Chapter 64: The Cannon Fodder in the Blood of Giant Dogs

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date="2020-12-30"

title="Chapter 64: The Cannon Fodder in the Blood of Giant Dogs "

weight="115553"

series = ["Did The Affectionate Love Interest Collapse Today?"]

mode = "manual"

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Ning Bai looked at the boy in pain, and the boy seemed a little lost.

Ning Bai took a deep breath. He stepped forward, gently hugging the boy in his arms, and muttered, "I'm sorry, it's all my fault..."

He has no way to excuse.

He shouldn't see it.

Lin Ziran was silent for a moment, and pushed him abruptly, giving him a bitter look!

Go back to the room and slam the door!

Lin Ziran leaned back against the door, his eyes changed, he exhaled, and think about it carefully. After reading the diary, it makes sense for Ning Bai to worry that Lu Xiaodong can't think about it... Now think about Lu Xiaodong in the original plot, he pursued After Ning Bai's failure, he was interrupted and sent abroad. He was abandoned by his beloved parents. Perhaps it was because of the despair of losing everything that he died after being addicted to drugs.

Lu Xiaodong may really have committed suicide.

Ning Bai is so smart. He must be upset when he saw the diary, so he kept on guarding himself. This also explains why he didn't come before, but came later. That was the time when he found the diary.

Ning Bai's anomaly can basically be explained.

It's just such a shame...

Even if he is not real Lu Xiaodong, it is a bit uncomfortable to be read in the diary...

Lin Ziran's expression was a bit awkward.

Then he sighed.

Lin Ziran said, I suddenly remembered something, your game is very meticulously designed, and the handwriting on this book is the same as mine. The first world is also. Lu Zhen's handwriting is used in all places where there is Lu Zhen's handwriting. Otherwise, when he signed the handwriting when he was the president, it would be revealing.

The system is proud of all the relevant text props of the role played by the player are generated by extracting the player’s own handwriting. We are committed to providing the player with the most realistic game experience.

Lin Ziran was really thoughtful.

………………

At night, Ning Bai came over and knocked on the door and said cautiously, "Xiaodong, come out for dinner."

Lin Ziran wouldn't have trouble getting along with the meal, so he opened the door and walked out.

Ning Bai's expression was a little nervous, for fear of irritating Lin Ziran, he didn't say a word for a meal.

Lin Ziran poked the dishes in the bowl. In fact, at this point, he doesn't hate Ning Bai anymore. After all, Ning Bai was just playing tricks on himself at the beginning, or he voluntarily delivered it to the door, and now he has doubled his revenge. ...

It can be considered even.

He looked up at Ning Bai, Ning Bai's expression was silent, and there were two band-aids on his forehead...Lin Ziran was really embarrassed to lose his temper again.

He just looks like, who knows that this guy will not hide!

Ning Bai didn't have to be so good to himself, he was probably wrong with a little conscience, which was different from his scumbag.

After all, he is not the culprit of Lu Xiaodong's tragedy.

He is even a victim in the original plot.

He didn't need to compensate himself.

Must say what he did wrong... About when he said that he liked him chasing him, he ruthlessly played with himself? Have you slept yourself three times?

Cough cough cough.

But anyway, reading the diary is really crazy!

Lin Ziran bowed his head to eat.

Ning Bai raised his eyes slightly and glanced at the boy in front of him, his thin lips pressed tightly, and he was very regretful. He finally made the boy cheerful again and stopped thinking about the past, but he fell short because of his carelessness. .

It's all his fault...

Suddenly there was a knock on the door.

Ning Bai got up and walked over to open the door. When he saw Lu Maofeng at the door, his face changed slightly and his voice was low and said, "What are you doing here?"

Lu Maofeng looked at Ning Bai's cold and unwelcome expression, his expression was a little nervous. For some reason he was a little afraid of this son, so Ning Bai drove people away. He quickly said, "I'm here to find Xiaodong."

Ning Bai looked colder, "He is not here."

Said it was about to close.

At this time, Lin Ziran heard the sound and walked over and said lightly, "Who asked you to make the decision for me?"

Ning Bai's face paled.

Lu Maofeng finally saw Lin Ziran. He rubbed his hands, his chubby face showed a flattering look, and said, "Xiaodong, your mother is sick and wants to see you."

Lin Ziran raised an eyebrow, isn't it, what kind of bloody plot is this? I'm afraid it's not a lie! Feng Wan couldn't even want to see himself even if he was really sick.

All she wanted to see was Ning Bai.

Lu Maofeng saw Lin Ziran’s suspicion, and said sincerely, “It’s true, she really wants to see you, you... I know you blame us, but after all, it’s been so many years of feelings, go see her Okay?"

Ning Baihan said, "I'll do it." He wanted to see what Feng Wan's trick was.

Lu Maofeng is very embarrassed. "But it's Xiaodong that she wants to see, but if you don't worry about Ning Bai, you can come together..."

Lin Ziran pondered for a moment, then raised his mouth and smiled "I'm going."

Are you willing to visit her in the system?

Of course Lin Ziran, now the winner is me. She might be asking for mercy. Why would I dare not meet her?

system……

Lin Ziran today is the day when my Lu Xiaodong is proud!

When Lu Maofeng heard that Lin Ziran was willing to go, he was very happy, and repeatedly said, "Daddy knows that your child is still kind."

Lin Ziran sneered at him back.

Ning Bai was a little uneasy in his heart. He wanted to stop it, but this was the boy's decision. He couldn't overstep it, or perhaps he was still thinking of Feng Wan...

He was silent for a moment and said, "I will go with you."

………………

The three came to the hospital.

Feng Wan was really ill and was hospitalized. She has been in poor health over the years, and she has some nervous breakdown. She accidentally fell while cooking the other day. Lin Ziran didn’t see her in a few days. She looks thinner than before. ...

When Feng Wan saw Lin Ziran coming, his expression became a little excited. He stretched out a thin hand to grab his hand and said hoarsely, "Sorry, my mother was dizzy before. It was all mother's fault. Those were just angry words. Don’t take it to your heart... Actually, mom cares about you. You are a good boy of mom. No matter what you do, mom will not blame you..."

Lin Ziran looked at her mockingly.

Feng Wan's voice was intermittent, her eyes begging, she used to look at him with only indifference, ignorance, boredom, impatience... This is the first time she begged someone she didn't care about in such a humble manner. Feng Wan choked and said, " Xiaodong...For the sake of these twenty years, whether you and your mother go home well, your mother will treat you well..."

Feng Wan paused, a hint of hope flashed in his eyes, and he said carefully and nervously, "Also, you, it doesn't matter who you want to be with. It doesn't matter even Ning Bai. Mom won't be blamed for this. Yours, you are all mom’s good children..."

Lin Ziran heard this, why didn't he understand Feng Wan's thoughts? She is subdued to herself.

In order to make Ning Bai willing to go home, he did not hesitate to pretend to love him very much, and even no longer object to her being with Ning Bai. It stands to reason that Feng Wan bowed his head to beg him. It should be a very happy thing, but he found that it was nothing more than that. Right...

Because even if she compromised and surrendered, it was for Ning Bai after all.

Not for Lu Xiaodong.

Lin Ziran was suddenly not very angry, but in fact, this woman is also very sad, isn't she? Even if she hurts others, she has never been happy. There will be no good results in harming others and herself, but it is a pity... Lu Xiaodong has no right to choose.

Lin Ziran lowered his head, his eyes seemed to be smiling, and he approached her and said to her, "Who said that you forgive me?"

Lu Xiaodong never needed Feng Wan's forgiveness.

Feng Wan's face was pale, and she trembled slightly with anger, as if she couldn't believe that this was what the child said. She had clearly put down her figure. Why, he still didn't want to come back? Doesn't he care about her the most?

Lin Ziran looked at her disappointedly, this woman would never understand where she was wrong.

He turned around and left.

Ning Bai immediately followed out. They came outside. Ning Bai grabbed Lin Ziran's wrist and looked worried, and said, "I said I don't need to come here..."

Feng Wan's attempt was so obvious.

Lin Ziran must have seen it too.

Lin Ziran looked at his worried eyes, shrugged, and smiled freely, "I'm fine."

He looked calm and calm.

Originally it wasn't about his business. The reason why he came today was just to give Lu Xiaodong an explanation.

Ning Bai looked at Lin Ziran's eyes. At this moment, he felt that the boy had really let go and really didn't care about it, but he was afraid that he was wrong...

Lin Ziran suddenly looked at Ning Bai curiously and said, "Why don't you want to go home?"

He wanted to understand the other things, but he couldn't figure it out all the time. Although Feng Wan was not very good to Lu Xiaodong, her love for Ning Bai was beyond doubt.

But Ning Bai was willing to hurt her for herself.

Ning Bai saw Lin Ziran’s doubts, his lips moved slightly, and there were some things that could not be explained in a few words, and he didn’t want the boy to worry. He said seriously and slowly, "I said, I don’t have anything to do with you if I don’t go back, you just need to know this. That's it."

Lin Ziran saw that this guy didn't want to say, then forget it, he won't force it.

After all, who has no secrets?

………………

For Ning Bai's sincere attitude, Lin Ziran didn't bother to toss him. Besides, what would he toss about when he was leaving?

He is not so boring yet.

And tearing down the house is quite tiring...

After dinner that day, Ning Bai looked at Lin Ziran tenderly, and said, "You are about to start school. How about I rent a house near the school? This way you can go to school more conveniently."

Lin Ziran absent-mindedly "whatever."

Ning Bai said again, "I will add some more clothes when the time comes. I don’t care if I don’t have the clothes before. What do you like? I will accompany you to buy them, OK...

By the way, if you don’t like the car, how about I buy you a new one? "

Lin Ziran "..."

He saw that Ning Bai was so serious about his after school, and he thought about everything about food, clothing, housing, and transportation. Suddenly he was a little embarrassed to tell him the truth. He couldn't tell Ning Bai that he didn't plan to go to school at all, right?

At this time Xue Ze came over.

Lin Ziran breathed a sigh of relief.

Xue Ze looked at Ning Bai and Lin Ziran, and said with a smile, "Oh, your young couple are so sweet, Xiaodong, don't worry, Ning Bai is different from me, he will never betray you with his love!"

Ning Bai said solemnly, "Don't talk nonsense, he and I are not in that kind of relationship."

Lin Ziran sullenly said nothing.

Xue Ze immediately pulled his mouth to indicate that he would not talk nonsense again, but he still couldn't help looking at the two of them.

In the evening the three of them had dinner together, and Xue Ze grievedly said to Ning Bai, "You can always come back to work now, right? You can't leave everything to me anymore!"

Ning Bai hesitated for a moment.

Lin Ziran immediately said, "Go to work, I'm fine."

Although Ning Bai was a little uneasy, he thought that Lin Ziran was indeed okay, and he had been following him, maybe he would be unpleasant, he nodded after a moment of thought, and said, "Okay, I'll go back tomorrow."

………………

The next day, when Lin Ziran got up, Ning Bai was already out, and he was rarely the only one in the house.

He yawned and found that Ning Bai had already cooked him breakfast. It would be nice to heat it in the microwave. There was also a note on the refrigerator. It was Ning Bai's neat and powerful font. Waiting for me to cook at night. Don’t order takeaway. Up.

Lin Ziran rubbed his eyes and ate the meal without washing his face.

He played games at home until five o'clock in the afternoon.

It suddenly rained heavily outside.

The raindrops crackled on the window, and Lin Ziran was silent for a moment, opened the drawer of the study, and found out the Lamborghini key that he disliked.

Lin Ziran drove aimlessly.

The rain is very heavy, even if the wiper wipes quickly, but the front line of sight is still a bit blurred, and the whole world looks gray.

What are you going to do with the system?

Lin Ziran was silent for a moment, I can't really wait until school starts...

System... This player is absolutely absent for not attending class.

Seeing that the car was on a bridge.

Lin Ziran stepped on the accelerator, and suddenly the steering wheel bends, and the car hit the guardrail directly and fell off the bridge.

At this time, the phone happened to light up. Lin Ziran looked down. It was the text message from Ning Bai that was stuck in traffic. I will come back a little later.

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Ning Bai hasn't returned to the office for a long time. After a lot of work, he was delayed for a while. He sent a text message to Lin Ziran, and then continued to drive. When he got home, it was already 6:30, but to his surprise, the lights at home were dim. There was no voice at all.

Ning Bai opened every room without seeing Lu Xiaodong's shadow, and then he started to call Lu Xiaodong, but the phone was always turned off and couldn't get through... Ning Bai's uneasiness in his heart grew uneasy. , He carefully checked every corner of the house, and then found that the car key in the drawer was missing.

Lu Xiaodong didn't like to help him buy the car back, so he never touched it. Why did he suddenly think of driving out today?

Ning Bai called his friend immediately, asked the traffic police to help check the whereabouts of the Lamborghini, and then waited anxiously.

He waited for more than an hour and got a reply soon, but his friend hesitated and refused to say it.

Ning Bai's expression changed suddenly, and he said sharply, "What the hell is going on!"

My friend said, "I'll send you an address, and you come here now."

Ning Bai rushed out without hitting the umbrella. He went crazy and drove out. He didn't even care about running the red light. He soon came to the bridge that broke the guardrail, under the bridge is the rolling river. , The surroundings are all surrounded, and there are several police cars parked beside...

Ning Bai walked forward and walked to the smashed gap, looking at the muddy river under the bridge, but he couldn't see clearly, he couldn't see what was inside...so he wanted to get closer. Look at it again, but suddenly he was dragged back tightly!

The policeman said, "What are you doing? You can't go there, it's dangerous over there!"

Ning Bai's Adam's apple rolled, his voice was astringent, as if word by word was squeezed out of his chest. He said, "What about people?"

The police said, "The search and rescue team has already recovered."

Then Ning Bai stopped talking. He stood there waiting, letting the rain drip on his face, motionless, and after several hours, the car was finally salvaged.

Ning Bai fixedly looked ahead, this time he finally saw clearly...

The boy is inside, he is still wearing a seat belt, but he won't move anymore...

Ning Bai walked over in a daze. He thought it was an illusion. He had imagined that there was no one in the car, but now he could not deceive himself anymore. He stretched out his hand to hug the boy, but was pulled by the police and asked, "You Who is the deceased?"

Ning Bai lowered his eyes and said softly, "I am his brother, with a gentle, as if afraid of disturbing someone."

The police looked at him like this, sighed, and stopped blocking.

Ning Bai carefully carried the boy out of the car, and pulled the wet hair on his forehead to one side, revealing the boy's delicate and quiet face, but it was a little white from the blisters and looked a little embarrassed... Arm, hugged him tightly in my arms, as if I wanted to use my body to warm the cold body of the other party...

"Did you deliberately? Or... was this just an accident?" Ning Bai asked in a low voice.

But the other party will never reply to him again.

He is so quiet.

Will not be angry, will not be noisy, will not play temper, will not provoke him...

will never say that like him anymore.

Ning Bai saw that he did not answer, and sadly asked, "Did you deliberately..."

Because you are blaming me, blaming me for not understanding you earlier, blaming me for not falling in love with you earlier, blaming me for not grabbing your hand earlier...

When you stand on the edge of the cliff and moths approach me like a fire, I don’t understand your despair and helplessness, but push you away again and again...

Or, if I can be really brave, walk out of the past earlier, and use another me to welcome you...

None of this will happen.

I had a chance to fall in love with you earlier and bring you out of that home earlier...

But I'm just a coward.

I can't even save myself, so how can I save you?

in fact……

I am the most useless person.

………………

A few days later, Ning Bai personally took care of the funeral.

Jiang Xuan rushed over when he heard the news, and he was unbelievable about the result. It was obvious that the boy was fine not long ago, so why did he suddenly disappear?

what happened?

Jiang Xuan grabbed Ning Bai by the collar, his eyes were red, and said angrily, "Why didn't you take care of him!"

Ning Bai didn't move, but looked at him coldly, his thin lips slightly opened, and he made a mocking voice, "I want to ask you, are you satisfied with the result?"

What do you mean?

Jiang Xuan met Ning Bai's eyes, his face suddenly paled when he realized something, he let go of his hand sullenly, and took a step back.

Yes, what right does he have to blame Ning Bai? He personally exposed Lu Xiaodong’s identity, because he thought that he could get this person, but he killed him personally. At that time, he never thought that the boy would really choose to go to ruin...

This is his fault.

His fault.

At this time Lu Maofeng and Feng Wan also came.

Lu Maofeng seemed a little sad, he helped Feng Wan walk over, and said in a low voice, "Sorrow and change."

Ning Bai suddenly felt very ironic.

He is your son. You have raised him for 20 years. Shouldn't others tell you this sorrow and change?

Lu Maofeng was very embarrassed to see that no one was paying attention to him. Then he saw Jiang Xuan and immediately pleased him and said, "Mr. Jiang, you are here too."

Jiang Xuan did not speak, but looked at him coldly.

This line of sight made Lu Maofeng very uncomfortable. He felt like a light on his back. Did he or himself offend Jiang Xuan?

Feng Wan pushed away Lu Maofeng's hand, she staggered and walked over, looked at the tombstone in front, a smile appeared deep in her eyes, but she quickly covered it, and then she seemed to be very sad and said to Ning Bai " How could this be? How could something happen to Xiaodong? He..."

Ning Bai looked at her indifferently, as if he didn't want to say anything at all, only spit out two words "accident."

Feng Wan looked at him with tears and said, "Xiaobai, don't be too sad...otherwise, mom will worry about you. Mom no longer has a son and can't live without you."

Ning Bai just stared at her, but the blood on her body slowly cooled down. All this made him feel so ridiculous...

He suddenly stepped forward and chuckled in Feng Wan's ear, "No, you no longer have a son."

Feng Wan listened to his cold and playful tone, his expression frozen, and he said in a daze, "You, aren't you still here..."

Ning Bai seemed to be laughing, but there was no warmth in the laughter, only a bone-chilling chill. He said, "There is one thing, I never told you-it was not you who lost me back then, but I let go. It's me-I don't want you anymore.

Your son died twenty years ago. "

Feng Wan's pupils contracted suddenly, looked at him in disbelief, and looked at the cold and merciless face of the man in front of him. His lips trembled. "No, it's not like this. How could you not want your mother? It can't be like this..."

Ning Bai smiled lightly and looked at her deeply, "This is a fact, why do you just refuse to recognize it?"

Feng Wan looked at him stubbornly, and suddenly there was a deep hatred in his eyes, and he shouted sharply, "How can you do this! Mom loves you so much, and Mom gave everything for you, how can you treat me like this! You devil, You are not my son! You are not my son! You are just a demon in his skin!"

A twisted smile appeared on Feng Wan’s face, and she rushed out frantically. She laughed as she ran, “I don’t have a son, all my sons are dead! All are dead! I don’t have a son, I don’t have a son... "

Ning Bai looked at Feng Wan's back, but his expression remained indifferent, as if he was looking at an insignificant person.

Lu Maofeng looked at this scene, his face turned pale in shock and his body was stiff, and his gaze at Ning Bai was even a little scared...

Feng Wan was crazy.

He felt that he might not have come today, and moved back quietly. The scene here made him very disturbed. Suddenly his shoulder was held down. Jiang Xuan looked at him with a dark and cold gaze, and the corner of his mouth twitched, "Let’s talk. ."

Lu Maofeng "..."

It was quiet around.

Ning Bai looked at the tombstone in front of him intently, stroked it lightly, and looked at the smiling face of the boy above it, as if all his goodness had been frozen at this moment.

Me, Jiang Xuan, Lu Maofeng and Feng Wan.

Each of us is a murderer.

Sorry.

Even though I said so much about them, what I hate the most is not them... but myself.

Hate my inability.

Hate my cowardice and incompetence.

Ning Bai closed his eyes, and what appeared in front of him was the scene when the boy met him for the first time. He wore a bleak and curious makeup, but his smile was bright and tight. His eyes were shiny, and he smiled and said to him. "Handsome man, shall I buy you a drink?"

The words that were once frivolous have now become his luxury.

If I can go back in time, I want to stay with you from that moment and do everything to love you.

………………

Three months later.

Xue Ze looked at Ning Bai, who was focused on work, and said anxiously, "Or, if you go out for a holiday, you don't have to be anxious about work."

Ning Bai raised his eyes to look at him, and said lightly, "Don't you always say that I leave you busy alone, and I am ruthless and unreasonable to make trouble?"

Xue Ze "..."

He wanted to say something, but in the end he just sighed. If he had known today, it would be better not to be tempted.

Love really hurts.

Xue Ze turned and left.

Ning Bai did not work overtime today. He made an appointment with a psychologist.

Came to the clinic on time at 8pm.

The doctor looked at him and smiled, "Are you better lately?"

Ning Bai's voice is hoarse, "Still like that."

The doctor said, "What does it look like?"

Ning Bai's affection was a little dazed, he seemed to think of something, and slowly opened his eyes empty.

"There is a dark room with me and a child in it.

We are trapped there.

He called my brother and said he was afraid of him.

It's dark here.

I said don't be afraid, I'll take you out.

I knocked hard, but couldn't find the door.

I will pull him.

He suddenly stopped moving.

He said, brother, you can't save me.

You can't even save yourself.

It turns out that he has been there for a long, long time...

But I don’t know.

I do not know. "

When Ning Bai said this, he paused, then slowly said, "Then he died."

The doctor asked gently, "Is still unable to sleep?"

Ning Bai nodded.

The doctor asked him some more questions, told him some explanations, and finally said, "Let me prescribe some medicine for you."

Ning Bai left from there.

The doctor sighed. He rarely saw such a patient. No matter how many times he came, he didn't get any better, or he didn't want to come out. Maybe... he just came to prescribe the medicine?

………………

Ning Bai returned home.

The house was messy, just like when the boy was still alive. He pulled off his tie at will, threw his jacket on the sofa, and put his slippers on his feet.

It doesn’t need to be cleaned up, so it’s as if he is still there.

Ning Bai was lying on the bed, he took the medicine and closed his eyes.

Since that day, he can only fall asleep with sleeping pills.

But with the passage of time, the effect of the medicine seems to be getting worse and worse. don’t know what to do today. Even after taking more doses, still can’t fall asleep. He is so muddled, all kinds of messy thoughts in his mind, he can’t breathe. Angry.

He opened his eyes suddenly, struggling to reach for the medicine, but he didn't touch it for a while, instead he touched the diary.

He kept this book by his pillow.

This was the only thing the boy left him, but he never had the courage to open it again.

He is still so cowardly.

All this is like a nightmare, endless loop, no relief.

Never get out.

Ning Bai clenched the diary firmly, he laughed miserably, and finally opened it again. He felt like a zombie, gradually unable to distinguish between reality and illusion. Maybe only pain can let him know that he is still real. Is alive, even if the bloody wound is opened again...

But he wanted to feel the meaning of existence.

Familiar words and sentences appeared in front of him, and Ning Bai watched slowly page after page, as if using a knife, slowly cutting down on the skin and bones, but he suddenly enjoyed this feeling because he Feeling close to the boy.

It's near as if it's within reach.

Being close is like being by his side.

From early morning to dawn, the faint morning light leaked in through the gaps in the curtains.

Ning Bai finally turned to the last page and gave a sudden pause.

I don’t have to worry about me when I went to another world.

Ning Bai's hand trembled slightly, stroking that sentence lightly.

Turns out, you are such a fool...

You are afraid that I am worried about you...

You are so good, but why...

Never knew it was better for yourself?

Ning Bai raised his hand to cover his eyes. For a long time, a tear was left between his fingers.

But you are so stupid, how can I,

Don't worry?