Chapter 59

Facing Jian Yishi's icy cold eyes, Lin Jinse was a little flustered, she didn't dare to look directly into his eyes, "Ah Shi, I didn't say no, but you let me think about it, I..."

Jian Yishi interrupted her in a cold voice, with tears in her eyes, "Sister, that's our child, how can you have such an idea, how can you have the idea of not wanting him!"

Lin Jinse didn't know how to answer, her heart was sour, and her eyes were red.

If it was the past, when Jian Yi saw Lin Jinse like this, she would definitely feel distressed and would come to coax her, but this time, he held the steering wheel tightly with both hands, turned his head to look out the window, his chest heaved slightly, he was angry and angrysad.

After a while, Jian Yishi calmed down a little, turned her head, and said calmly: "Sister, are you still worrying about your unit's competition? You always think about others like this, can you think about yourself, think about itMe, think about grandpa. Beating your child will hurt your body a lot, I want our child, grandpa wants to hold a grandson, think about it for yourself, is it important for others, or yourself and your family!"

Lin Jinse listened with her head down, her hands tightly twisted together, and she didn't speak.

"I won't tell grandpa yet, we'll talk about it after you think it over." Jian Yi said again, then started the car and drove back home.

That night, Lin Jinse and Jian Yishi slept with their backs facing each other.

Jian Yishi was so angry that Lin Jinse wanted to kill the child, and even felt that she didn't love him very much, otherwise, how could she be willing to kill their flesh and blood?It was very uncomfortable to be cut by the knife.

Lin Jinse couldn't sleep either, she knew what Jian Yi said was right, she was always used to satisfying other people's wishes, considering other people's moods, and even pleasing others a bit.

To put it nicely, this is kind and considerate, but to put it bluntly, he has a flattering personality.

This is related to her growth. When she was a child, in order to win the attention of her family, she would subconsciously please them, including grandpa, father, and mother.

She always behaves well-behaved and sensible, learns dance from her mother, learns Chinese painting from her grandpa, and in order to please her grandpa, she also learns pipa, calligraphy, harmonica, cooking and so on.

She didn't like some of them, but she forced herself to learn and hypnotized herself in her heart, she would like them after learning, and she would learn better if she liked them.

However, regarding the competition, Lin Jinse not only does not want to live up to the trust and expectations of the leaders, but also wants to prove herself. She has learned dance for many years and has won many awards, but the Camellia Award is held only once every five years. It is the most authoritative dance award in China.For various reasons, she hadn't participated in the award before, and this was her first time participating.

Lin Jinse thought about it for most of the night, and then fell asleep in a daze in the second half of the night, and then had a dream.

In the dream, she was standing in the foggy forest, and she heard the cry of a baby, whimpering like a kitten, very pitiful.

She stumbled around looking for the child, but couldn't find it anywhere, only the low cry came from all directions, which made her nervous and anxious.

After breakfast, Jian Yishi sent Lin Jinse to work as usual.

Along the way, Jian Yishi was silent. Lin Jinse knew that he was still angry, so she took the initiative to talk to him, chatting about the weather and his teammates, but he just answered her perfunctorily.

Jian Yishi was very disappointed. Is this what he wanted to hear? She thought about it all night, but she still hasn't thought about it. She won't really want their child, no, he absolutely disagrees.

When they got to the opposite side of the theater, Lin Jinse didn't get off the car immediately. When she glanced at Jian Yi, she wanted to tell him that she had made a decision and wanted their child, but Jian Yi's indifferent attitude along the way just now made her extremely unhappy.In the end, she opened the door directly and got out of the car without saying a word.

Lin Jinse walked a few steps and felt the sound of hurried footsteps behind her. She paused and was about to look back when she was hugged by Jian Yishi from behind.

"Sister, are you really willing to not have our child?" Jian Yishi hugged her tightly, and touched her abdomen with her hands, her voice was full of grievance and dissatisfaction.

Lin Jinse lowered her head and looked at her abdomen, her eyes were gentle, "Reluctant."

Jian Yi was stunned for a moment before realizing what she meant, and suddenly there was a kind of ecstasy that could see the moon when the clouds opened. He let go of her, pulled her shoulders, turned her body, looked down at her,Still a little unsure, he asked cautiously: "You mean, we won't kill our children."

"Well. I will give birth, our child." Lin Jinse looked up at him, her clear eyes were full of tenderness.

Jian Yishi was so excited and happy that she hugged Lin Jinse's legs and picked her up.

Lin Jinse was startled, and put her hands on his shoulders. This time, she ignored the eyes of the people around her, lowered her head, kissed his lips, and whispered: "Be careful, the doctor said, it's only been more than a month, pay attention to the baby."

Jian Yishi hastily and slowly put her down, held her face, and kissed her several times, "Okay, I will never mess around in the future."

When Lin Jinse arrived at her work unit, she immediately went to the dean's office. She knocked on the door, and when Tang Ning called out, "Please come in," she turned the door open and went in.

Tangning was very happy when she saw that it was Lin Jinse. She got up and pulled her to sit on the sofa, and said excitedly, "I saw your pas de deux that day, and it really surprised me. With your level, it's no problem to win the championship."..."

Listening to Tangning talking about her and Qi Xingye's pas de deux, Lin Jinse felt a little uncomfortable, but she didn't interrupt her, smiling and listening to her finish.

"Dean, I'm sorry." Lin Jinse hurriedly said after Tangning finished speaking.

Tangning was stunned for a moment, and asked with a smile, "How can I say I'm sorry?"

"I, I'm pregnant." Lin Jinse lowered her head and clasped her hands tightly, "I won't be able to participate in next year's competition."

Tangning was stunned for a moment, then reached out to hold her hand, and said with a smile, "Xiao Jin, congratulations! As for the competition, don't worry about it. Of course, the children are more important."

Lin Jinse raised her head and looked at Tangning with red eyes, "Dean, you'd better blame me and scold me. I'll feel better. We obviously took safety measures, but for some reason, we still have them."

Tangning patted her on the shoulder, "Then this is God's will. God's will is hard to do. Of course, I am very sorry, but I absolutely respect your decision. It's just that your pas de deux is very creative. It's a pity not to participate. The dance isYou and Xing Ye co-created it, I have to ask for your opinion, I plan to find someone to replace you, and Xing Ye will go to the competition together, is that okay?"

Lin Jinse nodded quickly: "Of course."

"When the time comes, you still have to help me and give them advice," Tangning said again.

Lin Jinse was very happy, "If there is something I can help, I will do my best."

Tangning comforted her for a while, and she said, "As the dean, of course I have some regrets, but I also fully respect the decisions and choices of the staff; as an elder, I am very happy for you, your choice is right,When I was young, I did a lot of wrong things. I lost my two unborn children to the dance competition and my career. When I became successful in my career and wanted to have another child, I couldn't conceive again., my husband divorced me because of this. Now I look glamorous to outsiders, but in the dead of night, I always think of my two unborn children..."

As Tangning spoke, tears fell without warning. She thought she was relieved, but when she mentioned it, she lost control of her emotions.

Lin Jinse didn't know what to say, she always thought that Tang Ning was a DINKist, so she had such a sad experience, she could only get close to her, took out a tissue and handed it to her, quietly accompanying her.

After Lin Jinse came out from Tangning's place, she went to Secretary Yin, and she was also respected and understood.

She was very fortunate to have met such two good leaders, but at the same time, the feeling of guilt in her heart became more and more intense.

She returned to the dance theater troupe again, and seeing Qi Xingye was still diligently rehearsing the dance, she hesitated at the door for a long time before opening the door and going in.

When Qi Xingye heard the movement, he immediately stopped and turned off the music.

"Sister, why did you come here? Did you have something to do yesterday? Why did you ask for leave?" Qi Xingye pulled a towel to wipe off his sweat, and walked towards her.

Lin Jinse then told about her pregnancy.

Qi Xingye did not approach her again, but stopped two meters away from her.

He picked up the towel and wiped his sweatless forehead again, hiding the sadness and disappointment in his eyes. When he put it down, he bent his lips, "Congratulations, sister."

Lin Jinse didn't notice his strangeness, and smiled slightly, "Thank you, then I'll go back first, I may not come here for a while. Director Tang said, I will find another female dancer to replace me, you guys work hard!"

Lin Jinse chatted with Qi Xingye for a few more words, and then left.

She walked some distance, Qi Xingye suddenly called her, "Sister!"

Lin Jinse stopped and looked back at him. Qi Xingye trotted over. He was holding a paper crane in his hand. It was folded from pink paper, lifelike and delicate.

"Sister, this is for you." Qi Xingye said, looking at her expectantly at the same time.

Lin Jinse took it, held it in her hand, and said to him, "Thank you, the fold is very good."

When she was a child, she also liked origami cranes. She always liked to carry a lot of paper of various colors in her schoolbag. When she was in a bad mood, she would take it out and fold an origami crane.

"Thank you, a sister taught me to fold." Qi Xingye scratched his head and looked at her expectantly.

Lin Jinse nodded and didn't say anything else, when the phone rang, it was from Jian Yishi. She picked up the phone and said helplessly, "Okay, I'll be fine soon, and I'll be out now."

Jian Yishi had already sent several WeChat messages asking her when she would be well before, but she didn't reply him, and now he called to urge her again, it was really too clingy.

"Then I'm leaving, goodbye." Lin Jinse hung up the phone and said to Qi Xingye.

The starlight in Qi Xingye's eyes gradually faded, he waved his hand at her, "Goodbye, sister."

"I wish you happiness." He looked at her back and said softly.

Before Lin Jinse walked out of the theater gate, she saw Jian Yishi leaning on the big tree in front of the theater door, with her hands in her trouser pockets, with a handsome face, pretending to be cool and handsome, attracting the girls passing by himYou have to look at him more.

Seeing Lin Jinse coming out, Jian Yi immediately smiled and strode towards her.

Jianyi took Lin Jinse's small bag and carried it on her shoulder, and it seemed that her satchel was small and pitiful. Lin Jinse smiled and said: "It's not heavy, so I don't need you to carry it."

Jian Yishi insisted, "From now on, you don't have to do any work, don't take anything, leave everything to me."

At this time, he noticed the paper crane in her hand, and reached out to take it, "What kind of bird is this? Did you fold it?"

"The paper crane. I didn't fold it." Lin Jinse took it back from his hand.

Jianyi asked again: "Who gave it to you?"

Lin Jinse was afraid that the paper crane would suffer and that he would go crazy again, so she glanced at him and said with a smile, "It was given by a female colleague."

"real?"

"Of course it's true, whoever folds this thing is a boy."

Jian Yi smiled: "Yes."

After returning home, Jian Yishi told Lin Langshan about Lin Jinse's pregnancy.

Lin Langshan was so happy that he said "that's great" three times in a row, and then began to give various instructions, the most important one being that he can't dance anymore, let him rest at home, and let Jian Yishi take care of her.

After lunch, Lin Jinse began to feel sleepy.

Jian Yishi was afraid that she would be too sleepy and accidentally fall down the stairs, so she just picked her up and went upstairs.

Lin Jinse couldn't laugh or cry, "Why is she so weak, she can't even go upstairs."

She slept all afternoon, and when she woke up, the sky outside the window was already full of red clouds.

Sitting up, Lin Jinse felt that her neck was sticky. She probably sweated a little while sleeping, so she reached under the pillow to get the rubber band stuffed in before going to bed.

When she touched it, she found a condom. It should be that Jian Yi took two from the box the day before yesterday, stuffed it under the pillow, used one, and the other was useless.

Thinking of the night before, Lin Jinse couldn't help but blush. The two of them were crazy that time. He insisted on trying all kinds of weird poses. Fortunately, she is a dancer, and her body is soft enough to withstand him..

She took out the condom and was about to reach out to open the drawer under the bedside table and put it back into the box, but when she touched the condom, she found something strange.

The surface of the plastic bag containing the sleeve is a little uneven, and it feels like a needle has been pierced through small holes.

In an instant, Lin Jinse thought of something, her face turned pale, she lowered her head, carefully identified, and confirmed her conjecture.The condom is indeed poked with many small holes.

Could it be that her pregnancy was not an accident, but Jian Yishi's intention?

Lin Jinse jumped out of bed with bare feet, walked to the dressing table, opened the small drawer under the mirror, and took out a bottle of medicine inside.

The bottle said vitamin C, but she actually replaced the pills with birth control pills.

When she was afraid of Jane, she would think too much, so she took out the contraceptive pills one by one and put them in this small bottle.

Lin Jinse poured the pills in the bottle into the palm of her hand, took a new box of contraceptive pills, and took one out for comparison.

Sure enough, there is a difference, the real contraceptive pill is bigger.

Lin Jinse was so angry that she trembled all over, her heart hurt so badly that she couldn't breathe, how could he do this!

Fortunately, she had heard him say that she was willing to wear a condom, and she didn't want her to take contraceptive pills. She was afraid that the medicine would hurt her body, so she was so moved, she was so moved that she sat on him and had the most in-depth and thorough communion.

It turned out that he hurt her like this. He knew that she would have a competition next year, but now he couldn't and didn't want to get pregnant, yet he still deceived her and forced her like this!