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Originally, he was still sleeping on the pillow on his side, but he grabbed Cen Si's hand from behind, and after smelling it, he made an inch of it, his body arched, and his head began to stick to his arm.

The heater in the room was fully turned on, and Cen Si's body was also warm. Jiang Shiye leaned close, and his soul, which had been frozen for so long, warmed up at this moment.

He closed his eyes and could hear his breathing.

Jiang Shiye hadn't heard this voice for a long, long time.

In the past, Cen Si's breathing was very weak when he was sleeping, even if Jiang Shiye's hearing was so sharp, he couldn't hear it.

He clearly remembered the night when he came to the capital for the first time at the age of 18, staying in a hotel with Cen Si, and he just listened to his breathing, so gentle and even, that he couldn't fall asleep for a long time.At that time, he thought about the confused future and turned over and over again. He saw the chest next door without a quilt rising and falling slowly and powerfully, accompanied by the rhythm of breathing, like the widest piano score. For the first time, he had the urge to lean on the past——

Then he quickly turned over, only to feel that there was something wrong with him.

Three years later, now, listening to such breathing again, he can finally lean on his chest openly and frankly for the umpteenth time.

The ear goes exactly to the position of the heartbeat.

He went looking for the concrete representation of breathing, heartbeat, and vitality.

However, after he found Cen Si's heartbeat, Jiang Shiye suddenly burst into tears.

It's outrageous. Seeing Cen Si hold back his tears at the Christmas market, and being hugged by Cen Si, he didn't cry. Obviously, the time to cry the most is over.Listening to his heartbeat and breathing at this moment, Jiang Shiye seemed to be refreshed, and finally realized that the most difficult moment was over-he was no longer sick, but healed.

He was belatedly excited, happy, and had some other emotions to release.

Finally, don't have to worry about worrying anymore.Finally, no longer have to pretend to be calm and strong.

Finally no more pain.Finally lay down beside him again.

So he burst into tears, choked up with sobs, completely immersed in his own emotional world, unable to control himself for a long time.Both voice and tears were buried in Cen Si's chest, and only his own suppressed inner voice was in his ears, so when Cen Si said "Don't cry" for the first time, he didn't hear it.

Until Cen Si gently patted the back of his head: "Don't cry."

Jiang Shiye froze.

Looking up, the tears paused.

"you're awake?"

"Can I not wake up?" Cen Si smiled, rubbing the back of his neck, calling his name in a low and soft voice, "Zombie."

"……Um."

Cen Si didn't know what to say, looking at such a wet person, his throat was choked, and in the end he just hugged him like coaxing a child: "I'm sorry, I shouldn't make you so sad."

Hearing this, Jiang Shiye's suspended tears burst again.

Cen Si may be right.

He really couldn't live without him.

It's okay if you don't have it all the time, but I'm afraid of having it.

Jiang Shiye recovered his memories of three years and remembered them all - a week after losing contact with Cen Si, he saw the news on the Internet that he had withdrawn from the team due to personal reasons and could not participate in the Paris Olympics.

He tried frantically to get in touch with him, but couldn't, and then suddenly his visa to Europe lost its validity.

Later he found out that it was done by Cen Fang and the others with the help of relationships.Jiang Shiye frantically sent messages to Cen Si, but Cen Si was unconscious and talking nonsense about him, saying that he didn't want to contact him.

At that time, Cen Fang and Cen Yang were also too broken. They all subjectively felt that Cen Si's body was broken, and part of it was the reason why Jiang Shiye's boyfriend put him under too much pressure.

According to Cen Si's intention, they completely cut off the connection between them.

Each has its own pain, each has its own selfishness.

No one cared about Jiang Shiye's pain.

Jiang Shiye was immediately depressed.

He had absolutely no idea what was going on.

Did you break up?Was it released as a pigeon?

How could he leave without warning or reason?He still lives in Cen Si's house, but no one has ever come to him again.

He felt that Cen Si might have something to hide, but after a while, Cen Si's name appeared in the movie inexplicably, as an actor, he was so glamorous.

He is unbelievable, his heart is ashamed.

He started to go to Swirl to get drunk, and after realizing that he was living more and more like Yi Bin, he decided to leave here and go on a trip to relax.

He did travel all over the country, in fact, he was like a homeless man, he was still suffering from insomnia and alcoholism during the process, and he often wondered if being with Cen Si was a dream, and they didn't take a photo together.

But the phone was indeed the one given by Cen Si.

He wants to forget him.

Physically.

He had never been loved before, and it was the first time someone liked him, but he was abandoned without a problem.He recalled every detail, waiting, hugging, kissing, parting, songs, World Championships, sweating... It was hard to tell whether it was a dream or a memory, but all the sweetness made him extremely painful.

After a while, he discovered that Cen Si was going to participate in a health-preserving variety show, and there would be many amateurs.

Jiang Shiye knew that this might be his only chance to contact Cen Si again and question him.

Then there was the car accident—

"Actually, you don't just forget the last three years." Twenty minutes ago, the Swedish professor said to Jiang Shiye in awkward English, "But you think you only forgot these three years."

Jiang Shiye frowned: "What do you mean?"

"First of all, the three-year timeline is very close to you, so the first thing you discover is the sudden blank. In addition, it has a long cycle. Your past memory is actually damaged, but those fragments may not be important to you.You don't care at all, for example, do you remember what happened at school in your junior high school?"

Jiang Shiye was taken aback and shook his head.

"The most important thing is that you put too much emphasis on the memories you experienced after the age of 18. In fact, the car accident is just a boost. This is more of an intermittent amnesia caused by stimulation. Psychological reasons dominate."

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