Chapter 144 (Second) Xu Shiyue From Her View…

"Drip-drip-drip-drip-"

The up and down monitoring sound of mechanical instruments rang in the room regularly, continuously drawing zigzag lines on the electronic screen.

The sound came from far to near, continuously, and gradually cleared away Lu Shizhen's chaotic dream.

The thick eyelashes trembled in the darkness, as if they had to use a lot of strength to finally open them.

The smell of disinfectant was as strong as ever, and the slightly cool temperature stuck to Lu Shizhen's collarbone.

Before she even started to think about what was wrong with her, Lu Shizhen immediately smelled a smell that she was very familiar with.

The hair rubbed against the pillow, making a slight rubbing sound.

Lu Shizhen looked down and saw a small figure lying beside her bed in the darkness.Her soft little face was resting on her arms, and in the windowless room, she could only see her closed eyes through the flickering light of the overhead instrument.

It's Xu Shiyue.

she fell asleep.

It seemed that he insisted on waiting for himself here for a long time, and finally fell asleep when he was too sleepy to hold on.

Lu Shizhen just looked at her like this, and suddenly understood something in her blank heart.

She wondered if Xu Shiyue woke up and saw herself the same way that day, so she told herself that she was very happy.

After all, she also feels happy seeing Xu Shiyue guarding her bedside now, very happy, very happy.

In the countless nights of waking up before, Lu Shizhen was greeted only by the endless night.

At first she was afraid, this feeling was too lonely, as if the whole world had forgotten her, then she gradually got used to it, got used to this loneliness, got used to the darkness.

The faint instrument light was like the tail of a firefly, falling on Xu Shiyue's face piecemeal.

Lu Shizhen felt that the depression that she deliberately hid all these years had been well filled.

Lu Shizhen wanted to raise her hand, to touch Xu Shiyue's face while she was asleep.

But there was a heavy feeling in the arms, not just the arms, she felt that her whole body was heavy, as if she couldn't bear it.

After waking up for five or six minutes, Lu Shizhen's consciousness became clear.

Out of the corner of her eye, she noticed the oxygen tube inserted in front of her nose.

The quilt could not be pressed down to the detection line connected to the precision instrument, and the cool feeling when she just woke up came from her half-naked body.

She was closely monitored by the equipment assembled above her head, and she didn't simply fall asleep.

She's... been in a coma for a while.

The memory flashed back in Lu Shizhen's mind, and it was frozen in the second before waking up.

At that time, when she returned to her own ward from Xu Shiyue's ward, she felt a sudden discomfort in her chest after crossing the corridor.

Perhaps it was the suppression of another world, which made her body not flare up until she returned to her world.

A mouthful of bright red blood surged from her throat, and warm and bloody sprayed out.

The wheelchair fell forward along with the little girl fainted and out of control, and fell to the ground together.

The wheel on one side just soared in the air, rolling helplessly in this room.

"It's a genetic disease, and it's not curable."

"At present, there are no cases of adults who have lived to adulthood. Many patients have experienced a sharp turnaround at the age of six or seven."

"I think while we are doing our best, parents still need to be mentally prepared."

...

As recalled just now, this is not the first time Lu Shizhen has been ill.

Although the doctor deliberately avoided letting her know these cruel things, she still pieced together her future destiny through the fragmentary information over the years.

The little girl's pupils suddenly dimmed, she is now at the stage of six or seven years old.

And she did feel that her attack this time was more severe than the previous ones, and she had to use the tube outside to breathe even to make herself feel better.

A long sigh came out of Lu Shizhen's mouth, and he brushed the long hair on the side of Xu Shiyue's face heavily.

Feeling strange, Xu Shiyue woke up almost immediately.

And the moment she opened her eyes, she noticed Lu Shizhen who had woken up, and her vigilance immediately turned into surprise: "You're awake?!"

Hearing this, Lu Shizhen silently hid her emotions just now, and nodded to Xu Shiyue with a smile.

She wanted to show Xu Shiyue a good image of herself, but her current state is really not very good.

The light above her head hit her face, the originally bright eyes were a little sunken, and the eye sockets were also a little dark.

Xu Shiyue looked at it, her brows tightened: "You look bad, do you want me to press the button for you to call the doctor? I can hide in the corridor."

Lu Shizhen fell into a coma for the day, and Xu Shiyue also guarded her day by the bed.

Sometimes before going in, ran into the doctor who came to observe Lu Shizhen, and she was hiding in the corridor.

When Lu Shizhen heard this, she immediately shook her head, reached out and clasped Xu Shiyue's hand.

A lot of bad emotions piled up in her mind, which made her suddenly want to stay with Xu Shiyue for a while longer.

Xu Shiyue also noticed that Lu Shizhen was not in a good mood, and asked softly, "What's wrong?"

It is said that children can't hide their thoughts, but Lu Shizhen is not a person who likes to tell adults what's on his mind.

Her parents were desperately trying to keep her alive. If she cried and said she was afraid, she would appear ignorant.

She's already a drag and she needs to get sensible.

But Xu Shiyue is different.

She never thought of herself as a cripple, nor did she feel like she would be a drag.

So Lu Shizhen was also willing to share her uneasiness with her: "I'm about to be seven years old, they said that my disease has a high mortality rate at this age..."

The little girl's voice was already weak, and the volume became lower as she went to the back.

She was scared and a little discouraged, Xu Shiyue could hear it clearly.

The hand held by Lu Shizhen in turn shook her lightly, Xu Shiyue's voice was gentle: "But if you think you will leave, then why did God let us know each other?"

When Lu Shizhen heard this question, she was dumb.

Yes, since she can't live long, why let her know October?

Why should she be nostalgic and reluctant to part with this world?

As Lu Shizhen thought about it, a thick and heavy thing was stuffed into her hand.

It is the poetry collection that Xu Shiyue reads most often.

It's just that in the past, I could easily snatch it from her hand, instead of being so heavy now that I wanted to drop it from my pressed wrist.

Xu Shiyue noticed this detail, and took the initiative to spread the book in Lu Shizhen's hands, and said to her, "I really like a poem in it, written by Dylan Thomas, called: "Don't Go Gentle intoThat Good Night."

Of course Lu Shizhen knew that Xu Shiyue liked this poem, and several times when she went to find her, she could always see her reading this poem.

It's just that she doesn't know poetry very well, and she's not very interested in it, so she hasn't read it.

Now that the black and shaggy words are neatly arranged on the paper, Lu Shizhen just cast her gaze on it incomprehensibly, and then Xu Shiyue's voice came from next to her ear, "Don't go into that good night gently,Old age should burn and rave at sunset; rage, rage against the dying of the light..."

Xu Shiyue's voice is immature, but her tone is still mature beyond that of her peers.

It's as if the new life and the dark death are intertwined in the same place, which is heavy but full of vitality.

"Fanatics catch the fleeting sunshine, sing about it, and realize, too late, that they used to mourn the passing of time..."

The little girl's soft voice was not calm, and every word in the undulating voice seemed to be trying to persuade her to stay.

When she was about to read to the end, Xu Shiyue looked up at Lu Shizhen, looked into her eyes and said, "I beg you, don't go into that good night gently. Rebuke, rebuke the disappearance of the light."

Lu Shizhen understood that Xu Shiyue didn't want her to lose her confidence in fighting the illness.

She is using this poem to encourage herself to live a good life and have faith in life.

"Live well and continue to fight against fate." Xu Shiyue said to Lu Shizhen, under her slightly bent eyes was Lu Shizhen's usual tone of voice, "And fight for your life from the god of death, live one more dayIt's all about making money, isn't it?"

yes.

Lu Shizhen was moved, and nodded slightly on the pillow.

Xu Shiyue looked at Lu Shizhen lying on the bed, and blinked slightly.

Then she raised her hand to caress Lu Shizhen's forehead, and said to her: "You will fall in love and get married in the future, and you will definitely have a complete life like everyone else."

Lu Shizhen frowned slightly upon hearing this.

Her voice was still weak, but she had the strength to remind Xu Shiyue: "October... It seems that you missed one thing about having children. Don't they all talk about getting married and having children... Married and having children?"

Xu Shiyue's fingers still lightly stroked Lu Shizhen's smooth forehead, and her slightly parted lips pursed slightly.

Those dark eyes just skipped over the facial features of the person lying on the bed, wandering back and forth as if hiding a lot of things to say.

But after a long pause, she just asked softly: "Lu Shizhen, have you ever fantasized about love?"

This question sounds a bit abrupt, but it can also be linked to the question Lu Shizhen raised just now.

She paused for a moment, then shook her head: "I spend all my time dealing with death, and the fantasy is just a fantasy that I can live to adulthood, maybe it won't be a drag on people..."

A little bitter, Lu Shizhen pursed her lips and smiled.

Maybe because she felt that her idea was not very good, she turned her head to look at Xu Shiyue after speaking: "Where's October?"

She imagined that a little girl like October must have many, many fantasies.

Her future must be full of flowers, accompanied by flowers all the way, blooming like a brocade, better than herself.

It's just that Lu Shizhen didn't get the beautiful fantasy of a little girl as she expected.

Xu Shiyue pursed her lips lightly, her eyes were calm and deep.

She looked at Lu Shizhen gently as always, and said to her, "I hope to meet you as an adult."

These words are a bit simple, but they seem to hide feelings that cannot be expressed in words.

Lu Shizhen froze for a moment, the dim light on his face was covered by a shadow.

Xu Shiyue slowly bent down from above her line of sight, and then kissed Lu Shizhen.

The child's green and moist lips pressed against her cheek, only a little distance from the lips.

"Om—"

The sound of electric current suddenly resounded in the space, and the monitoring equipment in the room seemed to have stopped, but it seemed that it hadn't stopped.

In the empty room, only the figure of the little girl lying on the bed alone remained.

The temperature of the constant temperature ward dropped by one degree for some reason, and then returned to normal.

Lu Shizhen shuddered sensitively, and suddenly felt her mind go blank.

The ward was lonely and quiet at night, she just stared at the blank wall where the wheelchair was docked, feeling as if she had lost something, but she had nothing to lose.

This room is just this big, boxy, and the simple furniture makes everything look extraordinarily orderly.

Also see everything at a glance.

Lu Shizhen lay on the bed for a long time, then slowly blinked her eyes.

Skilled but a bit jerky.

Years of illnesses have made Lu Shizhen very familiar with every bone in her body, so she can also be sensitive to every change in her body.

Lu Shizhen suddenly felt that her body seemed a little different, but she didn't know where to find and describe this difference.

But also from this night, her body inexplicably began to improve.Although I still can't walk, many things that were not so good in the original detection are improving in a breakthrough, and even appear to be controllable.

It was as if someone was urging her to leave this ward as soon as possible.

So after another half a year, Lu Shizhen was judged by the expert group to leave this strictly controlled aseptic ward and be transferred to the general ward.

Lu Shizhen still remembered that the weather was fine that day, she could finally leave this place that she wanted to leave very much.

But when she was about to leave, she turned her head, and the reluctance she didn't know came from caught her hand holding the wheel.

She felt as if something was left behind, and she was inexplicably worried that others would not find her when they came.

But here is not allowed to come in and out at will, who will come to see her?

...

The dark corridor devoured the sunlight rushing towards it, rushing the forgotten memories towards Lu Shizhen like waves.

The icy sea water rushed on her body like this, hitting her naked, almost submerging her whole body.

The bright sunlight at noon really fell on the ordinary ward of the hospital. Lu Shizhen just held the handle formed by the sunlight for her. Tears had flowed out of her eyes since when, one by one, they fell on theHer legs, which were covered with blankets, were wet.

She knows who it is.

It's Xu Shiyue.

She forgot Xu Shiyue.

twice.