Chapter 58: The Cannon Fodder in the Blood of Giant Dogs

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date="2020-12-30"

title="Chapter 58: The Cannon Fodder in the Blood of Giant Dogs "

weight="115547"

series = ["Did The Affectionate Love Interest Collapse Today?"]

mode = "manual"

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After Lin Ziran leisurely and leisurely for a few days, Jiang Xuan finally stopped calling him, and didn't know if he gave up or was planning something else.

Ning Bai wrote a message every day, but Lin Ziran never responded.

Does he really have such a good temper?

Lin Ziran came back from eating outside again that day. As soon as he stopped the car, he saw Jiang Xuan waiting outside.

The man leaned against a black off-road vehicle and seemed to have been waiting for a long time. When he saw him come back, he raised his head to reveal a stern face and deep eyes.

Lin Ziran was taken aback, and then quickly realized that Jiang Xuan is very powerful in this city, and he is not low-key himself. It is normal for him to find him.

But I had a fight with Jiang Xuan last time, and had already let go of myself, so I didn't bother to pay attention to Jiang Xuan.

Lin Ziran didn't even look at him, and walked past Jiang Xuan.

Jiang Xuan looked helpless, he strode over and grabbed Lin Ziran's wrist, his dark eyes looked sincere and worried, "I heard about your house, how are you?"

Lin Ziran looked back, looking at him thoughtfully.

He suspects that Jiang Xuan stabbed this matter out, but there is no evidence. At this moment, looking at Jiang Xuan's worried expression, if he really did this thing, then he is really a deep man in the city.

Jiang Xuan's plan should be like this to expose Ning Bai's life experience → Lu Xiaodong is shocked and sad → Lu Maofeng and Feng Wan admit his relatives → Lu Xiaodong is left out → Ning Bai returns to Lu's home → Lu Xiaodong is sad and desperate → Lu Xiaodong begins Resent Ning Bai → Lu Xiaodong ran away from home → Lu Maofeng and Feng Wan were indifferent → Lu Xiaodong fell into the dust → Jiang Xuan appeared on the scene → Take care of the little pitiful who is no one loves no one → Lu Xiaodong discovers that only Jiang Xuan is good → Lu Xiaodong casts his arms and hugs him → Jiang Xuan successfully raises the poor.

Plan pass!

It's almost an exhaustive plan. Lu Xiaodong has been with Jiang Xuan for so long. It is impossible for him to be ignorant of Lu Xiaodong's situation, so Ning Bai's life experience is his killer! If it were the real Lu Xiaodong, in such a desperate and painful situation, might he really catch Jiang Xuan like a life-saving straw?

Because when a person loses everything, even a little bit of kindness and compassion is hard to resist.

At this time, Jiang Xuan’s previous mistakes don’t matter. It doesn’t matter anymore, because Lu Xiaodong has abandoned himself. He needs someone who can love him and protect him, even if Jiang Xuan doesn’t really love him much, but Jiang Xuan will definitely love him very much! In this world where there is nowhere to be, Lu Xiaodong can only find the last warmth here in Jiang Xuan... and then completely become a plaything controlled by Jiang Xuan.

In order to persuade him, Jiang Xuan can even pit the Lu Maofeng family, which is of no use value, with his backhand in order to resolve the resentment and pain in his heart...

Jiang Xuan has countless ways to make Lu Xiaodong inseparable from him, unable to escape from his palm.

Lin Ziran almost shuddered. He thought this person was a bit scary. At this moment, he finally realized that he was the ruthless boss in the script. He was far from being as simple as it seemed on the surface... Fortunately, he was not Lu Xiaodong at all, so naturally he was not. Will be deceived!

Even if took a 10,000 step back, Jiang Xuan was not the one who stabbed Jiang Xuan, and he was not interested in entanglement with Jiang Xuan.

Lin Ziran raised the corner of her lips and said lightly, "You don't need to care about my business."

Jiang Xuan seemed to be a little sad, he muttered, "I know you blamed me for the things before, that time I did something wrong...but I really worry about you."

Lin Ziran said "Oh."

Jiang Xuan said again, "Don't you believe that I like you?"

Lin Ziran smiled, "Like me? Do you think I will believe it?"

Jiang Xuan was nothing more than possessiveness to make things happen to him, and he would do something like that, and perhaps have a little like... But what about? I don't like him.

Jiang Xuan looked at Lin Ziran's indifferent gaze, there was no more admiration and worship in it, and he would no longer please smile at him.

Obviously he was still this person, but he seemed to be far away.

Like it?

At first he thought it was not like it, it was just possessiveness, because suddenly he felt a little interested, he wanted to play, he was reluctant to give him to others like this, people like Lu Xiaodong should be played by him. Greeted with a smile, he didn't like someone rebellious and rejected him.

But then he found out that he was wrong. This child also had a very stubborn side. He looked flattering and lowly, but in fact he was very hard on his bones.

He said he didn't like you, so he didn't like you.

No longer please you.

No longer chasing you.

Jiang Xuan never lacks people, no matter how men or women are more beautiful than Lu Xiaodong, he even thought about whether to let it go, because competing with Lu Xiaodong made himself a joke. But why can't I let go in the end?

In order to get this person, he did not hesitate to shoot Ning Bai and expose Ning Bai's life experience.

The agency is exhausted.

He didn't know why he was so attached to such a child, he didn't know what kind of feeling it was... But as long as he thought that he would leave completely, he would never show up next to him again, and as he drifted away, he suddenly Such a result cannot be tolerated.

Since don't want to let go, will get him by all means.

This is Jiang Xuan's code of conduct.

Jiang Xuan looked down at Lin Ziran, his eyes deep and helpless, and he slowly sighed, "What will happen, you will believe that I like you?"

Lin Ziran also looked at him. It was rare for Jiang Xuan to keep his breath so low in order to deceive himself, but it was a pity that he made a mistake.

I never care if he likes it or not.

Since he doesn't care, naturally there is no believe it or not, because even if he really likes it, does he have a dime relationship with himself?

Lin Ziran laughed, he looked at Jiang Xuan, "You have made a mistake."

Jiang Xuan said, "What's the matter?"

Lin Ziran raised his eyebrows, "It doesn't matter if I believe you like me, the important thing is that I don't like you, and don't want you to disturb me again."

Lin Ziran turned and left after speaking.

Jiang Xuan said behind him, "Do you hate Lu Maofeng?"

Lin Ziran stopped abruptly and looked back at him.

Jiang Xuan's black eyes were filled with a deep and gloomy color. If he spoke nonchalantly, his voice was low and hoarse with a hint of temptation. "If you hate him, I can make him kneel down and beg you. Everything you want...I can Give you."

Lin Ziran definitely looked at him, and said in his heart that I really made Lao Tzu guess it.

This proposal is indeed heartwarming, but although he is very uncomfortable with Lu Maofeng's kind of scumbag, it is not worthwhile to sell Jiang Xuan for this.

Besides, it's just a game...

Lin Ziran said word by word, "All of your things are not what I want."

Only the former Lu Xiaodong is rare.

Jiang Xuan looked at the boy’s extremely indifferent eyes, and listened to his calm words, his expression was slightly frozen. He thought it was the boy’s most vulnerable time. He thought he needed his own help. He thought he would hate him. I took the opportunity to be under my own wings, but the result was not like this...

The boy is stronger than he thought, or he has learned how to hide his pain.

Even if he fell into the dust, he would never beg for mercy again.

I won't cry and fall...

Don’t be dazzled by hatred and jealousy...

On the contrary, the blow gave him a new life, and he began to know how to let go, bursting with unprecedented dazzling light...

Jiang Xuan's heart slowly fell. He felt that his plan might have been deviated and did not develop toward his expectations.

This method may allow the boy to leave Ning Bai, but it cannot make him approach him.

Because once he no longer cared about Lu Maofeng and had no love or hatred, he would have no reason to continue to rely on himself.

Seeing the boy go further and further, Jiang Xuan stepped forward quickly and grabbed the boy's wrist again.

Lin Ziran shook it, but couldn't get rid of Jiang Xuan's hand, and said coldly, "Chief Jiang is also a person with a good head, don't you want to make trouble here?"

Jiang Xuan looked at the boy's face, and the anger in his dark eyes was burning, like a flame, looking at himself neither humble nor arrogant... Jiang Xuan's heart suddenly beat hard.

He seems to understand something.

Maybe this is the real side of the boy.

The past flattery to please, deliberately rebellious, deliberately depraved... It was all his disguise, it was the protective color he put on himself. He wanted to be affirmed by Lu Maofeng, and he wanted to get his own value, so he worked so hard. Get a sense of presence, but no one cares about him...

Until one day, when he finally realized that no matter what he did, he couldn't get what he wanted, he gave up and became what he hated, and stopped trying to please anyone.

But this kind of him is more charming than ever before.

It's just that all of this was once concealed by the degenerate appearance, so that everyone has never found his goodness and persistence strong.

Lin Ziran felt that Jiang Xuan's eyes were a little disturbing, and frowned, "Please let go."

Jiang Xuan's eyes fell on the boy's face. The boy's eyes were on fire, his soft lips opened and closed, but he seemed to be inviting himself... He suddenly stepped forward and directly pressed Lin Ziran against the car door. Up, pinched his chin, bowed his head and kissed it.

Lin Ziran's tears from being kissed were about to come out, and he was almost blown up by this bastard who kissed hard!

Lin Ziran, if I could not beat him, I would let him kneel and call him father today!

system……

Lin Ziran, this bastard can only bully the soft and fear the hard, do you dare to treat Ning Bai like this)

system……

Lin Ziran couldn't help but think of the original plot. In the original plot, although Jiang Xuan and Ning Bai are separated and united, and their love is very bloody, but there is no compulsory love factor at all, and they respect Ning Bo from beginning to end. All of his cruelty is reflected in dealing with cannon fodder and enemies. When he pursues Ning Bo, he is not like that. On the contrary, he is very courteous and courteous. How can he like to be hard after changing himself?

How can you do this? You collapsed, do you know? !

Wait...Lin Ziran's expression suddenly freezes, Jiang Xuan actually didn't have a collapsing design, he has always implemented it thoroughly!

Respect Ning Bai, and don't despise opponents like Ning Bai, but facing Lu Xiaodong's cannon fodder, he has to do everything he can to do everything. Isn't he doing this now? From the previous KTV incident and this life experience incident, he has always been like this!

Although the pursuer has changed from Ning Bai to himself, his attitude towards Ning Bai and himself is essentially the same as the original plot.

No comparison is harmless, and feel even more angry when think about it.

Are you really looking at people ordering food, think he is better to bully? !

After all, Jiang Xuan never knew how to treat Lu Xiaodong as an equal. In his eyes, Lu Xiaodong was a bully and a fool.

Lin Ziran slammed Jiang Xuan away while he was breathing, and hit Jiang Xuan with a punch!

Jiang Xuan was beaten and turned his head to the side, seemingly surprised that Lin Ziran would do it, looking at him with her dark eyes.

Lin Ziran feels good after the fight, but when he saw Jiang Xuan's appearance, he was a little bit scared. He was afraid that this guy would suddenly violently. If he couldn't hold back for a while and wanted to play the prisoner stalk, wouldn't he have to find a way to withdraw now... Although a little panicked, he still showed an angry look, pretending not to be afraid at all!

Jiang Xuan looked at Lin Ziran deeply, and when Lin Ziran was very nervous, he suddenly laughed, "It's okay."

Lin Ziran "?"

Jiang Xuan looked at the boy with a bit of fear, but pretending to be strong and unwilling to admit defeat, his eyes were gentle and petting, "Don't be afraid, I won't hurt you."

Lin Ziran "..."

There are not many people in the parking lot. Lin Ziran dare not stay here any longer. He looked at Jiang Xuan coldly and spit out the word "Go away."

Then speed up and leave.

Jiang Xuan did not stop him this time, he just looked at the boy's back and forth, his eyes darkened.

Maybe this time, it was my calculation error...

But I will not let go easily.

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Ning Bai didn't get off work until 11 in the evening, but instead of going home, he drove to the bottom of a hotel and looked up at the scattered lights above.

He had already found out where Lin Ziran lived, and he would come here to take a look every night.

But it didn't go up once.

Because he didn't know how to face this person.

To beg his forgiveness, to say that I love him, to say that I didn't intend to take anything from you? Or simply deceive him that your parents actually love you?

All this is too pale.

Because only through personal experience can we understand the deep pain...

Language cannot smooth the scars.

For the boy, his own existence is the greatest harm to him. He makes his existence meaningless and makes him look like a joke... Although he escaped from that home, his heart escaped from there. ?

Even he has paid such a big price, let alone this not smart child?

Is he sad now?

But what he needs is definitely not his own comfort.

A self-deprecating smile appeared on Ning Bai's lips, suppressing the astringent meaning in his eyes.

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Xue Ze didn't dare to come to Ning Bai recently, and he walked around Ning Bai. This was a mess. He was afraid of such troubles, but he had to come today.

Xue Ze opened the door and cautiously said, "Well, your mother is here again, oh, the real mother..."

Ning Bai didn't raise his eyes, "No see."

Xue Ze is going crazy, is he easy? Help Ning Bai drive his mother out every day! He felt that his hands were stained with sinful blood! He can't hold on anymore!

Xue Ze is about to cry. "Or you should tell her clearly. Auntie waits every day. Now many people are asking me what's going on. I can't keep it anymore. You don't want others to mention you in the future. A ruthless bastard who doesn’t even care about her mother, right? Of course I know you don’t care about fame or anything, but maybe you change someone to send her next time..."

Seeing that Ning Bai was still indifferent, Xue Ze said long-windedly, "Please go and see, she looks like she won't stop seeing you, you won't be able to solve the problem by avoiding you like this!"

Ning Bai paused with the pen hand.

After a long time, he stood up and said, "Okay, I'll go see her."

Feng Wan has come to Ning Bai’s company and waited every day recently. She didn’t dare to break in directly. She was afraid that that would make Ning Bai even more angry, so she thought that with her patience, one day she might impress Ning Bai and make him willing. Come out to see myself...

There were people coming and going, and occasionally someone looked at her curiously, but she didn't care.

She just wanted to see Ning Bai.

Suddenly, a person appeared in front of her.

Feng Wan looked up and saw Ning Bai's face with a look of surprise, "Xiaobai, you are finally willing to see me."

Ning Bai looked at the woman deeply, the corners of her lips were indifferent, you are still the same as before, always doing what you want to do with wishful thinking, never knowing that you should let go decisively when you should let go, otherwise it's just for each other It's nothing more than harm.

Being attached to someone again and again is not worthy of your giving and continuing to love.

But turn a blind eye to the people you should care about.

His eyes were ridiculing, but his tone was faint "It's not convenient to talk here, so let's go to your house and talk."

Feng Wan stood up suddenly and said incoherently excitedly, "Are you willing to go home with your mother?"

Ning Bai did not deny, he just turned and walked out.

Feng Wan was talking to him all the way, but Ning Bai didn't respond to a single word. He just thought absently, what the boy's place would be like, he suddenly wanted to see with his own eyes...

Over the past two decades, the Lu family moved several times and came to this city. Naturally, it was not the home Ning Bai remembered.

Ning Bai didn't want to go back to the house with this woman, but this was Lu Xiaodong's house.

He suddenly wanted to take a look.

Feng Wan knew nothing, and led him upstairs with enthusiasm. As he walked, he said, "I have cleaned up a room for you. See if there is anything you need to add. Your dad and I will buy it for you. From now on, our family will be together in harmony..."

Ning Bai said, "Which room belongs to Lu Xiaodong?"

Feng Wan was reluctant to mention Lu Xiaodong in front of Ning Bai. She probably felt that she had another son, just like a betrayal to Ning Bai. She said silently, "At the time, your dad felt sorry for me and had to bring a child back. Keep...this room belongs to him..."

Ning Bai walked into the room.

The room was simple and clean. Although it was a little childish, it didn't look dirty and messy, and it was a bit unexpected.

He turned to Feng Wan and said, "I want to be alone for a while."

Feng Wan didn't want to leave, but she met Ning Bai's indifferent eyes, her throat suddenly stagnated, and she nodded and left.

Ning Bai flicked his fingers across the desk. The books on the desk were neatly laid out, but because there was no one living, there was a light layer of gray on the desk. A photo of the family was placed on the desk. The boy in the photo The smile is brilliant, the man and woman behind him are gentle, they look like a beautiful family, but maybe, it's just a deliberate illusion, a photo does not represent anything...

The bed sheets are simple gray grids and the walls are white without excessive embellishment. This house is completely different from the first impression Lu Xiaodong gave him.

Lu Xiaodong, who appeared in front of him at that time, was dyed with gray hair, studded with smoky makeup, and looked frivolous and wanton, like a street gangster, but this room is just an ordinary college student. s room.

Looking at this, can see what the boy really looks like when he is at home...

It seems that all the past violations have been explained.

Rebellion is the protective color he uses to disguise, but only in his own small space is himself.

So when he no longer wears that outfit, he will feel clean and refreshing. Even if it is a little cunning and bad, he will confront him and provoke him, but it is also unpleasant, because he is not that way... To deliberately act as if you want to be hated, you can only lie to him.

Ning Bai glanced across the bedside table, and suddenly saw a gap in the drawer, probably because he was in a hurry and hadn't closed it properly.

He subconsciously walked over, opened it, and found a book with a black cover.

Ning Bai took out the notebook.

Then with a wry smile, does this kid still have the habit of writing a diary? It's more sensitive than he thought...

This is something that Ning Bai didn't intend to read, but he hesitated for a while holding the notebook, and finally got the upper hand when he wanted to understand the boy.

A trace of struggle appeared in Ning Bai's eyes, and he opened his book.

"My mother asked me to learn piano. Actually, I don't like it very much, but if I can make my mother happy, I will study hard."

"Today I learned a new piece of music. I want to play it for my mother, but after she listened to it, she was very upset and said that I was not good at playing and it was useless... But Mingming still praised me for how well I played, why did my mother not like it? What..."

"I didn't perform well in the exam today. It was worse than the last time. I knew I was going to disappoint my parents again."

"It's probably because I'm not smart enough or capable enough, so I can't do well no matter what, I can't achieve their wishes..."

"Do they really love me?"

"Sometimes, I think it's good for them to scold me, but they always look at me in disappointment. Sometimes I don't know if I let them down, or if they never hoped for me."

"I dyed my hair and pierced my ears again. They finally got angry and scolded me. It turns out that if I make a mistake, they will be angry too. At least they didn't ignore me today."

The look in Ning Bai's eyes became more and more painful, he almost couldn't stand it, but he still turned it over.

"I don't want to work hard, because hard work is never useless, because I was born useless."

"Everyone is born with their own meaning, but what is my meaning?"

"I started to spend money randomly and go out fooling around. I finally have a lot of friends. They will flatter me and we will behave nonsense together. I actually don’t like this, but I seem to have a sense of existence. When I’m with them, I think I am very important."

"But they treat me well, isn't it because I have money?"

"I know that no one loves me, no one likes me, who would like someone like me, it's useless and boring."

"But I don't care, because I already knew it."

"It doesn't matter to be hated... I really don't care at all."

"No one would like a useless person like me."

"I don't need someone to love me."

Ning Bai finally couldn't stand it any longer, and his fingers squeezed the notebook so hard that they turned white, shaking slightly.

He closed his eyes in pain.

The nightmare that was once forgotten by him deliberately swept over again. He swore that he would never be dominated by those nightmares again. He had become strong enough. He let go of the woman's hand and walked into the crowd. He thought it all It has passed.

But it is not.

Even if had predicted and guessed it, when saw this diary with own eyes, realized that reality is always more cruel.

just know how you came here in the past twenty years.

Sorry……

I know now that all your sufferings are related to me.

In a trance, he seemed to have returned to that quiet and gloomy world.

This time he is not alone.

There was a little child, he was ignorant, ignorant, and stood there blankly. He didn't know why he existed or why he appeared there. He just looked at the man and woman in front of him.

He tried hard to be loved by the so-called parents, exhausted his little power, and wanted to work hard to do better, but no matter how hard he tried, he could not be recognized, because in the eyes of men and women, he would always Not as good as yourself.

Always, what is lost is the best.

And he is just an unpopular substitute.

But the boy didn't know.

He thought that he was just not good enough, that he was just not good enough, he began to hate himself, and finally became what he hated.

He is used to the disappointed look of men and women, and the indifference of men and women.

He tried his best to get attention...

But in the end it always fails.

Every time get up after a fall, will only fall harder and worse.

He finally gave up.

He thought it was all his fault, he was useless, he didn't care about being hated...

No need to be loved.

Because he is not worthy of being loved.

He gradually accepted this fact.

In fact, it is not like this. Ning Bai slowly opened his eyes, a hint of bitterness appeared in his eyes, and his fingers flicked across the diary.

not like this.

You are good, you are a good child... None of this is your fault.

What is wrong is someone who doesn't know how to love you.

they.

And I.