..."

I don't know why, but always feel Tong Yanxi's peripheral vision.

Tong Yanxi said: "It is impossible not to divorce you."

After speaking, the air quieted down.

They were all waiting for Bai Xin to give feedback. After half a minute, Bai Xin lowered his eyes and said, "She wants a divorce."

She knew very well that Cheng Jiqing would have wanted a divorce if she hadn't been resolute at the time.And Cheng Jiqing's decision to continue to make medicine...

"No matter what she thinks now, or for whatever reason, she didn't divorce you in the end. In the end, she didn't get divorced, right?" Tong Yanxi patted Bai Xin on the shoulder: "That means she didn't really let go, which is right for youSuffice it to say."

If you are really determined, really let go.

Divorce is the first thing Cheng Jiqing should do, this is the real bondage between them.

If you really want to end, just start where you should end.

Just like the heroine in "Going Ashore", after being disheartened, she resolutely went ashore without hesitation, and went to the place where the mermaid queen can never go - the desert.

This is called determination.

Instead of leaving, you have to plan everything for the other party.

Isn't this putting the cart before the horse?

For any reason, in her opinion, it was nothing more than Cheng Jiqing's ecstasy soup. Bai Xin drank this soup, and Cheng Jiqing drank it himself.

Then really thought this was the end.

After hearing this, Bai Xin seemed to feel sensation in her fingers. She took a sip of water, and it seemed that her sanity had just recovered a little at this time.

She woke up from a blank nightmare.

"Now that you know you're wrong, then show a wrong attitude, but don't care about what you do, you are too impatient, you and Cheng Jiqing need time to slow down now. Wait for this time to pass......"

As long as Bai Xin doesn't impulsively do anything irreversible now.

She doesn't guarantee that the outcome will be good, but there is always hope.

Bai Xin took a deep breath, looked up and saw the snowflakes hitting the glass like moths, without fear.

Her palm felt warm, her eyes were clear, and she said slowly, "Thank you."

Knowing that Bai Xin understood, Tong Yanxi felt relieved and laughed.

He took the initiative to touch Bai Xin's cup: "You're welcome, just invest more money in future movies."

"This period of time has passed...and then?" Tang Jia also held a glass of water and asked from the side.

Tong Yanxi glanced back at the person, as if she thought she was poorly aware: "If you want someone to change their minds, it's useless to rely on thinking."

It takes action.