Zhou Qiming leaned on his seat and quietly waited for the opening of the awards ceremony. At this moment, there was still more than half an hour before the opening of the awards ceremony. He switched accounts unconsciously, and unexpectedly, he swiped onto the new Weibo that he paid special attention to.

It is a sunflower, blooming proudly. The photographer is very good at finding angles, making the sunflower look vibrant.

He clicked into Weibo and stayed in the comment area for a long time before he remembered four words, "Silent Love".

Just like his current feelings.

It took a month to find Xie Yao's Weibo. At that time, he accidentally swiped onto Weibo and pushed Xu Xinghuai's Weibo. He was promoting a new drama recently, so he posted very frequently on Weibo.

Zhou Qiming stumbled in by accident. He didn't know what he thought that day, so he flipped through Xu Xinghuai's watch list, and finally found this photography blogger.

In fact, it seems that it is a photography blogger. After all, the other party is not completely professional, but just uses his camera to record some ordinary daily life, but Zhou Qiming felt a little bit of it in the process of flipping through it.familiar.

Xu Xinghuai's follow list is basically either the country's official Weibo or the official account operated by the crew. There are very few co-actors he follows, and there are basically no other actors except Xie Yao. At this time, the sudden appearance of a photography blogger seems deliberate.

Zhou Qiming looked at the photography blogger carefully, looked through all the Weibo, checked the time, and felt that it could barely match, although the time when the other party created Weibo did not exactly coincide with Xie Yao’s departure time, but the intervalThe time is not particularly long.

In the end, when Zhou Qiming finalized the identity of the other party, it came from a Weibo sharing music. The music was a pure piano piece, which was very small. When he just looked at the name, Zhou Qiming didn’t recall it until he clickedThe moment entered, was completely awakened by the silent memory.

It was in high school, Xie Yao quietly turned on the phone, and stuffed the piano music played on another earphone towards herself.

Zhou Qiming remembered this piece for a long time. He didn't listen to many piano pieces all the time. The reason why he was so impressed was that during the self-study that night, the two of them made some small moves quietly.At that time, he was still the squad leader, and he had to control the discipline in self-study. Xie Yao was committing crimes under his nose, and he couldn't ignore it.

Just when he was about to act sternly, Xie Yao handed him an earphone, and before he could react, Xie Yao moved closer to put it on for him.

Slowly playing the piano music, it seemed that they were the only ones left in the whole world.The song played for a while before he heard Xie Yao ask him softly, "Does it sound good?"

He didn't nod or shake his head, but Xie Yao followed his words and continued, "This is the last piece of this pianist's piece, which he composed for his wife who is suffering from cancer. Does it sound full of music?vitality?"

Hearing this, Zhou Qiming was not surprised for a moment, but seeing Zhou Qiming's reaction, Xie Yao didn't seem to be surprised. He continued, "This is his best wish for his wife, so he chose to take it as his best wish."The keynote is created, but at the end, it always makes people feel the sadness and loneliness that cannot be concealed."

"I like this song very much. Even though his wife was unfortunately taken away by illness in the end, he still cared about his wife, and not long after his wife passed away, he chose to die for love."

Speaking of this, Xie Yao paused for a while. He looked at the night sky outside the window, and waited until the end of the song before continuing, "Many people think it's a pity that such a talented pianist has died, but I think it's romantic."

Since then, Zhou Qiming has memorized this song for a long time. Every time he hears this song, he can always think of the evening self-study that summer. Xie Yao did tricks behind his back and pulled him to become one of them.He remembered that when Xie Yao said it was romantic, he turned his head and looked at him, his eyes were shining like stars.

The word "sacrifice for love" sounds a bit romantic, even if it seems to be collected as a tragedy, people who love each other will always be together.But he didn't even have the qualifications to die for love.

Zhou Qiming silently followed Xie Yao's news for a month, and because of this, he specially set up a microblog account. In his account, he began to post some daily routines, such as the moon tonight, such as passing by.Little dog, another example is drinking a cup of ordinary bitter coffee.

He didn't intend to record his life because of this, but he just had an unlikely expectation, hoping that one day the other party could click on his homepage to take a look. Even Zhou Qiming knew it very well, the probability of this was extremely slim.

But he still tactfully expressed his love on Weibo.

He often replies to some comments under the photos taken by the other party. Most of the time, it is just a simple sentence of "good-looking", which seems extremely perfunctory, but it is the most sincere thought in his heart.

But he still couldn't find where Xie Yao was. He could only judge through some blurred scenes taken by the other party, but he couldn't judge accurately.

Too many things have happened in the past six months. After Xie Yao left, he personally sent Zhuang Yu to prison, and Chu Xiao was also affected.At the beginning, Zhuang Yu's fans were unwilling to believe how someone who was so gentle in his heart would be convicted of "attempted murder". Suddenly, there was a lot of wailing on the Internet, all for Zhuang Yu's injustice.

But in the end, Zhuang Yu was solidly sentenced because of all the witnesses and material evidence. On the day of the trial, Zhou Qiming stood outside the court door and smoked for a long time. He didn't leave until the result came out.At the scene, it also seems to be burying my childhood self.

Chu Xiao was also affected by this, and she quit the entertainment circle forever, with no chance to stand up again.But at the same time, he was lucky. Yu Xun stood in front of him and insisted that Zhuang Yu had instigated the crime and had nothing to do with Chu Xiao. Chu Xiao was innocent and was only forced to be threatened, so he dared not speak up.

Seeing that the people who murdered Xie Yao received the punishment they deserved one by one, Zhou Qiming couldn't tell what he felt in his heart. He felt that they deserved it, but he had no position to think for Xie Yao whether the result was what he wanted.

After everything was settled, Zhou Qiming started to suffer from frequent insomnia instead. His nights were always extraordinarily long. Even if he did nothing but lay quietly on the bed, he could still suffer from insomnia for a long time with his eyes closed.

After such symptoms lasted for a while, Zhou Qiming felt that his situation was not that optimistic, so he began to take the initiative to mention this matter to Lin Song, and he was brought into the front of a familiar psychiatrist to talk for an afternoon.

Fortunately, he is not particularly serious. The doctor prescribed some medicine for him, saying that if he really can’t fall asleep, he can choose to take it, but the suggestion is not to rely too much on it.The more times you do it, the less useful it will be.

To be honest, Zhou Qiming actually didn't want to rely on drugs to maintain his sleep, but after several consecutive nights of insomnia, it had already started to affect his work, so Zhou Qiming began to take the first drug.

After taking it, he fell asleep very quickly, but dizziness followed. The sleep maintained by the medicine made people feel uneasy and strange. After waking up the next day, Zhou Qiming looked at the picture in front of the bedside table.I don't want to take the medicine for the second time.

The night afterward, he found some new ways to fall asleep.After Xie Yao left, the TV series they collaborated with was also released. Every night before going to bed, he would play it on a loop, listening to the lines that could make his ears callous, and watch them over and over again tirelessly.

But he still didn't feel sleepy.

He began to go to the doctor regularly for follow-up visits. On Tuesday afternoons, he was sometimes absent due to work.Zhou Qiming was very defensive at first, and often sat with the doctor for an entire afternoon, until he went more often, and he began to tell the story of him and Xie Yao.

But when he looked back at the two people's experience over the years, Zhou Qiming realized how much he had deceived himself in the past. He felt a little regretful, and he didn't even have a chance to make up for it. He would even have some unrealistic fantasies because of this, thinking aboutIf time can be turned back, everything can return to the original point, so that he has another chance to save.

A psychiatrist once asked him what he thought his life would be like if Xie Yao hadn't appeared in his life.

When asked, Zhou Qiming shook his head and smiled wryly, saying that he did not have such a life.

Because in his cognition, it is impossible for Xie Yao to exist in his life, but all of this came too late, he woke up too late, and he realized that he could no longer turn back when he reacted now.