Chapter 61 End of Text

When Lin Jinse opened her eyes, she saw a white ceiling and smelled disinfectant.

She slowly rolled her eyes, looked around, and found that she was in a hospital ward, a spacious single room.

She faintly heard the sound of arguing outside the door, and there was a sound she was very familiar with, it was Jian Yishi's voice.

Lin Jinse got up and got out of bed, dragged her weak legs, walked slowly to the door, and opened it.

"Get lost, what right do you have to stay here!" Jian Yishi grabbed Qi Xingye's collar, her eyes were about to burst into flames.

Qi Xingye, however, let Jian Yishi tug at his collar, indifferent, without arguing or arguing.

"What are you doing?" Lin Jinse said, her voice was light and ethereal, but it was very clear in the silent night.

When Jian Yi heard the voice, she turned her head and saw that Lin Jinse had woken up. She immediately let go of Qi Xingye's collar, and at the same time gave him a hard push.

Qi Xingye staggered back two steps.

Jian Yishi quickly walked up to Lin Jinse, picked her up without saying a word, walked into the ward, and closed the door with her feet.

Qi Xingye caught up and stood at the door. He grabbed the doorknob with his hand, hesitated for a while, and put it down. He looked at the situation inside through the glass window, and looked at Lin Jinse.As long as she wakes up, she'll be fine.

Jane held Lin Jinse in her arms, and gently put her on the bed, her tone was a little cold, "The doctor said, you need to stay in bed now."

Listening to his voice and feeling his body temperature, Lin Jinse couldn't help but feel a pain in her heart, her nose was sore, she asked tremblingly, "Is the child gone?"

Jian Yishi was silent for a while, and then said "um", he lowered his head, covering the pain and injury in his eyes.

Although Lin Jinse was already mentally prepared for this, when she really confirmed it, she was still so heartbroken that she couldn't breathe, she leaned back on the bed weakly, turned her face away, and two lines of tears rolled down her cheeks.

Jian Yi raised his eyes to look at her, his heart was very painful, he lost his child in pain, and he also felt distressed, he felt sorry for Lin Jinse, but the pain always prevailed, he said coldly: "The loss of the child is not exactly what you want."

Lin Jinse turned her head and looked at him in disbelief. Her bloodless face turned pale and almost transparent in an instant, her lips trembled, and it took her a long time to speak, "Ah Shi, how could you say that?Yes, I feel bad too, how can you say that..."

Jian Yishi didn't speak, he stood up and walked to the window, looking at the bright lights outside the window, but there was a deep coldness in his eyes.

He had already learned from Qi Xingye that she fell off the mountain with him to save him and hold him back. He wanted to question her why she wanted to pull him even though she knew she was pregnant?Is it more important than children?

And why are they together?Qi Xingye said it was a coincidence, who would believe a fucking coincidence!

There seemed to be a fire burning in Jian Yishi's heart, burning him to the point of pain, but he held back, seeing her weak and sad appearance, he extinguished the fire in his heart.

Lin Jinse looked at his back standing in front of the window, stiff and indifferent, she felt a chill rising from the bottom of her heart, spreading to all her limbs, she couldn't help shrinking her legs, hugging her knees, tears streaming down uncontrollably.

When Jian Yi heard the movement, he turned around and saw Lin Jinse hugging his knees and weeping softly, his heart suddenly twisted into a ball.

Just as he was about to walk over to hug her, there was a knock on the door.

A middle-aged female doctor in a white coat opened the door and walked in.

Seeing Lin Jinse's tears streaming down his face, the doctor comforted him, "I read your previous test report, and the HCG is not very good, and the fetus is not stable. Even if you don't fall, you may have to save the baby later. ButFrom our point of view, survival of the fittest is the law of nature, you are still young, take a good rest, and your children will definitely come back to you."

Lin Jinse hurriedly wiped away her tears and thanked the doctor.

"Lie down quickly, don't sit still, you need rest most at this time." The doctor said again.

Lin Jinse lay down obediently.

Jane asked: "Doctor, what else should my wife pay attention to?"

"When your wife was sent to the hospital, I had already cleaned her uterus. I will prescribe some medicine for her to drain the blood later, and she can go home tomorrow to recuperate. Be careful not to catch a cold or get tired.Eat some nourishing food."

"Okay, thank you." After Jian Yishi sent the doctor out, she turned around and walked to the bedside.

Lin Jinse had already laid down with her back to him.

Jian Yishi sat down by the bed, wanted to pick her up and hold her in her arms, but thought of the doctor saying that she should lie down and recuperate, so she gave up.

Lin Jinse was lying on the bed, feeling more and more disappointed in her heart. Now she wished he could hug her and tell her softly, "It's okay, we will have children in the future..."

But he didn't.

When it was still daylight, Lin Jinse vaguely heard someone crying. She opened her eyes and saw Lin Langshan sitting beside the hospital bed, with her head down, wiping her tears.

Lin Jinse was very surprised, she had never seen Lin Langshan so vulnerable, she sat up with her body propped up, and called him: "Grandpa..."

Seeing that Lin Jinse had woken up, Lin Langshan hurriedly turned his head away, raised his hand to wipe away his tears, and turned around after a while.

In the past, if something happened to Jinnian, he would always change from his usual calmness and indifference, and he would be extremely anxious, but it seemed that he never showed a completely different side for him.

But now, Lin Jinse actually saw her grandfather crying because of her. She was flattered and couldn't help teasing: "Grandpa, did you cry just now?"

"Ahem..." Lin Langshan coughed twice, naturally refusing to admit it, "No, sand got into his eyes."

Lin Jinse laughed, there was no wind and no sand in this ward, how could sand get into her eyes, but she didn't refute him, she just smiled slightly, "Oh."

"Xiao Jin, it was Grandpa's fault before, from now on you can live the life you want without thinking about others." Lin Langshan said.

Lin Jinse was even more surprised, what happened to grandpa, he always wanted her to live according to his ideas.

"Xiao Jin, grandpa has figured it out. Grandpa shouldn't impose his wishes on you. Seeing you lying here, grandpa is really scared. He is afraid that you will leave grandpa behind. You have to take good care of yourself, and you will be lessWhen you come to the hospital, you can live the life you want and be happy." Seeing her puzzled and nervous expression, Lin Langshan grabbed her hand and said again with a smile.

Lin Jinse's heart was warm and sour, and her eyes dimmed with tears: "Grandpa, don't you blame me?"

Lin Lang reached out and hugged her into his arms, and his eyes were red, "No wonder, it was all grandpa's fault before, how could grandpa blame you for these accidents, grandpa is confused, please forgive grandpa."

The grievances of so many years broke out in an instant, and Lin Jinse couldn't help but burst into tears. Lin Langshan patted her on the back, "Okay, Xiao Jin stopped crying, it's Grandpa's fault. From now on, you can do whatever you want, you want to be with meIf you don't want to, grandpa will support you, as long as you are happy."

"Early in the morning, why did your grandpa and grandson hold each other and cry?" Deng Qiu pushed the door in and joked when he saw this scene.

Lin Langshan and Lin Jinse let go of each other and smiled at each other. After so many years, the grudge between grandparents and grandchildren finally melted away.

At this time, Yishi also completed the discharge procedures and came back. Seeing that there were still tears on Lin Jinse's face, he couldn't help but quickly walked forward, bent down to wipe away the tears for her, and asked helplessly and nervously, "Why are you crying again?"gone?"

A few days after returning home, Jian Yishi and Lin Jinse slept separately, one on the bed and the other on the sofa.

Jian Yishi has always taken care of Lin Jinse in every possible way, hugging her up and down the stairs, even feeding her food, talking to her with a smile, but Lin Jinse knows that their relationship will never return to the past.

A week later, Jane's vacation was over, and it was time to return to the team.

The night before he left, Jian Yishi didn't sleep on the sofa, he returned to the bed and slept with Lin Jinse in his arms.

"Ashi..." Lin Jinse wanted to talk to him, but Jian Yishi interrupted her, "Sister, go to sleep."

Lin Jinse sighed in her heart and stopped talking, forget it, let's separate for a while, let each other calm down, and think clearly about how to continue in the future.

Jian Yishi was actually very scared in his heart, he was afraid that his sister would not want him.

Yesterday, Jian Yishi took the initiative to find Qi Xingye. He wanted to know what Lin Jinse had said to him that day at the Breeze Pavilion.

Qi Xingye first apologized to him: "I admit that I like my sister, even if I know she is married, I still like her, and even try to find opportunities to get along with her. But my sister really doesn't know what I think, so youCan't blame her."

Jian Yi was so angry that she clenched her fists tightly, her knuckles creaking.

Seeing that Jian Yi was about to get angry, Qi Xingye changed the subject: "Sister said she loves you very much, she does love you very much, and she also knows that you love her very much, but she thinks that the love you gave him is too domineering and selfish, which makes her breathless.But I'm angry. Think about it yourself. If you can't give your sister happiness, I don't mind replacing it."

Jian Yishi snorted coldly: "Let's daydream about the blue sky!"

After Jian Yishi left, Lin Jinse rested for another week before returning to work.

Lin Jinse's return naturally made the two leaders very happy, but they also told her to do what she can and not to be too tired.

She didn't intend to continue to dance the pas de deux with Qi Xingye, but Yang Xue, who replaced her, still couldn't comprehend the essence of this dance, and didn't get along well with Qi Xingye. After careful consideration, the two leaders still let her play.

Jian Yishi is not like before. She videos with her every day, calls her every day, keeps in touch two or three times a week, and chats about each other's work and life.

When she learned that Lin Jinse still wanted to continue dancing that pas de deux, Jian Yishi didn't object, or even had a special reaction, and her tone didn't change, "Well, I see."

Lin Jinse was a little surprised, thinking that he would get angry with her again, but she was not used to it, and asked him, "Are you sure you heard clearly?"

Jian Yishi chuckled, "Sister, I don't have any ear problems, I understand, you can do whatever you want."

On the other end of the phone, Lin Jinse blinked, she didn't expect him to say that, and said softly, "Ah Shi, you seem to have changed a bit recently."

"Did it make you like it more?" Jane asked with a smile.

Lin Jinse didn't speak, she didn't know if he really knew from the bottom of his heart that he was wrong and wanted to change, or if he was just the same as before, just to win her forgiveness.

On the third day after Jian Yishi returned to the team, he received a call from Jiang Zhilan. He wanted to cut it off, but after hesitating for a while, he picked it up again.

Jiang Zhilan didn't expect Jian Yishi to answer her call, she heard his low voice "Hello" from the other end of the phone, she was stunned for a few seconds before she realized it, tremblingly said: "Ah Shi?"

"Hmm." Jianyi replied in a low voice.

"Are you free tonight? I'm in Kyoto, can I meet up?" Jiang Zhilan asked cautiously.

"Okay." Jian Yishi actually readily agreed.

Jiang Zhilan couldn't suppress her joy, her voice became brisk, "Then at the Guiguan Hotel at 7 o'clock tonight, mom will wait for you."

Jianyi let out a "hmm" and hung up the phone.

That night when Jian Yi met Jiang Zhilan, at first Jian Yi always had a cold face, but when Jiang Zhilan asked about Lin Jinse, his expression eased a little, but it revealed a look of distress.

Jiang Zhilan couldn't help but ask, "Are you guys having a conflict?"

Jian Yishi didn't have any close friends of the opposite sex or elders around her, only Sister Wei, but she was busy filming recently, and in the deep mountains and old forests, there was no signal. He contacted her once, but the phone signal was cut off twice, so he just let it go.

Originally, Jane thought that he and Jiang Zhilan would never get in touch with each other forever, but when she called, he suddenly had the urge to talk to her, and wanted to ask her for help.

At this moment when she asked, Jian Yi talked about all the things that happened during this period, and finally said in a very low voice, with a very sad tone: "Sometimes I think, will she be happier if she is not with me?"Some, but I can't let go, I really can't."

When Jiang Zhilan looked at Jian Yi in front of her, she saw him in a trance when she was a child, he was so soft and small when she was hugged in her arms; later on, when he grew up, he was thick-headed, calling her mother for the first timeWhen she first flew towards her, she had that lovely appearance; later she and his father divorced, even though she was very reluctant to let go, but a freer and better life was in front of her eyes, she still resolutely left,Did not look back.

"Xiaoyi." Jiang Zhilan called him by his nickname, which was only her favorite name, and everyone else basically called him Ah Shi, "Let me tell you a story about me and your dad, do you want to hear it?"

Jian Yishi didn't answer, her face was still grim, she picked up the spoon and scooped a bowl of soup for herself, he was about to put it in front of her, but somehow her movements froze, and she actually put it in front of Jiang Zhilan.

Jiang Zhilan was flattered, she said thank you, and then she started talking on her own, knowing that she didn't refuse when she knew Jian Yi, it meant that she acquiesced.

"My marriage with your father is a family marriage, and there is no emotional foundation, but we also had a happy time when we got along slowly, and we used to love each other. But your father's character is very domineering., he doesn't want me to go out to work, he wants me to be a full-time wife at home, which is impossible for me. I like fencing, it has been a part of my life since I was 7 years old, why should he let me give it up, just rely onIs he my husband?"

"You really deserve to be your father's son. Your father has done the same thing." Jiang Zhilan said with a wry smile, "It was also a critical period for my fencing career to rise, but I was pregnant with you, and I also gave up on you.But your father, your grandparents, your grandparents, no one agreed, I finally compromised and gave birth to you. So not long after you were born, I sent you to your grandparents’ house. On the one hand,Because of work, on the one hand, it is also out of resentment towards your father. In this way, I prove to your father that I, Jiang Zhilan, will not be manipulated by anyone, nor will I be tied down by anyone."

Jane lowered her head and drank the soup without saying a word.

"I also admit that I am not a good mother and have not fulfilled my mother's responsibilities. This has been so many years. My mother's only regret is that I shouldn't alienate you and neglect you because of your father. Xiaoyi, I'm sorry." Jiang ZhilanHis eyelashes fluttered slightly, and he said softly.

Jian Yi felt as if a piece of hard and cold iron had sunk in his heart, pinching himself hard, making him extremely uncomfortable. He thought he didn't care about these pasts anymore, but it turned out that these pasts had penetrated deep into his bone marrow.Cold, he looked up at her, and said coldly: "So you shouldn't have given birth to me in the first place."

Jiang Zhilan said anxiously: "Xiaoyi, believe it or not, giving birth to you was my mother's final choice, and my mother has never regretted it."

Jianyi turned her head to look out the window, she remained silent, but her throat was a little blocked.

In the past, he would never have heard her say such meaningless nonsense, but after being with Lin Jinse, he obviously felt that his heart had softened, and he was a little moved because she said "I never regretted giving birth to him"and happy.

"Xiaoyi, my mother told you this not to want you to forgive your mother, but to tell you that it is easy to be in love and difficult to stay together. Love is simple but marriage is not. Although your father and I did not have love at the beginning, we got alongThere was also love, but it was disillusioned in a short time. It was only in the past few years that I figured it out. First of all, my personality and his are too similar. We both have strong personalities and have our own ideas. Secondly, who of usI am also unwilling to change and accommodate each other for the sake of the other party. Marriage is a joint operation that requires tolerance, understanding and accommodation, but neither of us can do it."

"The same is true between you and Jinse. If you really love her and really want to manage a good marriage with her and stay together forever, then you have to understand her, tolerate her, and accommodate her. I believe that if you canWhen the time comes, she will definitely understand you, tolerate you, accommodate you and love you more." Jiang Zhilan said.

It was the late autumn of November again, and there was only more than a month before the Camellia Cup competition in January next year. Lin Jinse and Qi Xingye practiced until late every day. In addition to the duet they collaborated with, they also had a solo dance each.

That night, it was almost ten o'clock after Lin Jinse and Qi Xingye finished their dance practice. Qi Xingye asked her if she wanted to eat supper, Lin Jinse shook her head and said that she was too tired and wanted to go back to rest.

When she reached the sentry box at the gate, the security uncle suddenly stretched out his head and called to her: "Mr. Lin, here is a letter from you."

Lin Jinse walked over suspiciously, there are still people writing letters these days, even writing to her...

The uncle handed the letter to her, Lin Jinse took it, and said "thank you", she looked at the envelope in her hand, the pink blue envelope, dotted with some light green flowers and plants, the color is very gentle, very pleasing to the eye.

On the envelope was written: From Lin Jinse, in a strong and powerful font.

Lin Jinse's heart beat like a drum. With trembling hands, she opened the envelope and took out the letter paper inside.

The letter paper is light blue, and there is an elegant fragrance when it is opened.

"Sister, good morning letter.

Remember today five years ago?I don't know if you remember, but I always will.That day, I saw you for the first time. You came from the rain and fog, wearing a blue dress and a white scarf around your neck. Your dress and scarf were blown slightly by the wind, reflecting your faceAs clear and beautiful as jade snow, since then, your figure has been deeply engraved in my mind.

When I saw you again at home, your brows were frowning slightly, and your clear eyes were quiet and hollow, I couldn't help but wonder why you looked a little sad. At that time, I had an urge to replace youSoothe the sorrow, I want to see your smile, it must be beautiful.My dad said, you will be my sister from now on, and I retorted at that time, what kind of sister are you, because I don't want you to be my sister, I want you to be my lover, who can hug, kiss and make, lovelover.Yes, I've had this thought since the first time I met you.Do you want to scold me at this time, beast? It doesn't matter, you can scold me if you want, I will accept it.

If at the beginning, I fell in love with your skin at first sight, then later, as we got along, I slowly fell into your tenderness like this.Every frown and smile of yours, every turn of your face, every drooping eye, the mole on your neck, your bright eyes when you smile, all affect and pluck my heartstrings, making me sink even deeper.

When I separated from you four years ago, I thought I could forget you, I thought I could do it, but why do you always come to my dream every night, always call my name so softly, in the dreamHow beautiful it is, how lost it is to wake up.I don't know how I got here for such a long time, everything is gray, colorless, and lifeless, I can only fill and numb my heart's longing for you through continuous training, so all I have achievedBrilliant achievements, you are the first hero.

Later we were together again, you don’t know how happy I am every day, how wonderful it is that life has color and vitality again; especially when you came to Paris to find me, I really woke up laughing many times in my sleep.After waking up, I looked at your peaceful sleeping face, and for the first time knew what happiness feels like, as if there was a sail in my heart, and every corner was blown full by the strong wind.

Someone told me that falling in love is easy and getting along is difficult, love is easy and marriage is not easy. This time I left you for a month, I thought a lot, I know that my overbearing and selfishness hurt you, I'm sorry, I really know I was wrong, would you likeforgive me?Sister, you can do whatever you want in the future, and you can be what you want to be. I will never stop you so naively and change you!Sister, let's fall in love again, if you want, come to the Ferris wheel in the playground where we were last time.I'm waiting for you.

love you forever"