Chapter 48

The night outside the window is dark and the lights are bright, especially the Eiffel Tower in the distance is lit up again at 0 o'clock on the hour. The warm yellow lights make the whole Paris fall into warmth and romance.

But the room was dim and hazy. Lin Jinse insisted that Jane turn off the light, she was too shy.

But the curtains were not fully drawn, and a bit of moonlight and a few strands of light penetrated through, making the light in the room hazy so that it would not be possible to see things, adding a bit of romance and charm.

There is also the fragrance of jasmine on the bedside table, faint and faint, which seeps into their intertwined breaths, and it is impossible to tell whether the sweetness in their hearts comes from each other or from the fragrance of the flowers.

After it was over, Jian Yishi hugged Lin Jinse and got up, and from the corner of her eye, she inadvertently caught a glimpse of bright red on the white sheet.

He was stunned for a moment. Although he could feel her jerky and uncomfortable during the process, he had already guessed, but now that it was confirmed, he still couldn't help being ecstatic and disbelieving.

After washing each other, Jian Yishi hugged Lin Jinse tightly from behind, and whispered in her ear: "Sister, have you ever done this with Song Qiaoyan?"

Lin Jinse was sore all over, especially her lower body, she was tired and sleepy, closed her eyes, and let out a soft "hmm".

"Why?" Jane asked again.

After all, they have been together for more than four years, and she still seems to like Song Qiaoyan so much.

"I didn't marry him." Lin Jinse replied in a daze.

Jian Yishi hugged her even tighter, "Sister, I'm so happy, you only belong to me."

Jian Yishi has a serious cleanliness obsession. He once said "Never see you again" to her, which was indeed his sincere words.

He felt that he could let go of her, let go of this woman who did not belong to him. Since she liked someone else and would become someone else's woman one day, he felt that it was absolutely impossible for him to like her and love her again.

But in countless dreams, she always appeared in his dreams.

Her every frown and smile, her gentleness like water, her crystal clear tears, and the mole on her neck, are like thousands of threads of love, entwined into his flesh and blood little by little, making him never forget it.

What can do then, he just likes her, but he fell into her hands, so he has no choice but to compromise.

Lin Jinse was so tired and sleepy, she kissed her neck lightly when she felt simple, and whispered: "Sister, I love you, never leave me."

Lin Jinse gave a soft "um" and then gradually fell asleep.

When Lin Jinse woke up, the room was still dark.

She turned over and stretched out her hand to her side, Jian Yishi was not on the bed.

She was flustered for a moment, sat up, her eyesight gradually adapted to the darkness, and she saw a corner of the floor-to-ceiling curtains opened.

Lin Jinse got out of bed, stepped on the ground barefoot, and walked to the French window.

Sure enough, when he saw Jian Yishi standing on the balcony, he was holding on to the railing with one hand, and the other was hanging by his side, with the half-burned cigarette between his index finger and middle finger.

He didn't know what Jane was thinking, he didn't move, the scarlet fireworks were almost burning to his fingers, he didn't even feel it.

Lin Jinse pushed open the floor-to-ceiling windows and made a noise, and she only came to her senses when she thought about it, and hurriedly extinguished the cigarette between her fingers into the ashtray on the side coffee table, and fanned it with her hand, lest the smell of smoke would infect her.

Lin Jinse stretched out her hand, hugged Jian Yishi's waist actively, put her head on his chest, and asked, "Why don't you sleep?"

When Jian Yi saw her bare feet, she immediately picked her up and asked her, "Why don't you wear shoes, what if you catch a cold?"

Lin Jinse raised her head, stretched out her slender fingers, and poked his face, "Don't change the subject."

There was a coffee table and a single sofa on the balcony, and Jane held her and sat down on the sofa.

"I just can't sleep." Jian Yishi said.

Lin Jinse asked, "Why?"

Jian Yi lowered her head and kissed her cheek, and said in a somewhat unscrupulous way, "Because I still want it, and I'm afraid you'll be tired and hurt."

Lin Jinse's snow-white face turned red instantly, she buried her head in his arms, pinched his arm lightly, "You hate it."

Jian Yishi fell in love with her shy appearance so much, she couldn't help it immediately, looked at her dark eyes, hugged her and went back to the bedroom.

Lin Jinse refused at first, but Jian Yishi quickly dragged her into the abyss of losing control without mercy, and he had to give her feedback over and over again.

Lin Jinse was really ashamed and ashamed, she bit her lower lip with her upper teeth, and refused to let herself make a sound, but Jane didn't agree with her wish, first kissed her lips, and then pried open her teeth, those delicate delicateThe soft and moving beautiful notes cannot be hidden deeply.

The two of them were sweating again.

Lin Jinse was so tired that she couldn't move, so she took her to take a bath in Jane's arms.

Before knew it, the sky was getting brighter.

Although Lin Jinse was very tired, it was difficult for her to sleep peacefully when she had something on her mind. She leaned against Jian Yishi's arms and asked him persistently, "Why can't I sleep? Is it because of your mother?"

Jian Yishi was silent, but after a long time Fang gave an "um" and admitted, then he hugged her even more tightly.

Lin Jinse also hugged him vigorously, and said softly: "Ashi, I have always been very grateful to you. Do you know? You were by my side when I was most sad, and when I needed to vent the most,You gave me an outlet to vent. So Ah Shi, when you are sad, I will also be with you. If you want to cry, just hold me and cry, and if you want to talk, just tell me, okay? Don’t hold back in your heart,will get sick."

Jian Yi was stunned for a moment, and suddenly her mood improved a lot. She lowered her head and kissed her forehead, with a smile on her face, "Could it be that my sister also liked me before?"

Lin Jinse also smiled, "I like it, but at that time, I liked you more as my younger brother."

Jian Yi was upset for a while, and deliberately rubbed her sensitive place, "What about now?"

Lin Jinse slapped him angrily, "Don't make trouble."

"Do you like me now?" Jian Yishi saw that she didn't answer, so she stretched her hand under her creaking nest to tickle.

Lin Jinse was the most ticklish, she couldn't breathe from laughing all of a sudden, her cheeks were dizzy, "I like you, I like you, I like you very much."

"Isn't it the liking for my younger brother?" Jian Yishi didn't spare her and continued to scratch her.

Lin Jinse panted while laughing: "No, no, no. It's a woman, and I like men..."

Only then was Jian Yishi satisfied, stopped her hands, hugged her and said, "Sister, as long as you are by my side, I won't be sad."

Lin Jinse was still panting slightly: "Yes. I will be by your side."

The two hugged each other quietly without speaking.

After a long time, Lin Jinse felt a little drowsy, and then she said in a deep voice, "My parents, they are in a business marriage, and they have no relationship foundation. But I can feel that my father still loves my mother very much when I was young.But my mother doesn't love my father that much, she even hates my father, and doesn't even like me."

When Lin Jinse heard him talking about the past, she felt sleepy and ran away. She listened and couldn't help but retort: "How could it be? How can there be a mother who doesn't like her child?"

"I don't know, less than a month after I was born, she returned to the game and left me to the nanny. My grandma was worried, so she took me to her side to take care of me. My grandma told me since I was a child,My mother is not a good mother, she only cares about herself and does not care about her family."

Lin Jinse didn't say anything this time, she disapproved of Jian Yishi's grandma's behavior, but she was an elder after all, so she couldn't speak rudely.

"I grew up a bit, I was three or four years old, and I went to kindergarten. My mother came to pick up other people's children, and my mother would participate in home-school activities, but she was never by my side. On Mother's Day, the teacher asked to draw a portrait of my mother and gave it to my mother as a gift. The other children drew my mother very well, but I drew a monster with a sharp mouth and fangs on the white paper. The other children laughed at me,He said my mother was a monster, and I started fighting with him. Since then, I have been very rebellious, and I will beat anyone who is not pleasing to the eye, and I will beat anyone who dares to look at me more..."

Lin Jinse felt a little uncomfortable. He lacked maternal love too much. On the surface, he acted like he didn't need his mother, but in fact he did.

"Later, when I got a little older, my father finally thought of me as a son. He was afraid that my grandma would spoil me too much and that my education would not keep up, so he took me back to him. My mother was still the same as before, with all her heart.During her fencing career, she was at home for only a quarter of a year. When I was six years old, she took me to her fencing gym, handed me a sword, asked me if I liked fencing, and I directlyThrow away the sword, step on it, and say you don't like it."

Lin Jinse exclaimed, "Why are you doing this?"

Jian Yishi said: "Grandma has always told me that my mother only has fencing in her eyes, no family, no me. I have hated fencing since I was a child..."

Lin Jinse was silent. She had the same situation as him, but she chose to obey, chose to please her mother, and learned dance from her, so as to win more attention and love from her.

But Jian Yishi chose the opposite way to express his dissatisfaction.

"Then what happened later? Has your relationship with your mother always been this bad?" Lin Jinse asked again.

Jian Yishi seemed to be lost in memories, and the corners of her mouth raised slightly unconsciously. It turned out that he and his mother also had good memories, "Later, her hand was injured. When she was recuperating at home, she accompanied me to do my homework and accompany meReading, going to the movies with me, during those six months, I slowly accepted her, and I finally felt like I was a child with a mother."

"After half a year, although she saw many doctors, did a lot of physical therapy, and insisted on rehabilitation exercises, her hands still couldn't return to their original shape, and her career as an athlete ended. She was very depressed, and I stayed with her, that was when our mother-child relationship was the closest."

Lin Jinse was not happy for him for a long time, and Jian Yishi's voice dropped: "But later, she decided to become a fencing coach, and my father firmly opposed it. He hoped that she could return to the family and take care of her husband.Going their own way, the two kept arguing, and the relationship became worse. After another half a year, they divorced."

"After they divorced, didn't you have much contact with your mother?" Lin Jinse asked.

"She called me on my birthday, but I didn't answer it. Later, she stopped calling. She has a new family, so she doesn't think of me." Jian Yishi sneered.

Lin Jinse sighed, not knowing what to say to comfort him, she could only hold him tighter so that he could feel her own warmth.

"Sister, you won't abandon me, will you?" Jian Yishi asked suddenly.

Lin Jinse nodded and said firmly, "No."

Jian Yishi hugged her contentedly, and kissed her again, "I love you."