Chapter 59: Cannon Fodder in the Blood of Giant Dogs

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date="2020-12-30"

title="Chapter 59: Cannon Fodder in the Blood of Giant Dogs "

weight="115548"

series = ["Did The Affectionate Love Interest Collapse Today?"]

mode = "manual"

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Feng Wan waited outside the door, feeling uneasy. She didn't know what Ning Bai thought of Lu Xiaodong, why should he care about Lu Xiaodong's affairs... Did he know Lu Xiaodong before? Otherwise, why should you blame her for Lu Xiaodong?

No, it won't... What reason does Ning Bai have because Lu Xiaodong blames her?

The two of them have nothing to do with each other.

The reason why Ning Bai was so indifferent to herself must be to blame her for losing him back then. Lu Xiaodong was just an excuse.

At that time, she was still young, less than thirty years old. She regarded love more than anything else. She regarded Ning Bai as her sustenance. She tried every means to restore her love and her family.

It's a pity that she used the wrong way, so she lost her child.

This is a punishment for her.

Lu Maofeng didn't dare to divorce her. In order to please her, he took a child back to raise her, but this was not what she wanted.

No one can replace her Xiaobai.

Xiaobai is her only child.

Lu Xiaodong was nothing but Lu Maofeng hugged her to coax her, did that man think he would forget his fault in this way? She will never forget it!

Feng Wan knew that she had neglected Lu Xiaodong, but she did not feel that she was sorry for the child.

She gave him food, clothes and money, and gave him the best things.

And she didn't ask him anything... This child is not as good-looking as Xiaobai, not as smart as Xiaobai, not as sensible as Xiaobai, and can't keep track of words, he can't even compare to a toe of Xiaobai.

But I didn't ask him how good he is?

Without them, maybe the child is still in the orphanage and has a worse life.

She thinks she has done her best to Lu Xiaodongren.

There is nothing to say, but the kid doesn't know what's good or bad and doesn't learn well by himself.

Feng Wan never takes Lu Xiaodong to heart. She has missed her only son Ning Bai for more than 20 years. Now she has finally found him.

But Ning Bai refused to forgive her.

Feng Wan looked anxious.

Just then, the door of the room opened.

The man stood there with an indifferent expression, his pale amber eyes looked at her, and his calm expression seemed to contain deep disappointment, as well as hatred for himself or her.

Feng Wan suddenly felt a little uneasy, always feeling that something was wrong. She hurried forward and smiled, "Xiaobai, are you staying at home tonight?"

Ning Bai didn't take anything, only Lu Xiaodong's diary. He held the diary in his hand and looked down at Feng Wan lightly, "I won't be back again."

There is no longer anything he misses.

Feng Wan was shocked. She looked pale at Ning Bai and begged "Why? Mom really loves you, can't you give mom a chance?"

Ning Bai looked at her, his chest was cold, he didn't even want to say a word to her, but in the end he slowly said "Do you really love me?"

Is it me that you love, or the child who can meet all your expectations and sustenance?

But when I let go of your hand, I already gave up on you.

What you really should love is the child who still has expectations of you and expects your love.

Ning Bai's thin lips were pressed tightly, but in the end he didn't say a word.

Because people who don’t understand, it’s meaningless to say more.

I will make up for your mistakes, but not because I forgave you...just because I love him.

Ning Bai turned around and left.

Feng Wan was anxious, she choked and chased after her, "Xiaobai, mom really loves you, where are you going? Mom always loves you..."

But Ning Bai's footsteps were steady and strong, and he never looked back from start to finish.

Feng Wan looked at the back of Ning Bai leaving, his face was full of despair and helplessness, as if he had gone back twenty years ago. The child accidentally separated from her and was submerged in the crowd. No matter how he called, he Never responded to myself.

He is getting farther and farther away from himself...

This walk is twenty years.

In the past twenty years, I have been regretting it all the time. I regret that I didn’t hold the child well at that time. I was worried that he was dead, that he would suffer, and that he would have a bad life without him, because no one would love him more than himself. Him...

But why is he not willing to come back when he finally meets again now?

why?

Feng Wan cried and said, "Xiaobai, mom didn't mean to lose you. Mom loves you very much. Do you believe in your mother?"

Ning Bai finally looked back at her, and the corners of her lips sneered. You still don't know that you didn't lose me at all, but I left by myself.

But he did not say.

Because he will never come back here again.

Ning Bai got into the car, closed the door in front of Feng Wan, and started the car to leave. He put the diary in the position of the co-pilot.

The black notebook lay there quietly.

Ning Bai glanced at the diary, his lips pursed pale, and his face was cold. At this moment, his eyes showed deep worry.

He was afraid that Lu Xiaodong could not think about it.

The matter was more serious than he thought.

Ning Bai held the steering wheel tightly with his fingers, and called Xue Ze with the other hand, and said in a deep voice, "Check for me, where is Lu Xiaodong now?"

………………

Lin Ziran had a hot pot meal outside by himself. When he swiped the card, he saw the balance in the card, and finally showed a slightly worried expression.

He is running out of money!

During this period of time, was so happy. lived in a luxury suite in a five-star hotel and ate all kinds of luxurious feasts... Splurge in the game without thinking about saving at all, so he was almost out of money. .

After all, it’s the money in the game. It doesn’t feel like it’s spent on it. It’s like spending game coins...

One hundred thousand is almost gone in a blink of an eye.

Then he remembered that he had spent hundreds of thousands on buying clothes in order to pursue Ning Bai. At that time, his mind was really flooded to buy so many clothes. He knew that the task would not be possible, so it was better to keep the money and feel good! Who is going to spend it on that damn fussy ghost!

Investment loss.

Lin Ziran wished to sell his clothes back to Ning Bai again, but thinking that he couldn't do such a shameless thing, he could shame, but he still had to give Lu Xiaodong some face...

Lin Ziran system, I'm running out of money, what should I do 5555

The system will go back to your cheap parents?

Lin Ziran, I have starved to death outside in my life, and I will never take them again!

System in this life?

Lin Ziran these few days...

Lin Ziran touched his chin, the money was almost gone, and he estimated that he wouldn't be able to stay in this world long.

After all, he is playing games, to enjoy life, not to endure hardship.

Lin Ziran drove back to the hotel, thinking about the balance on the card, this five-star hotel can't stay...

Suddenly, his inspiration flashed, but he could actually live in a dormitory!

Lu Xiaodong used to fool around all day, so he didn't live in a dormitory, but the location of the dormitory was still there. Lin Ziran did as soon as he thought of it. He immediately left the hotel suite and drove to Lu Xiaodong's school.

He is a student, and there is nothing wrong with the dormitory, but he feels very kind.

This is a good university in this city, and the environment is also very good. Although Lu Xiaodong is not as smart and capable as Ning Bai, he is not mentally retarded. On the contrary, he worked very hard. Can live a good life, after all, the Lu family really did not treat him badly in terms of money.

He was just wrong, expecting people who would never love him to love him.

To hurt yourself for those who don't love him.

Lin Ziran came to Lu Xiaodong’s dormitory based on the system's information. He had never lived in, so he didn't even have the key to the dormitory, which made it very embarrassing to stand at the door. Fortunately, he waited for the roommate in the same dormitory...

The roommate did not expect to meet him here, and was very curious. "Xiaodong, why are you here? Is there anything wrong?"

Lin Ziran scratched his head, "I think school is about to start, and I plan to live on campus this year."

The roommate was very surprised. He didn’t know Lu Xiaodong very well. He felt that he was a very rebellious second-generation ancestor. However, in general, college students were still pure and enthusiastic, and didn’t think much about it. He smiled happily, "It’s also good if you are willing to live on campus. Ah, don’t you have the key? I’ll give you one later, let’s go in first."

The roommate is called Xia Hang, with a warm and cheerful personality, and is also Lu Xiaodong's monitor. During the summer vacation, he worked and studied nearby, so he stayed at the school and did not go back. Now there is still a period of time before the official school starts, and the other roommates have not returned. It was quite surprised to see Lu Xiaodong suddenly come to the school.

After all, Lu Xiaodong is the kind of person who won't come to the dormitory after school.

Lin Ziran followed Xia Hang into the dormitory, glanced around, and quickly discovered where his bed was.

Xia Hang saw a rare blush on his face and said embarrassedly, "I'll help you clean up."

Because Lu Xiaodong doesn't live in school all year round, his bed is piled up with other students, pots and pans, quilts and everything.

Lin Ziran doesn't mind at all, it's normal!

He had a good impression of this monitor. He was a naive and cute college student. Lin Ziran got along very easily and happily. Compared with a boss like Jiang Xuan and a control freak like Ning Bai, college students of the same age are so cute!

He suddenly felt that this world is so kind!

Lu Xiaodong, this kid is really true. He doesn't know how to take a good life. He has to fight with the scum, scum, and mother, and waste his life...

If there is such a person, Lin Ziran must beat him on the head to wake him up.

But when I turned to think about it, Lin Ziran sighed again. He also stood still and couldn't speak. From the perspective of Lu Xiaodong, his parents who desperately loved him, how could he just let it go? He is not qualified to blame Lu Xiaodong.

Everyone has his own life, and has something he insists on.

How can you feel the pain of the other party without being in it?

Others have no right to speak.

The two made the bed together. In order to express their gratitude, Lin Ziran invited Xia Hang out for dinner. Xia Hang was a very warm and familiar person. Although he was not familiar with Lu Xiaodong before, they had a meal. I'm very familiar.

Xia Hang looked at Lin Ziran and wondered. He felt that Classmate Lu was actually very cheerful and had a very good personality. Why did he make himself that non-mainstream look before? I thought at first that he would be that kind of social man...

However, classmate Lu has changed his previous mistakes now. Not only does his dressing become normal, he also doesn't mix with the bastards in the society. Xia Hang is still very happy for him, and they will become good friends in the dormitory in the future!

Lin Ziran lived here for a few days and quickly adapted to it.

He originally lived on campus in real life. Lu Xiaodong’s dormitory is in good condition and has air-conditioning. Lin Ziran is not uncomfortable living at all, but feels much more kind, so why did he bother to live in the first place? At home...

Looking at the cold face of scum daddy and scum mom every day.

He should have moved out as soon as the plot collapsed!

I was still too hard to let go before, so I held myself back.

Lin Ziran was lying on the bed and suddenly had an idea.

His money is running out, but he actually has one asset brought out! money is not a problem!

Lin Ziran immediately got up from the bed and rushed out.

What's wrong with the system?

Lin Ziran, I know how to get the money!

He rushed to the dormitory downstairs and looked at the fluorescent green Lamborghini disgustingly. Lu Xiaodong's aesthetics didn't know who was biased by someone, and he even saw this color car!

Shiny enough, bright enough for blind eyes.

He used to drive a car like this for eyeballs, but now he lives on campus, and the students need to look like students. What kind of Lamborghini? Or the fluorescent green Lamborghini?

Not lucky at first sight!

So it's green, right?

Lin Ziran immediately called the seller of the second-hand car, because his asking price was not high, and the other party drove the car out for an assessment. The next day, he quickly called Lin Ziran 200,000.

Looking at the two hundred thousand and feeling that the money came so easily, Lin Ziran's mood was beautiful again.

He can continue to hi.

What kind of Lamborghini, is he not good to share bicycles? Enough for school use! Health and environmental protection can also exercise!

Under the tree-lined avenues of the school, the air was fresh and the breeze was blowing. Just after eating, Lin Ziran rode his bike across the path and returned to the downstairs of his dormitory. He unexpectedly met Ning Bai's eyes.

Lin Ziran "..."

Is this guy trying to scare him to death? Why come to his school?

The evil spirits retreat!

Lin Ziran locked the bicycle blankly, and walked up as if he couldn't see Ning Bai.

Ning Bai has been waiting here for a long time.

His eyes fell on the boy's face.

On the boy's clean and beautiful face, there are small beads of sweat on his forehead, and he is wearing a simple white T-shirt, just like an ordinary student. By the way, even the shiny earrings are gone.

It looks good, but Ning Bai knows that this is just appearance.

He looked at the yellow bicycle.

Pain appeared under the eyes.

Has this child been reduced to this point, dormitory, riding a bicycle, his original car... Has it been sold?

He has nothing. Except for a little money, he has never received any care that belongs to him, any love he expected, but now even the only money left is gone?

Ning Bai remembered what he had done.

I didn’t know this kid at all. He didn’t know anything about it. He acted as an executioner, depriving the boy of the original few things, and let him spend money to buy clothes... I asked him to do things for himself, just because of him. If you chase yourself and say you like it, you should trample on this intention as you should.

He never thought that this child might just want someone to love him.

So pretending to be rebellious, wanting to gain attention and presence.

If he was more attentive at that time, and noticed his rebellious appearance and the fragile desire to be loved in his heart earlier, he would definitely be gentler instead of letting his indifference be on his already riddled heart. , Leaving more wounds.

He should have understood earlier...

Ning Bai's heart seemed to be clenched, his chest was slightly up and down, followed by Lin Ziran.

As soon as Lin Ziran went upstairs, he found that Ning Bai had followed, and suddenly felt a toothache.

He didn't understand why Ning Bai came here. When he left Lu's house, he was actually more worried about Jiang Xuan, not very worried about Ning Bai...because Ning Bai was cold by nature and was not the kind of person who would stalk and beat. , If you don't provoke him, he won't provoke you.

It was obvious that he refused last time, so Lin Ziran never thought that Ning Bai would come to him.

This is the dormitory of the school. Lin Ziran saw that there were classmates coming and going next to him. He wanted to show his face, not wanting to be too ugly. In the end, he let Ning Bai enter the dormitory, impatiently saying, "What are you doing here?"

Ning Bai looked at the boy’s cold and alienated face, and there was pain in the depths of his eyes. Even the blood flowing through the heart was cold. These days he has never appeared, constantly restraining himself and preventing himself from appearing in the boy. In front of him, because he knew that the matter was over, any of his actions would not be forgiven and understood.

But he could not continue to stay.

Thinking of the contents of the diary, unprecedented panic flooded his heart. He was afraid that as long as he did not look at the other party in the blink of an eye, the other party would completely disappear from his world.

If something happens to this child because of his negligence, he will never forgive himself.

Ning Bai spoke slowly with complicated eyes and a low voice, "I'm worried about you."

Jiang Xuan said this before, Lin Ziran was almost numb, and he thought that this was really a dog-blood script. No one cared about Lu Xiaodong before, and now I don’t lick you. You all ran to worry about me... …

Sure enough, only those who have lost know how to cherish the unbreakable truth!

Lin Ziran was in a trance.

Lin Ziran, I think now, I am afraid that I am not leaving the script of the protagonist, I am leaving the script of the protagonist!

Don't say the system, it's a bit like...

Lin Ziran is terrible.

Lin Ziran quickly recovered from the associations, his own perception of Ning Bo is actually the same. Although this guy is picky about troublesome things and always calls him, but that is because he was restricted by others before. Those who were sent to ask for themselves were all blamed on Ning Bai for being a bit unfair, and he had saved himself from Jiang Xuan.

For example, he hates military training, school, and exams. He gets up early every day. He will occasionally swear if he loses games. The bosses who work and meet Guimao will swear secretly... but This kind of hate is actually that way. His hatred of Ning Bai is probably at this level. It is funny to say that there is any deep hatred, not to mention that the other party is still a game nc... forget it, and nc is more true. Can't find it for yourself?

But after all, after letting himself run errands for half a month, Lin Ziran didn't like him either.

So strictly speaking, he now feels that he doesn't like or hate passersby to Ning Bai... As long as you don't trouble me, I will treat you as if you don't exist.

But from Lu Xiaodong's perspective, he would not like to see Ning Bai.

Lin Ziran thought about it for a long time, and then read the script again. He felt that Lu Xiaodong didn't really like Ning Bai too much. I am afraid this kid's pursuit of Ning Bai was really a whim! In the original plot, it was said that Lu Xiaodong stalked Ning Bai because of love at first sight, and later tried to drug qj after he failed to pursue his pursuit. He didn't know Ning Bai at all, and because of jealousy, he did not look like real love... …

Lu Xiaodong doesn't understand what love is, and he has never been loved, because his friends circle is not good, so he naturally got some bad habits... His life is actually distorted and sad.

Whenever he meets a good-looking person, he will pursue it. If he can't catch up, he will hate him because of love. If he wants revenge, he will do that. Maybe he just wants to destroy himself.

The consequences are as he wished.

Lu Xiaodong's liking is not a real liking, but a rebellious attempt by him. After all, it is just a child's mischief, and in the end he can't take the scene.

Now that Ning Bai's life experience is revealed, he is even more unlikely to like Ning Bai.

On the contrary, he will hate Ning Bai.

Because this is the person he can't compare to anyway, he is the favorite child of his parents, and what is he? It's nothing.

Ning Bai looked at the boy's changing face.

It was sad for a while, disappointed for a while, sighed for a while, and finally sad.

All this made him very uncomfortable.

Sure enough, although your performance seems indifferent, how can it be indifferent? Sorry, my existence caused you such pain...

Ning Bai's voice was muffled and painful. He looked at Lin Ziran seriously and said, "I want to tell you..."

You are fine, you don’t need to live for anyone, you don’t need to be sad for not meeting their expectations...

You did not miss anything, it was them that was wrong.

But when these words reached his throat, he suddenly couldn't speak anymore, because he shouldn't have known them. The boy used this appearance to disguise himself, just not wanting to expose his vulnerability to others.

don't want others to look at him with pity.

He wants to protect his dignity.

Ning Bai's Adam's apple rolled, and finally he slowly said, "I won't return home."

Lin Ziran "...?"

So you came to school specifically to tell me this? Do you return home and I have a dime relationship? I don't know how to return home, whoever loves to go to that kind of home, please!

Lin Ziran looked cold and said, "Oh, whatever you want."

Ning Bai looked at him sadly, "Don't you care?"

Lin Ziran "I don't care."

Ning Bai looked at his cold eyes, but his heart tightened again, do you really not care... If you really don’t care why you want to run away from home, why don’t you go back if you don’t have money, why would you rather sell the car? Also live on campus...

Why flee there?

Lin Ziran is impatient. He always sticks around here. It's hard to explain when his classmates come back. Lin Ziran pushed Ning Bai and said coldly, "If you're fine, go."

Ning Bai looked at the alert under the boy's eyes, his face was obviously unwelcome, and his heart was bitter.

Once upon a time, he liked himself so much, always looking forward to him, and would wait for him downstairs every day and night. At that time, he didn't cherish it, but just as a little rogue trick, squandering his enthusiasm. , Now he finally stopped chasing himself...

Ning Bai closed his eyes and said in a dumb voice, "Okay."

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Lin Ziran thought he had dismissed Ning Bai, but a few days later he found out that he was wrong!

For example, when he goes to the dormitory, he will find Ning Bai's car parked downstairs.

I went to bed at night, and when looked down, Ning Bai's car was still down.

Even if Ning Bai is not there for a nap occasionally, and he comes back from a meal, Ning Bai's car is back!

Help! ! !

Although Ning Bai never showed up and didn't bother him, he was almost everywhere. Lin Ziran was horrified when he thought of it. This terrible feeling of being followed no matter where he went...

In other words, why did Ning Bai do this?

Isn't he busy? When I was pursuing him before, it was common for this picky ghost to work overtime until 12 o'clock. It is not an exaggeration to say that it is a matter of time. Why is it okay to follow me at school all day?

He doesn't really like himself, right? Lin Ziran shuddered.

But even if he really likes himself, he doesn't have to do this, right?

A dignified barrister, doing all the things of a stalker.

Did I offend you somewhere?

Lin Ziran fell asleep in the morning. Looking down from the balcony, he saw the familiar black car again. He suddenly felt a toothache, and he finally couldn't bear it! This guy is really annoying!

Lin Ziran ran downstairs and patted the car window hard!

The car window rolled down, revealing the handsome and exquisite face of the man, but compared with the calm and indifferent of the past, he seemed to be a little more tired, and it seemed that he had not rested well during this period.

Ning Bai's eyes were gentle, and his voice was low, "What's the matter?"

Lin Ziran was angry, what are you embarrassed to ask me? Don't you know what you are doing? His voice was cold, his face was unhappy, "Why are you following me! Are you sick?"

Ning Bai pressed his lips, his eyes were bitter.

He didn’t dare to tell the boy, I’m afraid you can’t think of doing stupid things. He can hardly close his eyes these days. As long as he closes his eyes, it’s like going back to the dark past. This time there is a little boy with him. together. The words and sentences in the boy's diary seem to be few words, but they outline the hopelessness of a boy, so clear and vivid, he worked so hard to get the affirmation of his parents, and want to get the love of his parents... But now he even So the last sustenance is gone.

Ning Bai didn't dare to close his eyes or leave. He was afraid that once he left, he would encounter things that he would regret.

Ning Bai pursed her thin lips, and said gently, "I didn't follow you, but just happened to be here."

Lin Ziran smiled angrily, "Do you think I'm a fool?"

Ning Bai looked down, "Of course not."

The appearance of the man made Lin Ziran feel like he was punching the cotton, and people didn’t bother you and didn’t embarrass you. They just parked the car downstairs in your dormitory and appeared where you appeared. You scold him and ask him. He just pretended not to speak.

It's simply not oil and salt!

Lin Ziran kicked Ning Bai's expensive car door fiercely, and threatened fiercely, "Listen to me, don't you understand it? I don't want to see you!"

Ning Bai's sad expression flashed across his eyes, and he whispered, "You can treat me as if you can't see me."

Is this refusing to leave?

Lin Ziran took a deep breath and raised the corners of his mouth sarcastically, "It was you who despised me at the beginning, and now it is you who are chasing me and refuse to leave. Have you been kicked into a silly brain, who will you show you this way? I guess, you want to say you like me again, right?"

Ning Bai said "No."

Lin Ziran was startled, did he finally stop pretending?

Then he saw the man looking at him seriously, his amber eyes seemed to be filled with deep pain and tenderness without words. He said, "I love you."