Chapter 60

Big drops of tears poured out, Lin Jinse slumped on the chair weakly, her hands dropped, and the pills in the bottle fell to the ground and rolled all over the floor.

At this moment, Jian Yishi just opened the door and came in, a pill rolled to his feet, he saw the condom on the bed, and the medicine bottle in Lin Jinse's hand, he understood, she knew everything.

Jian Yishi walked in front of Lin Jinse, knelt down, saw her tear-filled face, felt distressed, and reached out to wipe her tears away.

Lin Jinse tilted her head, avoided his hand, and said coldly, "Don't touch me."

Jian Yi was taken aback, he had never seen Lin Jinse look so indifferent and decisive, even five years ago, when he kissed her forcefully, she did not show such an expression.

"Sister, I was wrong. Don't be angry, okay?" Jian Yi directly knelt down, raised her head slightly, tightly grasped Lin Jinse's hand, and begged her carefully in a humble tone.forgive.

Lin Jinse looked at him, tears fell more fiercely, he did this every time, every time he said that he was wrong, he kept saying that he would respect her, and he would not do this again, but every time he would go his own way, disregarding her feelings,She can do whatever she wants, she can't believe him anymore.

Lin Jinse pulled her hand vigorously, but couldn't pull it out, tears kept streaming down the corners of her eyes and cheeks, like water from a tap, and couldn't stop, she stared at him expressionlessly, and said coldly: "Let go."

Jian Yi was inexplicably flustered and let go of her hand.

Lin Jinse raised her hand to wipe her tears, forced herself to hold back her tears, and calmed down, she just looked at the man in front of her quietly.

"Why did you do this?" Lin Jinse asked tremblingly, full of puzzlement and anger.

"I want our baby, you and mine. Sister, don't you want it?"

"Of course I want to, but as I said, now is not the time. I still have tasks assigned by my unit and my own dreams to complete. Why do you want to do this now? Tell me why?" Lin Jinse said.The more angry, the more out of breath.

Jian Yishi was afraid that she would be too excited and not good for the child, so she quickly admitted her mistake and said: "Sister, it was my fault, don't be angry, if you get angry, your body will be bad, and it will not be good for the child."

Lin Jinse became even more angry, and the tears she had just stopped fell again, "You always say that you know you are wrong, and that you will respect me, but you never feel that you are wrong, and you have never respected me at all! YouI don't need to say anything, I know that you are selfish and indifferent, you just don't want to see me practicing pas de deux with Qi Xingye, you don't want to see me cuddling with other men, right? But that's my job, you start by getting to know me, you know that I'm a dancer, what on earth do you want, lock me up at home, and never let me go out to meet people for the rest of my life?"

Jian Yishi was stunned, he didn't know how to answer, what she said was right, he just couldn't stand her dancing pas de deux with Qi Xingye, they were so close, they had a common topic, he was so uncomfortable that he was going crazy.

"Sister, I didn't want you to stay at home. I just didn't want to see you and Qi Xingye dancing pas de deux. I know that those who dance pas de deux are either couples or will become couples in the future, not to mention Qi Xingye's love for youI have other thoughts, how can I bear it. Sister, you always like to think for others, but have you considered my feelings? "

Lin Jinse was really mad at him. What kind of fallacy is he talking about? In this way, he still doesn't know his fault at all, and he still thinks he is very reasonable. She was so angry that she couldn't speak. She turned her head and said coldly: "You go, I don't want to see you, think about it for yourself, is there anything wrong with you, and what is wrong with you, or don't come to me."

Jian Yishi got up and wanted to hug her, but Lin Jinse pushed him hard, crying and shouting: "Jian Yishi, don't touch me, as I said, I don't want to see you now."

Jian Yishi was pushed back a step, he looked down at her, tears kept pouring out of her eyes, her lips were tightly pressed, revealing a stubbornness and determination, her chest heaved violently, as if she was about to be out of breathgenerally.

He didn't dare to act recklessly, so he had no choice but to say: "Okay, I'm going out now, don't get excited."

After finishing speaking, Jane Yishi went out and closed the door gently.

Standing at the door, she hugged her head briefly and squatted down against the wall.

He didn't expect Lin Jinse to have such a violent reaction at all. He thought that she would at most be the same as before, hit him twice, and if he pretended to be pitiful again, she would forgive him and not care about him.

Is he really wrong?

Jian Yishi never felt that he had done anything wrong before, but this time, he was a little confused, did he really do something wrong?

"Ah Shi, what's the matter?" Deng Qiu came up and asked them to go down for dinner, and when he saw Jian Yi, he squatted at the door and asked him.

Jian Yi stood up and called her, "Aunt Deng."

"What happened?" Deng Qiu asked again.

Jian Yishi was very puzzled in his heart, perhaps Deng Qiu could give him a hint, so he said: "Aunt Deng, I have something to ask you, can I come to the study to talk?"

Deng Qiu nodded, "OK."

The two went to the study.

Jian Yishi told the story, and finally asked: "Aunt Deng, do you also think I'm a jerk?"

Deng Qiu stood up immediately, she was always dignified, but this time, she almost couldn't hold back, and wanted to slap the bastard, "Ah Shi, what you did is not only a bastard, but also a real idiot!"Fucking pigs and dogs! Don't blame Auntie Deng for speaking badly. Why do you lie to her and force her like this, and keep saying that you love her, you really love her, you can do this, and you have to do it regardless of her wishes.She will give birth to you now! What you call is not love, but possessiveness. She is a person, a living person, not your private property. If you really love her, you should understand her and respect her, not like thisForcing her! She has learned to dance for so many years, it is a part of her life, her dream, and the connection between her and her mother, you are breaking her wings alive, you, you..."

Deng Qiu scolded his head and covered his face, which blinded Jian Yishi. He didn't know that Deng Qiu, who was usually dignified and quiet, had such eloquence and momentum. At the same time, her words shook his heart. He understood a little.What a bastard thing I really did.

"Come with me, and then apologize to Xiao Jin." Deng Qiu said sharply.

Jian Yishi nodded in agreement, followed Deng Qiu obediently, and came to the door of the bedroom.

Deng Qiu knocked on the door, "Xiao Jin."

There was no movement inside, so Deng Qiu said, "Then I'll come in."

While talking, Deng Qiu turned and opened the door, but Lin Jinse was not seen in the bedroom.

Jian Yi was in a hurry, rushed in, ran to the bathroom to take a look, but didn't see it.

"Maybe I'm going down to eat." Deng Qiu was also a little flustered, but still calm and authentic.

Jianyi hurriedly ran downstairs, saw Lin Langshan sitting on the sofa reading a newspaper, and hurriedly asked: "Grandpa, have you seen Jinse?"

Lin Langshan closed the newspaper and said, "Just now she went out and said that a classmate of hers was in a hurry and asked her to have dinner."

Jian Yishi was in a hurry, "Did she say where to eat?"

"No." Lin Langshan stood up, his expression changed drastically when he saw Jian Yi, and he hurriedly asked, "What happened?"

Jian Yishi didn't have time to answer, so she rushed out the door.

When Lin Jinse really didn't want to see Jian Yi, she was really sad and sad. She loved and hated him at the same time, so she lied to her grandfather and went out.

She didn't bring her mobile phone with her, so she went straight to Huaxi Park near her home. She used to go there when she was in a bad mood.

There is a Goose Mountain in Huaxi Park. It is called Goose Mountain because the shape of the mountain is more like a big white goose. There is a Qingfeng Pavilion on the mountain. Lin Jinse decided to go to the pavilion to watch the sunset.

When she was a child, her parents often took her and Jinlai to climb here. They would compete to see who could reach the top of the mountain first, and she won every time.

Jinnian couldn't beat her when he was young, but since Jinnian was ten years old, he was already a strong young man. He also learned fencing and practiced it every day. It stands to reason that he shouldn't be able to surpass her.

It was also many years later that she realized that Jinnian should let her go.

Lin Jinse cried while climbing the mountain, she missed her parents and Jinnian so much, and missed them so much.

After climbing to the top of the mountain, Lin Jinse went up to the third floor of Qingfeng Pavilion, which is also the highest floor, and looked into the distance.

At this time, the rose-colored haze scattered all over the sky, and a round of red sun was about to set behind the distant mountains. In the twilight brilliance like an oil painting, Lin Jinse held on to the railing and burst into tears.

She was in a bad mood, she didn't know how to continue with Jian Yishi, she couldn't stay with someone who didn't respect her, but she loved him very much.

Hearing the sound of footsteps, Lin Jinse stopped crying, but she went out without bringing anything, and now she has no choice but to find a piece of paper to blow her nose.

A hand was stretched out from the side, and a pack of tissues was lying on it. Lin Jinse was startled, and looked up, but saw Qi Xingye standing in front of her, and she was relieved.

"Thank you." Lin Jinse took a tissue from his hand, turned her back, took out one, blew her nose, and straightened her hair before turning around.

"Why are you here?" Lin Jinse asked.

Qi Xingye didn't answer, but asked, "What's wrong with my sister?"

Lin Jinse couldn't tell him, she shook her head and said softly, "I'm fine."

Qi Xingye suddenly stretched out his hands, grabbed her shoulders, turned her around, faced him, and said anxiously and nervously: "Sister, I heard it from below. You are crying so sadly, why are you all right?"

Lin Jinse pushed his hand away, sat down on the bench beside her, and remained silent. She felt that he was overreaching.

It was only then that Qi Xingye realized his overreaching, sat down beside her, put down the backpack on his back, and took out a piece of blue origami from it.

Flying his fingers, he quickly folded a paper crane and handed it to her, "Sister, let me use this paper crane to exchange something with you."

Lin Jinse stared blankly at Qi Xingye. She felt that this scene seemed familiar, but she couldn't remember it.

"Sister," Qi Xingye grabbed Lin Jinse's hand and put the paper crane on her hand, "Exchange your sadness for me."

Lin Jinse remembered that she and Qi Xingye had known each other for a long time, also in this Breeze Pavilion, he was a little boy fifteen years ago.

"It's you?" Lin Jinse looked at him incredulously, "You've grown so big."

When Lin Jinse was ten years old, she once had a quarrel with Jinnian, and her grandfather criticized her, saying that as an older sister, she shouldn't care about her younger brother. She was so sad that she ran to the Qingfeng Pavilion alone to watch the sunset, and met a little girl here.boy.

The little boy squatted on the bench, hugging his knees and crying sadly.

They are all sad people at the end of the world, why meet each other before.Lin Jinse felt that the two were in the same illness, so she stepped forward and asked him, "Little brother, what's wrong with you?"

Although Qi Xingye was nine years old at that time, he looked as thin as a six or seven-year-old child, with yellow hair.

Xiao Xingye might feel embarrassed, so he stopped his tears and raised his hand to wipe away the dripping snot. Lin Jinse handed him a pack of paper, and he took it and whispered thank you.

Lin Jinse sat down beside him, and took out a few origami sheets of various colors from her backpack. She folded an origami crane and handed it to him, "Little brother, my sister can exchange this origami crane with you for something."

Xiao Xingye looked up at her, but didn't dare to take it, and whispered: "I don't have anything on me."

Lin Jinse took his hand and put the paper crane on his hand, "Of course you have, exchange your sad things with me."

Xiao Xingye accepted the paper crane and told Lin Jinse about his sadness.

A year ago, his parents divorced and he lived with his father, but today his father went on a blind date, and he followed him and hid under the table next to their seats. He heard the woman ask him if he had any children, and if soThere is no need to go on, child.

And he heard with his own ears that his father said he had no children.

The waiter just came over and pulled him out, "Whose child is this, why is he squatting here to play?"

He and his father met each other's eyes, and they were both very panicked. The woman saw something and asked his father, "Is this the child you know?"

His father faltered and couldn't speak, so he called his father, "Uncle," and ran away.

At that time, Lin Jinse thought, this child is too sensible and wronged, in order not to embarrass his father, he actually called his father an uncle.To comfort him, Lin Jinse patted his shoulder tenderly and taught him origami cranes.

The past flooded my mind like a flood.

Lin Jinse's mood improved a lot at this time, and she couldn't help asking: "What happened to you, your father, and that aunt after that?"

"Later my dad confessed to that aunt, and later they got married, and that aunt became my stepmother, she was very kind to me." Qi Xingye said.

Lin Jinse breathed a sigh of relief, with a smile on her face: "Really, that's great."

"How did you recognize me?" Lin Jinse asked again.

Qi Xingye said: "You were wearing a school uniform that day, and it had your name and class on it. It's a pity that after my father and my mother got married, they took me away, otherwise I would definitely come to you again."

"But I remember that Dean Tang said that you came back to Nanxi for your parents."

"When I was in college, they went back to Nanxi. It's hard to leave their homeland, but I still think it's better."

Qi Xingye quickly folded another flower and handed it to Lin Jinse, "Then sister, what about you? Why are you crying here? Are you unhappy?"

Lin Jinse took the flower. She used to treat Qi Xingye only as an ordinary colleague and a dancer whom she admired, but now knowing that the two of them knew each other before, her relationship with him became closer invisibly.Considered him a friend.

Lin Jinse was silent for a long time before saying, "I don't know whether I am happy or unhappy."

"That's unhappiness." Qi Xingye said, "Happy people don't know, sister, did he bully you?"

Lin Jinse answered irrelevantly: "He loves me very much, I know he loves me very much, sometimes I feel very happy, but his love is too domineering and selfish, sometimes it always makes me breathless, I am very tired. II have a career I love, but he doesn't agree with it, he insists on me choosing between my job and his, I feel very uncomfortable..."

She is really tired recently, she is almost exhausted when she comes home after rehearsal every day, but he always has a little temper, and she always caters to him in order to take care of his emotions.Especially on the bed, she was really tired and had no thoughts about that at all, but he felt that she didn't love him. In order to express her love, she had to satisfy him, and even had to be extremely happyOnly by being happy and happy can he calm down his temper.

Of course, she couldn't express her tiredness, she just ambiguously expressed her dissatisfaction with Jian Yishi's domineering and selfishness.

But that's all, Lin Jinse also felt that after speaking out, her heavy and depressed mood was much relieved.

It was getting dark gradually, and the twilight shrouded the small pavilion. Mosquitoes also came out and buzzed in the ears of the two of them.

"It's getting dark, I'll take you back." Qi Xingye said, he was worried that it was getting dark, there were no street lights on both sides of the mountain road, and she was pregnant again, if she fell, it would be dangerous.

Lin Jinse nodded and stood up, she was also a little worried, worried about how anxious and sad she would be when Jian Yi couldn't find her.

The light was dim, and the stairs were a bit steep. Qi Xingye turned around and asked with some anxiety, "Do you want me to pull you?"

Lin Jinse held on to the handrail of the stairs and said, "It's okay, I'll walk with you, walk slowly."

"Yeah." Qi Xingye walked in front, turned on the flashlight of his phone, and turned back to illuminate the path under Lin Jinse's feet.

By the time we reached the middle of the mountain, it was already dark.

Qi Xingye turned his head to help Lin Jinse take care of his feet while walking in front, his attention was on Lin Jinse, afraid that she would miss her step, but he didn't pay attention to his feet, suddenly he stepped on a loose brick, the body fell back uncontrollably.

Lin Jinse hurriedly stretched out her hand to hold him, but she couldn't hold him at all. Instead, she followed him and fell down.

The moment she fell down, Qi Xingye tightly hugged Lin Jinse's waist with one hand, and put one hand on the back of her head to prevent her from hurting her head. The two of them rolled down more than ten steps and stopped when they were blocked by a big tree.

"Sister, are you okay?" Qi Xingye helped Lin Jinse to sit up.

Lin Jinse shook her head, and was about to say she was fine, but suddenly there was a sharp pain in her lower abdomen, the severe pain dragged her consciousness down desperately, she felt something warm flowing out of her body, she finally understood at this moment,She doesn't want to lose their baby.

Lin Jinse was terrified immediately, cold tears poured out of her eyes instantly, she stretched out her hands to cover her belly, trembling her lips, and softly called out "Ah, Shi..."

Then her eyes went black and she passed out.