Chapter 469: Just Want to See Cheng Yunshuo

Chapter 469: Only Wanting to See Cheng Yunshuo

Lady Qin had been selfish.

For the past ten years, she had never mentioned the idea of Lu Lingyun remarrying.

Even though she knew that her son's decision to become a monk had left Lu Lingyun, in the prime of her life, to live as a widow, which was truly their family's fault.

But what's done is done.

She and everyone in the Marquis's Mansion truly couldn't manage without her!

So she allowed herself this one selfish act.

Now, as she was nearing the end of her life, the Marquis's Mansion had also grown prosperous.

She could no longer afford to be selfish.

She looked at Lu Lingyun and smiled, "If you wish to remarry, no one will stop you. The Marquis's Mansion will always be your home."

With trembling hands, she retrieved a letter from under her pillow.

A letter of divorce, granting Lu Lingyun her freedom.

From now on, she could marry freely and seek a new relationship.

Lu Lingyun looked at the yellowed letter of divorce in front of her, realizing it had been kept for many years.

In an instant, she felt her heartstrings deeply tugged.

She had always been cold and indifferent, having lived two lives, yet no one had ever spoken or thought of her in such matters.

Whether she married Li Wenxun or Cheng Yunshuo, no one from the Lu family had ever cared for her or considered her feelings.

No one had ever cared whether she loved her husband or if her husband treated her well.

Perhaps the mother who should have cared for her had been gone from the beginning.

Lu Lingyun took the letter of divorce, and after a moment of silence, she tore it to shreds in front of Lady Qin.

"Mother, I won't go."

Lu Lingyun smiled at Lady Qin.

As moved as she was.

But leaving the Marquis's Mansion? That was out of the question!

This was the foundation she had built over half her life.

Who said a woman must marry, must have a good man to care for her, to have a perfect life?

Lu Lingyun was not that kind of woman!

She had always valued power far more than anything else. The conventional idea of a husband's protection and affection was unnecessary for her.

She never wanted to rely on anyone.

Of course, if the times allowed, she might have more freedom, perhaps keeping a few handsome young men to add a few delicate touches to her rich and splendid life.

The moment Lu Lingyun tore up the divorce letter without hesitation, it made Lady Qin and the surrounding children's eyes light up again.

Cheng Bingan and Cheng Binghao exchanged glances, and they both clenched their fists, feeling that their mother was truly remarkable!

They had witnessed all the hardships of her early life, knowing how difficult it was for Lu Lingyun, a woman who supported the Marquis's Mansion and raised them. Now that their grandmother was willing to grant their mother freedom, allowing her to find love again, but Lu Lingyun still refused.

She must be doing this... for them!

For the entire Marquis's Mansion!

Their mother is truly extraordinary!

In the future, they must be even more filial to Lu Lingyun! Take care of her in her later years!

At this moment, Lady Qin was taken aback for a moment, then looked at the resolute Lu Lingyun before her, and a broader smile slowly spread across her lips, her eyes brimming with love and compassion. "Jun'er, my child, I owe you in this life, and I will repay you in the next."

"Mother, your daughter is doing just fine."

Lu Lingyun said this sincerely.

Though no one present could understand her thoughts.

Everyone believed that men are the pillars of a woman's life, and that a woman's life without a man must be extremely difficult. Even if she endures, she has no one to rely on in her heart, and she still needs to find a place to call home for peace of mind.

But Lu Lingyun's heart has always been at peace.

She doesn't need others to lean on, her life revolves around this Marquis's Mansion, but the Marquis's Mansion is hers, not that she belongs to the Marquis's Mansion.

She relishes every day of being in control.

Seeing Lu Lingyun's so determined eyes, Lady Qin finally, after the initial shock, felt a strength and belief unlike anything she had known.

She looked at Lu Lingyun, whose gaze remained unwavering, for a long time, and suddenly broke into a smile again.

This time she smiled with a sense of peace.

Because it was only at this moment that she realized that the reassuring strength in Lu Lingyun truly stemmed from her inner strength.

She truly doesn't need her to worry.

After understanding this, Lady Qin seemed to let go of an obsession.

Their Ningyang Marquis's Mansion and Lu Lingyun, none of them need her concern anymore.

After letting go of this obsession, the light in Lady Qin's eyes faded by more than half, leaving only a faint candle-like light, flickering, on the verge of extinguishing.

"Grandmother."

"Grandmother."

The children called her.

Lady Qin just felt noisy, she waved her hand at them, weakly saying, "You all go down, I'm fine."

"Grandmother."

Cheng Suying called again.

Lu Lingyun turned to look at them, "You all go down."

Lu Lingyun dismissed them.

All three children looked worried, but at Lu Lingyun's words, they left the room reluctantly.

After they had all gone, Lu Lingyun bent over Lady Qin's bedside and asked softly, "Mother, do you have any unfulfilled wishes?"

Lady Qin, whose breath was faint, lifted her weary eyelids. She no longer had the strength to look at Lu Lingyun, and instead lay back, staring at the carved bed frame above her. "My child, where are you?"

Hearing this, Lu Lingyun gently laid her hand down and covered her with the quilt.

She told the maid to watch over Lady Qin, then turned and left.

Lady Qin's final call for her child was not for Lu Lingyun.

She was calling for Cheng Yunshuo.

"Prepare the carriage; we're going to Guangji Temple," she said to Shuang Hong.

"Yes."

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The carriage arrived at Guangji Temple shortly.

"Where is your abbot?" Lu Lingyun asked as soon as she entered the temple.

"Esteemed benefactor, our abbot Wuxin is on a pilgrimage and has not yet returned. Amitabha."

Five years ago, Master Yuanqing had passed away.

Before his death, he had chosen Cheng Yunshuo as the new abbot of Guangji Temple.

Cheng Yunshuo was quite renowned in the Buddhist community as an enlightened monk.

Hearing this, Lu Lingyun said, "Is there any way you can help me reach him? I have urgent matters to inform him about."

"Amitabha, esteemed benefactor, our abbot's return date and destination are uncertain. It is truly difficult for us to reach him," the young monk replied.

"This is unacceptable! Your abbot's mother is on the verge of death, you must find a way to notify him!" Shuang Hong, hearing this, became anxious.

Her words made the young monk frown. "Esteemed benefactor, as monks, we are detached from worldly affairs. Our abbot has already severed all mortal connections."

"Does severing mortal connections mean not even returning when his own mother is dying?!" Shuang Hong was angry and frustrated.

Ten years ago, Cheng Yunshuo had abandoned his wife and children, giving up everything to become a monk, which had left them dissatisfied.

Now, with his own mother about to pass away, he still wouldn't come back to see her. This was simply heartless!

"Amitabha, esteemed benefactor, we understand your feelings, but we truly have no way to reach the abbot."

"No! You must find a way!" Even the usually calm Shuang Hong was desperate.

After listening, Lu Lingyun simply said, "Forget it, we'll find another way."

Lu Lingyun left Guangji Temple, and Shuang Hong walked dejectedly on the road. "Madam, the old lady is about to pass away, what should we do!"

"I have one more idea," Lu Lingyun frowned. "Quickly send a carrier pigeon to contact Du Ruo."