Chapter 70

Chapter 70

In An Nuo's eyes, Lu Yunyan was the cream of the crop in every aspect—from family background to appearance and abilities.

Although he had an incurable genetic condition, which had tormented him for over a decade, the heavens still favored him in the end by bringing An Nuo to his side, specifically to heal this very condition. It was so lucky it was practically a miracle itself.

So, from An Nuo's perspective, having a child wasn’t all that important for Lu Yunyan, because Lu Yunyan had already accomplished so much in life.

But for Lu Yunyan, who had everything he ever wanted, even a miracle, not being able to have his own descendants might become a persistent regret—perhaps the more unattainable something is, the easier it becomes a missing piece.

After hearing An Nuo's question, Lu Yunyan chuckled lightly and said, "To be honest, I don’t know either."

"Hm?"

"Before I met you, I could barely even approach other omegas, let alone establish a normal romantic relationship. Having children was something I never even crossed my mind."

So, had Lu Yunyan really never been involved with any other omega?

An Nuo mused silently. Just because he couldn’t establish a romantic relationship didn’t mean Lu Yunyan had never been attracted to other omegas, right?

The thought that Lu Yunyan might have liked someone else made An Nuo involuntarily pout.

Lu Yunyan noticed: "What’s wrong?"

Was he suddenly imitating a kitten pouting emoji?

"Nothing, nothing." An Nuo quickly wiped the pout off his face. "So? Keep going."

Lu Yunyan didn’t know why An Nuo was pouting, but he found it adorable, which cheered him up a bit.

He continued, "Then I met you... I didn’t think about it right after we got married either. It’s only recently that I started thinking about it, but it’s not just to have a child—it’s because I like you, so I want to have a child with you."

"..."

The sweet talk came so unexpectedly that An Nuo was at a loss for words.

It sounded as though it wasn’t for the child but for him.

"But after hearing what the doctor said today, it feels different. Having a child suddenly seems so precious, isn’t something I can have just because I want it."

"I don’t like this feeling. Do you understand? It’s not that I absolutely need it, but not needing it and not being able to have it are two different things."

An Nuo understood. It was pretty much what he’d suspected.

The more unattainable something is, the more one desires it.

"My parents are the same as me. They didn’t think about it before and felt it was hopeless, but your appearance made everything seem hopeful."

An Nuo felt like he was being showered with praise again.

But he had personally heard Lu Xu pressing them to have kids, even saying they should have two in three years.

"Now I just feel like I’ve disappointing them all over again."

Lu Yunyan sighed. "I feel so useless. Even though the heavens handed me hope and opportunity right before my eyes, I can’t even grasp it."

This was the first time An Nuo had seen Lu Yunyan so dejected.

Such a tall, strong alpha, whom almost nothing could defeat, was now hanging his head low, exuding an air of defeat An Nuo had never seen before.

But An Nuo didn’t think he was useless at all.

Instead, an odd, tender feeling stirred in his heart.

"Sometimes I also wonder if they regret not having another child—having only me, born with a defect, and devoting all their attention to me."

"If they had one or two more, at least they wouldn’t have to face this kind of disappointment now."

An Nuo’s heart squeezed hearing this.

He couldn’t help but say, "Don’t say that. This isn’t something you can control or change... Maybe if they had more children, those children would also be sick, and in even worse shape than you!"

Lu Yunyan was taken aback for a moment, then let out a laugh.

Hearing Lu Yunyan laugh, An Nuo was also taken aback.

An Nuo: .

No, no, no.

That probably wasn’t the best way to comfort someone... What was he saying?!

"Anyway, don’t think so negatively! Didn’t the doctor say it’s just a lower probability? It’s not like it’s impossible forever!"

He quickly switched to a different way of comforting.

"Think about it—you’ve already cured an incurable illness, so something that was already possible must be achievable!"

Lu Yunyan looked at him for a long time, as if thinking about something, or maybe just watching quietly.

After a while, he still gave a soft laugh and said, "Don’t agree to have kids just because you pity me... You can’t comfort people this way."

An Nuo: ?

Who agreed?

I was just trying to comfort you kindly—how did it become an agreement?

An Nuo felt like his brain had been tied in knots, and he suddenly didn’t understand—was his comfort attempt backfired? Did it give Lu Yunyan such a wrong idea?

...Maybe it did?

He told Lu Yunyan not to give up hope and said it would definitely happen—did that really sound like an agreement?

"I don’t pity you," An Nuo said quietly. "What’s there to pity you for... If you’re sad, go check your bank account, look in the mirror, or go to the company and rule like a king..."

Not to mention that Lu Yunyan also had parents who were in a stable, loving relationship and who adored him.

Just that alone made An Nuo envious enough to make his teeth ache.

"If you’re pitiful, then there are no happy people in the world. 99.999% of people have it worse than you."

It’s just a bit more difficult to have a child.

It’s not like it’s totally out of the question.

"And besides, I never actually refused... I just said this isn’t a small matter—it’s a big one, and we need to think it through properly…"

"Mm, then you should consider it even more seriously and carefully."

"..."

There were a few moments when An Nuo couldn't help suspecting Lu Yunyan.

Was this really how he felt?

Was he genuinely upset, or was he using this situation to act pitiful, deliberately trying to gain his sympathy so that he’d agree to have a child?

But after his doubts, An Nuo also felt self-blame.

Although Lu Yunyan often acted shady and had low credibility—making suspicion understandable—Lu Yunyan seemed genuinely upset and had spoken from the heart. How could he still doubt him?

An Nuo wavered between trusting and doubting Lu Yunyan.

He also hesitated between self-blame and conviction.

In the end, looking into Lu Yunyan’s eyes, An Nuo chose to believe.

He couldn’t judge Lu Yunyan’s sincerity, but in this moment, he could listen to his own heart.

—He didn’t want Lu Yunyan to be sad.

Even if Lu Yunyan was faking it to trick him, as long as there was the slightest chance it was real, he wanted Lu Yunyan to be happy and not upset over this anymore.

An Nuo lowered his head.

Was this the influence of the mark?

He didn’t know.

And he didn’t want to distract himself by figuring it out now.

In this moment, he simply wanted Lu Yunyan to feel better.

"…Let’s give it a try."

He heard his own voice, weak and uncertain: "If it really doesn’t happen, there’s nothing I can do to help… but if it does, then… it’s meant to be…"

An Nuo didn’t dare look at Lu Yunyan’s face.

After saying it out loud, even he thought he was crazy.

He expected Lu Yunyan to react with some excitement, but by the time An Nuo had calmed down, Lu Yunyan remained silent and unresponsive.

An Nuo looked up, his shyness turning into displeasure, and frowned slightly. "…What’s your reaction?"

Lu Yunyan gripped his wine glass. "…Baby, you wanting to comfort me is enough to make me happy."

"But this really isn’t how to comfort someone."

"..."

"I want you to be serious about this, not just acting on impulse in the heat of the moment."

Lu Yunyan sighed softly. "Otherwise, if you regret it someday, even if you don’t tell me and keep forcing yourself to comply, I’d feel terrible. Because I don’t want the existence of a 'child' to affect our relationship."

It seemed like no matter what An Nuo said, it was all to comfort Lu Yunyan. So no matter how An Nuo phrased it, Lu Yunyan didn’t believe him.

An Nuo didn’t like this feeling much either.

Earlier, he was too shy to say certain things, but now his voice grew firmer. "…I’m serious, I’ve thought it through carefully. I’m not agreeing just to comfort you!"

An Nuo prepared to make his case with Lu Yunyan, but at that moment, Lu Yunyan simply set down his glass, reached out, and dragged him into a tight hug.

A very, very tight hug.

His thick, solid arms held him firmly, with a terrifying strength, as if trying to meld him into his very body.

An Nuo instinctively struggled but, finding it useless, gave up.

Whatever.

At least it meant his words had worked and had genuinely comforted Lu Yunyan.

Tapping Lu Yunyan’s back, An Nuo said, "Alright, alright, let me go—mmph…"

But before he could finish saying "let go," his mouth was fiercely kissed by Lu Yunyan.

While kissing him, Lu Yunyan pushed An Nuo backward until there was nowhere left to retreat, pinning him against the bay window. Then, Lu Yunyan lifted him up and laid him down on it.

Something wasn’t right.

An Nuo couldn’t push Lu Yunyan away, completely overwhelmed by the kiss.

Something was really not right.

Not only was Lu Yunyan kissing him forcefully, one arm still holding him tightly, but his other hand somehow found the time to start tugging at his clothes.

In the brief moment he caught his breath, An Nuo heard Lu Yunyan whisper in his ear, "…Baby, thank you. Actually, I really like you comforting me this way."

"..."

An Nuo finally realized what was wrong.

Who said anything about comforting Lu Yunyan like this?

Huh?

Did he say that? Who said that?

But it was too late to voice any objections—Lu Yunyan robbed him of the chance to speak again.

His lips were sealed once more, and An Nuo, kissed into silence, fell backward.

But it was all too normal for Lu Yunyan to take this as a form of comfort.

Because pushing his luck was just in Lu Yunyan’s nature.

When he stepped into the study, An Nuo truly hadn’t expected things to end up like this.

He just saw that Lu Yunyan was upset, didn’t want to seem too cold, and simply wanted to comfort him.

In the end, he’d ended up offering himself as a comfort gift to Lu Yunyan.

Should I be glad that I at least achieved my goal?

Huh?

I should have just gone back to the office instead.

I came home two hours early, while it was still bright outside, and ended up getting nothing done—instead, I ended up having a window seat play with Lu Yunyan.

In his dazed state, An Nuo wondered vaguely, Can Lu Yunyan’s sex drive really not be treated?

Isn’t this just a side effect of his hormone imbalance disorder?

Why does the serious side effect seem more severe than the main condition?

The doctor even said today that his condition has improved significantly, and his hormone imbalance disorder is almost cured... So why is the side effect still acting up, with no sign of letting up at all?