Chapter 57: The Cannon Fodder in the Blood of Giant Dogs

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date="2020-12-30"

title="Chapter 57: The Cannon Fodder in the Blood of Giant Dogs "

weight="115546"

series = ["Did The Affectionate Love Interest Collapse Today?"]

mode = "manual"

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Lin Ziran ignored the desperate Ning Bai and drove away.

Ning Bai watched the green sports car suddenly leave. For a long time, he showed a wry smile of self-deprecating.

Yes, it's over between them.

It's just not the same as he expected.

The person who proposed the end.

It's not him either.

………………

Lin Ziran asked if he had money but was afraid that he would have nowhere to go? Thanks to Lu Maofeng's 100,000 pocket money, he went directly to a five-star hotel and stayed happily.

How can you wrong yourself by playing games? Of course it is to enjoy life!

Going out to eat and drink during the day, and come back to sleep at night to play games, but feel very happy.

But Lin Ziran occasionally looked at the phone and sighed.

Lin Ziran's father and mother really didn't call me!

The system do you want them to call you? Don’t you dislike them?

Lin Ziran, I don't like them, but Lu Xiaodong cares. Why do you think someone ran away from home? Do you think you really don't want that home anymore? After all, I hope someone will come to coax...

Lu Xiaodong is just a child. Whether he is flattering Jiang Xuan or pretending to be rebellious, he hopes to attract the attention of his parents. He still cares about that family in his heart. Lin Ziran is now running away from home, and being unable to stay there is just one of the reasons. He probably has a trace of temptation to see if Lu Maofeng and Feng Wan care about the child at all, but the result is really disappointing. Up...

He thought about how he should go back if they came to stay, but in the end, those two people didn't even notice!

Even a bystander like him is so upset, one can imagine how sad Lu Xiaodong would be.

Even if he left and died, no one cared at all.

The phone rang.

Lin Ziran looked down and sighed again.

It's not that no one cares at all, at least Ning Bai and Jiang Xuan still care, but he doesn't even care about these two people.

Because he doesn't care.

Not what Lu Xiaodong wanted.

………………

Xue Ze paced back and forth in front of Ning Bai's office, not daring to enter.

After Ning Bai came back the day before yesterday, something was very wrong and asked to call out the surveillance. Only after seeing that when he was talking to Ning Bai that day, Lu Xiaodong actually came and brought coffee for Ning Bai, but he just heard it. Ning Bai said he didn't love him, so the kid threw away his coffee and left.

Xue Ze didn't think it was a big deal. Anyway, isn't the two going to end?

Just hear it.

Who knows that Ning Bai seems very sad after watching it. This is completely beyond Xue Ze's expectation, because Ning Bai has always been emotionally introverted. It is rare that such feelings are exposed, and he even said that he didn't like it before, why suddenly he had a big attitude. Has it changed?

Although Ning Bai quickly recovered his calmness, Xue Ze felt that he was in a bad mood now.

Xue Ze sighed deeply.

Will Ning Bai regret it again?

I told him not to be stubborn, this time he lifted a rock and hit himself in the foot, right?

If Lu Xiaodong hadn't heard those words, he would regret it now and chase it back. Now it is difficult! Now that Ning Bai confronts Jiang Xuan for Lu Xiaodong, the person he likes misunderstands him and runs away. Why is this called? I really can't find it for myself...

What are you talking about?

Xue Ze just wanted to look up to the sky and roar!

He shook his head to leave, and suddenly saw a middle-aged woman approaching. The woman looked rich or expensive, but her eyes were bloodshot and her face was haggard. The deep legal lines made her look a bit mean and old.

Xue Ze sees a lot of women like this. Is it possible that the middle-aged lady whose husband cheated is here to fight the divorce lawsuit?

The business is here!

Xue Ze walked over immediately and smiled politely, "Hello, what can I do for you?"

Feng Wan looked at him hesitantly and said, "I'm looking for Ning Bai, I want to know which office he is in."

Xue Ze said enthusiastically, "Just tell me what you have. I am more professional than Ning Bai in this respect..."

Feng Wan said, "I am his mother."

Xue Ze "..."

Xue Ze led Feng Wan to Ning Bai's office in a daze, with strange eyes, and a light cough, "Well, there is a lady here who claims to be your mother..."

Ning Bai raised his eyes and looked at Feng Wan. After a while, he said faintly, "I see. Go out first."

Xue Ze couldn't see it. I was really Ning Bai's mother when I went! Could this be Ning Bai's biological mother? It's just that Ning Bai didn't look very surprised...

Xue Ze was full of curiosity.

But he met Ning Bai's cold and sharp gaze, and didn't dare to stay for a long time, quickly closed the door and left.

Ning Bai looked at Feng Wan with a cold tone, "Please sit down."

Feng Yan stared at Ning Bai in a daze, with tears in his eyes, he hesitated and dared not pass, cautiously said, "I, I want to come to the place where you work, and want to know more about you. I haven't seen you for so many years. really miss you……"

Ning Bai was silent.

Feng Wan tentatively said again, "Are you going to live with your mother? I will clean up a room for you..."

Ning Bai looked at the woman in front of her. Twenty years had passed. She seemed to care about herself as she always did. She begged herself to go back so cautiously, but Ning Bai only found it ridiculous.

She loves him.

There is no doubt about this.

It is a pity that this love is no longer what he needs.

Ning Bai's voice was cold and suddenly asked, "Where is Lu Xiaodong, do you know?"

Feng Wan was stunned. He didn't seem to expect that Ning Bai would ask Lu Xiaodong. He was a little caught off guard, "He, he's not at home these days..."

Ning Bai's eyes were covered with a layer of coldness, and he said every word, "Have you found it?"

Feng Wan's conclusion.

Every day, she wondered how to come to see Ning Bai, how to persuade Ning Bai to go home, and where could she have time to care about where Lu Xiaodong went?

Ning Bai could guess everything just by looking at her.

The cold current wrapped up the anger in his chest, making him almost unable to restrain, unable to maintain the calm expression on his face.

When such an accident happened, don't you ever think about another person who really needs you at this moment?

Is it just because that child doesn't mind, you should think he doesn't need care?

Some people may just use that kind of appearance to disguise their inner fragility.

He ran away from home, but you are still indifferent.

Ning Bai spoke slowly, with a suppressed anger in his voice. "I think you should understand one thing. Love is not only maintained by blood, but also by long-term companionship... I am no longer your son, but he But I have been with you for twenty years. You should know which one is more important."

Feng Wan saw that Ning Bai was upset, afraid that he would feel cold-blooded and ruthless, and quickly explained, "I care about him, but his kid has always been like this. There will be nothing wrong. I will know that he will come back after a few days without money. do not worry……"

Come back when you have no money?

Is he like this in your eyes?

Even if it is a dog that has been raised for 20 years, you should know that it is not enough to give you some food, but in your eyes, does Lu Xiaodong only want money? Why have you never thought that what he wants is your love?

You never know how to love someone.

Ning Bai seemed to suddenly understand why the boy had become like this.

He just needs a sense of presence.

So he behaves exaggerated, rascal, and rebellious, dressing himself up like that, pursuing himself desperately, even if he is not good at it, he must pretend to be a bad boy. In fact, he just wants attention, wants to get attention, wants someone Love him because these are things he will never get at home...

Unfortunately, at that time, I didn't know this.

Ning Bai closed his eyes, his voice was cold, "Go, don't come here again."

Looking at his indifferent appearance, Feng Wan finally panicked, and begged nervously, "Xiaobai, mom really misses you, can you forgive mom..."

Ning Bai's eyes were light, he suddenly curled his lips and smiled, staring into the other person's eyes, "This sentence, you should tell another person."

Another one who really cares about you.

Instead of me.

Ning Bai turned to open the door, and as expected, he saw Xue Ze who was listening at the door, and Liang Liang said, "I'm here to help see off the guests."

Xue Ze smiled awkwardly, but immediately cleared his expression, turned his head and said to Feng Wan, "We still have to work. If you have nothing else, please leave."

He already knew Ning Bai's attitude. Naturally, he would not have much respect for Feng Wan, and at best he would maintain the superficial politeness.

Feng Wan didn't want to leave, Xue Ze looked at her with a polite smile, but his eyes were very firm, and in the end he could only leave one step and three times.

Xue Ze personally took Feng Wan up the elevator, watched her go downstairs, and then rushed back to Ning Bai's office, with curiosity written on his face, "Is she really your biological mother?"

Xue Ze has known Ning Bai for a long time.

Ning Bai's parents are adoptive parents. It's no secret, everyone knows it, and Ning Bai never hides it. Although Ning Bo was not the natural child of the Ning family, the Ning family was tolerant and gentle, with noble character, and Ning Bo himself was smart and hardworking. Therefore, it has been smooth for so many years, and no one asked about his biological parents.

Ning Bai himself never mentioned it, never looked for it... Everyone thought that Ning Bai's biological parents had already died.

So when Feng Wan appeared, Xue Ze was really surprised.

Looking at Ning Bai’s attitude towards Feng Wan today, Xue Ze thinks that Ning Bai’s childhood memories should not be so good, otherwise, would he not be so indifferent?

Anyhow, it is also related by blood.

Various speculations appeared in Xue Ze's heart, but he dared not ask, just stared at Ning Bai repeatedly.

"By the way, if she is really your biological mother, you have been separated for 20 years?! There has been no news for so many years before, how did she suddenly find you? It is amazing!" Xue Ze exclaimed.

Ning Bai finally spoke and said lightly, "It's not magical."

Xue Ze "?"

Ning Bai slowly said, "It seems that Jiang Xuan has not been idle during this time."

Xue Ze's expression finally became solemn, "You suspect that Jiang Xuan was investigating you and stabbing this matter out."

Ning Bai looked down and said nothing.

The last time Jiang Xuan warned him, he was still careless. He didn't expect Jiang Xuan to have a plan at that time. In order to get Lu Xiaodong, he did not hesitate to expose this fact, not only shocked himself but also gave him close to Lu Xiao. East opportunity.

At this time, that child must be in need of comfort and company...

Ning Bai closed his eyes and opened them again, suddenly let out a low self-deprecating laugh, and said to Xue Ze, "Do you know who's mother that woman was just now?"

Xue Ze looked dumbfounded, isn't it yours?

Ning Bai said, "She is Lu Xiaodong's mother."

Xue Ze was really shocked this time. He almost fell from the chair, his face turned pale, and tremblingly said, "You, you, you put your brother to sleep..."

Ning Bai solemnly corrected "Lu Xiaodong was adopted."

Xue Ze sighed and wiped the cold sweat on his forehead, "It's okay, okay, okay, okay, it didn't make a big mistake..."

Ning Bai smiled bitterly on his lips.

is it?

Even this is something to be thankful for now?

But what you said is wrong, in fact my fault has been made.

From the day of meeting, maybe it is destined for today's result.

Ning Bai said, "Go out, I want to be alone for a while."

Xue Ze nodded, and then said worriedly, "If you have something to tell me, I will help you figure out a solution. Don't hold it in your heart alone, okay?"

Ning Bai did not answer.

He sat on the chair, and for a long time, his eyes fell on the phone.

These days, he sent a lot of news to Lu Xiaodong, but Lu Xiaodong never responded.

This is not beyond his expectation.

But he couldn't help it, and always wanted to watch, what if the other party responded?

When did he begin to be afraid of a person's words, anticipating and fearful, like walking on thin ice.

Ning Bai raised his hand to cover his eyes and tugged at the corner of his mouth mockingly.

He couldn't fall asleep. He had been working for three consecutive days. He was obviously tired, but he couldn't close his eyes.

Because just close your eyes.

Then he returned to that nightmare again.

………………

The woman was screaming at the man while fighting, "You like that kind of vixen, don't you? I've seen it a long time ago, just a secretary, dressed up all day, topless and bare, it's not serious at first sight!"

While dodging, the man felt guilty and pleased and said, "I just got lost for a while, I'm sorry, I promise that there will be no next time, I will fire her now!"

Women are even more angry. "You said the same last time! As a result, I didn't get involved with other women in the blink of an eye!"

The man laughed "that..."

The woman cried hysterically, "How can you do this? Are you worthy of our mother and child? I worked so hard to put the money out for you to start a business. I gave you children and took care of your housework. This is how you repay me? Lu Maofeng, don't forget that the company also has my shares!"

Hearing this, the man showed a trace of displeasure in his eyes, but he still coaxed patiently, "I understand, I understand, I'm sorry, I will compensate you well in the future. Huh?"

The woman still cried, "I love you so much, how can you betray me?"

Ning Bai stood silently and watched, like a bystander.

Watching this scene again and again.

Watching the man cheating and being found, the woman abused and the two entangled.

Watching ridiculous farce again and again.

There is no end.

Betrayal, quarrel, suspicion.

Become the deepest mark in his childhood heart.

Do men love women?

Maybe it was loved.

But his love can't stand the test of time, can't stand the temptation of the outside world.

The once-loving couple, in the repeated betrayal and deceit, eventually became a grudge that hurt each other.

They hated each other so hard.

But they refused to separate.

Every time a quarrel is over, a woman will wash her face in tears. Maybe she knows in her heart that that person no longer loves her, but she can't do without him, she can't do without this family, she has paid too much and can't get out... …

She gave all her love to the man, so she could not accept his betrayal and leave.

She always hugged him in the middle of the night, murmured line after line, "Xiaobai, mom only has you, mom loves you, you will always be with mom, right?"

He let the woman hold him.

Listening to her neurotic voice, watching her crying again and again, getting hurt by the man again and again, and finally hugging him in despair and sadness and saying, Mom only has you...

He thought he was really important.

Until the man derailed again.

Ning Bai couldn't remember how many times this was.

The farce escalated again and again.

Every time a woman will be more hysterical and crazier than the last time. She can't get out of the pain of being betrayed. I don't know that some people are hard to move in nature, and I don't know that this will only make myself more painful.

Don't know how to put it down.

This time she became more noisy and scratched the man's face. The man finally lost his patience and pushed the woman to the ground. "You will never finish, I said I will break up."

The woman was crazy, she suddenly saw Ning Bai on the side, rushed to grab the child, held the scissors at him, and yelled frantically, "I will kill him, and then go to death with him!"

The man was finally in a hurry, and he immediately leaned down and became a little boy. "You calm down, the child is innocent."

The woman chuckled, "When you cheated, why didn’t you think that your child was innocent?"

The man hurriedly said, "I did not do the right thing, but those things have nothing to do with him! Why do adults' affairs involve children? I promise, I won't do it again next time, I swear to you this time! It's all those women Seduce me, in fact I only have you in my heart, I love you."

The woman didn't believe it at all. As soon as she pressed her hand, the sharp scissors cut through Ning Bai's face, and the blood flowed down immediately. She yelled at the man, "Don't come here, I'll kill him!"

The man didn't dare to approach, stepped back, and said anxiously, "You let him go first, we have something to say!"

Ning Bai was held by the woman and let the scissors cross his face without struggling. On the contrary, he was very calm. Although he was a little surprised and sad, it was nothing more.

The man's repeated promises, betrayal, and deceit finally made the woman completely collapse, but since she hates men so much, why not drag the man to hell together, but drag him? Just because he was born to her, her blood was bleeding on his body...

So his life should also be hers.

right?

He is a tool she uses to threaten men, and a bargaining chip she uses to threaten men...

Do you really love me so much?

Or, you have loved me so much that you want to die together?

Is this love?

Once again, this farce came to an end.

The man repeatedly promised not to.

But Ning Bai knew this would not be the last time.

This time the man was in peace for a long time. After nearly a year, he went home on time every day and never went out to fool around. The woman looked much better. She still chose to forgive. She wanted a forgiveness at all costs. The man who loves her goes home.

But there are things that should happen sooner or later.

The man unspokenly rules the female subordinate in the company's office and was found.

That day, the woman took him to the company to find a man, so she accidentally ran into him.

But Ning Bai felt that this was not a coincidence. If an event seemed like a coincidence, it could only be said that it had happened many times, but it happened to happen once, and it seemed to be accidentally encountered.

The woman quarreled with the man again.

She was very disappointed and painful.

That day, he took Ning Bai and left home.

They went to another city, and the woman rented a small room and lived with him, holding him every day with tears, sometimes crying and sometimes laughing.

She said, I love him so much, I have paid so much for him, why did he treat me like this...

She said, your father will definitely come to us, he will definitely come...

She said, Xiaobai, you will always be with your mother, right? You are the only one for your mother, you are the person your mother loves the most, and your mother is the only one left...

Women don’t actually have much money.

She hadn't found a man for a long time, so she had to go out to find a job. Because she was not familiar with her life, she was afraid of losing her child, so she locked Ning Bai at home.

Ning Bai couldn't go anywhere. He stayed in that small room less than ten square meters every day, day after day, from day to night, waiting for the woman's return.

Only her in his entire world.

Darkness and her.

She is very gentle and nice to him, but she won't let him go to school, won't let him go out, won't let him leave her sight...

She was so afraid of losing him.

She was afraid that as long as one blink of an eye, he would disappear, she cared that he was sick.

She would say to him over and over again, mother loves you.

Ning Bai thought, I believe it, because you are the one who will hold me with you when you die.

I believe you love me...

They just live outside.

Men may be looking for them, or they may not. Ning Bai didn't know these things, and he didn't care very much. He was just tired of all this.

The so-called love is just a knife used to hurt people.

What is love?

Betrayal, deceit, quarrel, suspicion, hurt... everything is in the name of love.

He hates this kind of pathological feelings and hates any relationship that binds both parties.

He hates that man.

If you don’t love someone anymore, if you can’t do it forever, don’t just make promises to someone, don’t say you love her anymore, even if you are cruel and ruthless, it’s better than cheating again and again, let the person who loves you be you The mud feet were sunken and unable to get out.

He hates this woman.

Why love someone who doesn’t love you? Why can’t you get away in time when the other person doesn’t love you? You say you love him again and again, but you are noisy again and again, and finally tortured each other under one roof, love Isn't it good for him to let go?

But what is the use of disgust?

He can only watch all of this happening, repeating, and powerless... His world only has endless betrayal quarrels, and that little room that cannot be left, and a woman holding him tightly, cutting through with scissors With his face, he must take him to death with determination.

Women really love him.

But Ning Bai thought, I'd rather you didn't love me so much.

It was a weekend.

Holidays.

The woman is on vacation.

She came back from the outside and rarely took him out of the room. They went to the mall. There were many people there. Ning Bai hadn't seen anyone other than a woman for a long time.

At that moment, he suddenly didn't want to go back.

Don't want to go back to that room again.

So when the woman was not paying attention, he let go of her hand suddenly and drowned into the crowd.

Farther and farther away from her.

He heard women screaming his name madly, and he heard his name calling on the radio... But there was no change in his heart, he just looked at the woman sitting on the ground and crying from a distance.

Then, turned and left.

Ning Bai suddenly opened his eyes, his pupils contracted, he opened his mouth and breathed quickly, his chest was slightly undulating, and that near-endless nightmare had tortured him for more than ten years.

He didn't remember it until later.

He has left that place.

Left long ago.

No longer have to watch men and women hurt each other, blame each other...

Marriage is like a cage.

In the end, the person in love becomes unrecognizable.

He raised his hand and gently touched his face, the wound there had already healed, and he couldn't see it anymore.

But the wound in my heart was scabs, and it was always there.

Even the word ‘love’ makes him physically uncomfortable.

He doesn't like women, because women are a troublesome thing, and if they fall in love with you, he will want to drag you to death.

He doesn't believe in love. The so-called love will only become a bondage, making people ugly because of jealousy and suspicion.

If you can't love only one person, if you can't betray one's life, then don't love others.

He also doesn't need others to love him.

Later, he knew a lot of people, never tempted, only looking for the same kind, they each took what they needed, neither talked about love nor promised each other, because the promise that could not be fulfilled would eventually become a lie.

Become a knife to hurt loved ones.

That's great.

Temptation makes a person passive, love makes a person lose his mind.

No love does not hurt.

He will not make mistakes like them.

He has also been doing well.

Keep all relationships within a proper boundary... stay away from anyone who says you love him, and don't love anyone.

In this way, I will not get hurt.

It will not hurt others.

He always keeps this in mind.

Do not overstep the thunder pond.

Until that day, in the bar, a handsome boy in a beautiful dress followed him, and he came downstairs to his house along the way.

He was enthusiastic, well-behaved, and obedient, and couldn't drive away no matter how he rushed...until he finally accepted him.

Accepted this person he didn't like originally.

You are the first to take the initiative, you are the first to approach.

All love at first sight is just a surprise.

Although I know you are only on a whim, I don't mind... because I can't give you more. We take what we need, and then separate before we move.

Everything is like it didn't happen.

He thought so.

But is he really not tempted? If you are not tempted, why should you rush to withdraw? Why dare not to admit it?

Ning Bai closed his eyes and let out a bitter smile in his throat.

He thought that twenty years ago, when he let go of the woman's hand, he had left there forever, but who would have thought that he would come back after going around...

It turned out that after he left, another child appeared there, and took over everything he should have taken.

At this moment he understood.

All this never really ended.

It turns out that this is really a nightmare that will never wake up...

And I was moved after all.

Fall in love with someone.

That person is you.