☆, peach blossom remnant petals

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date="2020-11-29"

title="☆, peach blossom remnant petals"

weight="106695"

series = ["The Peach Blossoms Begin to Dance"]

mode = "manual"

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Xiao Du's journey of mind: a man who pursues freedom like a wild horse

"Son, I asked you to go abroad for two most important purposes: the first is to learn English well, and the second is to make friends. This learning English naturally also includes broadening your horizons. But you remember, no matter how far you go and how much you stay there In the year, you have a long experience of foreigners’ trendy ideas and feminism. Don’t take it to your heart. You are a Chinese man, and the tradition in the bones of a Chinese man cannot be changed. We have been talking about “getting a family and establishing a business” since ancient times. Start a career. Only when you take the responsibility of your family can you have the capital to gain a foothold in your career. You are still young now, and it is too early to say this, but you must remember what I said to you today."

"I know."

This is a dialogue between Du Chi and Du Hanchuan before going abroad. Du Chi said a lot, and Du Hanchuan heard it, but didn't want to understand the deep meaning of any sentence.

Since Du Chi changed his application for the college entrance examination, he didn't want to talk to his father.

He had no intention of understanding what Britain and Europe were like.

He only knew that for the past seventeen years, his birthday mother had to prepare a grand party for him every year, announcing how much she treasured this son and how proud of him in the world.

And his eighteenth birthday was celebrated in a foreign country.

Except for the blessings in WeChat this year, no one around knows that he has grown up. He did not receive anyone’s birthday present, except for a message from God: Dad was hospitalized, and his mother lost the news. He learned from his aunt that his father sent him abroad not because of being strong, but because of what happened at home. Big event.

On his birthday, he bought two American-style pizzas for 2.98 pounds from the supermarket, took it back to the dormitory, rotated it in the microwave twice, and swallowed it with tap water.

After that, the bad news fell one after another like dominoes. This let him know that God is not without bargaining chips to give him everything better than others. When fate wants to take them away, he can only wait for the arrangement like a helpless fool. But he never cried, but first accepted all this in anger and then silently.

The university dormitory is a mixed gender, with one person per room and a shared kitchen. In a place of twenty flats, there is no feeling of home, just like a nest. He doesn't like to stay in the nest, and he smokes under the street lamp in front of the dormitory.

He has a roommate who is a Chinese girl, and she often asks him how he smokes, stays up late, eats junk food every day, and has such good skin.

He said, that's what you said, smoking, staying up all night, eating junk food, and not taking skin care, make the girl laugh.

When I was seventeen, I still felt that my life had just begun, and when I was eighteen, I felt that everything had come to an end.

Occasionally thinking back to high school time, there is a feeling like a life away. At that time, he had an ideal college, a future he wanted to fight for, there were many unknowns waiting for him to explore, and a girl who accompanied him all the way to the old in a fantasy... Everything is in the past now, and he broke up with his girlfriend. , And there is nothing I want.

Others will gain weight when they go abroad, only his weight has plummeted, and he is as thin as a clothes rack. Because of long-term unacceptable vomiting to the hospital and high fever, except for the obese nurse who was dyed blond hair, he would viciously ask him where he was unwell, and sent him home after a bunch of medicines. No one took care of him.

Like when he was in high school in China, he quickly became famous in the school Chinese circle. There are many girls who take the initiative. They are not the same as high schools in China. All of them are little princesses with distinguished family background. The way of expressing affection is also high. For example, they will say "I will give you the opportunity to invite me to dinner, so you are honored ", people are completely unable to have a good impression.

But because everyone is easy to get lonely abroad, Chinese girls are particularly popular in the Chinese circle or the foreign world. And the girls with the temperament of the eldest lady, who are a little bit pretty, are quickly chased away.

It may have something to do with age, Shirley is a clear stream among many mudslide princesses, and everyone likes her character very much. Moreover, her appearance is really outstanding, her features are exquisite, and her figure is proud. She is the kind of stunner who can't help coveting even the most reserved British men. A man who started a business in London drove to the school to find her with a flower, but she refused in public. The little Chinese boy mentioned that she couldn't help snapping his fingers. Another guy stupidly said to his girlfriend that if I could sleep Shirley once, it would be worth my death. He was slapped on the spot by his girlfriend and broke up.

Du Hanchuan met Shirley because of his Spanish elective course. This gentle eldest sister was very enthusiastic and patient with him from the beginning. She heard that he could not cook, and even went to his dormitory to cook for him. He has always respected her, so at the party, people joked that "being like Frank is to save money", and he almost got into a fight with each other. Shirley stopped him, looked at him with drunk eyes full of tears, and said aggrievedly, in fact, he was right.

Du Hanchuan pretended not to understand what she meant, and sent her home to rest. Shirley is a ripe red apple, which is fatal to any man. No matter how young Du Hanchuan is, he is still a man, and he can also find the most attractive characteristics of her. don't know why, he didn't have much interest in her.

That night, even if she had a delicate gasp in the bed, and the black low-cut coat was propped up high by the two full hills, and he was still pulling his clothes corners, he was very graceful. And retreat.

But within two weeks, he learned a piece of news: his father had just been discharged from the hospital and he was invited to have tea.

The ex-girlfriend kept sending messages to him, asking him what happened recently, why he disappeared, and if he was unwell, she was worried. She is so young that she doesn't even understand the meaning of breaking up, and she keeps asking him repeatedly, "Are we breaking up?" "If you want to break up, tell me directly." He did not reply. Until she said: "Do you remember our agreement? You promised me to join me in the university entrance examination in Shanghai. Why did you break your promise?"

He finally couldn't stand it anymore, and replied impatiently: "You are so naive. What do you know."

"Don't you tell me how do I understand? Du Hanchuan, I promised you to do everything, how about you, did you do it? How can you do this to me, just because I like you? You are too scumbag Up!"

"You feel like I'm scum, you can go."

"Good. As you wish."

There is an idiom well invented: a thousand swords and a thousand swords.

At that moment, his heart was like being cut by a thousand swords.

Du Hanchuan was drunk in the pub that day and saw a spoof photo of him being graffitied with lipstick on Facebook. Shirley immediately ran to pick him up to her home. She put his head in her arms, wiped the lipstick on his face with great affection, kissed his lips, and put her tongue into his mouth...

One night later, Du Hanchuan woke up rubbing his painful head and saw Shirley sitting in front of the window applying nail polish to his feet. She likes big red, her nail polish is big red, her lipstick is big red, and the camisole is also big red. The vest was so small that it could hardly hide the leaked plump figure, but the look in her eyes when she looked up at him was simple and full of love, giving her a contrasting charm of extreme maturity and extreme innocence.

"Frank, you are up." She quickly put down the nail polish in her hand, rushed over, holding his face and looking up at him, "You are so thin and always sick. I feel distressed. I'll give it to you. I’ll make you fat, okay?"

"I..." The memory of the previous night was broken, but the fragments were still there. He was embarrassed.

"What would you like to eat, pasta or egg noodles?"

"Let's go out to eat, I invite you."

"Why, don't you want to owe me?" She was lost for a while, and then raised the corners of her vermilion lips, "Don't worry, your sister is an adult, and you don't need to be responsible for your sister. No matter what hurts you have in the past, Here, sister, you just need to be happy and be yourself. Okay? Little Du Xiansen."

He didn't know if it was love. He only knew that the broken part of his heart didn't fall into the endless abyss, but was caught and patched up by this woman named Shirley.

Maybe the soul has been mutilated like a puppet, but in a sense, it also extends life.

Later, when he discovered that she had a boyfriend, he expressed shock and wanted to cut off the relationship, but she told him that her boyfriend had cheated, and for two years she didn’t even bother to touch her hand, otherwise she wouldn’t be one. People go abroad.

He understood the loneliness of her words. Therefore, after that, he just kept a certain distance from her, but did not completely break off diplomatic relations.

On the first winter afternoon in London, Du Hanchuan took Shirley's hand and passed Oxford Street. She saw two good-looking men's trench coats and forced him to try them on and put them on him, complimenting him for his handsomeness, and she wanted to pay for them. Changing to an average boy may be happy, but for Du Hanchuan, this is undoubtedly an insult. He almost quarreled with her in order to reject this dress that came.

He is Du Chi's son, not a little fresh meat that needs to be attached to his big sister.

Finally, he rushed back to the street from the third floor of the mall in one breath, breathing heavily on his knees at the intersection of people coming and going. Then, as soon as he looked up, he saw a classical stone sculpture of a white little angel. The sun is dim, and it shines on the little angel, just right.

Shirley followed, reached out and stroked his back, and said softly, "Frank, it was my fault just now. If we have done too much in our business, it will inevitably be a little too ego, sorry."

He shook his head slightly, just looking at the angel statue.

A western couple passed by with a baby, and when they met such a beautiful Asian teenager, they couldn't help but look at them. They followed Du Hanchuan’s gaze and looked towards the little angel. Her husband said to Du Hanchuan: "Has an angel ever e to your heart"

Du Hanchuan turned his gaze to them and shook his head blankly.

The man closed his eyes, smiled and nodded: "She will e, just like our little angel." After speaking, he gently shook the little baby in his arms.

——Have you ever had an angel in your heart?

The angel has been here, but his world has long gone to the opposite of heaven.

Du Hanchuan's tutor is very good, and he has never lost his way in front of others. Therefore, even at this moment his heart has been hurt like a knife, but there is still a very stern smile on his face.

Rolling the sheets with Shirley at night, he returned to his dormitory. Hungry, he opened a bowl of Taiwanese instant noodles bought from Chinatown, cooked it in a pot, and added some discounted vegetables, which was the first time he had recently rewarded himself in the middle of the night.

In such a long time, it's not that he never thought of looking back for Pianpian and good.

But she is the only daughter of an entrepreneur, how can she be dragged down by the poor boy in trouble. She had everything she had when she was born. If the result of spending a lifetime with him is to reduce the quality of life and let her carry the debts and spend the rest of her life with him, he would rather have a more financially capable man appear and give her happiness for him.

And he knew that a girl like her would not lack good suitors. She will be safe and happy all her life, and will be cherished by better men for a lifetime.

but……

Pianpian, I miss you so much.

Is it possible for me to see you again in my life.

It's impossible.

It's impossible...

It was late at night. The neighbors who love nightclubs went out to have fun. Xueba fell asleep, and the girl who quarreled with her boyfriend every day went out and broke up with him... Du Hanchuan was eating instant noodles in one bite, and his throat and chest were burned. The pain didn't stop, as if this could prevent a complete collapse of emotions. But after eating, tears fell into the noodle soup.

In fact, when he was making out with Shirley, he tried countless times to imagine her as Pianpian, wondering if it would feel better.

But he found that he couldn't do it.

No amount of pleasure in his body can make anyone's face appear in his mind. Every time he thinks of Pianpian, he will choose the latter between eagerness and strong resistance.

This is a land of muddy and sinful desires, and he has indulged himself in sinking. But even in fantasy, he didn't want to drag her in.

Of course Shirley was aware of this feeling hidden in the heart of the teenager. One night, she nestled in his arms and said emotionally: "I know you have a girl in your heart. You love her more than anyone. But I love you."

She is a mature woman who doesn't shed tears easily, but that night she held him and wept out of control.

Du Hanchuan is still a little confused about how he got here in those two years.

The junior year finally passed the crisis at home, and the unwavering love with Miss Lin was still going on like a roommate, but he could finally return to China to reunite with his parents.

After staying in Beijing for a week, the family was harmonious and cherished this hard-won family happiness. Then, he went around to inquire about his first love girlfriend, booked a ticket to fly to Shanghai, went to her university, and happened to meet her at the school gate.

On the campus of the university in early autumn, the bud cap pressed her full curly hair, blowing small and dense waves. She is wearing a white high-collar shirt, an ankle-length brown skirt, and vintage brown leather shoes on her feet. She has a white complexion and light footsteps. She is almost like a girl from a medieval painter. Holding the paint bucket, holding the drawing board, she smashed the broken leaves on the ground and the corpse, and walked out of the campus with a smile on her face.

At that moment, Du Hanchuan only felt that some of his scalp and even his limbs were numb.

It is Pianpian.

It's so beautiful.

Seeing her again after many years, the shock from the bottom of heart was stronger than when first met her in high school.

He was holding the steering wheel, breathing quickly, shaking his head, desperately telling himself to calm down, and think about how to talk to her after he got out of the car. Would she hate him so much that she slapped her...

If this is the case, it would be great, at least she hates him.

But while struggling, he saw her stop in front of a white BMW at the school gate.

The man in the car's suit and leather shoes, leather shoes and watches all showed his worth, and his manners revealed his experience and age. He walked down to open the door for her and kissed her on the cheek. She pushed him away shyly, and got into the co-pilot.

Du Hanchuan stared at this scene blankly, losing the ability to think.

"That beautiful girl is Hao Pianpin, a celebrity in our school." A girl whispered to elegant beside him, "The young painter who won the Dragon Color Award, each album sold in millions. Last month, the first stop of the nationwide signing was still going on in our school. Really, you don’t know, how immortal her style of painting is, it’s just like magic, God is too partial."

"Is that her boyfriend?" the other girl said curiously.

"Yeah, men and women look good, right?"

Finally Du Hanchuan knew that time passed quickly, it did not wait for him, did not keep him the heart of the girl he loved.

After making up her mind to leave him, she never looked back.

Only he is still alive in the past.

For so many years, she was the most beautiful nightmare. Whether she was awake or drunk, she was always there and didn't want to leave.

However, the real she has long gone.

Du Hanchuan didn't sleep well for about three months after meeting her. don’t often dream of her, but she is always the first person think of every time wake up.

He also vaguely learned from his high school classmates that elegant really hates him, and he wished not to start that relationship.

Du Chi vaguely knew the situation of some sons’ first love, and talked to him implicitly: "In a man’s life, love is only a small part of the factor, and responsibility is the most important. We spoil you, so you are The sense of responsibility still needs to be strengthened."

Recalling what his father said before going abroad, Du Hanchuan felt very reasonable. So after returning home completely, he agreed to be engaged to Han Rong. Han Rong's family has the strongest strength and is the most suitable target for marriage. She also expressed her attitude towards marriage at the beginning, but let him breathe a sigh of relief-playing with each other, not with affection, which is good.

"Did you get her?" Shirley once sent an email to greet him after he got engaged.

"No."

"Does she know how much you love her?"

"It's not important. Just be happy for her."

"Who said that only women who are in love can have a lower IQ, and that men can be stupid when they fall in love."

He didn't reply again.

Later, Du Hanchuan often thought that if it were not for Lei Chi's Valentine's Day offline events, he and elegant would have missed it forever.

But at the event, he saw that she had been staring at the figure of "Peach Blossom World". He thought maybe she would be interested in this game, so he asked the staff to ask her to fill out a form and tell her to register for "Peach Blossom World". "Ten Thousand Worlds" account can get luxurious starter packs. She waved her hand and said, "I am a diehard player of your game. Of course, I don't mind if you give me a gift package."

I asked for her phone number, searched for the technology, and found that she used someone else's ID number to register for the game, and the ID in the game was Fengwu Pianran.

He doesn't play this game, he knows the name.

At this moment, he completely figured it out, what if there is a boyfriend, she is in the Peach Blossom World. In reality, she would not forgive him, so he would never tell her who he was. He can approach her again. If it can be exchanged for a love result, even in the virtual world, it would be great.

He found phoenix dancing in "Peach Blossom World".

Just seeing the figure she pinched shaking in front of him, he already felt a slight happiness.

The ghostly woman, purple robe enchanting and ghostly, has almost no resemblance to her own appearance. But it is not important, she is controlling this character.

But he was not ready to talk to her until he saw her talking about marriage standards in the world.

The first formal dialogue began under the peach blossom tree in the capital. The freshman Leng Yue actually has a thousand words to say, but he can only be a stranger, and can only use a non-sentimental sentence as their opening statement: "How are you going to fight that demon show?"

Pianpian, we meet again.

I don't know one day you will disappear from this virtual world, becoming someone else's bride, sleeping in the arms of other men, conceiving offspring with him, and living a life that has nothing to do with me.

However, I am willing to start this unsuccessful relationship.

...

And all this is a thing of the past.

At this moment, elegant was right in front of him, where he was within reach, waved to him: "Du Hanchuan? Du Hanchuan? What kind of spirit are you walking... Hey, have you studied eye expression training? , So affectionate. Every time you look at me with this kind of eyes, I feel as if you are going to love me to the point of decay."

"I love you." He said nonchalantly.

"Frivolous, not serious."

Du Hanchuan raised his eyebrows: "Don't always ask me if I love you or not, you'd better be infatuated, otherwise how to tie my wild horse."

"Who wants to tie you? What a weird narcissist." elegant looked up and down with a look of disgust, and bowed her head to play with her mobile phone.

"I'm a man who longs for freedom like the wind, and I'm locked up so I can't run."

"You run, I won't stop you. Pursue your freedom." She didn't even lift her head.

Du Hanchuan laughed: "My Pianpian is still very smart."

This can't help you.

I don't want freedom. I didn't want it anymore.

The author has something to say: Originally, wanted to put this chapter as an Easter egg at the end, but Little Du made too many crusades. In order to write it down smoothly, it was released in advance...

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