Chapter 34

On the eve of the operation, Lin Langshan left Lin Jinse alone.

Lin Langshan lives in the VIP ward on the top floor. The environment is quiet and quiet. There are a few white lilies in the vase next to the bedside table, and the elegant fragrance of the flowers permeates the whole room.

Lin Jinse moved a chair and sat beside the hospital bed, facing Lin Langshan.

Lin Langshan was sitting on the hospital bed, his hair was shaved, making his face pale and thin, with sunken eye sockets, he tilted his head to look at the deep night outside the window, feeling a little absent-minded.

"Grandpa, what's the matter? Don't worry, Professor Zhang is Director Jin's teacher. If he goes out, I think the success rate is 10% higher." Lin Jinse got up and helped Lin Langshan pull up the quilt.

Lin Langshan then turned his head, looked at his granddaughter, and said slowly, "Jin'er, have you ever blamed grandpa in your heart?"

Lin Jinse was silent. She really blamed Lin Langshan for why he favored boys over girls. When he was a child, he left everything good to Jinnian, taught him how to write, kissed him on the cheek, and flew with his back.But he never did any of these things for her.She even thought that if he didn't favor boys over girls, she wouldn't have to compete with Jinnian in everything. Mingming Jinnian is so sensible and obedient, and treats her so well, she doesn't take it seriously.He lost his temper... If she could treat Jinnian better and not be so self-willed, Jinnian might not die because of her, or maybe she wouldn't be so guilty that she wanted to die...

Thinking of this, Lin Jinse's eyes were sore and swollen. She turned her head and swallowed back her tears vigorously. She can't cry now, and she can't make grandpa feel bad.

"Jin'er, I'm sorry." Lin Langshan reached out and touched Lin Jinse's head.

Lin Jinse couldn't control her emotions anymore, tears fell down, she hurriedly raised her hand to wipe them off, but she wiped more and more.

"Hey, Jin'er don't cry, don't cry. Grandpa has something to say." Lin Langshan reached out and wiped her tears with the back of his hand.

His hands were bony due to illness, and the veins on the backs of his hands were raised like weather-beaten hills.

Lin Jinse held his hand, took a deep breath, forced her tears back, and raised her head, "Well, Jin'er doesn't cry."

Lin Langshan patted her head again, took a few pieces of paper from the pillow and handed them to her, saying: "Grandpa will tell you a story."

Lin Jinse took the tissue, blew her nose, and recalled the scene when her grandfather told her and Jinnian stories when she was a child.

Every time grandpa hugs Jinnian while she sits beside him.

"My real name is not Lin Langshan." As soon as Lin Langshan started, Lin Jinse was taken aback, raised her head, and looked at him.

"My name is Wanshun. My biological parents wished me all the best, but when I was two or three years old, they passed away one after another." Lin Langshan continued.

"Ah?" Lin Jinse opened her eyes wide, still shocked by Grandpa's opening remarks.

Lin Langshan: "I was born in the countryside. I have three older brothers who are much older than me. When I was born, they all got married. I lived and ate in the homes of my three brothers in turn since I was a child. I grew up to ten years old.I often don’t have enough food to wear and I’m skinny. Sometimes I don’t have a place to live, so I live in the cowshed with the cows... I want to study, but my three older brothers can’t even afford their own children. How can I afford it?I study, not to mention that I am also a labor force at home, if I go to study, there will be one less person who can work."

"But the sound of Lang Lang's reading in the school was really nice, so I took advantage of the opportunity of grazing cattle and sneaked to attend classes. That's how I met your great-grandfather. He was a teacher transferred from the city. He taughtWhat he focuses on is Chinese, and he can also teach singing.”

"You don't go around in the daytime, youth just comes, moss flowers are as small as rice, and they bloom like peonies..." Lin Langshan sang.

Lin Jinse also sang along with him. Lin Langshan taught her and Jinnian this song when they were young.

"This is the first song I learned, your great-grandfather said at that time, this ancient poem tells about the little moss that has no chance to enjoy the sun's love, it also survives tenaciously, grows, and shows vigorous lifeIt is so green, and it even wants to bloom beautiful flowers like the beautiful and beautiful peony. I was so absorbed in listening to it outside the wall that I couldn't help crying."

"That's it, you managed to attract Grandpa's attention, didn't you?" Lin Jinse couldn't help asking, just like when she was a child, she and Jinnian would either ask questions or express emotion when they heard something exciting or touching them in the storyCome up with your own ideas.

"Yes. Your great-grandpa asked me why I was crying, and I said that I would also like to make moss. Your great-grandfather smiled and said, of course, every one of your children can make moss, and one day they will bloom. From then on, I never eavesdropped on, became an auditor. But because the cows were not herded properly, the cows ran into other people’s vegetable fields and trampled the vegetables to a mess. After that, I was deprived of the right to herd cattle and was assigned to do other farm work. I alsoI can no longer go to class.”

"Then what happened next?" Lin Jinse asked.

A smile appeared on Lin Langshan's Qinghuang face, "Later your great-grandfather was going to be transferred back to the city. Before he left, he asked me if he wanted to go with him. From then on, my surname will be Lin, and I will be his eldest son.I went with him and came to his home in the city. He has a five-year-old son named Lin Langyu. Your great-grandfather changed my name to Lin Langshan. Our name comes from Li BaiA poem by him, 'Meeting Pei Shuze, as bright as walking on a jade mountain'."

Lin Jinse was very surprised. She had never heard of her grandfather or father mentioning the matter of her grandfather and younger brother. It seemed that there must be something hidden.

"Langyu and I have a very good relationship. He is five years younger than me. He always likes to follow me, calling my brother, brother... But on the Lantern Festival when he was eight years old, the city held a lantern festival.Your great-grandpa and grandma were not at home that night, and he begged me to take him to play. I took him there, but a stampede happened. I tried my best to protect him, but I still couldn’t protect him...We were sent to the hospital, I came back, but he didn't..."

Lin Langshan was in tears as he spoke.

Lin Jinse grasped his hand tightly and shed tears as well, trying to hold back the tears. Lin Langshan's heart is not good, so she can't be so emotional. She coaxed him like a child: "Grandpa, you still say I'm crying!"Nose, why did you cry? It’s too bad, it brought out the tears I had so hard to withdraw. Really.”

Lin Langshan raised his hand to wipe away his tears, then patted Lin Jinse's hand, "Okay, grandpa will stop crying, neither of us is allowed to cry."

Lin Jinse smiled and said yes, and quickly took some tissues and handed them to Lin Langshan.

After a while, Lin Langshan calmed down, and he continued: "Jin'er, your younger brother looks a lot like Lang Yu, he really does. So I can't keep my eyes off him unconsciously, and I can't bear to see him."Love him so much."

Lin Jinse was stunned. She never thought that there was another reason for Lin Langshan's patriarchy. Her heart once again felt strong remorse. She hated why she was not gentle with Jinnian when she was a child, and why she always wanted to be cruel to him..

"Of course, maybe I'm also a bit patriarchal in my bones, because I can't let the Lin family die. After Lang Yu left, although your great-grandfather and great-grandmother were sad, they never blamed me. On the contrary, they treated me better than before., but the more they behave like this, the more guilty I feel. I really wish they beat me and scolded me, and treated me badly, so I can feel better."

Lin Jinse understands this feeling. After Jinnian left, her parents didn't say anything serious about her, instead they always took care of her emotions. She actually would rather her parents scold her and beat her, maybe she would feel better.

Lin Jinse also understood at this moment, the reason why Lin Langshan was obsessed with her future child, if it was a boy, the surname must be Lin.

"Jin'er, well, I've finished what Grandpa should say. You know Grandpa's character, pedantic and upright, and you have been wronged all these years." Lin Langshan said, his eyes were a little cloudy but still clear.Mercy also has remorse.

"Grandpa, I really blamed you, and I blamed you for keeping these things in your heart and telling me now. So you must be strong, and nothing will happen, and you must make up for me in the future." Lin Jinse said.

Lin Langshan nodded with a smile, and said everything that should be said. Even if there is any accident in the operation tomorrow, he can go away with peace of mind, "Okay, grandpa promises you that he will make up for you in the future. Go back and rest, todayLet your Aunt Deng stay with you tonight."

Lin Jinse knew that he might have something to say to Deng Qiu, even though she didn't want to leave, she had to leave, she couldn't be so selfish, and didn't even give Deng Qiu this little time.

"Okay. You lie down first and have a good rest." Lin Jinse helped Lin Langshan lie down, tucked up the quilt for him, then turned off the light in the ward, went to the next room to talk to Deng Qiu, and then left.

Lin Jinse opened the door, and when she looked up, she saw a man sitting on the sofa in the opposite book bar.

He is wearing a white shirt, black suit pants, and a pair of gold-rimmed glasses on the bridge of his nose. He is sitting casually with his legs crossed. His shirt cuffs are rolled up, revealing his strong and beautiful forearms. He is holding a book in his hand and is bowing his head to focuslooking at.

He doesn't look like an athlete at all, but he looks like a yuppie nobleman in a TV series, but he actually is.

Diagonally 20 to 30 meters away from the book bar is the nurse's station, and several young female nurses glance at Jian Yishi from time to time.

Lin Jinse couldn't help but stand still and look at him for a while longer, and when she came to her senses, she couldn't help cursing in her heart: What a disaster.

Lin Jinse walked towards Jian Yishi and walked in front of him. Jian Yishi took off her glasses and slowly raised her head.

"Why are you still here?" Lin Jinse asked.

Jianyi stood up, put the glasses into the breast pocket of her shirt, and reached out to hold her hand naturally, "I'm waiting for you."

Lin Jinse was slightly dazed, she was always waiting for Song Qiaoyan in the past.Unexpectedly, there are people waiting for her silently now.

"What's the matter?" Seeing that she looked a bit disappointed, Jian Yi asked, squeezing her hand a little harder.

Lin Jinse shook her head, "It's nothing. Thank you."

"Thank you for what?" Jane asked again.

"Thank you for waiting for me." Lin Jinse raised her head slightly and smiled at him, her eyes were bent, like crescent moons in the sky, which made people feel attracted.

Jianyi's breathing was slightly stagnant, and she held her hand tightly.This time he will never let go!